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Bella POV
The drive down to La Push was shorter then I was hoping for. Eli and Masen had fallen asleep in their car seats and the silence was pulling me under. I tried to replay the last couple of days in my mind to figure out how I ended up were I was.
Jake had an imprint, he kept it from me, I threw myself at him and that was when he told me, we fought, we yelled I told him to get out, he told me he was staying. He wanted to stay to protect us, I didn't want him to stay at my house. I came up with a plan to take them to Charlie's, Jake still insisted on staying.
I didn't want Jake to stay with me, I wanted out of this mess as soon as possible. There was no way that I was going to let my lying, cheating, self absorbed, arrogant, stupid, husband stay with me, I could just picture is now:
Hey Jake sweetie how was your day? Oh spent all day with your imprint and then did patrol with the pack then felt obligated to come over here and protect me? How sweet of you.
No thanks.
I didn't need protected. As long as Eli and Masen were protected then I could live. I sighed that's why I was driving to La Push, so Charlie and Sue could watch them. I already called down and told my dad what happened. Well basically…I told him that Jake and I were having problems. That his assumptions about Jake were basically right and that I was wondering if he could watch the kids until we figured out what to do next.
After a long string of profanity and then silence, he agreed that the kids didn't need to be in the middle of a soon to be very messy divorce. Divorce…the word made me shudder. So Charlie and Renee were right all along, I did marry too young and I was going to end up just like them. I didn't have the heart to call Renee yet. I felt like I was five again. All I want is my mommy, but I couldn't disturb her with my problem. Her and Phil just had a little baby boy and the last thing they needed was me calling up and ruining their picture perfect life.
I turned on to Charlie's road and saw their little white house sitting nestled into the woods. I turned off the car and just sat there wondering why my life wasn't like this.
When Charlie married Sue, I thought it was the perfect time to move out of the house and move to La Push. I wanted to feel like I belonged there. Then Charlie offered us the house and Jake took the offer without hesitation. That's when for the first time I felt stuck.
I saw Charlie walk out of the house and Sue was right behind him. I opened my car door, opened up the back door and woke the twins up. They both rubbed their eyes and glanced over at Charlie.
"Mommy are we going to see Pappy and Mammy? I want to go home and wolf with daddy some more first." Masen said rubbing his eyes some more.
"Mommy I want to stay Pappy and Mammy's please?!" Eli said clapping her hands.
Sue and Charlie came over to the car as Masen was climbing out and I was helping Eli out. I grabbed their bags from the trunk and bent down in front of them.
"Ok babies. Mommy and daddy have some adult things that we need to talk about. So you two are going to be staying with Pappy and Mammy. Uncle Seth and Aunt Leah will be here too, so Masen you can play wolf with Uncle Seth. And Eli, Aunt Leah and Mammy and you can bake and read stories, ok?"
They both just shook their heads, and then Sue came over and took them inside. I didn't want to cry in front of Charlie. I didn't want him to know that I was a failure and that my marriage was falling apart.
"Bells, please tell me what happened? He didn't get physical with you did he?"
I couldn't say anything. I knew as soon as the words left my mouth that I'd start crying.
"Bella? Please? Was is about this girl down on the reservations? Did he cheat on you?"
I had to say something, I didn't want this to be repeat of when Edward left.
"Dad its too hard to explain. He got in a fight, he told me that he was cheating, but he couldn't help it. He didn't get physical. We just….yelled a lot."
I wanted to tell him about how we should of never gotten married. After I had the twins I should of just left Jake and been independent. I should of known I was his imprint, I never loved him enough.
"What do you mean he couldn't help it? Cheating is cheating Bella. Are you guys getting a divorce? Please tell me you are going to fight for custody of the twins. Jesus Bella, I should of fought harder about you getting married."
There was that word again, divorce. I loathed that word so much, that word has been haunting me since my mom escaped from Forks with me.
"I mean, that he was dating someone I guess you could say, he said he didn't have sex with her, he was at Sam;s one day and he saw her and it just happened. Of course we're getting a divorce! I can't stay with him. And I'd fight like hell to keep the twins dad. I'm their mother, they need me. I just need….well I need to get my head clear. I brought them about two weeks of clothes, some toys and books. Eli's pink blankets in there and so is Masen's stuffed wolf."
Just thinking about being separated from my babies for two weeks made my heart ache. I hope I can come back from them sooner, but as long as Victoria's out there and the house is unprotected they can't be there.
"Bella, did he cheat on you because of Edward being back? I mean he didn't think that you were, er seeing him again did he?"
Is that what people at La Push thought, that this was my fault? I was sneaking around to see Edward so he got a chance to sneak around on me? Heaven forbid that perfect Jacob Black does something wrong.
I couldn't take it anymore. I threw my arms around Charlie's shoulders and started bawling my eyes out. I felt his arms shift and felt his rough hands rubbing along my back trying to calm me.
"I swear it wasn't because of Edward being back daddy." I said between sobs. I haven't called Charlie "daddy" since I told him I was pregnant. I wanted to see Edward now. I wanted him to make it all ok. But at the hospital he walked away from me again.
"I know baby girl, no one blames you. I'm just sorry it had to end like this." He whispered into my ear.
No one thought that yet, but I'm sure that's what everyone in Forks is going to be thinking very soon.
"Me too daddy, I didn't want it to end like this." I said and continued crying all over his flannel shirt and really hoping I would run into this Danica girl that destroyed my life.
A/N: hey guys sorry its been awhile. I got caught up in family gatherings and some personal issues. Hope everyone had a good Christmas and got everything they wanted! I told Santa to put to a naked Cullen boy under everyone's tree I swear! Reviews are always welcomed and loved! I'll try to update as soon as possible!
