I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be begging for forgiveness forever. If my life wasn't so crazy…but I guess that applies to everyone. I'm gonna do my best to finish some stories so that I don't have too much stress. Anyways I hope you enjoy this chapter.
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Graduation was right around the corner and everything was zooming by me. Prom, recitals, tests, and everything that goes with the end of the year seemed to fly by. I had to send out invitations to my family and friends, a party to plan, and friends parties to go to. I had no clue how I was going to manage, but somehow I was going to survive.
Jesse and I were beyond perfect. The whole Kain situation was forgotten and ever since that first night together nothing could be better. I was planning on spending the weekend that was two weeks before graduation with Jesse. He told me that the weekend was full of surprises and on Friday banned me from the house, so he could 'set up'.
"But Jesse, I want to spend the day with you." I said, as he turned to leave me at my front door.
"We are lucky enough that your mother is letting you spend the whole weekend with me. Let's not push it. Spend the day with her. Talk about wedding stuff." Jesse said.
I smiled when he said wedding. "We still need to pick a date. I would prefer the spring time. What do you want?" I said.
"Whatever will make you happiest." Jesse said, giving me a quick kiss.
"Ok, ok fine. Go and do whatever you are going to do, but give me a really good-bye kiss at least." I said, with a smile.
Jesse gently wrapped his arms around my waist, pulled me close, and gave me a kiss full of promises. He pulled away soon enough for me to want more. I came close to whining, but I refrained. "I will see you later. Be ready in something nice around 8 o'clock." Jesse said.
"What do you mean by nice?" I said.
"Something elegant." Jesse simply said, finally leaving my porch.
I watched him walk into his house before going into mine. "Mom! Are you home?" I said, as I walked through the family room.
"Yes. How are you, Rebecca?" Olivia said, carrying a laundry basket.
"I'm good. How about we sit in the living room and I will help you fold?" I asked.
"That would be wonderful. I haven't seen much of you lately." Olivia said, as she sat down with me on a couch.
"I know. It's been kind of crazy, with school ending and everything with Jesse." I said, beginning to fold.
"How's school? Are you ready for finals? Better yet are you ready to graduate?" Olivia said.
"School is good. I'm pretty sure I'm ready for finals. I only have to take two. And yes, I am so ready to graduate. I am ready to be out at the ranch more and actually run it." I said.
"So, how are things between you and Jesse working out with this whole ranch thing?" Olivia asked.
"Well, as you know, his parents are coming back in a couple weeks. But he doesn't have to go back to Las Angeles right away. Not until the end of the summer. I was going to ask him if he wanted to stay in one of the guest rooms at the ranch for the summer. I could teach him a little bit more about it." I said, not everything in that I said was a lie. I definitely wasn't going to tell my mom I was having sex with Jesse though.
"That sounds like a good idea. So, what about the fall, when Jesse goes back?" Olivia said.
I hadn't told her about the tour that Jesse was going to start just a few short weeks after he went back. "Well Jesse is going to be presenting his new song to his band and manager. They will be working on that for a few weeks and then they start a six month tour." I said.
"So are you going to enroll at the community college here?" Olivia said.
"Why? I already have all my gen eds. done." I said.
"Well I think you should do something beside slave away at the ranch." Olivia said.
"Well…umm…Jesse sort of…he asked me to go touring with him. It's in Europe and I have always want to go there." I said.
"How are you going to plan a wedding and go to Europe?" Olivia said.
"It's not like I'm gonna be super busy. He's gonna have concerts and events and stuff that I won't go to. Besides we should get back in February and I want to get married in May." I said.
"The wedding dress needs to be ordered at least 8 months in advanced in order to make sure it's perfect." Olivia said.
"Great! Let's go wedding dress shopping right after graduation." I said, slightly frustrated.
"Honey, I just want to make sure you know what you are getting into." Olivia said.
"I know that it is forever with Jesse and that's what I want." I said.
