Hello everyone,
the next chapter of 'A song to change worlds' and this time with cover image
Yay! Our black and white couples. Originally three but the third one is from K and just in the way.
Disclaimer: I don't either of These four or anything from DGM world for that matter.
Allen's POV
So I don't get any chance to speak to my fellow exorcist for the whole time we are on sea. At the end I am exasperated over his behaviour and that Shion and Nezumi are inseparable now doesn't actually help the case. That results in me having headaches from the constant thinking, adding to the normal uneasiness you get on sea. I can't contact the HQ from here and I doubt anyone could or would help me (at the risk of Kanda's wrath).
Before we get off the ship (Nezumi actually made a jump out of joy when we saw the shore) I have to talk to the two about something. So I pull them aside, some steps away from Kanda.
"Nezumi, Shion. I need to talk to you for a moment."
They nod and look at me apprehensively.
I scratch the back of my head sheepishly, trying to find the right words. "Well… You know… I know you two are a couple now and I am really happy for you, but… I want to advise you to keep it a secret once we are back on land."
They look at me surprised and it's Shion who asks, "Why?"
"You see… I don't know how the society in your time thinks of same gender relationships, but here it's considered a crime, a sin. And if you are found out you risk being captured or even killed."
Now their expression changed to shocked. I continue.
"As long as you are only with me and Kanda, it's completely fine. We don't really care and…" I exchange a glance with Shion, "I just ask that you try not to show it when there are more people other than us or our friends around."
They nod and I am relieved, at least that problem is out of the way. Nonetheless it brings me back to my thoughts about Kanda and me. We could never live together, because our world wouldn't accept it.
I am interrupted in my thoughts by the loud crash the bridge makes as it connects to the port. Kanda is the first to get off, shoving a sailor out of the way, who shouts curses after him, but is ignored. Nezumi is the next, hurrying to get steady ground again. Shion chuckles next to me. When I want to follow the ravens he grabs my sleeve.
"Allen… Have you… Have you talked to Kanda?"
I shake my head softly, "No… Well a bit, but if you mean if I confessed, no I didn't. The one evening after you two got together we spoke, but after he talked about someone from his past he got angry like always and since then he has been avoiding me."
"Hmm… Maybe you should try to ask him about his past and… "
But I cut him off, "Do you know everything about Nezumi's past? No, you don't! So don't expect me to question Kanda about his, apparently painful one." I yell at him, losing my mask for a moment like I do when I'm with Kanda himself.
Shion regards me with wide eyes, startled. I sigh and run a hand through my white locks.
"I am sorry. I shouldn't have shouted at you like that. It's just that I am tired and I have a headache. I lost control over my voice. I apologize." I bow to him slightly.
He shakes his head, though still looking stunned by my outburst. "It's okay. I shouldn't have probed so much. Apparently one's past is a critical subject in the Order and who doesn't live there doesn't understand."
I nod, relieved that he isn't mad, "Thank you for understanding. Now, shouldn't we go? Nezumi and Kanda are looking at us…" I say motioning to the ravens staring towards us. Nezumi has a curious expression and Kanda is angry as ever.
When we get off as well, Shion flings himself in Nezumi's arms, who laughs slightly. Kanda turns away with a 'che' and I smile.
We depart immediately, it's only 10 o'clock in the morning after all and we have to catch our train. The last train we take, by the way. Another two days ride and after that three to five days walking because there is no connection to the area we are heading for.
We don't speak much on the train. Nezumi is still recovering from the ship or is too busy with Shion. Between Shion and me is a bit of awkward tension left. And Kanda keeps up his avoiding atmosphere so silence lingers over our cabin. I try the whole journey to somehow talk to Kanda, get closer to him, but he neglects me basically every time.
After we descended the train Kanda wants to start the travel to the area immediately but I insist on getting food first. Obviously that ends in us getting into an argument. And regarding the tenseness which had been apparent the last days it results in an all-out fight even with our weapons activated. In the end Shion and Nezumi literally have to restrain us to avoid the destruction of our surroundings.
Of course after that the atmosphere grows even tenser. Shion tries to lighten the mood but is not successful at all. That results in him becoming gloomy. Nezumi is doing his best to comfort him but since we are still in the city he is not allowed to do what he wants to.
We leave the restaurant and head out in complete silence. Nezumi is worried about Shion, while he is in a gloomy mood because Kanda and I can't get along. Kanda is scowling, isolating himself. And I am a bit sad as the other exorcist apparently hates me.
Not late in the second day the tension is finally broken. In a bad way. My left eye twitches, it found enemies. Before I can say anything Kanda has already disappeared from our side. He jumped at them and started slashing without even looking back for a moment. This reaction is too hot-headed even for him. Something is wrong, it appears he is bothered. I just hope he doesn't overdo it and hurts himself.
I motion at Nezumi and Shion to get into safety, joining my companion. The akuma are lower level and the ones on my side are fast defeated. I just hope Kanda hasn't a hard time either.
I have my back to him when I suddenly hear a gasp from him and something crashes into my back. I land on the ground, coughing from the impact. But before I can push whatever it is off, 'it' or rather he jumps off by himself and I recognize the 'object' that hit me, as Kanda.
"Kanda! Are you okay? What happened?" I yell at him worried.
"Che. Just fine, moyashi!" he growls refusing to meet my gaze. And without another word he sets off for the enemy again. Now I can also see why he's having problems as I recognize the akuma behind him as level 4.
"I will help you!" I shout getting myself from the ground. Although he said he was fine I can see blood dripping from his side.
