A/N: Okay I should be shot. It has taken me almost 4 months for this and I deserved to be shot. to make up for the lack of well length in the last chapter this one is considered the 2nd longest in the entire story. Also one particular reviewer sort of complained for 'lack of action'. Well if the 'action' isn't enough for you guys in this chapter then I'm an even worse writer then I thought.

WARNING! THIS CHAPTER IS RATED M! (This one and maybe one of the later ones will be so I will not be changing the ratings just for two chapters) DO NOT SAY I DID NOT WARN YOU!

Disclaimer: I got a book a necklace, chocolate and my teddy bear (kyouki) for Christmas. But, not the series. That should be self explanatory.

Chapter 12: 'Please forgive me'.

It had been over a week since Misu had spoken with Gii and explained his dream to Hayama. During that time he had focused his attention on his studies, which to his surprise didn't seem to bother Shingyoshi. His pet had come to the executive room after Kendo practice as promised but he would just do his homework once in a while ask Misu for help if he needed it, but otherwise he stayed quiet.

"Arata-san, gomen but could you spare a minute?" Shingyoshi asked from his place at the other end of the table.

Misu set his pen down and scooted his chair over. It had been a while since Shingyoshi had 'bothered' him as the scruffy haired boy would put it so he didn't mind taking a small breather. "What is it?"

"Well actually a minute and a favor." Shingyoshi admitted. He pointed to one of the problems in his book with a quizzical expression on his face. "Sensei only breezed through this and I'm having trouble figuring it out."

Misu looked over the problem and chuckled before explaining the steps. Then he instructed Shingyoshi to try it out himself and placed a hand on his shoulder in praise. "Well done. Finish the rest of those and then you can ask me your favor. I am warning you know I offer no guarantees." he scooted back over to his side of the table and returned to his work.

A few minutes had passed and his attention was snared by the sound of the chair scraping on the floor. He looked up to see Shingyoshi getting up, "Shingyoshi?"

"Please excuse me Arata-san I need to use the facilities." Shingyoshi said before shutting his book quick and rushing out of the room.

Leaving in a rush for a reason like that Misu didn't even have to forgive him for so he just shrugged and returned to his books. As he moved over he noticed a piece of paper had fallen on to the floor underneath Shingyoshi's chair. Not knowing if it was important or not Misu leaned down to pick up the paper and place it back into Shingyoshi's text book. When he picked the paper up it became slightly unfolded and he couldn't help but notice the words 'I am so sorry, please forgive me.' Curiosity got the better of him and before Misu knew it he was reading the contents on the paper. As his eyes scanned the words he choked back a gasp.

"What do you think you're doing?"

Misu looked up to see Shingyoshi standing in the doorway with an expression crossed between anger and hurt. "Shingyoshi is this true?"

Shingyoshi stormed over to the table snatched the letter from Misu's hands tucked it into his book snatched the books and ran out of the room leaving Misu stunned. Shutting his own books he raced after Shingyoshi who was running towards the stairs. "Shingyoshi! Shingyoshi wait!" Not caring he ran after the boy and practically tackled him to the ground causing his books to scatter everywhere.

"Let me go!" Shingyoshi protested almost immediately. "Stop it let me go!"

Misu held fast to the other boy who in return continued to try to push him away before eventually breaking down into tears clinging tightly to the taller man's blazer. Luckily for them the hallway was deserted. "Shingyoshi, were you going to tell me?"

Shingyoshi shook his head as he continued crying. His whole body racked with sobs.

Misu waited until Shingyoshi calmed down and looked at the other boy. "Shingyoshi, you're birthday is coming up right?"

Shingyoshi nodded wiping the tears away. "Yes, but I don't want to celebrate it anymore."

"Shingyoshi, listen to me. You will celebrate your birthday, there is no reason why you shouldn't." Misu instructed. "Now stay here a minute I need to go lock up the room." He stood up and walked back towards the door locking it before returning to Shingyoshi who was already gathering up the scattered books and papers. "Thank you." Misu said when he was handed his stack of books. "Come, let's head back to the dorms. We have tomorrow off from classes so after you've rested up I want you to come to my room."

Thankfully Shingyoshi made no moves to argue and once they reached room 232 Misu leaned down and placed a small kiss on Shingyoshi' lips before opening the door for him and bidding him goodnight. As he made his way down the hall to room 270 he couldn't help but wonder what the other half of the letter said. From what he had been able to read Shingyoshi's grandmother had been unable to convince his parents of something. Misu had been interrupted before he had been able to get that far.

