Prev.Chap.: Pippin hasn't spoke since the 'terrible day'... Not even to his dear caretaking cousin Frodo. But 6 months has passed, and even Pippin himself admits (though not aloud, he still does) he is in fact healing- both physically and mentally... One day he wakes up... and Merry's ghost gives him a visit?! ...Pippin thinks it's Merry anyway... But what he doesn't know is that it's really just sneaky sneaky Frodo.
Realized: by Calla Part 12 (PG-13)
3/22/03:Fixed mistakes
A/N: This part is different from all the others cause... it's in Frodo's point of view.
I've wanted him so badly..... And although I knew this before- I soon found I didn't know the half of it... As I lay him on the bed... and as he allows me to. Hearing him breate in such an alluring manner.
He's so very beautiful..... I don't know why I didn't do this sooner.
"Mmm..." he moans and it sends a shiver down my spine.
Just to think I'm the one giving him this pleasure... That these are my hands running down his fair skin... And my unworthy lips to his.... It's so much more then I ever dreamed.
...But I pull back, ever so lightly... To admire his beauty once more before I decide to take him. ..And I look into his fair eyes, the ones trying to look into my own- although it's plain to see that he can't.
And just as I bring my lips back to his, and get ready to kiss him once more.. he speaks... The most horrible words I could ever imagine...
"I love you, Merry." I feel the cruel words on my lips, and slowly pull away...
Merry...... What a dreadful name.
Even when Pippin thought the distressing Brandybuck dead- he was still in the way!
I put my hand on Pippin's face, and he closes his eyes and smiles, craddleing his cheek with the very hand I placed on it. ..And that's when I realize....
That the hand on Pippin's cheek... is not my hand...
But Merry's.
The pleasure Pippin had been recieveing had not been given from me...
But from Merry.
And the lips that had been kissing Pippin's, even though I was so sure they were mine....
Had been Merry's as well.
I continue to watch Pippin, but slowly begin to slip my hand from his... And he opens his eyes... Making me almost have the need to stay- but I know it is only a want.
I want Pippin.... But not like this... Never like this.
I see now why I hadn't done this sooner- and curse myself for ever getting myself to do so now.
It's just that it's been 6 months and I hadn't even got the lad to speak to me! ...I don't have much time left... And to think I won't be able to win him over before then scares me..
-But I know that that was no excuse! ..I was only fortunate that I hadn't gone any further... I was lucky I realized I wasn't doing this for love of Pippin... But for lust.
I find myself crawling off the bed.. and I know Pippin can feel me doing so. I have to turn my head away from his eyes... For I know that I will be tempted to stay if I look any longer.
I clumsily stumble to the candle I had entered with- and quickly grab it before I head toward the door.
"Merry!" Pippin cries for the hobbit's appalling name... And despite my although unwilling, but still- need to leave... I stop.
"...I love you, Pippin." I say, trying my best to disguise my voice before I finally do leave... But even though I told him this as Merry... I, Frodo Baggins, love Peregrin Took.. with all of my heart.
I love him enough to let him have hope in Merry, and to have given Merry a chance.... And I love him enough to have left... even though I knew I could have had what I'd been wanting a long time if i had stayed.
....But there's something more from Pippin I want... -no... need.
His love in return.
To Be Continued.
This part was done in Frodo's point of view cause it was a lot easier then when I first tried it with the 'regular format'... I might go back if you guys have a problem with the story being in 1st person view..
But this part was really intended to redeem? Frodo, I suppose. It also dropped some hints... (if you didn't pick any up.. forget you read this! ;) )
aelfgifu: Hope this has helped in at least some of your wonderings. ;)
Diamond Took: :) Big and clean eh? How do you manage?