We have a hard time fighting the akuma, this level is still fairly high even for our skills. Nonetheless together we are able to push it back more and more. Still we are not able to stay unharmed. I do my best to shield my body with the Crown Clown but Kanda is receiving the blows directly. Most of the hits get to his side, shoulders or back. He is bleeding now and his hair has come loose as well.
Before I can ask him about his injuries I hear a cry from behind. When I turn I see an akuma, level 2, hovering in front of Nezumi and Shion. My eyes grow wide, I start to panic. What now? I can help the two but for that I would have to leave Kanda alone with the level 4 and I am not sure how good he will be able to deal with this. But if I don't go, Nezumi and Shion will die.
Suddenly I feel being shoved in the direction of the two. I turn, surprised to see Kanda staring at me.
"Go!" I hear his loud voice, "Save them! I will deal with this one!"
"But…" I want to disagree, but he just gives me a hit in the back with the sheath of Mugen.
"I said go! I will be fine! Now hurry!"
I give up and with a last glance head towards the other two. I cut the monster at the last moment before something happens to the couple. When I land I hear a scream of pain. I shoot around, frightened what I will see.
"Kanda!" I shout terrified. As I look at him I see Mugen, in his two illusion form, buried deep in the akuma. It explodes the second after in a screech. But I also see the blood dripping from my friend's back. Two crossing deep wounds are producing a constant amount of blood running down his coat and colouring his blueish hair dark with the red stain.
I see him loose his balance after the akuma disappeared and fall backwards. I run over, shouting his name, and catch him just before he hits the ground. His eyes are closed and he is breathing heavily as well. Though that only lasts for a minute as he reopens his black orbs fast, looking at me with disdain.
"What are you doing, baka moyashi?" he growls angrily, shoving me aside and trying to stand up, though he sways terribly and nearly loses balance again. I catch him but he swats me away another time.
"Che. Go looking after the other two idiots! I will be fine! The wounds will heal!" he scoffs unfriendly.
I watch him worried but his gaze tells me not to disobey. So I shoot him a last glance before I walk over to Nezumi and Shion.
When I arrive they are holding each other close, kissing. I sigh. I understand that they were nearly killed just now, but do they have to do that now? I clear my throat and they jump away from each other. Shion blushes furiously as he notices me and even Nezumi can't hide a slight red on his cheeks.
"Are you hurt somewhere?" I ask, sighing again.
I can't stop myself to think that it's unfair. They have each other and are showing that off in front of me, while I have to worry about the life of the one I love and he isn't even noticing me. At least not in a good way. I know I really shouldn't think that but I can't help it.
I shake myself out of these thoughts when I hear Nezumi answer. "No, everything is fine. Nothing happened to us. Thank you." I nod.
Shion, still red, glances behind me and then asks cautiously, "Ahem, Allen… I don't want to be inappropriate… But shouldn't you be with Kanda? He seems injured."
I turn my head, a sad look in my eyes, "Yes, I know. But he shooed me away, telling me to take care of you…"
The white head lays a hand on my shoulder, while Nezumi shoots glances between us, trying to figure out what he is missing. "I think you should go over to him. He needs you now. You should look after him…"
I look down but nod, stand up and turn the other way. I take a deep breath. It hitches in my throat when I see Kanda. He is sitting, his back to me, and I can see his wounds. It's amazing that he can even keep conscious regarding the amount of blood he is losing. I walk over to him, it seems he doesn't even notice me. That's also a sign that he is in a bad condition and my chest tightens. When I see him wince in pain as he inspects his injuries I lay a hand on his shoulder. He shoots around, glaring at me though it's weaker than usual.
Before he can scoff I speak at him gently, "Let me treat your wounds. You need all your strength to keep yourself up and some of your injuries are on your back so you can't reach them."
He looks at me angrily and tries to disagree: "I am fine by myself, moyashi! I…"
But I cut him off, sighing. "Yes, I know. You are strong. Nobody doubts that. But it doesn't make you weaker to let someone else help you sometimes. So sit still and let me tend to your wounds!"
He grumbles some curses but turns around again. I am actually surprised that I could convince him so easily. I guess he must be really exhausted. But I won't complain. I am happy he lets me do it (and lets me touch him; yes, I know, pervert).
So I pull out some ointment and bandages. He stiffens when I first touch his back but relaxes in the process while I wipe the blood away, apply the medicine and bandage him. Actually I realize at the end that he is more relaxed than he usually is. It is a calm situation, none of us speaks, we only stay in the other's presence. Noting his relaxed stance I don't immediately retreat my hands after I am finished and just let them rest on his back for a moment. Unconsciously he leans a bit in to my touch, making me smile softly.
When he realizes what he is doing he shoots up, staggering away, not looking me in the eye. I can also spot a (very) slight blush on his cheeks. He appears to be at a loss of words, casting his look down. He mumbles something that resembles a 'thanks' and stomps away. I smile after him.
After that I take care of my own wounds and adding another short time for us exorcists to gather some strength back, we continue our journey. We keep on walking, only making a short stop at noon, until in the evening I notice Kanda is having problems keeping up. I can see him stumbling and even though he is doing very well at hiding it I can see that he is in pain. So I nudge Shion and Nezumi.
"I think we should stop for today. We covered enough distance." And I add whispering so Kanda won't hear me, "And I don't think Kanda can take it much longer…"
They look shortly at him and both nod. "Okay, good idea."
So that's it for today. Thanks for reading!
Yes, I injured Kanda again and it's not gonna be the last time. Apparently I kinda enjoy torturing the ravens. Sorry ;)
Anyway, does anyone know if you can buy the novels for either DGM or No.6?
Well, thanks and see you next chapter.