"You're back early tonight." Hayama commented when Misu closed the door behind him. "You're usually in the executive room for at least another 2 hours. Is everything all right?"

Misu regards Hayama with a blank stare but otherwise says nothing. He walks over and lays down on his bed face first. The phrase, 'I'm so sorry please forgive me.' kept repeating in his head. What could have happened that Shingyoshi would have to ask for forgiveness? If he had to guess it was something about the divorce but Shingyoshi hadn't given him any details about that. Flipping onto his back he looked at Hayama, "Has Shingyoshi told you anything about parents?"

Hayama seemed to think for a moment before shaking his head. "I only know what I heard from you about his parents separating. Why do you ask, Misu-kun?"

Misu looked away again, "Earlier today a letter to Shingyoshi fell out of his bag and I couldn't' help but read it since I noticed something written that should never be in a letter. I couldn't see the rest of it because Shingyoshi came back rather upset when he saw me reading it."

"If it's something concerning Shingyoshi-kun normally he comes to you if he has problems doesn't he?" Hayama asked, "Or if you're busy he sometimes goes to Gii. Not often though but there have been a few times you were really swamped with your work and Shingyoshi-kun's needed someone to talk to."

The thought of Saki knowing more about his pet wasn't going to be tolerated by Misu and he pushed himself to his feet. "Then I think I'll just go and visit Saki and see if he knows. And if Shingyoshi has asked him to keep his silence I can easily use one of the favors he owes me."

Hayama turned fast in his chair. "Misu-kun will you really go that far?"

Misu stopped in his tracks but didn't turn around, "Hayama, I already told you I love Shingyoshi and I want him to stay with me. If he's going to keep his distance and secrets from me then what's the point of me trying to keep loving him. I need to know everything I can otherwise I could lose him like I do in my dream." His voice went low, "And the only one to blame would be myself.

"You figured it out didn't you?" Hayama asked. "You figured out who is hiding in the shadows."

Misu only nodded before exiting the room and heading up the stairs to room 300. He was about to knock when the door was opened and out stepped none other than Shingyoshi. If Misu hadn't stepped back the scruffy-haired 2nd year would have ran right into him. But that didn't stop Misu from pulling Shingyoshi towards him as soon as he was in reach.

"Arata-san what-" Shingyoshi asked only to be cut off.

Misu was throwing caution to the wind as he pressed his lip to Shingyoshi's. One of the other students could walk up the stairs or out of their dorm room and witness this but Misu was taking that chance. After a moment he broke the kiss. "Come with me." he grabbed Shingyoshi's wrist and led him out of the dorms. After some debate he headed towards the cafeteria. Out of all the places the two of them had, had a moment the cafeteria was the only place that beat them all, second only to the executive room.

Luckily no one was there when they reached the building and the door was unlocked. Misu stepped into the hall then shut the door behind him locking it as well.

"Arata-san what-?"

Misu once again cut Shingyoshi off by putting both his hands on the other boy's shoulders. "Shingyoshi, tell me. Tell me what the letter said, tell me why you were so upset. Tell me why of all people you had to go to Saki?" Misu was trembling and he was trembling hard.

Shingyoshi was trying to pull away but Misu's grip on his shoulders stated firm. "Arata-san, please let me go, you're scaring me."

Misu lowered his head and sighed deeply, "Just tell me." He demanded softly.

"I will but only if you let me go and we sit down. What I'm about to say may not be something you should hear while standing." Shingyoshi requested.

Misu slowly released his grip on the scruffy-haired boy's shoulders and led them to the table, the same table.

"No, not that one." Shingyoshi pleaded, "Anywhere but that one, please."

Misu only nodded and moved to one of the other tables, "Now tell me everything."

Shingyoshi sat down but didn't look Misu in the eye. "I'm not going to beat around the bush." He sighed deeply, "I'm leaving Shidou."

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Akkadia: yeah, I think I'll stop there. (sees her readers/reviewers holding torches, machine guns and other ammo.)

Kannali (Akkadia's muse): Wow, brutal, you better continue.

Akkadia: Wow, tough crowd, I was joking.

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Misu was quiet for moment. In fact the silence was so thick it could be cut with a knife. Finally Misu broke the silence, "What the hell are you saying to me? What the hell are you trying to pull Shingyoshi? I didn't give you permission to leave."

Shingyoshi had his hands on the table and they were balling into fists so tight the whites of his knuckles were highly visible, "I don't need your permission for something that cannot be avoided. Do you think I want to leave? I don't have a choice."

"What do you mean? Misu asked.

