I've never really been able to understand the word 'forever' or grasp the concept of it. It's hard to wrap my head around; surely there is nothing in this world that can truly be endless?

I locked my eyes with Jake, there was nothing but love. In that beautiful moment I knew what I wanted and all I would ever want forever and ever. I was ready.

'I want…' I started but was unable to finish. I was blushing again. Ugh!

'What, Nessie what do you want?' he asked, panic in his voice, always worrying about me.

'I want you' I mumbled.

Innocent. I was too innocent. I couldn't be seductive even if I knew how. I decided to show him what I wanted instead of embarrass myself further by explaining. I lifted my hand to the side of his face and before he had time to react I pressed myself against him and leaned into him to kiss him but he grabbed my wrists and gently pulled them back to my side.

'No Nessie' he said it gently but there was a harsh tone underneath which meant he was being serious.

I knew what he'd say but to hear it hurt all the same.

'Why?' I demanded. I tried to sound confident but my voice was shaky.

'Because it isn't right, right now.'

I just stared at him. 'Seriously, can you not even come up with a better excuse?' I almost laughed. I expected he'd at least try to make some justifiable excuse. Because it isn't right, right now I quoted him sourly in my head.

'What I'm trying to say' he added 'is I want to be married to you first.'

I considered that. That was an appropriate excuse but marriage seemed like such a human ritual, something that was done when the partners did not have the beauty of eternity. I knew my whole family were obsessed with the 'sex before marriage' rule but honestly I couldn't see the allure. I mean I did want a pretty wedding one day but not for the reasons Jake obviously wanted. I wanted a wedding to get all dressed up and invite everyone out and have a big party, not for it to be the pass key to be able to make love. Again I couldn't put into words what I wanted to say so I just showed him my thoughts on his excuse.

'It's not an excuse Renesmee. Why would I make excuses not to when it's what I want more than anything? It's just the right way. I've never been a moral kinda guy but with you everything's different. I want to do everything properly with you.'

I scowled at the ground. I couldn't fight that one.

'That means I'll have to wait forever' I complained.

'Not necessarily.' He disagreed and then he disappeared. In 40 seconds he was back, and he knelt down on one knee before me.

Oh no was my initial thought. I tried to suppress a giggle. I didn't want to hurt his feelings.

He took my hand in his and placed a diamond ring on my finger covered in thousands of tiny crystals. Apart from Jacob it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. I gasped aloud. It must have cost him a fortune and he didn't exactly have a lot of money unlike my family. He now took both my hands in his.

'Renesmee Carlie Cullen, I promise to love you every single day of forever. You are the most precious thing to have ever entered my life and I beg you to do the extraordinary honours of marrying me.'

My thoughts raced. I didn't want to be a wife it sounded so old and after all I had only been alive eight years. I couldn't even think about what Bella and Edward were going to say. Bella would break Jake into a thousand pieces. They would be furious. As would Rosalie. I knew Alice and Esme would be thrilled. Alice loved any excuse to dress me up, and since I had been born I was Alice's favourite new doll, she liked me better than her old doll Bella because I didn't complain as much and I quite liked it. I didn't know what to say but he was on the floor proposing to me and his eyes were pleading.

'Yes' I said leaning into kiss him. I'd deal with the consequences later.

I've decided to put some of my thoughts at the top of each chapter from now on, something relevant to that chapter just to get you wondering and to make things a little more interesting. (It isn't part of the story just something to think about) Hope you enjoy.