A/N Someone pointed out and said that in the last chapter I said she was wearing shorts in one point and pants in another, well Lilly's wearing shorts. I know it's not important… ish but you'll see XD

Chapter dedicated to GodzillaGuy for writing the longest review in the whole world XD haha. You're awesome dude, seriously.

Chapter 12

The Familiar Feeling

I shyly glanced at Jackson as he walked forward with a small smile on his face. He slipped his hand in mine, making me feel slightly confused. I blushed and dropped his gaze as he tightened his grip on my hand.

"What are you doing here? Shouldn't you be with Lauren at home?" He asked with much concern in his voice.

I shrugged. "I went to visit Miley. We had a very interesting talk there." I nodded.

I felt Jackson's hand slip under my chin. I lifted my gaze up and stared into Jackson's eyes, feeling my cheeks slightly flush

He smiled bigger and whispered. "Can we talk?" He asked with pleading eyes.

I nodded and gulped air. "Yeah, I guess… just for a bit. I need to go home." I told him.

He dropped his hand from my chin looking satisfied and then we started to walk. He looked at his feet as and sighed deeply.

"Lilly, what's going on between us?" He asked while kicking sand from the ground.

"What do you mean by us? I wasn't aware there was an us." I said and rolled my eyes, while staring at the ground.

Why is it that everyone wants to talk about us? This morning with Oliver, and now Jackson? Seriously, how weird is this?

"Lilly, don't be like that, you know what I mean." He then replied.

I kept quiet and shrugged. What else am I supposed to say? There is no us except the bad us. The us which aren't supposed to happen at all, but then again it did happen and the trouble that's putting me in is deciding between Jackson and Oliver. Jackson already has a freaking girlfriend… or ex-girlfriend I don't know this whole thing is confusing me again.

We were walking toward a secluded part of the beach when he let go of my hand and started to run and do a flip. I quietly laughed to myself as he tripped over a rock, landing face down on the ground. He rolled over, and stared up at the sky while smiling.

"Weirdo." I said while I neared him.

He lifted his head and smiled at me. "What? Can't I be myself while you lock yourself up and do nothing?" He asked and sat up and put his knees up, resting his elbows on his knees.

"Shut up." I rolled my eyes and walked over to a log on the side near Jackson.

"Yeah, so what did you and my lovable sister talk about at home?" He asked and turns to stare at me.

"Nothing important apart from talking about life and all. She asked me about breast feeding-" I grinned while trying to gross him out.

"Ew." He shivered. "Did not want to know that."

I laughed. "Gosh, you're so stupid." I shook my head and crossed my legs. "Ladies do that when they have kids."

"It's just weird. Sorry." He apologized and shook his head. "I guess it's still hard to believe you have a kid even if I've been seeing Lauren almost everyday since I've been going to your house."

He dropped his head and touched the tips of his fingers together. I could tell that he was in deep thought and it made me want to ask what he was thinking about. Today seemed to be a day of talking about everything. It just seemed to be somewhat weird and interesting at the same time. I learned a lot, that's a fact, but there is so much a girl can take in for a day.

"Lilly, will there ever be a day when we talk about our past?" Jackson asked.

I gazed up at him and shrugged. I haven't thought about it at all for the past few days. I was too busy thinking about him and his girlfriend and I have no clue why I do. Our past though… I'm scared to just come out and bring back anything from the past; then again what we're doing is what we did in the past. Gah I'm not making any sense.

"What happens is we do talk about our past? Nothing will change, you have a girlfriend, I have a boyfriend, and we're all good." I forced a smile when Jackson glared at me.

"Lilly, I told you she wasn't my girlfriend. Ugh, I thought I made it clear to you that we broke up and she's just obsessed."

"If she was just obsessed then why did Miley say girlfriend? If she's just obsessed, why did you introduce her as your girlfriend?" I said and I caught him as he shook his head.

"Lilly, will you just trust me?" Jackson said and sighed. "She greeted herself that way. I didn't want to make her angry so I didn't say anything about it." He shook his head.

"Well you could've told them the truth."

"Lilly, will you be reasonable? I don't want to talk about Kristy; I want to talk about us. I want to know where our relationship is headed before I make any more mistakes." He sighed and dug his hands into the sand. "It's just hard for me… I know you're with Oliver and you two have a baby, but it makes me think that you're not going to do anything about it."

My chest ached as he said that. As much as I want to make the decision I can't. It's just too hard for me to make it and with the right decision? How is that possible? To me, being with me is probably the biggest mistake he'll ever make. I have a baby with someone else and yet he keeps on coming back to me. That's just not right.