"I understand. So have you thought of wedding colors yet?" Olivia said. The rest of the afternoon went pretty smooth. My mother didn't push my buttons too much the whole day. It was nice.
I ate something quick for dinner and went up to my room to get ready and to finish packing my weekend bag. I looked in my closet for something to wear. I needed something elegant. I had party dresses but they were mostly fun. I saw a dress bag all the way in the back corner and I reached for it. I couldn't remember what was in it. I unzipped the bag a little to see what was inside. It was my prom dress from junior year. It was the only dress I owned that I never wore besides trying it on. I was in the hospital during prom so I didn't go. The dress was an emerald green silk dress. The top of the dress was a halter and it had a drop waist. The dress was very beautiful and elegant, but I didn't know if it would fit. I was smaller my junior year being involved in cheerleading and everything. Also in the bag was a corset, which I now remember I had got so that I could fit in the dress without a belly.
"Hey Mom!" I yelled down the stairs.
"What?" Olivia said, standing at the foot of the stairs.
"Can you help me get dressed?" I asked.
She smiled and said as she came up the stairs, "You haven't asked me that since you were a little girl."
"Well I could dress myself if this wasn't so difficult." I said, as she walked into my room. "Jesse said dress elegant for our date tonight and I found this dress, but I have to wear a corset with it. So I need help." I said, as she lifted the skirt of the dress.
"This was your prom dress for junior year. I remember we bought this before school even started to get a discounted price and it still cost a small fortune. At least it is getting some use." Olivia said.
"Yeah, so how should I do my hair?" I said.
"I could put it in an up-do." Olivia said.
"That would be wonderful, Mom." I said, starting to strip. The corset wasn't that bad…it pinched a little bit but I don't think my mom made it super tight. I finished off my look with a crystal necklace and silver shoes.
"How do I look?" I asked my mom, as I admired myself in the mirror.
"You look all grown up." Olivia said, with her voice shakey.
"Are you gonna cry?" I asked, turning towards her.
"Not today. I'll probably cry when you walk across that stage and get your diploma. I'll probably cry when you move out to the ranch. I'll probably cry when you leave to go to Europe. But I know that I'm going to bawl when I see you walk down the aisle. You're not my little girl anymore." Olivia said, with a nostalgic smile on her face.
"Oh, Mom." I said, giving her a big hug. It seems that ever since Jesse came back that everything was working out and there was a lot less tension in my family.
"Rebecca, I have something for you." Olivia said.
"What?" I said.
"I'll be right back." Olivia said. She went to her room and returned with a small box in her hands. She handed it to me with a meek smile. It was a condom box.
I blushed and started to stutter an excuse or something but she stop me and said, "Honey, I know how serious you guys are acting around each other. I just want you to be protected until you get married at least."
"Wow. I never thought that you would casually talk about sex with me." I said.
"Well, it's partially selfish. I don't want you getting pregnant again. But I know what it's like after you lose your virginity and once you find the one. You know how I had a miscarriage before Avanna?" Olivia said.
"Yeah, what about it?" I said.
"Well your father and I were not married when that happened. We were planning on getting married after the baby was born. I wish we would have been more careful, because then we wouldn't have had to rush our engagement." Olivia said.
"Seriously?" I said, stunned as I put the box in my weekend bag.
"Yes, seriously. But I wouldn't change my life for anything. I have three beautiful daughters and I married the man of my dreams. All I'm trying to say is don't grow up to fast." Olivia said.
"Thank you, Mom." I said, giving her a hug.
Then the doorbell rang. "That's your cue. Go and dazzle the boy." Olivia said, with a smile.
"Alright. I love you, Mom." I said, heading down the stairs.
"I love you, too, baby." Olivia said, with tear filled eyes.
I had never ever talked so deep with my mom before. I was so glad that we were able to get that close. I was still a little dazed when I opened the door. Jesse was standing on the porch wearing a tux, but he dressed it down a little by not wearing a tie and leaving the top button undone. He still looked amazing, though. "Hi." I said, with a smile.
