The Heart Gets What The Heart Wants

AN/ I don't own Criminal Minds. I apologize to some of the reviewers that I PMed back and said that this chapter would be up by Monday. My whole family became ill. Starting with my mother whom I take care of. Then my sister and her girls. And finally myself. I just got back from the ER. So please bare with me if there are any mistakes. I'm doing my best to make sure that you all get the chapters in a timely manner. But as I said before, life happens. So please accept my apology and please enjoy this chapter. Let me know what you think with a review or a PM. Thanks to all the faithful reader and reviewers. Take care you all.

Chapter 12

Aaron finished fairly quickly and carried JJ into the kitchen. Once he set her down in the chair next to Garcia, he hands her, her cell phone. JJ's a little reluctant to show anyone her in the process of being raped.

"Come on honey, show her." Aaron pats her on the shoulder.

"Could you guys leave us for a while. I might feel a little more at ease." JJ looks at both Aaron and Dave.

"Oh, God! This is bad." Garcia says to no one but herself.

"Sure babe. You call us if you need up. We'll be in the living room." Aaron says as he and Dave get out of the kitchen.

"Ok Gumdrop, spill." Garcia is almost scared to ask.

"This is hard for me to say. To you or anyone else. So please let me get this all out, then you can as questions." JJ nervously fiddles with her cell phone.

"Ok. I'm all ears. Spill." Garcia watches and can see that JJ feels uncomfortable. This makes Garcia scared and sad for JJ.

JJ takes a deep cleansing breath and begins. "After I graduated from the FBI training and had applied for this job, something happened. Something so bad I never told ANYONE." JJ was shaking. So Garcia grabs her hand to reassure her that she was going to be fine. JJ continued.

"My friend from college that got a job in another part of the FBI wanted to go out and celebrate." Garcia thought this was going to be a story of drunk driving and the killing of someone. And knowing Garcia's parents were killed by a drunk driver, she thought that JJ thought she would hater her. But she let JJ continue upon her request.

"Lucy and I went to the bar we usually did. She went to dance while I waited for our drinks. I ordered a beer in the bottle and Lucy had a mixed drink." This was when JJ's voice changed a little. "By the time I finished my ONE bottle of beer, I was dizzy and everything was blurry. I blacked out." Garcia knew she was wrong on her thoughts and was in internal panic mode. She didn't like the direction this was going in.

JJ looks at the table as she continues. "When I woke up a little bit later, there was a man holding my arms above my head. The other man ripped my cloths off." JJ pauses for a moment. "I passed out again. When I came to, the other man was raping me. I couldn't move." JJ was crying now. "I think I had passed out again. Because the next thing I remember was waking up on a bus stop bench a few blocks from my old apartment. I went to a clinic. But I found out that Lucy had been beaten, raped and dismembered. I was too afraid to say anything to anyone. Afraid that they would find me and kill me." As JJ finished, Garcia was crying and heart broken. She had no idea what to say to JJ. So she just pulled her into a tight hug.

"Oh my sweetness!" Garcia says, feeling JJ's body shaking with her sobs. "I'm so sorry. But why are you reliving this? Why are you telling me now? Why didn't you tell me sooner?" Garcia's mind is going a mile a minute. At least it was after the shock of the news wore off.

JJ pulls back and holds up her cell phone. "They managed to get to me on Friday. I was in the hospital getting the drug flushed out of my system yesterday. Then today, I get this picture sent to me. I don't want you to see this. B…but you need to trace it." JJ pushed the button and the image of JJ in the process of being raped come on the screen.

"OH GOD! Oh honey!" Garcia hugged her tighter, if possible. JJ seeing it again and she was sobbing again.

Though her tears, JJ asks, "Can you trace it? Please tell me you can do this so we can get those bastards. Not so much what they did to me, but for what they did to Lucy. They took her life, like she was nothing. She was my best friend. She was a lot like Pen. So vivacious and full of life. It nearly killed me to know that they hurt and disrespected her the way they did. That's why this job is hard sometimes. But you all make it a little easier. Please tell me you can trace this picture. If possible, please don't let anyone else see that picture. It's so degrading." JJ looks away from Garcia in shame.

