And here it is! Truth be told i was very sad writing this chapter. I hope you amazing readers like it! I dont own SPN.
Balthazar pulled Cas inside and hugged him.
"Shh, Cassie everything will be alright. Absolutely everything." Balthazar cooed in his ear.
"What were y-y-ou guys fi-gh-ghting about?" Cas asked, stuttering between tears. Balthazar sighed.
"You Cassie-darling. Raphael doesn't like how close we are. Said a lot of nasty things and I dumped him. That's when you walked in. C'mon Cassie." Balthazar dragged him to the couch and sat him down. "I'll make some tea."
"He ju-jumped me," Cas said. Tears still pouring from his eyes. Balthazar froze.
"What," he said fiercely.
"Ra-Raphael. About tw-two years ago." Balthazar put the kettle on the stove and walked slowly back to Castiel.
"Bloody hell. That's when you stopped coming over as much. Cassie why didn't you tell me? For the love of God Castiel," he whispered. Cas looked at his hands.
"You loved each other. Who am I to stand in the way?" He said, breaking the icy quiet.
"Castiel Jimmy Novak! You have been my best friend since I was six years old. You've been there through thick and thin. When I came out, when I moved to England. No matter what you were there. Cassie I was in love with you for years. Years! Before I realized that it wasn't meant to be. I was starved for a human connection and I latched on to you. I moved on and met Raphael and now you tell me he jumped you. He fucking jumped you? He knew exactly what you were to me. You were my best friend and one of the most important people in my life. You are the only one who could stand in the way." Balthazar paced the room throughout his speech. The kettle began to whistle and he went to make Cas a large mug of black tea. He handed the mug to Cas and sat on the couch next to him. "Now tell me what happened before I go and find Raphael."
Cas's body was shaken with sobs. A fresh wave brought on my Balthy's speech. Balthy reached around and pulled Cas close. Cooing until he no longer shook. Cas sipped his tea and relaxed a little.
"Dea-an," he said. His voice cracked.
"What happened Cassie?" Balthazar asked.
"Lisa showed up, his ex who cheated and is pregnant with someone else's kid. That's why we went to the bar. He had to deal with it. I was upset that she showed up. That he hadn't dealt with anything yet. But when we left the bar, we opened to door to find them kissing. I couldn't deal with it. I couldn't. " Cas buried his head in Balthazar's shoulder.
"So you ran." Balthazar finished. Cas nodded.
"I didn't tell you about what ha-happened with Uriel." Cas continued.
"Shh Cassie. You don't have to tell me now." Balthazar was crushed. Castiel was so broken. The damn he had built up was completely gone and everything was flooding out.
"He tried to k-kill me Balthy. It wasn't a b-bad brea-eakup. He attacked me wi-with a knife." Castiel went silent and hugged Balthazar tighter. Balthazar's breath caught.
"Meg said you scared him away. You fought back didn't you. You fought back and he ran." Cas nodded into his chest. Balthazar was broken. His little Cassie. His little angel was broken and damaged. And he couldn't put his back together again. All he could do was hold him until he couldn't cry anymore. "C'mon Cassie. We are making a fort of pillows and blankets and watching Firefly." Cas smiled weakly, but stood. Balthazar led him into the bed room and grabbed and armful of pillows. Balthazar always had just the right amount of pillows, millions. "Change into something and grab the blankets." He called walking out the door.
Balthazar dropped the pillows and pulled out his phone.
From:Balthy
To:Gabe, Sam
Cassie is here. Don't come. He needs time.
He slipped his phone is his pocket and walked over to his movie cabinet. He quickly browsed the shelved until he found the complete season of Firefly.
"Balthazar Roche you are too damn rich." Cassie called walking into the living room with an arm full of blankets. He had on a pair of baggy sweats and nothing else.
"Yes I am Cassie. Now c'mon it's time to snuggle and weep over lost loves." Cas stopped and looking at Balthazar questioningly. "Yeah, no that sounded overly flamboyant, even for me." Cas laughed and crawled into the mass of blankets. Balthazar flicked off the lights and crawled in next to him. He hit play and let Cas curl into his side. For once he wasn't the one who needed a companion. Cas finally needed him. Cas was asleep in minutes, clinging to Balthazar. He had felt his phone buzz, but had waited to reach for it.
From: Gabe
To: Balthy
Did he tell you what happened. Don't let him run Balthazar, I can't lose him.
Balthazar sighed. He wouldn't let Cas run. Not again.
From: Sam
To: Balthy
Keep him there. It's best if he stays away from things for a while.
Yea. Castiel needs to think about himself for once. Balthazar put his phone away and curled into Cas. Ready for a night of sleep.
A loud bang woke Cas. He jerked awake to another loud bang. Balthazar was curled under the blankets, his arms latched onto Cas. Cas untangled himself and walked to the door. There was another bang and Cas threw open the door.
"Took you long enough!" Gabe growled. He stopped and his eyes went wide. "Was I interrupting something?" Cas's head tilted to the side, before he remembered what he was wearing. He looked down and found the sweats had moved low on his hips and he could only imagine what his hair looked like.
