I know how I promised this chapter would be shorter, but ehm... I failed. ._. I'm sorry! I swear the next one will be short!
Blaine stood by his locker Monday morning, putting his books into it as Sam Evans walked over to him.
„What time is Glee again?" He whispered and put his hands in his pockets. Blaine looked confused at him.
„Eh, it's 3pm."
„Thanks, mate." Sam said and hit him gently on the arm before walking away. Blaine shook his head and closed his locker as he took out some books. He was on his way to Maths as he saw Kurt walking in his elegant and confident way with his books under his arm. He smiled and ran up to him.
„Hey." Kurt quickly turned his head by the sound of Blaine's voice and had a strange worried look in his eyes.
„Hi." He answered and turned his head to avoid eye contact. Blaine looked suspiciously at Kurt and decided not to say more until they reached class.
Kurt walked into Math class and felt his stomach curl up as he saw Sebastian sitting at a desk in the back. They got eye contact for a few seconds before Kurt grabbed Blaine's arm and dragged him over to an available table. „Sit." He said and took a quick look at Sebastian who was smirking at him. He sat down besides Blaine and wasn't sure what to say. They hadn't talked since Saturday morning, because of the Sebastian-incident. Honestly, Kurt had no idea what he would tell Blaine. He didn't know if he was actually going to tell him. Though it wasn't like anything had happened. I mean he tried to kiss me. Kurt thought and nervously looked at Blaine as he realised his lips was moving to what he was thinking. It wasn't like I did anything wrong. He grabbed his notepad and pencil and pretended to take notes as the teacher talked. But then why won't I tell him?
It was almost 3pm when Kurt wandered over to the room Glee club was, and he was actually surprised to see Sam, Mike, Puck, Brittany and especially Santana sitting on the back row staring at all the other members in the front.
„Where's Blaine?" Kurt asked Santana as he sat down besides her. She shrugged and looked at him.
„I don't even know what I'm doing here." She said. Kurt looked around the room and suddenly felt nervous as he realised what two members were missing.
„Sebastian isn't here either." He whispered to himself. „Blaine and Sebastian aren't here." He turned around to face Santana. „What do you think they're doing?"
Blaine was running to Glee club, as he was late, because his geography-teacher wouldn't stop talking to him and some random guy after class about how proud she was over their grades. He was almost by the door when he saw Sebastian sitting leaned up against the wall with closed eyes. I'm gonna regret this Blaine thought and sighed.
„What are you doing? You're late for Glee." Sebastian opened his eyes and looked at Blaine.
„I'm not coming." Sebastian said arrogant and stood up. „It's not like anyone cares anyway." He said and brushed of a bit of dust from his sleeve. Blaine rolled his eyes and sighed loudly.
„Come on. I'm going to sing, and it'd be nice if everyone was there." Blaine said and put out his hand to Sebastian.
„It's incredible how nice you are to me, considering what me and Kurt did." Sebastian said and was about to take Blaine's hand when he pulled it back. Blaine placed his hand on his stomach staring at Sebastian's hand slowly going back too.
„What?" He asked and chortled stiffly.
„What?" Sebastian said and even though his face looked surprised, Blaine knew that evil, sneaky look in his eyes.
„What did you and Kurt do?" Sebastian tried to hide a smirk, as he said: „I would've thought he'd tell you. I mean, you guys seem so happy together. I thought you told each other everything." There was silence in a few seconds before Blaine spoke again.
„What did you do?" He felt his throat getting dry as Sebastian shook his head and smiled softly.
„He just tried to kiss me." He said like it was no big deal. Blaine opened his mouth to say something but closed it again as no sound came out. It felt like his heart dropped and he didn't think it'd ever stop falling. He blinked and took a deep shaky breath.
„That's not true." He said, more to himself than to Sebastian. Sebastian opened his mouth to say something, but Blaine didn't even hear the slightest of it. He fought to regain composure as he noticed Sebastian stopped talking. „It's not true…" He whispered and turned around to walk into Glee club.
„It's true Blaine." Sebastian said to him, low enough that Blaine could barely hear it.
Blaine walked into the Glee club and caught eye contact with his sister before anyone else. He turned his head quickly as he heard Kurt's voice saying his name.
Kurt was talking to Santana as Blaine walked into the room, looking slightly confused.
„Blaine." He said and watched as he turned his head to look at Kurt. The moment they got eye contact Kurt knew something was wrong. His mind instantly went through every thing he'd done wrong in the past, and it stopped as soon as it reached the Saturday with Sebastian. He knows. Kurt thought and felt Blaine's look burning him up from inside. He quickly looked away as Blaine started talking to Mr Schuester.
„Mr Schue, I'm not feeling very well, can I do my song next time instead?"
„But Blaine next time is Monday next week." Rachel quickly stood up and put her hair behind her ear.
„What about Wednesday and Friday?" She said hastily.
„A lot of the teachers are going on courses from Wednesday to Friday, that's why there's no substitute either." Mr Schue said and made a hand movement to Blaine to tell him to sit down. Rachel sat down too and looked more disappointed that any of the others. „So Glee-clubbers!" He said and smacked his hands together. „I can see we've got some new members." Kurt barely noticed what happened next, Santana's sarcastic comment, Puck almost lying down in his chair not to be noticed, Sam and Brittany talking about what they were expecting of Glee Club, and Mike telling them all about his secret dancing skills. Actually Kurt didn't pay attention to anything that happened, and even though he had wanted to see Rachel sing a solo for a while he couldn't find the strength to focus for longer than three seconds while she was singing.
An hour later, everyone left the room, Puck as the first one. Kurt kept an eye on Blaine and felt relieved as he saw he was the last one that was going to leave the room. He walked down to him and opened his mouth as to say something, but quickly stopped as Blaine lifted his head and looked at Kurt like he didn't know what to think.