"Gumdrop, you don't need to worry about anyone seeing it. You are so brave." Garcia says, wiping her tear stained cheeks.

JJ wipes her face dry. "Thanks Pen, but I'm not brave. There's nothing brave about losing a friend and having to deal with what they did to me. But I need to find out who did this to Lucy and I. They need to pay for what they did. I will be able to rest with ease." JJ takes a deep breath and exhales.

"Ok Cupcake, now watch me do my magic." Garcia says, sitting down at the table and types away at the keys.

Within seconds, Garcia had something. "I have found the cell phone in which it was taken and sent. It's a disposable cell. No way to track the person who bought it. Unless we can find out where he bought it. Then you might get a description and you can go from there. Do you remember anything that might help ID them?"

" I can tell you if they are the unsub if I listen to their voices. I know that the one that was on top of me had brown hair. I didn't have to focus too see the color." JJ says, looking distant in her eyes.

"Honey, why don't you take a break. I'll do a little searching. Why don't you go take a walk. Maybe send Agent Rossi back in. I could use his mind. But don't worry, he won't see the picture." Garcia smiles at her.

"Thanks Pen. I think I'm going to go take a relaxing bath. If you need me, I'll be in Aaron's larger garden tub." JJ says, trying to stand. "Ohh!" JJ winced in pain. Garcia sets her back down on the chair. Then Garcia goes to the door separating kitchen and living room. She calls out to Aaron.

"Hotch, can you carry JJ up to your large garden tub. She needs a nice soak and her ankle is bothering her." Garcia say, anxious to get JJ out of the kitchen so she could get down to business. Garcia really needed to be able to react and breakdown. But she didn't want to do it in front of JJ. Sure , she cried in front of JJ. But Garcia wanted to rant and rave and carry on without having to worry about JJ's feelings or JJ miss interrupting her actions.

Hotch and Rossi come into the kitchen. "Hey there. Do I hear someone wants to soak in my large garden tub? Because I can arrange that with no problem." Hotch gives a tiny smile. Then leans down and lifts JJ into his very strong arms. And he whisks her off to her bath of paradise.

Once Rossi knew they were out of ear range, he starts with the questions. "so, do you think you can do anything?"

Garcia is sitting at her computer typing away. She was trying to be a rock. But the water works started in her eyes and then she started shaking as sobs over took her body.

Rossi had no idea what to do. The first thing that came to mind was to hug her and try to calm her down. When he engulfed Garcia in his arms, she seemed to relax just a bit. But then she pulls back. "I'm so sorry Agent Rossi. I guess all this information and the picture has just thrown me for a loop. I tried to hold it in when I was around JJ" Garcia wipes her eyes and pulls herself together. "I got a hit right away. It's a disposable phone. And the only description I got from JJ was that the last time she woke up and the guy was on top of her, he had brown hair. She said she couldn't focus on anything specific. The other guy she can't say anything on. But if she heard their voices again she would know. So give me a few minutes to try to get a few possible tries here and then I can give you more info. I hope." Garcia's fingers went to work faster then anyone else Rossi had ever seen.

"Don't worry about anything Garcia. I know how I felt when I found out about what happened to JJ. And I saw the latest drugging. So you react whatever way you need to. Would you like something to drink or eat? I was going to go for a food/drink run. Hotch and JJ aren't allowed to leave the house, so I don't want to deplete their supplies. The police and I both think that Hotch and JJ are safest here." Rossi says, grabbing his care keys.

"I wouldn't mind a couple 2 liters of mountain dew and maybe a large Speedway French Vanilla Cappuccino. As for food, I would love a nice big chief salad. With ranch dressing." Garcia says, still plugging away at the computer.

"Ok, if they come down before I get back, tell them I'll be back shortly. I have my cell if there's an emergency or they need something else." Rossi says and heads out.