A/N:

Sorry it's taken so long to update! Here's chapter 12!

I woke up in the guest bedroom with the light once again right in my eyes.

I groaned and turned over, suddenly remembering what had happened the day before.

After a few more minutes I climbed out of bed and walked straight into the private bathroom before stripping off my clothes and getting into the shower.

I felt the hot water come down on me and I felt a little better instantly.

My mind wandered back to Damon.

I wished that I had never gone back to LA. Then maybe I wouldn't have had all the drama. Actually, no. I think it was all worth it…just to have Damon in my life again….At least for a little while.

I got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body. After towel drying my hair I stepped back out into the guest room and went to my suitcase.

Half an hour later I was walking down the stairs text Caroline.

To: Caroline

From: Elena

Has anyone blabbed to u yet?-E

To: Elena

From: Caroline

Blabbed about what?-C

To: Caroline

From: Elena

Damon and I broke up yesterday. :( For good.-E

To: Elena

From: Caroline

:( I hope it stops raining soon so that we can have a breakup night!-C

To: Caroline

From: Elena

Really, Care? Your best friend just went through a breakup and all you're thinking about is having a breakup night?-E

To: Elena

From: Caroline

Not just any breakup night, a double-breakup night! :D-C

I smirked and was just about to reply when I walked into someone.

"Sorry, I-" I looked up and my eyes locked with those gorgeous blue ones. I quickly looked away and walked off to the kitchen.

I bit my lip trying to hold back the tears stinging in my eyes as I entered the kitchen, where Jeremy and Anna sat.

"Are you okay? You didn't come out of your room all day yesterday." Jeremy asked me.

"I'm fine." I replied as I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge.

"You don't have to pull that around us, you know. I'm your brother and Anna is your friend and my girlfriend not to mention carrying my child, so if you want to talk about it you can." Jeremy told me.

"Jeremy, I don't want to talk about it. That's the point." I said.

"So you're just gonna let it go like nothing happened?" Anna asked.

"It's better for everyone that way. The three of us will go back to New York as soon as this storm is over and then I'm going to start the new movie and everything will be normal again." I replied.

Jeremy and Anna looked at each other and then back at me. "We're actually thinking of moving back here before the baby's born…"

I choked on my water. 'Just great.' I thought. Everywhere Jeremy was, I would be. That's just the way it was.

"Look, our lives don't revolve around you. Being here is best for the baby. If we need any help with the baby while Anna is in school then we'll have Jenna and Ric or Bonnie or Caroline or Rebekah and Stefan or Anna's mom…It'll just be easier." Jeremy told me.

"No, it's fine." I assured them. "I agree that it will be best for the baby this way. And if you guys are gonna move back here, then I'm moving back here, too. I want to see my niece or nephew grow up to be just as awesome as its parents'." I said, forcing a smile before walking out of the kitchen.

I walked right past Damon in the living room, trying to pretend he wasn't there.

"You're really going to pretend that I don't exist?" I heard him asked.

"Yep." I replied as I darted up the stairs.

It was true. I was going to just pretend like he wasn't there and stay as far away from him as possible until we left.

And why should he care? He was the one that broke it off in the first place! Granted, I did start it, but still!

I couldn't help that every time I looked at him I felt the hurt all over again. It's not like I wanted to feel that way.

I just wished that he had never slept with Katherine. Then none of it would be happening and we could've even been married by then.

I stood in front of the window in the guestroom and listened to the soft sound of the rain.

The clouds obviously hated me.

I fell back onto the bed and just laid there, staring at the ceiling trying to figure out whatever was going on in my head.

One part of me wanted to work it out, but I was afraid that I'd just end up hurting him even more. The other part of me was telling me to cut him out of my life.

I really wanted to hate him, but I couldn't…

"Elena?" I heard Jeremy say. I turned around and saw him standing in the doorway.

"Hey." I replied.

"I've been trying to get you to hear me for the past five minutes." He told me, stepping further into the room.

