No copyright intended made for entertainment purposes. Nothing belongs to me! To some people who think its stupid that Buffy is ok with being a vampire give me a chance because I haven't wrote the whole story and I had a chapter planned when she's not ok with it which is in fact this chapter so hope I satisfy everyone. Not many more to go now wooo:D.
"Wow Buffster look who is blessed!" Xander said bowing to his best friend the next day at school.
She playfully slapped him but because of her extra vampire strength it hurt but he didn't show it.
"Well yay Buffy," Cordelia said sarcastically grabbing her coat from the library chair and moving towards the little group of freaks, "I mean I only came here because I heard something in a closet and I got worried."
She said this with eyeing Xander.
"Maybe we should check in some closets Xander," Cordelia said sneakily.
"Can you not see I'm chatting to my best friends? Get some eyes," Xander moaned having no clue what Cordelia wanted.
Buffy and Willow turned round to face Xander and once their backs where turned Cordelia mouthed what she wanted in a closet. Xander patted Buffy and Willow and left with Cordelia without a word.
"I swear they are getting strange," Willow said to Buffy as they took a chair, "er I mean."
Willow had noticed something off with her friend ever since she turned into a vampire and now she knew she was going to find out what was wrong.
"Will," Buffy said putting her head in her hands.
Willow didn't know but Buffy more then anything wanted to bang her head none stop against the table.
"Yeah?" Willow asked attentively taking Buffy's hand and giving it a gentle squeeze.
Buffy looked up at her best friend and was so glad she had her to confide in.
"I don't think I can do this," She whispered.
Willow squeezed her hand harder suddenly worried about what her friend was planning to do to herself.
"I mean I fake it for Angel," Buffy said almost in tears, "But I've become the very thing I've hated and fought for so many years Will."
Willow couldn't believe it. Buffy was a better actress then everyone gave her credit for, she had no clue that Buffy felt this way.
Everyone had fallen for it. Sure they thought that it was strange that Buffy was ok with being an actual vampire after all she was the slayer and Willow even envied her a tiny bit.
She was with the guy she loved, they were going to live for eternity never changing. And even though they were vampires they had their souls and could even go out in the sunlight. And Buffy was complaining? But Willow pushed all the jealously aside and tried to understand where Buffy Summers was coming from.
"But Buffy," Willow said taking both of her hands, "You have a soul."
Buffy stood up angrily, "It doesn't matter!" She roared and was shocked at how her voice sounded when she was mad.
Willow almost fell out of her chair. Buffy looked at her and mouthed sorry. Willow slowly got up and put her arm around Buffy.
"Angel has a soul," Willow stated.
That's right Angel does have a soul, Buffy thought, and he's still doing good.
"And you love Angel even though he's a vampire," Willow said stepping back to see Buffy nod.
"It's just hard Willow I feel like," She stuttered the next words, "I feel like slaying myself."
Willow nodded her hand in a way to show she understood.
"And," She continued trying to cheer Buffy up, "You will now never grow old."
Buffy sat back down, "I'll never grow old," She repeated as if she was just realising it.
Willow tried to talk but Buffy stopped her, "No, I'll see you lot growing old and wither and die and I'll be stuck like this!"
Willow was shocked she had never thought about that.
"But you get to be with Angel for eternity," Willow pointed out smiling.
Buffy hadn't thought about that and a small smile came to her face at the idea of it but it quickly went as she thought of another thing.
"We will never get any peace because now I'm going to be the slayer forever!" Buffy cried whacking her head against a table, "You see that didn't even hurt."
"Buffy you will get used to it and Angel and you can be together without Angelus even returning AND you can go in the sunlight."
Buffy nodded slowly knowing that everyday for the rest of her friends lives she will be breaking down inside and feeling guilty whenever she was happy. She shouldn't be like this.
Just then Xander walked back in and Buffy placed a big fake smile on her face but Xander was obviously to preoccupied with his thoughts to notice. He slumped down on the chair opposite Buffy looking mighty proud of himself.
"How where the closets?" Willow asked staring at Xander's ruffled and messy hair frowning.
