Hallo guys :) Sorry that it's taken me AGES to update. I've been writing Harry Potter non-stop so then I decided to take a break from writing. AND NOW I HAVE RETURNED! I have just one question for you lot: how often do you want me to update? (And don't say everyday! :P )

This chappie's in Lily's POV! Thanks for all your votes and reviews!

Chapter 12's song: Anti-D by The Wombats (My favourite song ever right now!)


EastEnders: 15 Years Later

Chapter 12

Anti-D

*Plays EastEnders Theme Tune*

They tell me it's not – we all know they're wrong though. Because it really is my fault that mum's back in hospital this time. She couldn't handle me; I sent her over the edge. I made her worry. I made her angry. I made her cry. I made her ill.

And now she wants me to go and visit her! No, I'm not bloody going to see her because it was my fault! Why can't anyone else see that? The answer is simple: they're stupid. 'Go and see her, Lily! She wants to see you, Lily!' Gran says. Now I stay away from her aswell, in case I make her ill too.

I'm pretty sure I've done something to annoy Felicity. She's been really quiet lately, ever since Tasha went to. . . hang on a minute! Where the hell has Tasha gone? I haven't seen her since Sunday and it's Thursday now. I'll ask Liss at some point. If I can actually be bothered to go and find her.

So here I am sat in this horribly plain office, looking around the room while Mrs Led drones on about treating teachers and pupils with respect. If I'm honest, she looks a lot like a witch. The corner of my mouth twitches upwards as I picture her on a broomstick, cackling madly but she uses her dark magic to sense my amusement. "Do you find this funny, Miss Slater?"

"Huh?"

"Have you been listening to a word I have just said?" she snaps.

"Yes I've listening to several words you have just said,"

"Which are?"

"Have you been listening to a word I have just said?" I parrot her, wiping the smirk from my face.

"Excuse me?"

"That's what you said, Ma'am,"

"I've had enough of you and your insolence! I'm going to bring in your parents immediately!"

"My mum's in hospital though."

"I have been informed of that already but your father and stepmother are not," she smiles smugly.

"Do not even think about lettin' that faggot come anywhere near me!" I snarl, folding my arms.

She picks up the phone, not taking her cold grey eyes of me for a moment; she knows I'll do something if she does. Headteacher's are just smart arse's like that. The world would definitely be a better place without them, don't you agree? And their voices are so posh and fake. They're just about the most stuck-up people you'll ever regret meeting.

We sit in silence. All I can hear is the sound of the clock ticking. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. I sit here, looking blankly out of the window, waiting for Ryan and Janine to arrive. He'll look down at me like I'm a bit of chewing gum stuck to the sole of his shoe. She'll scrape me off and fling me in the bin. And he won't remember me, I was just that annoying little speck that he couldn't wait to get rid of. The look on her face – I can picture it already; smug little witch. A lot like Mrs Led I suppose.

I can hear someone's heels click annoyingly against the wooden floor. "I'm sorry but Mr Malloy couldn't make it," Janine smiles a little to brightly for my liking.

"As long as one of you have taken the time to come, please take a seat Mrs Malloy," Mrs Lead says.

She sits down, literally right next to me. What is she playing at? Whatever it is I'm sure I can handle it.

"Lily has been both verbally and physically harassing pupils and teachers here at Walford High." the old witch tells the blond one.

"We've had the same problems with her at home and I for one believe she is the reason her mother is hospital. Lily can be quite intimidating to a mentally unstable woman,"

Janine grips my wrist and her sharp nails start to dig in to my skin. It's a warning: if I say anything wrong, I'll be punished. I decide to keep my mouth shut.

"Perhaps you should consider sending Lily to a boarding school seeing as she is being excluded," Led suggests.

"We tried talking to her about that but she just exploded and went mad!" Janine exclaims, they look down at me like I'm a pathetic little animal. You, evil, evil, cow Janine Malloy. Her grip tightens. My future isn't really looking to bright anymore.

"It's time you started facing the facts, I'm afraid, Miss Slater," Mrs Led says sternly, "I think the right boarding school will be good for you,"

"Yes, Miss," I growl, not looking up at her. I can just feel Janine's smirk.

"Off you go. Thank you both for your time."

I stand up quickly and Janine follows closely behind me.

"Lily?" calls Mrs Led from behind me.

"Yeah?"

"I hope you make the decision that is right for you,"

I seriously wish someone would just run up to Janine now and stab her to death. I'd do it, but I don't actually have a knife on me at the moment. (That was a joke by the way, Tasha probably would go after to her if I asked her.)

It takes us twenty minutes to get back to the flat and dad's there. Perhaps she forgot to tell him that my headteacher wanted to see him. Please can someone kill her! We walk into the cramped living room and find dad sitting on the messy sofa, fiddling around with his phone. "Where were you? I've been trying to call you for half an hour now!" he questions his cow of a wife. Then he sees me with her. "What happened?"

"Lily got kicked out of school for attacking a teacher,"

"They must've made a mistake. I know she doesn't exactly see eye to eye with her teachers but she wouldn't do that!"

"Well, it's too late now, they're not taking her back. I tried reasoning with the head but she didn't want to hear it," Janine pouted and patted my head. Have I mentioned that I bloody hate her to hell and back?

"Don't tell mum, please," I plead, widening my dark eyes.

"I'm sorry, Lil, but she needs to know. You should really go and see her,"

"I don't want to!" I shout and walk out, slamming the door behind me. Hopefully he'll leave me to chill out.

I see Felicity on her mobile, looking very suspicious. I sneak a little closer so I can hear what she's saying. "Listen, Tash, I think they're off your case now,"

What?

"Yes, they bought the whole school trip, forged signature thing! But where are you?"

She's run away. That could explain why I haven't seen her for a while. If I was a good girl I'd go and let Kat and Alfie know. But I'm not. Let her do what she wants, if she can't handle life on the run she'll come crawling back. I have a feeling Tasha will be back sometime soon, if I'm honest.

*Duff duff duff duff duff duff duff duff duff*


Sorry about it being a bit shorter than usual. .my mum's being annoying so I'm gonna go and listen to 3OH!3 upstairs to cheer myself up :)

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