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11. Alaska
I had been sitting with Jasper in my little towel until the others came back. Now he was downstairs with the rest, while I was finally getting dressed. Apparently, the reason nobody else came upstairs when Edward and I had our little fight, was that everyone was out arranging my 'death'.
I decided I didn't want to know anything about what they had arranged. I didn't want to know if I had died in a car crash, was mauled by a bear, burned to death in a blazing fire or anything else. I couldn't deal with knowing that. It was hard enough leaving everyone behind. This will be absolutely horrible for Charlie and Renee. I can't think about how much my death will hurt them, if I do, I think I might fall apart. And right now, that's dangerous. Being a newborn with little control.
Hah, changing subjects. Because everyone keeps telling me I'm not normal newborn and I do have control. Maybe not completely, but I can control my actions, reign in my own emotions, prioritize, push my bloodlust to the back of my mind, have normal conversations, touch things and people without accidently crushing them. All in all, my control may not be perfect, but I'm doing a pretty good job if you ask me. I think maybe it's because this is what I wanted. I already knew so much about being a vampire, granted, nowhere near enough, but still. I was somewhat prepared. To be honest, everything, including the burning during the change and the bloodlust I have now, was much worse in my mind than it turned out to be.
I was making my way downstairs, noticing the silence as I contemplated why I was so different. Maybe, all it takes to have a controlled newborn, is to let the human know what is about to happen before you turn them? That could be it. It could be dangerous if it was true though. The damage a newborn that didn't have an unquenchable thirst could do if it had this much control and a sire that wanted to harm others, I didn't even want to think about that.
As I entered the room, all eyes turned to me. I noticed immediately that Edward was back and Alice wasn't. I frowned at this, where could she be? And why couldn't Edward have left instead.
"Thank you." I told the room at large. "Thank you so much for whatever you have done to put my family at rest. To give them my death to mourn instead of just a disappearance. Thank you, but please, don't tell me what you did. Don't tell my how I died. Please."
Esme rushed towards me and pulled me into a hug. "You're so very welcome, dear. We owed it to your family to give them peace of mind. I would do anything for you. No matter what happens, you are still my daughter." She pulled back to look at me and I could see the venom in her eyes. "And if you don't want to know the details, just know that we took care of everything and for as far as the rest of the human world is concerned, Isabella Swan died."
I started sobbing in her arms as she pulled me over to the couch. This meant I was now seated on the same couch as Carlisle and Esme, and in the chair next to me, was Edward. A shiver ran through me at being this close to him after what he had tried to do to me earlier tonight.
"Well, it seems discussing the staging of Bella's death is no longer necessary. In which case, Edward, I believe you had something to say to the family?" Carlisle started. I was glad there would be no discussing, but I didn't really want to hear whatever it was Edward had to say. I shifted in my seat and scooted closer to Esme. And, more importantly, farther away from Edward.
"Yes, Carlisle, I do have some things to say. First of all, I would like to apologise to everyone one for my behaviour with Tanya. It was unbecoming and I should never have crossed that line." He turned to me then. I could see in his eyes that he wasn't sorry at all. "I was just so crazy about you Bella, I couldn't see life without you and, well, you were human. Certain things were impossible for us, but I still wanted them. I wanted them with you. But that was impossible, so I turned to Tanya."
I saw Tanya, who was standing beside Edward's chair, look increasingly more enraged. But, all that rage seemed to be directed at me. Not at Edward, which is what I would have expected. He's the one who was using her, not me.
I didn't respond to his words, I could tell he was waiting for me to say something. Probably he was waiting for me to run to him, throw myself in his arms and tell him all was forgiven.
Which was not going to happen.
He sighed and seemed to give up the waiting. He gave of the air of a hurt and disappointed lover perfectly, but I could see his eyes. I knew those eyes well enough to know, he wasn't hurt. He was pissed.
"It seems I am going to have to spend the next decade making this up to you."
He sounded resigned. As if he actually believed he could. As if he believed he could make me forget everything he did to me and just forgive him. No way.
He turned his attention back to the room at large. "That brings me to my next point. Now that my Bella is changed and thought to be dead, we will have to leave Forks as soon as possible. We can not stay here."
I kind of had to agree with that, I couldn't stay here. Didn't mean the rest of the Cullens couldn't though. I was probably going off with Christian and Elissa anyway.
"I think it would be best if we go to our house in Alaska. That way, we can all spend some more time together and look after Bella in her newborn year together. It will make everything much easier and give us all some time to… reconnect." He had been looking around the room during his speech but was now looking at Tanya with gleaming eyes and a smirk plastered on his face. I couldn't believe no one else saw just how deceitful and manipulating Edward was.
Tanya of course agreed immediately. "That is a great idea Edward. I know Carmen and Eleazar have missed their best friends and this time could be great for us. It is important that we who share the same lifestyle stay in contact, and helping Bella will be much easier when there are so many others to take her off your hands." She glanced at Christian and Elissa then. A flash of doubt flickered across her face before she continued. "Off course, this does not include the Thaines. They are no longer members of the Denali family and will not be welcome in our home. Honestly, I don't know why you two haven't taken off yet." As she said this last part, she glared at Elissa. It was very obvious she did not like her.
"Nor are they part of the Cullen family." Edward added. "I really do think you two have outstayed your welcome."
I could not believe this. Did Edward forget our first fight? He promised he would stop trying to get rid of Christian. What does he think he is doing?
Christian stood up straight and glared at Edward. He was exuding an air of danger, I suddenly became completely aware of the fact that Christian, was not a vampire you wanted to mess with.
"I'm not sure just how welcome we were in the first place. Ever since we stepped through that door you have done nothing but insult me or show me distrust. I do not believe I want to be welcome in your family, Eddie."
Elissa went to stand beside her brother. "Yes, my brother is right. Thank you for your hospitality but I believe that you are right. This is not the place for us."
She turned to look at me with hopeful eyes, waiting for my to decide if I wanted to go with them.
I stood up.
"Then we will leave." I stated as I crossed the room to stand beside them.
"No!" Edward roared.
"Yes." I stated. "You already knew I had decided to leave with Christian and Elissa. And even if I wasn't, I wouldn't have gone to Alaska with you. I will not go anywhere with you. Especially after what you tried to do this afternoon. I refuse to stay here and wait for you next tantrum. Wait for the next time you decide to claim me. Or teach me a lesson. I won't go with the family because you are with he family."
"You can't leave me love, you need me." He smirked at me. "You are still a newborn after all. You. Need. Me. To help you through this. I will make you forget all of this and teach you to be a proper woman. I will help you get through this year and once you're done being a newborn, we will get married."
I just gaped at him. Luckily for me, Christian did have enough of his wits to respond.
"She does not need you, Eddie. She just needs someone to help her through this year, that does not have to be you. I am her sire. I will help her. I will teach her everything she needs to know. And if she doesn't want to go to Alaska, my sister and I will take her somewhere else."
A/N: I'm still really busy with classes and I don't have a lot of time to write. So I can't give you a date on which the next chapter will be up. I can however promise I will post it as soon as I have written it and I will not abandon this story.
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