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12. Lost in thoughts
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Ponyboy's mind kept wandering off into last night's conversation with Sodapop. Words repeated over and over making him feel a mixture of pleasure and confusion. Mine and only mine. A warm feeling surged inside his chest realizing his feelings were the same as his brother's. Something more than sibling love, something stronger. Something that scared him. But it's wrong. Unless…Unless…
"Yo Pony to freaking earth." A hand smacked his head bringing him from his thoughts.
"Owe! What the hell?!" Pony exclaimed rubbing the spot he had been hit.
"Jesus Christ, kid. We was talking to you and you were off in la la land. Ain't I right Johnny?"
Johnny rolled his eyes nodding, "Yeah, but you didn't have to do that."
Dally grinned, "I do what I have to do. Anyways, since we can't be having you by your lonesome kid, why don't we go ahead and eat something. I'm starving."
Pony shrugged, he wasn't that hungry but sitting down to eat after walking aimlessly around town was a much better choice. His brothers were off on duty while Steve along with Twobit were still on the search for any trace of Adam. It was urgent they killed him off so that link between the young Curtis and the Vampire broke. Sodapop especially wanted that so badly. Having picked the Dingo they each ordered what they wanted. A few minutes later they were served.
"So what's on your mind Pony." Dally asked as he bit into his burger.
Ponyboy shrugged again sipping his milkshake, "Nothing really."
"Don't try to shit me kid, I know you well enough to say that somethins bothering you. Now spill it."
Johnny turned to his young friend, "If it was something serious you' tell us, right Pone?"
Pursing his lips Ponyboy had to find a quick lie to tell. Talking about last night was obviously a bad idea. Nervously he sat up straighter coughing into his hand. Dally and Johnny gave each other a look as they were beginning to worry. Pony came up with something, "It's about Adam."
Dally jumped from his seat, "Where is he?!"
"Calm down! Geez. He's not here! It's something else." Ponyboy hissed calming him.
Johnny frowne, "Then what is it?"
"Well-I-It's just that… I'm worried I won't be able to control my-my thirst. You know. Blood. I'm a freak for crying out loud." The last part was not a lie. He felt like a freak. For being some sort of hybrid and for his feelings towards Sodapop.
Dally sighed, "Kid, you ain't no freak. Hell, you might be even stronger than any of us. You just don't know it yet. And don't be worrying 'bout Adam. We're gonna find him then kill that sonofabitch."
"Yeah Pone, and plus, the new color of your eyes are tuff looking." Johnny added.
Ponyboy shyly smiled slightly relieved. Maybe he would be getting stronger throughout time. After all he had two types of blood in his system. Vampire combined with Wolf. Two enemies. One person. An unknown strength inside yet to be revealed.
A couple of days passed. His brothers hadn't returned yet. This worried Ponyboy yet it wasn't necessarily uncommon for this to happen. Oklahoma was a big place and Darry being practically the representative of the state had issues to attend. It was now Twobit's turn to watch over Ponyboy. Steve was taking a break at his own place tired of hunting down Adam. Pony was in his room sleeping.
A shadow moved from under one of Tulsa's forests tree.
'I knew you loved me Pone.' A voice stated.
Pony's lips quivered knowing who the shadow belonged to, 'I do.'
'Then what are we waiting for?' The dark figure walked towards him.
Taking a few steps back, Pony swallowed thickly not understanding, 'Waiting for?'
'Yes…' Ponyboy's eyes went wide in fear, 'To make you mine."
"Adam no!" Pony fell of his bed sweating from the nightmare. Someone quickly was by his side soothing him.
"Hey hey. Shh, it's all right lil colt. I'm here." Sodapop.
His younger brother breathed easier, "Th-That seemed too real."
Sodapop sighed angrily as he put an arm around Ponyboy, "You dream was about Adam?"
"More like a nightmare. I think…I think he might come back any day now. I can just-"
"Feel it, right?" Soda growled in frustration. He definitely did not like that Pony had this some sort of bond between them. He knew it was inevitable since the Vampire bit him making Ponyboy his. That frustrated him. Infuriated him. No one can claim Pony. He's mine. Sodapop narrowed his eyes at the ground at that thought. Ponyboy bit his bottom lip not sure of what his brother was thinking. Suddenly a certain conversation came up. A slight blush crept up to his cheeks.
"Awe c'mon Soda, it ain't my fault Adam bit m-"
Soda snarled, "Don't call that fucking Biter by his name or I swear I'll…I'll…"
"What's your problem?"
"You wanna know what my problem is? I-I can't take it! I mean, damn Ponyboy. How do you think I feel seeing that you and that damned Biter have this-this connection? It fucking hurts, Pone! You're mine, not his!"
Ponyboy tried quieting him down scared someone else from the gang or even Darry might hear, "Shhh! Someone might listen!"
In one swift move Sodapop was beside him inches away from his face, "It's just you and me Pone in this house. No one else."
The room felt smaller, the air thicker. Ponyboy's mouth was formed in a small 'o'. His face felt hot having Sodapop so close. Hairs in the back of his neck began to stand up as a chill went down his spine. Soda raised an eyebrow amused at this. Pony frowned in embarrassment turning away.
"I love you Pone."
Just as Pony was about to answer the front door swung open with Darry shouting his presence. Twobit, as well, entered the house asking what was for lunch. Somebody turned on the radio. A Beatles song sounded through the walls. Darry knocked on Pony's door, "How's everything with you guys? Everything okay?"
The young Curtis nodded slowly while still looking at Soda, "Just great Dar. Just…Great."
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