"Cordelia was just being stupid," Xander said waving a hand aside.
"As usual," Buffy commented.
"Anyway what was wrong with Spike?" Xander asked and they all frowned at him once more.
"What? I don't actually care about the guy but I'm nosy," Xander said.
Angel was sitting with Spike at his and Buffy's apartment. Spike was turning up his nose at the pig's blood that sat in a mug before him.
"I bet with a bit more time," Spike said eyeing the mug, "Angelus would have been a bigger poof then you, he was certainly getting that way."
Angel ignored the comment and just stared at Spike like he had been doing all day. He was waiting for Buffy. She would finish school soon and then she had to face her mum who was probably insanely worried about her. He would then climb through her window, leaving Spike tied up here and discuss what they were going to do with him.
"Dru would kill you if you offered her that," Spike said proudly.
"I don't think so," Angel said sneering, "Not if I was the one serving it."
Spike roared in anger and tried to pry himself away from the wall to throw himself at an amused Angel.
"In fact she wouldn't if anybody other then you offered her it," Angel said smiling at Spike, "She's always been a bit slutty."
"How dare you!" Spike roared trying again to get loose.
"I don't even know why you care about her anymore not after she went off with one of her dollies instead of you," Angel said laughing, "I mean the dolly isn't even real and it was a female."
Spike yelled insults at Angel before finally calming down and knowing how to hit Angel hard, emotionally.
"And you think everything's sunny in your little sad relationship?" He asked beaming.
Angel was surprised, Buffy had accepted the fact that she was now a vampire and now they were like humans but with fangs.
"I'll tell ya something," Spike said leaning forward, "It's not. Think about it Angel, she's a thing she's been fighting for so long and you think that she's going to accept that straight away? You'd be lucky."
Angel was stunned and hurt and Spike lent back against the wall in triumphant.
Angel climbed through Buffy's window a while later and found her rocking herself on the bed. She looked up at him and smiled but didn't have the will to move towards him. He took that as a sign that she didn't want him anymore because of what he had done to her. He turned towards the window to go and wait until she was ready or never. It saddened him and he was more then happy when she caught his hand and stopped him.
"What are you doing?" She asking confused.
"I know you can't deal with it," Angel whispered looking into her eyes.
He was hurt when they widened to show that he was right. Her eyes turned sad as she stared at him.
"You need to give me time," She said pressing herself against him.
He nodded knowing what she meant and put his arms around her.
"Do you want me to go?" He asked.
Pain ached in his heart as he waited just a mere second for Buffy to answer.
"Of course not," She said pressing herself closer against him and looking in his eyes.
"How did it go with your mum?" He asked wanting to get off of the subject.
"Not good," She said sitting down on her bed and pulling Angel down with her, "I've been grounded and yelled at. Then again I deserve it."
Angel stared at the bed hungrily but knowing now that Buffy wasn't comfortable with being a vampire just yet he wasn't going to do anything about it.
Buffy saw his eyes though and smiled.
"I wouldn't feel right doing it here," She said.
"Of course," Angel said nodding, "Your mother."
Buffy nodded in return.
"And we cant do it at mine because of Spike," Angel said trailing off sadly.
"What are we going to do about Spike?" Buffy asked suddenly remembering the vampire she hated so much.
After hours of discussing what to do with Spike they thought of a plan and laughed at how simple it was. They got down writing the letter together and then Angel sneaked out of the window and ran to give it to the very lucky Drusilla. He caught her kissing a dolly. He wasn't that shocked but sad, he had made her this mad.
"Daddy," Drusilla said smiling standing up, "Daddy I want you to meet Petunia."
Angel just stared at the brunette haired doll for a second and then handed Drusilla the note.
"Look Petunia," Drusilla said taking the letter, "Daddy's brought us something."
Angel left the minute the letter was out of his hand. He spent the rest of the night with Buffy just holding her as she fell asleep. It was so hard for him to fall asleep during the night time but with Buffy he slowly got used to it. When they returned to his apartment they found the wall ripped of chains and no Spike. They turned round to look at each other and smiled.
One more chapter after this hope you enjoyed it and please R&R.