"Yes you were. I was sleeping." Cas growled back. Cas opened the door wider and found Sam standing behind Gabe. "Might as well come in," he said walking back to the living room. Sam and Gabe shuffled into the apartment. Balthazar was beginning to stir beneath his blankets. Sam's eyebrows shot up.
"Having a sleepover I see," Gabe commented. Cas growled.
"Balthazar get up. You have guests." Cas nudged the heaping mass of blankets with his foot. It groaned.
"Tell them to go away," Balthazar grumbled. Gabe gasped with mock hurt.
"Fine I see how it is. C'mon Samsquatch we can grace Lucifer with our presence." Gabe turned on his heels and sighed loudly.
"Oh shut up you big baby. Candy is in the cupboard above the coffee pot." Balthazar said, throwing off his blankets. Sam took in his appearance. He was still in his jeans and soft grey v-neck. Best friends till the end. Never anything more. "Sam, make us coffee." He ordered.
"Why me?" Sam grumbled. Cas looked at his best friend and smiled.
"Cause you just showed up. And uninvited guests make me damn coffee." Balthazar hissed. Gabe chuckled as he pawed through his massive bag of candy. Sam gave Balthazar his best bitch face and began making coffee. Cas had just sat in one of Balthazar's many armchairs when his phone began to ring. It was muffled from all the blankets, but the Harry Potter theme rang clear. Sam, Gabe, and Balthazar all froze.
"Hiding a secret obsession are we Cassie?" Gabe asked. Cas threw him an angry look and began searching for his phone. He finally found it under all of the blankets.
"Hey Charlie," He said.
Castiel Novak where are you?!
"Calm down Charlie. What's going on?" Cas was worried. Had something happened?
Dean has been really frantic trying to find you and Sam. Called everyone.
"Oh okay. That's nothing we're together." Cas had gone cold. He didn't want to hear about him.
Uh huh. Okay so what are you wearing to the ball?
"The ball? What ball?
Professor Barns's ball. It's tomorrow night.
"Oh shit. I totally forgot!" Cas exclaimed. Gabe, Sam, and Lucifer all looked around.
So did you decide who you're bringing?
"Yea, Balthazar, and I guess I'm wearing a tux, I guess."
Balthazar huh? So what happened?
"Nothing Charlie. I'll tell you later okay?"
So something did happen huh? Tell me Cassie!
"Charlie I will see you and Jo tomorrow. Remember to look hot."
Bye Castiel!
Cas hung up the phone and looked around. They were all staring at him.
"What about me?" Balthazar asked, breaking the silence.
"You my friend, are my date for tomorrow." Cas answered standing up, and making his way to the cramped kitchen space.
"Oh right tomorrow is Pam's Ball thing. I thought I was going?" Sam asked.
"I wanna go with Cassie!" Gabe whined. Cas groaned.
"Do you ever not whine?" He growled.
"Nope," Gabe grinned and shoved a piece of chocolate in his mouth. Sam laughed.
"Here's a lovely idea, why don't we all go?" Balthazar drawled.
"My invite is only a plus one," Cas countered.
"What's the ball called?" Balthazar asked.
"Uh… I don't know. All the mythology and ancient history professors get together along with their top students. Balls have names?" Cas asked. His head tilted to the side. Balthazar smiled. He might not have feelings for Cas anymore, but it would not be hard to find them again.
"Well I can score one invite. That's about it." Balthazar said thoughtfully.
"Well Gabe gets that one. Sam you should call Chuck, I very highly doubt he has a date," Cas said. He reached up to the top shelf and grabbed a mug. Balthazar turned slightly pink. Cas's sweats now rode even lower on his hips. Gabe smirked.
"Cassie, go get some damn clothes on, you're making us uncomfortable." Gabe said nonchalantly. Balthazar shot him a murderous look, causing Sam to snort. Cas turned around and looked at the three, his head tilted to the side.
"What?" He asked.
"Nothing Cas, go put a shirt on and I'll call Chuck," Sam said with a reassuring smile. Cas shrugged and nodded. He poured his cup of coffee and went to Balthazar's bedroom.
"Smooth Balthazar," Gabe jabbed. Balthazar turned even more pink. Sam snorted again and smiled.
"It's not his fault. Cas is Mr. Sex, according to you," Sam returned. Gabe scowled and Balthazar began to laugh.
"Okay okay, c'mon Samsquatch, we have a small man to woo, and tuxes to buy." Gabe scowled. Sam nodded and shook Balthazar's hand.
"Keep him safe Balthazar," he whispered. Gabe sent him another murderous look. The meaning was simple, 'Loose him and die.' Balthazar smiled.
"See you guys tomorrow," He said as they walked out the door. Cas returned to the kitchen, now with a shirt, as Balthazar closed the door.
"I totally put a shirt on for nothing didn't I?" Cas groaned. Balthazar smiled.
"Pretty much mate," he said. "Now, let's delve into my super spectacular closet and find us something for tomorrow!" Cas smiled and followed Balthazar into the bedroom.
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