Pointy-Eared Archer: Yeah.. I know I wrote this story.. But.. I like Frodo a lot in here as well. :) lol
Natta: *hides*
nikbr: *whistles... quietly so Natta can't hear* ;)
Roz: Yay! Frodo restrainded himself! :)
redrose2310: Thanks for reading my fic... I hope you'll read the more to come! :)
And thanks to everyone who has reviewed. I'm sorry this part is awfully short... But yeah... Just so long as I have your guy's support- I'll keep posting. :)
Realized: by Calla Part 12 (PG-13)
3/22/03:Fixed mistakes
A/N: This part is different from all the others cause... it's in Frodo's point of view.
I've wanted him so badly..... And although I knew this before- I soon found I didn't know the half of it... As I lay him on the bed... and as he allows me to. Hearing him breate in such an alluring manner.
He's so very beautiful..... I don't know why I didn't do this sooner.
"Mmm..." he moans and it sends a shiver down my spine.
Just to think I'm the one giving him this pleasure... That these are my hands running down his fair skin... And my unworthy lips to his.... It's so much more then I ever dreamed.
...But I pull back, ever so lightly... To admire his beauty once more before I decide to take him. ..And I look into his fair eyes, the ones trying to look into my own- although it's plain to see that he can't.
And just as I bring my lips back to his, and get ready to kiss him once more.. he speaks... The most horrible words I could ever imagine...
"I love you, Merry." I feel the cruel words on my lips, and slowly pull away...
Merry...... What a dreadful name.
Even when Pippin thought the distressing Brandybuck dead- he was still in the way!
I put my hand on Pippin's face, and he closes his eyes and smiles, craddleing his cheek with the very hand I placed on it. ..And that's when I realize....
That the hand on Pippin's cheek... is not my hand...
But Merry's.
The pleasure Pippin had been recieveing had not been given from me...
But from Merry.
And the lips that had been kissing Pippin's, even though I was so sure they were mine....
Had been Merry's as well.
I continue to watch Pippin, but slowly begin to slip my hand from his... And he opens his eyes... Making me almost have the need to stay- but I know it is only a want.
I want Pippin.... But not like this... Never like this.
I see now why I hadn't done this sooner- and curse myself for ever getting myself to do so now.
It's just that it's been 6 months and I hadn't even got the lad to speak to me! ...I don't have much time left... And to think I won't be able to win him over before then scares me..
-But I know that that was no excuse! ..I was only fortunate that I hadn't gone any further... I was lucky I realized I wasn't doing this for love of Pippin... But for lust.
I find myself crawling off the bed.. and I know Pippin can feel me doing so. I have to turn my head away from his eyes... For I know that I will be tempted to stay if I look any longer.
I clumsily stumble to the candle I had entered with- and quickly grab it before I head toward the door.
"Merry!" Pippin cries for the hobbit's appalling name... And despite my although unwilling, but still- need to leave... I stop.
"...I love you, Pippin." I say, trying my best to disguise my voice before I finally do leave... But even though I told him this as Merry... I, Frodo Baggins, love Peregrin Took.. with all of my heart.
I love him enough to let him have hope in Merry, and to have given Merry a chance.... And I love him enough to have left... even though I knew I could have had what I'd been wanting a long time if i had stayed.
....But there's something more from Pippin I want... -no... need.
His love in return.
To Be Continued.
This part was done in Frodo's point of view cause it was a lot easier then when I first tried it with the 'regular format'... I might go back if you guys have a problem with the story being in 1st person view..
But this part was really intended to redeem? Frodo, I suppose. It also dropped some hints... (if you didn't pick any up.. forget you read this! ;) )
aelfgifu: Hope this has helped in at least some of your wonderings. ;)
Diamond Took: :) Big and clean eh? How do you manage?
Pointy-Eared Archer: Yeah.. I know I wrote this story.. But.. I like Frodo a lot in here as well. :) lol
Natta: *hides*
nikbr: *whistles... quietly so Natta can't hear* ;)
Roz: Yay! Frodo restrainded himself! :)
redrose2310: Thanks for reading my fic... I hope you'll read the more to come! :)
And thanks to everyone who has reviewed. I'm sorry this part is awfully short... But yeah... Just so long as I have your guy's support- I'll keep posting. :)
