To Be Or Not To Be
Chapter Eleven- Friendship And Love Rules The World
Spencer hated lying to Toby but she knew Emily would never find closure if she didn't get answers. Spencer felt extra guilty because she had made them both dinner followed by them retreating to the bedroom to keep him distracted. She felt like a horrible person and a good friend at the same time. As Toby laid asleep next to her, she received a text from Emily.
From Emily
Are you sure you are okay with this?
From Spencer
I'll be fine. Me and Aria will be at the hospital in 20 minutes.
She put her phone down and sighed. She looked down at her sleeping boyfriend when she felt a little nudge in her stomach and the whole plan of going to the hospital seemed a million miles away. She put her hand to her stomach and felt the nudge again. The baby. It was kicking. She gasped, tears in her eyes.
'Spence, are you okay?' Toby asked, sleepily.
'The baby. It kicked' his eyes snapped open. He looked at her in amazement. Her heart broke into a million pieces. She could not leave now but her best friend was relying on her. She watched as he replaced her hand on her stomach with his own. Her phone beeped and she sighed, closing her eyes.
'Spencer, what is it?' he asked, looking up at her. He smiled as he felt the baby kick himself. She sighed again and got her phone.
From: Aria
I'm outside. How long you going to be?
Again, she was faced with an impossible decision of choosing between her boyfriend and best friends but she knew she had to make one and quick.
TBONTB
Aria sat in her car outside the brew waiting for Spencer, hoping she wouldn't be long because she was trying to avoid Ezra and his million questions. She wasn't ready to give them and she did not know if she ever would be. She texted Spencer, seeing how long she was going to be. She had come home from her family's intervention to hear what had happened and promised Emily to do what she could to help her. Her phone buzzed with a reply from Spencer.
From: Spencer
I can't do this, I'm sorry
'This was your idea, Spence' Aria muttered as she dialled Emily's number.
'Why are you ringing me? Aren't you supposed be driving?' Emily's response was frantic.
'Em, Spencer, she isn't coming' Aria sighed, running her hand through her hair.
'What? Why? This was her idea' Emily replied, confused.
'I know but she just texted me saying she can't do it. She's pregnant. She's had two miscarriage scares. Maybe she's thought about it' Aria offered, trying to calm the mood.
'She should have thought about that before she started to make promises she can't keep' and Emily hung up. Aria looked up at Toby's flat and saw in the window there a faint light on. She looked at her car door, tempted to go up but she also did not want to drop Spencer in it with Toby in case she hadn't told. Aria understood where Spencer was coming from but it was going to take Emily a lot more convincing.
The next day at school was tense. They had already finished lessons but the girls had all agreed to help with graduation. Emily was not talking to anyone, including Hanna and Aria. There was an awkward pause as Spencer walked over to them.
'Here she is. Since when do you break your promises, Spencer? I thought we were a team. On each other's side. I understand if this was to with not harming the baby but why make the promise in the first place?' Emily questioned, crossing her arms.
'Em, can we not do this here?' Spencer asked, her attention on the students listening in.
'Why not? It's okay for you. You know why he tortured you' Emily said. Spencer had no idea where this anger was coming from. It was making her irrational.
'And do you think that makes it any better? I had to spend my 18th birthday in that place' Spencer exclaimed.
Emily laughed a cold laugh. Something which did not suit her 'And he tried to kill Jenna at mine. We deserve to know the truth, Spence. I wouldn't have let him hurt you. As soon as it started to get too much, we would have took you out. We had all this planned out, Spencer. What changed?'
'I felt the baby kick for the first time last night and it brought everything into reality' Emily's face relaxed and she sighed.
'That's amazing, Spence. What did it feel like?' Hanna asked, nudging her slightly.
'Just that. Amazing. Emily, I am sorry. I really am. The country state police will get everything out of him. I don't want to fight as there is something I want to ask you' Spencer replied, raising an eyebrow.
'What do you want to ask me?' she questioned, narrowing her eyes.
'Toby made the suggestion actually and I agree with him. We want you to be Godmother, if you want to' Spencer asked, with a smile.
'Hey! What about us?' Hanna questioned. Aria nudged her to shut up.
'Of course I want to be Godmother, you idiot. Come here' Emily replied, finally smiling and hugged Spencer.
'I don't want you guys to think I am favouring Emily by asking her. I'm not. It's just…'
'Toby is just as close to Emily as you. We get it, don't we, Hanna?' Aria said, looking at her who nodded with a smile.
'Ha. Emily, you are so going to be that cool lesbian aunt!' Hanna exclaimed, with a grin.
'Again, with the stereotypes, Hanna, really?' Emily questioned, raising an eyebrow.
'Who have you thought about being Godfather then?' Aria asked, changing the subject.
'We thought about it and there is only one person really' Spencer replied, smiling widely at Hanna.
'Caleb? Oh my god, he is going to be stoked!' Hanna replied, getting out of her phone 'Don't worry. I am only going to ask him if he has seen Toby today!'
TBONTB
'So how is Spencer sleeping now? Hanna said she was struggling before' Caleb asked, as he walked into Toby's flat.
'Yes, she is fine now. She still wakes up in the middle of night, walks around for a bit but then goes back to sleep. I'd rather her do that then not sleep at all' Toby replied. Caleb was about to reply when he got a text from Hanna.
'Oh that's weird, Hanna wants to know if I've seen you today. Why would she ask that?' he questioned, confused.
'That means Spence has already asked Emily. I have something to ask you. Do you want to sit down?' Toby replied, pointing to the sofa.
'Asking me to sit down, this must be serious' Caleb said, sitting down.
'Me and Spencer were talking last night and we agreed that we want Emily to be godmother to the baby and you to be godfather, so would you?' Toby asked, after a moment.
Caleb raised an eyebrow 'Be godfather? Of course, man, I'd be honoured' he held his hand out and they slapped their hands together.
'Thank you that means a lot'
'Hanna says it's a boy. Congratulations. I've been trying to imagine a boy who is a mixture of you both' Caleb said
'Scary thought, yeah?' Caleb nodded, laughing when they heard voices outside.
'….Hanna, chill out'
'…I just need to know. Where's Em?'
'…Ali is getting released today. So she has gone to pick her up?'
'…Ah yes. I am so blonde sometimes'
'…You said it'
'…Jeez, guys, I only have little legs. You could have waited'
'…Sorry, blame Hanna' and the door opened and Hanna, Spencer and Aria walked in.
'Well?' Hanna asked, crossing her arms.
'He asked and I said yes' Caleb replied, laughing at Hanna was acting. Spencer smiled widely and walked over to Toby. She sat next to him and he put an arm around her.
'You do realise if you ever have a girl, you have to make me godmother you know?' Hanna asked, wearing what Spencer would only describe as a Hanna smile.
'Erm, let's go one baby at a time please' Spencer laughed. Her phone was ringing and her mom's name flashed across the screen. She picked it up.
'Hey, Mom, what's up?'
'Where are you now? And who is with you?'
'I'm at Toby's with him, Hanna, Caleb and Aria. Mom, what is wrong?'
'Where's Emily?'
'At the hospital, why?'
'Honey, Wren, sorry, Charles, they have just found his body'
'What? As in..'
'Yes' Spencer hung on her mom, in shock.
'Hey, what's wrong?' Toby asked her, putting a hand on her knee.
'Charles. He is dead'