I stared hard at Jackson as his head hung low, with his eyes partially closed. He looked even more confused than I thought he did and it's all because of me. I don't want anyone to feel that way because of me. I'm already in that position and I hate it.

Jackson took a deep breath. "You're off having so much time with the two of them, but in the end I'm just alone and stuck. I'm sick of hiding all of this when I want to be more open about my feelings." His hands balled with him squeezing a handful of sand. "Lilly, I still love you-"

I froze.

He just said he loves me.

I gasped, with my hands flinging over my mouth.

He hasn't said that once to me since we met up. He only said he missed me, but actually hearing him say he loves me makes it 10 times better…. Or worse… I don't know! It just harder for me to make my decision.

"-and I want you more than anything in the world, but you have to make a decision and soon because I don't think I can hold it in any longer." He ended.

I sat there, confused and shocked all at the same time. He wants me to choose him or Oliver soon, but how do I do that? That's not fair… then again it's not fair that I'm seeing both Oliver and Jackson at the same time.

I got up from the log, keeping my eyes on Jackson. I walked closer to him and he gazed up to me as I approached him. Once I reached him, I went on my knees, just between his legs, and put my hands on his chin.

"Jackson…" I sighed, staring into his deep blue eyes.

He looked confused in what I was going to do; I didn't even know what I was going to do, so I decided I better do whatever now then later. Do whatever I need to find out how I feel now instead of later; I hated waiting for something amazing to happen when nothing amazing ever happens. I should just do whatever I want right now before its too late.

I leaned in and softly kissed him with my hands moving to cup his cheeks. His arms circled my waist as he held onto me tightly, kissing me back every so slowly. He ran his fingers along my sides with his fingers slightly tickling me.

He kissed me back effortlessly, making me want a little more of him. My tongue running along his lips soon probing into his mouth with long strokes. It was then I decided to pull away from Jackson, but his arms tightly held onto me as he pressed my body hard against his.

He pressed his hot mouth against mine, with his tongue tackling mine while he slowly moved backward, falling into the sand with me above him. I moved my hands to his chest as his moved down, over my butt and to my thighs, slipping his fingers to my inner thighs and parted my legs.

I gasped, pulling my face from his and stared at him as his hands glided up and down my thighs, stroking them slowly.

"What's wrong?" He questioned with his eyes squinting as he looked up at me.

"We can't do this here." I said in a throaty whisper.

He lifted a hand from my thigh and moved it behind my neck, smiling.

"It's late in the afternoon, hardly anyone is on the beach by now and no one comes to this section of the beach." He assures me with his soothing voice and kissed me once again.

We rolled on the on the sand so that Jackson would be positioned above me. His kisses deepened as he kissed down my jaw line and to my neck, kissing my throat. All this felt so familiar and wanted… I didn't want him to stop. I merely whimpered once Jackson's hands grazed my skin under my shirt as he pushed the material upward. He parted, only to help remove my and his own shirt, with his hands instantly moving for my shorts, getting ready to discard them as well.

I closed my eyes, wanting Jackson to continue his ministrations with his lips on my skin, slowly kissing downward to the valley between my breasts, when I lifted my hands to his head, pulling him up for a hard yet passionate kiss.

Nothing can stop me now.

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As soon as we got our clothes back on, it was already 6 at night. I was getting my clothes and hair straightened out when I felt Jackson's arms snake around my waist from behind. He pressed his face against my head stayed there before moving lower to kiss my cheek.

"Jackson." I murmured, as he pulled me tightly against his chest.

I smiled as I felt his lips graze my skin, moving down to my neck. I giggled, feeling my cheeks heat up a bit as his hands then slipped under my shirt.

"You're beautiful." He whispered against my skin as his tongue flicked the crook of my neck.

"Shut up." My cheeks now fully flushed once again.

His hands on my stomach then landed to my lower abdomen as he rubbed it.

"Aren't you afraid…?" He asked and I shook my head.

"I'm taking BC, the shot." I bit my lip. "My mom doesn't exactly want any more surprises, but once I'm 18, I'm off it." I told him and he soon started to suck on my skin.

"Mhmm." He whispered.

"Jackson, stop, I have to go and I swear, if you leave a mark, I'm going to slap you." I hissed, escaping his grip and pushed him off me.

Jackson laughed and slipped his hand in mine, entwining our fingers together.

"It's not like you don't have any other marks on your body." He said, making me blush.

"Oh gosh Jackson, shut up." I warned, looking to the ground. I swear if he's going to act like this for the rest of the time, I'm going to get mad at him.

"I'm sorry Lilly; it just… feels good…" He said and I looked up at his smiling face.

