Heyy.

As always I hope you enjoy this chapter and yea!

Just a note:

I recently started to write in the third person. So if I happen to change POV's in the middle of the story, I'm sorry.


Songs For this Chapter Are:

Florence and the Machine - Heavy in your arms

Florence and the Machine - Breath of Life


Clary POV

I couldn't see.

I couldn't hear.

I couldn't think.

I couldn't blink.

I couldn't taste.

I could barley breathe.

She might be gone.

Completely.

Like she was never there, she'd never be there again.

Everything and everybody would go on like she never existed, cause she'd never exist again.

She'd die, and be dead.

She'd stay dead.

I'd never get to hear her giggle again.

Never get to take prom pictures for her.

Never give her awkward talks that would only bring us closer.

Never get to tell her how much a I really love her.

She'd never be in love.

Never get married.

Never have kids and feel the way about a child the way I feel for her.

Jace would never be able to scare off boys for her.

Never pick her up when she falls down, literally, and metaphorically.

Never walk her down the asile.

Me and Jace would never be able to sign the papers for that thing we'd talked about.

Never call her ours.


? POV

Was I ready?

Had I had enough?

I was so close to darkness, but I have to hold on. My thoughts are all I have. I'm living in memories.

Physically idle, I couldn't let my thoughts wander to dreams then to nothings. I had to concentrate on the light.

Darkness would claim me if dreams became my reality, then I would be noting but shadow.

Shadow, only darkness, coldness. Surrounded by sun, and light, warmth, and happiness.

Death could claim me.

But would it?


Sorry...

I just really wanted to put this in a chapter...

I'm giving an explanation to the ? POV to the first 5 reviewers.

Chapter 13 will be a long one for all of you who are suffering ( Sorry :) )

I really want all of the people who have followed, favorited, or reviewed, thank you. Really without you guys I wouldn't be here and everytime you do one of those things I go fucking crazy because you guys are just amazing! :D :p

Thanks for reading and I hope , you enjoyed this story so far. It's not gonna be over for a while, we still have a ways to go!

Thanks and, I'll see you next time

oh and can any oh you under stand the ? POV?

Bye!