"Hi. Wow…you look…wow." Jesse said, at a loss for words.
I smiled and said, "I'm right there with you."
Jesse offered me his arm and escorted me over to his house. His living room had been transformed to look like an elegant restraint. There was dim lighting and soft music. Also all the furniture had been taken out and all that was in the enormous room was a table set for two. "Wow. You did this all by yourself?" I asked, amazed.
"I had some help from our server tonight. Please, sit down. I'm going to put your bag away." Jesse said.
I slowly walked towards the table and Raviv came out in a waiter uniform and pulled the chair out for me. "Thank you." I said as he assisted me in scooting my chair forward. "You're a good friend." I said to Raviv.
"Well what else would I guy do for his best man?" Raviv said, with a subtle smile.
"Best man? So you proposed and she said yes? Congratulations!" I said, with a huge smile.
"Yeah and her parents are totally accepting the situation. It's perfect." Raviv said.
"Can you bring us drink, please?" Jesse said, as he came back into the room.
"Of course." Raviv said, disappearing into the kitchen.
"So, what are we having for dinner?" I asked.
"Well it's a five course meal. I'll walk you through the forks if you don't know which one. But first is a shrimp cocktail." Jesse said.
Raviv came back with two wine glasses and a bottle of sparkling punch. It startled me at first because I thought it was wine, but then Raviv said, "Would you like some sparkling punch, madam?"
I smiled and nodded. The rest of the meal was perfect. The courses in order were the shrimp cocktail, a salad, raspberry sorbet, steak with a side of baby potatoes, and brownies covered with ice cream and drizzled with chocolate.
"So, how was your day?" Jesse asked as the steak was set on the table.
"It was actually really good." I said. I told him about the conversation my mom and I had.
"She gave you a box of condoms?" Jesse asked stunned.
"Yes. She told me not to grow up to fast. I guess I should enjoy being young while I still can." I said.
"I can't believe I never thought about using a condom. Rebecca, do you realize that we have already had unprotected sex?" Jesse said, his voice becoming stressed.
"That was once." I said.
"It only takes that one time to get pregnant." Jesse said.
"If I don't have my next period then I will take a pregnancy test. But I don't feel the way I did when I got pregnant the first time. I knew like a week after having sex that I was pregnant, because I just felt different. Of course I had to wait to be able to take a pregnancy test." I said.
"Let's just make sure." Jesse said.
"Alright. If it makes you feel better I can get birth control as well as using condoms." I said.
"We can talk about it later. Do you want to dance?" Jesse said, as Raviv switched the music to a romantic slow song.
"Sure." I said, standing.
"Thank you, Raviv." Jesse said, as Raviv grabbed his coat and slipped out the front door with a nod.
"So how long have you been planning this?" I said, as I settled comfortably in Jesse's arms. We rocked slowly in circles around the room.
"Well this was going to be the night I was going to propose to you, but you changed that." Jesse said, with a smile.
"Maybe I should have waited. This would've been the perfect engagement scenario." I said.
"Well it's too late to say maybe." Jesse said.
"True." I said, leaning my head on his shoulder.
Jesse and I made love that night, of course, this time with protection. That night was as close to perfect as any day had ever been for me.
I woke up while Jesse was in the shower. I noticed my journal on his desk…it had a book mark about halfway through what I had written. I turned to the next blank page and began to write. I wrote about how perfect my life was now and how excited I was to be engaged to Jesse. I closed it and hoped that Jesse would enjoy reading how happy he makes me now, even after all the bad I've gone through.
Tonight was Kain's party. He decided to have his party the weekend before graduation and I was super excited to go to his party. His parents let him get a real DJ and even installed a temporary dance floor in their family room. It was going to be awesome.
What do you think? I was actually going to do Kain's party in this chapter, but I starting writing and it didn't fit, so that is the next chapter. The party is going to bring major twist into the story. Anyways, so sorry for not posting sooner, but please review.
Lots of Love,
Froggy2045