„Something's wrong?" Kurt accomplished to say, even though he was almost certain of the answer. Blaine slowly tried to smile.
„Depends." He said and looked down in the ground. „Is there something you want to tell me?" Blaine asked and avoided eye contact. Blaine's words went through Kurt's head as he answered.
„I don't kno—" He stopped talking almost as soon as he'd started.
„You could've just told me, Kurt." Blaine said and lifted his head. Kurt didn't know what to do with himself as he saw how dejected Blaine looked.
„To be honest I didn't do anything wrong." Kurt said and continued even though he could see Blaine was about to protest. „I mean, I actually slapped the guy." Blaine wrinkled his eyebrows and looked confused at Kurt.
„What?"
„Yeah. He tried to you know… Kiss me, and I slapped him. You shouldn't be so sad." Kurt said and smiled at Blaine.
„Sebastian told me that you kissed him." Kurt sighed and chuckled quietly.
„No. I mean, almost… But then I hit him and—" he stopped as he saw Blaine's face expression. „What?"
„Almost? How close did you let him get?" Blaine said, half joking. Kurt remembered how close they where to each other, how he had almost felt Sebastian's lips against his own. As Kurt didn't reply Blaine got a more serious look. „How close?"
„Not that close, it was nothing." Kurt said and could hear it didn't sound very convincing.
„You didn't actually kiss, did you?" Blaine asked and pulled back a little.
„No! I swear!" Kurt said and started to feel nervous. „He was close to kissing me, but I pulled away befo—" He stopped as he realised what he had just said. „Blaine I—"
„How close?" Blaine asked again, interrupting what Kurt was about to say. When Kurt didn't answer Blaine scoffed and looked frustrated at Kurt. „I can't believe this."
„Not that close, it was nothing!" Kurt repeated, almost yelling.
„You just said he was close to kissing you." Blaine said delicate and felt like his stomach was curling up into a ball.
„Yes, but—" Kurt closed his eyes and truly wished that he hadn't said that.
„Did you kiss?" Blaine asked calm, like nothing else mattered.
„No." Kurt grabbed Blaine's hands as he could see he didn't believe him. „Honestly. We didn't." Blaine took a deep breath before answering.
„Why didn't you tell me? There must be something I'm not supposed to know." Kurt clenched his eyes as he unwillingly recalled how close he had been to kissing Sebastian.
„I was just afraid you'd make a big deal out of it." He said. „Because it's really not!" Blaine wrenched his hands out of Kurt's, as he kept talking. „Really. It's not. It wasn't like I enjoyed it." It was impossible not to hear the doubt in his voice; he could even hear it himself.
„You enjoyed it?" Blaine said, without really expecting a response. „Kurt just tell me the truth… How close were you to kissing?" Kurt stared at Blaine while considering what to answer. The truth… Kurt thought as he started to talk.
„Not close enough to kiss—"
„How close?" Blaine repeated and felt his eyes starting to sting as he realised the answer on his own.
„Shouldn't the problem be whether we kissed or not? Does it matter how close we got? I told him to leave before anything happened." Kurt said and tried to smile.
„Let me ask you this then. Did you want to kiss him?" Blaine asked.
„No. I didn't." That wasn't the truth though; both Kurt and Blaine knew that.
„I just want the truth, Kurt." Blaine said frustrated and made a crinkled smile, to hide that his eyes was tearing up. Kurt sighed and felt like something was blocking his throat so that he couldn't talk.
„In the moment I… I might have wanted to… Slightly…" Kurt started but stopped as he saw Blaine's eyes starting to glisten because of tears. „But I didn't, Blaine. I didn't." He said and wanted to hug Blaine tight and tell him that he could never do anything like that against him. Instead he just stood there, looking at his boyfriend tearing up, with a look that he had never dreamed of getting from him.
„You know how touchy I am when it gets to Sebastian, I would've never imagined you kissing him. Never." Blaine said, and Kurt felt worse and worse for every second that passed by.
„But I didn't I—" Blaine shook his head as to tell him to stop talking.
„You might not have done it, but you wanted to. We both know it." His voice cracked at the end, and Kurt wished he knew what to say.
„Blaine you're overreacting!" Kurt said upset, and felt his voice getting shaky as the tears started coming. His mind had made up pretty much all the bad situations that could happen, and Kurt wouldn't want any of them to be real.
„I just…" Blaine said and placed his hand on his forehead before running it through his curly hair. „I don't know." Kurt saw his chance and grabbed Blaine's left hand.
„Blaine I would never hurt you. You know that." He said and tried to control his voice. „I love you." Blaine didn't even seem like he noticed what Kurt was saying. „You're overreacting."
„What if it was you?" Blaine said and tried to ignore Kurt holding his hand. „What if I had almost kissed your ex? And then told you afterwards that I actually liked it."
„But we didn't kiss!" Kurt said, practically yelling. „That's the whole point! I might've enjoyed it in the moment, but I would never actually kiss him. Not when I have you." Kurt said and sniffed. „You're the only thing that matters, okay." He noticed he was playing with Blaine's fingers and quickly let go of his hand. „I'm sorry." But I actually didn't do anything wrong. Kurt thought as he met Blaine's look.
„It's okay." Those two words made Kurt feel like he was floating. It wasn't that he was happy, he was just really relieved. „I know I'm overreacting I just… I don't want to lose you. And especially not to Sebastian." Blaine said and sounded hurt.
„You won't ever lose me, Blaine." Kurt said. „No matter what." He ran his fingers up Blaine's arms and when he reached his shoulder he pulled him gently in and hugged him tight while closing his eyes. „I promise." He felt Blaine's arms on his back and smiled as Blaine placed his head on his shoulder.
