Love isn't just a four letter word...

Chapter 12.


This chapter is a bit ... graphic in some way. Quite depressing really, haha, but things will get better! I think this story will be finished by, max the 20th chapter.
Be prepared for some things somewhat disturbing.


Sakura.

1095 days. 36 Months.

Three years.

I was once told that if someone is thinking about you, then that's where you should return to. Well, something like that, anyway, the person who told me that was Naruto. Who was told by the old perverted sannin. Jiraiya. I never stopped believingthat. But when you get desperate, you do things you regret later on. I, for instance forgot about what Narutotold me and considered suicide. I did things I shouldn't have done. I said things I shouldn't have said. I lied to someone who I shouldn't have lied to. And I will never forget that. I've never been able to forgive myself for Yuri's death. I could have saved him, but fate chose otherwise. But, I don't feel like blaming fate, I feel like blaming myself. Yuri was young, cute and fun to be with. He made you laugh when the atmosphere was down, he smiled when he was scolded. He didn't deserve to die. And because of that, the one person I admired, the person I loved with all my heart, despises me. Not hates, but despises. Those were his exact words.


Days past since Hedai and me hadn't had any news about Sasuke. Yuri was gone. And it was all my fault. I wanted to explain, to apologize to Sasuke. But he disappeared. We held a silent funeral for Yuri and buried him in a field full of flowers. But Sasuke never came.

When he did, he had changed.

"Sasuke, please, I'm so sorry." I pleaded.

"Sakura." He said sternly, "I don't love you. I never have. And I never will. Forget me, as of I have already forgotten you." Tears leaked out of my eyes at his harsh words, "I despise you, I'm never coming back, we will never see each other again."

And he left.

He said those words with so much hate and coldness I shivered and buried my face in my knees. Hedai gasped when she saw me and asked me what was wrong. I said Sasuke had come. And that he said he doesn't love me and that he was never coming back.

A few days later I had no more tears to cry. I was life less. Nothing mattered anymore. Instead I found myself cutting my wrists and begging God to take my life. But with each attempt, Hedai stopped me. We became close, and she was now my only reason to stay alive.

One year later, Hedai dies of a heart attack. All the stress I put her through finally got to her. Another person dead. Because of me.


Fourteenth of June. Two years since I killed Hedai. Three years since I killed Yuri, and three years since Sasukeleft me. Again. I came to the conclusion that if I died, I wouldn't be punished for what I did. So, instead I got a job. In a brothel in the Rock Village. Not any brothel, you swore you will never leave until the day the lord kicks you out. Being a cute young 20 year old virgin, I was taken in quite quickly actually. You don't get paid, the reward you get is food and a roof over your head. You get beat often, if clients weren't fully content with the 'work' you offered them. I thought it was perfect.

It's been a year now and I'm a highly recommended whore in the village. I don't do my best like most of the girls here, I just enter my own world and let my body take over, but with all the cheap make-up they force you to wear and my long pink hair, most men can't get enough of me. Not that I'm proud of it or anything, I definitely don't use my looks to any advantage what so ever. I just want to suffer. I deserve this. There for I am happy.

"Will that be all?" I said not really caring for any specific answer.

"Yes." A tall ugly man with muddy brown hair grinned whilst doing up his zipper and stalking out the room like he had just won the lottery.

'That should be the last one' I thought slipping back into the skimpy black lace skirt accompanied by a red corset.

I got off the dark kind sized bed and walked over to the mirror that was at the end of the room. 'Ahh..Why do we have to wear lipstick when it gets smudged off anyway' I thought rubbing off the crimson red that covered my mouth. Someone knocked on the door.

"I'm finished." I said emotionless.

"It's me." Squeaked a small shy voice.

I went over to the door and opened it quickly and pulled the girl in my room, fast enough so no one would notice.

"What do you want?" I said rudely.

The girl was only about sixteen, long blond hair and pretty brown eyes. She looked out of place with a short pink skirt and a dark black top, barely covering her chest.

"There's a man that's gunna' save us." She said, eyes glistening with joy.

"What?" I said confused.

"A ninja. He's gunna' save us. Tomorrow night. He said that we all need to meet at the back where he'll lead us somewhere and his mates will kill Lord Soucha." She said jumping up and down.

Unlike me, lots of girls were forced here by uncaring families or just common pedophiles. This girl, whom I can't remember her name, is the niece of the Lord.

"Shit." Was all I could say, "Go away." I said, and pushed her out my room.

'Where am I supposed to go after this? I can't forgive myself. I won't let myself be happy! I cant!' Then I broke down in tears.

I am a failure. Sasuke never loved me, and I'm punishing myself for that. Maybe I really should just die? But I don't even deserve to die, that would be something nice. I'll just have to find some other brothel.


I never said anything to the Lord about the whole 'being saved' thing. I came to the conclusion that most of these girls deservea better life so I went away with it. We had all managed to escape out back and we were now waiting for our so called 'heroe' who wasn't even here. It's been five minutes, more than enough time to notice our absence. But, I wasn't scared, honestly I didn't cared if I get beat for this.

"Sorry, had a major problem with the Lord guy. Everythings fine now girls, come this way."

My eyes widened and everything stopped. All the girls rushed passed me in pure delight to be free but I couldn't believe who I was seeing. I was slightly far back in the shadows so he couldn't see me, when he noticed I was frozen he smiled and approached me slowly.

"It's allright, no need to be afraid I'm here to save you." He said in his weet reassuring voice.

He advanced a little more and I was certain he recognised me.

"Sakura?" He gasped.

"Naruto." I whispered, tears gathering in my eyes.

His smiled disappeared and he clenched his fists.

"What the hell are you doing here Sakura?!" He screamed.

I smiled.


I promise the next chapter will be less depressing and quite touchy xP