I'll admit I do feel a little better. I don't know it's because I'm with Jackson or I just had probably the best time I ever had in my life. Then it makes me think… does it mean I chose Jackson over Oliver? I care for Jackson, I still love him, but what does tell me about the relationship I have with Oliver?

We started walking, going back to our cars. Jackson would occasionally kiss the back of my hand and laugh about something which made me feel like this is exactly how it's supposed to be between us. It seemed so right to be here with Jackson, but I have to go home now… to Oliver and… it's just unfair.

We reached my car and I stood in front of my door, waiting for Jackson to leave.

He smiled, only to back me up against my car door, placing his hands either side of me, and kissed me. It was a long and sensual kiss with him moving, pressing his body against mine once again. His hands moved over to my sides, only to slip under the fabric of my shirt.

My hands moved to the back of his neck, pulling him close to me as the kiss grew harder. I giggled when Jackson tried to get his hands up my shirt. I pulled back, putting my hands to his chest, and pushed him away from me.

"I really have to go home." I said and sighed. "Lauren… and Oliver… might be worried." I shrugged.

He sighed and leaned to peck my lips a few times before finally pulling away. He opened my door for me as I slipped in and gave me one more long kiss before closing the door for me.

I opened the window, telling him goodbye. I looked to my gearshift and saw my phone on the side. I picked it up and saw I had 13 missed calls. I shook my head, throwing my phone on the side, and gave Jackson one last wave as I drove off to my home.

I blushed, unable to forget about what happened at the beach, and started to drive quicker.

It's been a while and… oh gosh I can't believe it, I just feel weird. At the beach too? Seriously, and I thought it only happened in my fantasies.

I giggled and shook my head.

Gah, I need to go home. This is just too weird. I don't know how to feel. I feel happy, but at the same time guilty for going behind Oliver's back.

I growled and sighed, trying so hard to concentrate on the road, but I couldn't. All this talk, sex, us, Oliver, Jackson, it's all too confusing and I can't believe I just had sex with Jackson.

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As soon as I reached home, I quickly got out of the car and practically ran into the house. The lights downstairs were off downstairs so as I crept up the stairs, I could hear noises coming from my room. As I reached the top step, I peered into my room because my room was right there, and I found Leah taking care of Lauren, making kissie noises to her.

"You're so cute." She told Lauren and I softly laughed to myself.

"Hey you." I said as I walked into my room to get an exchange of clothes.

I needed a shower. I probably have Jackson's smell on me and I really need to get it off before Oliver realizes I'm not exactly as innocent and faithful as I should be to him.

"Where have you been?" Leah asked.

I could feel her behind me as I went into my closet finding myself a shirt. I sighed, and turned around, feeling my face heat up as I went to a drawer to get myself underwear and pajama pants.

"I was out." I told her.

"Ohh." Leah laughed and walked over to the side, leaning against the wall, facing me… "Well, Oliver went to go get dinner about an hour ago. I have no clue where he was, but he said that you should call him. He tried calling you, but you didn't answer. He got worried and you know, if you go off with Jackson, you should call Oliver once in a while just incase-"

"I did something with Jackson earlier." I softly said.

I couldn't keep it in; I needed to tell her so she would understand. Holding secrets like this is hard. There are some things I can handle, but this is just too big of an issue to keep in.

"Oh… wow."

"Yeah and I forgot my phone in the car." I got up from the ground, holding my clothes in my arms, and looked at Leah, who looked puzzled.

"Is it wrong?" I questioned.

I know the answer, of course it's wrong, but I needed to hear it from someone else. Asking myself these things don't exactly help, especially when you're in a position like me.

"It's wrong yes, but I don't know. You love Jackson, but you also love Oliver. I don't want to interfere with your relationships, but just do whatever you want, whatever feels right to yourself." Leah said and left the wall, walking over to the bed, and sat down.

"But-" A door slammed shut, comming from the front of the house and that was my cue to leave and take a shower.

"Shower before Oliver realizes you smell like sex." Leah said, flashing me a smile.

I shivered to that and rolled my eyes. "Gosh, you're so... Ugh." I shook my head and finally decided to take my shower.

Maybe after today, things would get better… Ugh, damn, I just hope Jackson doesn't think I've made my decision after this night.

A/N Haha…

So how did you like this chapter? I had a lot of fun writing it for some reason. It's been a while since Jackson and Lilly got time together. Hmm :D

Well, anyway, I wrote this and pushed off my math homework. Now I have 2 days of math homework to do now, which is like 4 pages of math. Gah I'm dumb, but I really wanted to write this chapter. Haha.

Anyway hope you liked this chapter and more to come up soon!