I sighed. "Sorry, I was just…deep in thought."

"Elena…I think you should talk to Damon." Jeremy said hesitantly.

"That's the thing, I'm sick of talking! I'm sick of trying to work things out!" I replied as I sat down on the bed.

"Well you have to do something!" He told me. "We are all stuck in this house and if you guys are going to be fighting the entire time it's going to be worse for everyone."

"We're not even fighting. We're just avoiding each other." I replied.

"Whatever. Just do something." He said before leaving the room.

I could tell that Jeremy was getting frustrated with the constant back and forth, but he didn't know what I was going through.

No one did.

Well, technically Matt did, but he was never actually cheated on, he just thought he was. But I guess if he believed that it had actually happened then his pain was just as real as mine was.

I suddenly heard Alexis crying. I tried to ignore it, but when four minutes passed and she was still crying I left the guestroom.

I walked down the hall until I reached Alexis room and entered the pink and purple room.

Alexis was sitting on the floor crying, clutching her blanket as if it was about to be taken away from her.

I kneeled down in front of her. "Hey, sweetie." I smiled. "Are you okay?" I asked her.

She looked up at me with her gigantic ocean blue eyes and stared at me.

"It's okay." I cooed, brushing some of her blonde curls out of her face. She gave me a shy smile.

I sat down next to her, leaning against the wall, and lifted her into my lap.

I started to sing softly as I french braided her surprisingly long blonde hair.

"You were always so good with kids." I heard a familiar voice say.

I looked up and saw Damon leaning against the door frame. I sighed and went back to braiding Alexis' hair.

"She's a sweet kid." I said.

"Yeah, she is." He agreed.

"She's two now, right?" I asked him as I wrapped a hair tie around the bottom of the braid. He nodded.

A few minutes went by and neither of us said anything.

"Can I ask you something?" I asked him suddenly.

"Sure." He replied.

"Why did you stay with me if you knew that I couldn't have children? I mean, you've always wanted kids." I asked.

He smirked. "Sometimes love is more important than how you thought your life was gonna be."

"But having children is a pretty legitimate this to want. It's not like it's a totally crazy dream or something." I said, finally looking up at him.

Damon sighed. "I guess I always thought that somehow we'd adopt, or surrogacy, or miracle."

"I never thought you would be someone that believes in miracles." I told him.

"I didn't used to." He replied.

"Neither did I." I said.

I looked down and saw that Alexis was drifting off to sleep. I smiled and stood up before laying her down on her little bed. I smiled down at her before walking out of the room, pushing past Damon roughly.

I knew I was still acting kind of hot and cold, but I was so confused that I couldn't act any way else.

I walked into my guestroom and picked up my guitar.

Hello, hello

Anybody out there? Cause I don't hear a sound

Alone, alone

I don't really know where the world is but I miss it now

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name

Like a fool at the top of my lungs

Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright

But it's never enough

Cause my echo, echo

Is the only voice coming back

Shadow, shadow

Is the only friend that I have

Listen, listen

I would take a whisper if that's all you had to give

But it isn't, is it?

You could come and save me and try to chase the crazy right out of my head

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name

Like a fool at the top of my lungs

Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright

But it's never enough

Cause my echo, echo

Is the only voice coming back

Shadow, shadow

Is the only friend that I have

I don't wanna be an island

I just wanna feel alive and

Get to see your face again

I don't wanna be island

I just wanna feel alive and

Get to see your face again

But 'til then

Just my echo, my shadow

You're my only friend and I'm

I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name

Like a fool at the top of my lungs

Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright

But it's never enough

Cause my echo, echo

Oh my shadow, shadow

Hello, hello

Anybody out there?

A/N:

There's chapter 12! I'm sorry if this thing with Elena going back and forth is starting to annoy you, but I just wanted to sort of make it known how confused she is about everything.
And by the way, all the songs I've put on here(except for The Scientist by Coldplay) have been on TVD. I thought it'd make more sense that way.
-Nina