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It was useless. I kept on scrambling around. The same places. All the trees looked the same.

My phone barely had any life in it.

Thank god for my watch. 10:30 pm.

I looked across from the fire.

He was scratching the back of his neck, looking down at the ground. He knew that this was bad. Everything was bad. I wanted to run up to him. I want his arms. I need something.

I stared into the fire. I hate this. I hate now. I hate everything that happened.

A plastic rectangle gronola bar slid across from me.

Lucas looked up, as a nod of approval.

"Thanks." I said quietly.

I munched on the bar, losing my appitite with every bite. He watched me as if it was an experiment

I placed the bar down beside me.

I stood up, my anger beginning to control me.

He mimicked my movements, by also standing up, his brows furrowed

I sat down next to him.

My eyes were focused in the fire, but I could tell that he was looking at me, trying to make some eye contact.

I slumped down. Sorrow and anger.

"I shouldn't have." my voice shook

He was thinking, letting me continue

"I shouldn't have done any of this. This is what happens. This. I get caught up. I'm usually the one who gets broken, as you know, never the other way around. I dragged you into this. I know how you feel. Like I literally just wrapped my hands around your heart, and broke it off peice by peice, right?"

He slowly nodded

"I'm telling you. I'm not gonna be one of those girls who give crap like 'I'm warning you, that loving me isn't gonna be easy' because I know that this is a mistake. I can't do this. Not n-"

"You're telling me about giving crap? Maya. Stop. You are a mess. And don't get on me for saying that. You and I both know that. It's you. You are the one who can't even decide whether not to be with me or not? Why not just tell me? Stop doing this to people. It's selfish."

My face dropped.

"Oh, Maya, I didn'-" Lucas then realized what he said

But I was already running off.

He grabbed my arm from my side.

"I didn't mean it like that." he tried to say reassuringly

"Yeah, I'm so selfish, you know? I just can't stand when people actually care about me." I smiled hystarically.

"You used that against me. You were the only perosn I told. You're so cruel. Don't bother." I stomped off.

There was something different.

I heard Riley calling my name

I ran forward, the leaves leaving my sneakers, feeling solid ground once again

Riley dropped her flashlight, calling everybody over

"Please. Home. Mom." I said into her hair, while she was pulling me tight

Gasps surrounded me, Zay and Farkle hugged us, mumbling something.

"Don't look back." Zay said under his breath.

This time I didn't.

What happened that Lucas was talking about? What? That shall all be answered in next chapter! Thanks y'all :)

xoxo,

Katie