"My parents have split their custody of me until I come of age and graduate. My mother is going to be keeping me while my father will have visiting rights." Shingyoshi explained quietly, "My mother is also planning on moving to a different part of the country and where she plans to move will be too far away for me to continue attending Shidou."

"Then what was that letter about?"

"My grandmother knows how badly I want to stay here at least until I finish school. I'd only have one year left after this. She had tried to convince my parents to let me stay but she failed and asked me to forgive her." Shingyoshi answered. "I was talking to Saki-senpai to see if he had any suggestions to help me stay here."

Misu stayed quiet. His dream returned to him and he looked up at Shingyoshi, "Why didn't you ask me for help?"

Shingyoshi shook his head as his voice was suddenly choked up with sobs, "I didn't want to burden you. After all, all you see me as is your pet. Also I wasn't sure if you would honestly care if I was here anymore or not." He wiped away a few tears and sniffled, "I love you Arata-san, I always will you know that. But I've come to the conclusion that you will never truly love me back, you're heart won't allow it. "His voice dropped to that of almost a whisper, "And I don't deserve it."

That did it. Misu stood up from his chair walked around the table and pulled Shingyoshi into his arms. The embrace was so fierce a surprised gasp had escaped the other boy's lips.

"Arata-san what-"

"Shut up." Misu demanded as he tightened his embrace even more. "How dare you? How dare you even allow such thoughts to enter your mind? You have no idea." His own voice was starting to sound strange, "You have no idea how I feel Shingyoshi. I am not about to let you leave me. I am not about to lose the most important person in my entire life and I'm not about to do it without a fight."

"Arata-san, I don't understand."

Misu pulled away from the embrace just enough so his lips had connected with Shingyoshi in a hot piercing kiss. The kiss they had shared in the dressing room and all the other kisses they had given each other paled in comparison to the one they now shared. Misu reached for Shingyoshi's violet tie and removed it. After that he went for the crisp white shirt unbuttoning each button quickly, all the while not breaking the kiss once. In fact he deepened it as he slid his tongue in Shingyoshi's mouth once again tasting almond and chocolate.

Once the shirt was gone he reached for Shingyoshi's belt but his hand was intercepted.

"Arata-san what are you doing?"

"Something I should have done along time ago." Misu answered, his voice husky. The sun had set a few minutes ago and the street lamps outside were all that provided lighting. "Just relax Shingyoshi." He removed the belt and leaned into capture one of Shingyoshi's nipples nipping and sucking on it. The gasp coming from the other boy sounded like music to his ears. He continued his ministrations with his lip and teeth on one and his hand moved up to give attention to the other. Pretty soon he could feel the reaction to his actions and he moved up to capture Shingyoshi's lips again.

"Never think those thoughts again do you hear me?"

Shingyoshi had only nodded in return moving to cover himself with his hands as Misu slid down his dress pants and boxers. "No, Arata-san I-"

Misu grabbed his wrists and moved them away revealing Shingyoshi's throbbing member already glistening at the tip with pre-cum. He moved his hand along the base and circled his tongue gently over the sensitive slit earning a sharp cry from his pet.

"Arata-san what was-"

Misu moved his hands to gently grasp the younger boy's ball sac squeezing it as he engulfed Shingyoshi's erection moving his lip almost to the very base. Shingyoshi wasn't that big so he didn't have to worry too much about a gag reflex. He stayed right where he was and waited to see how Shingyoshi would act. When the boy did nothing stand there and look down at him with a cross between lust and shock in his face he moved his lips teeth and tongue up and down rapidly, his lips kissing the tip and his tongue pushing at the slit before going back down to the base. At one point Misu broke off and looked up, "Let go Shingyoshi, do what you want." He engulfed the other member again.

Seconds later he felt Shingyoshi's hand move from gripping the table to resting on the back of his head and soon his hips seemed to have begun moving on their own. The movements locking the two of them together seemed to increase in speed by the second and Misu felt Shingyoshi's body start trembling.

"Arata-san I think I-"

Misu knew but he didn't care. He sped up his movements even more and when he felt Shingyoshi's body tense up and that cry, that indescribable cry of pleasure was the most amazing sound he had ever had the privilege to hear. He swallowed and rose to his feet looking Shingyoshi straight in the eye.

Shingyoshi was looking back with tears in his eyes and with gasping breathes escaping his mouth, "Arata-san why did you do that?"

Misu leaned in and kissed the gasping lips pulling the younger boy's pants back up and fastening them belt included. "Isn't it obvious?" He asked his voice low and almost hesitant. "Because I love you."

A/N: Yeah, that's it. I am ending it there. I hope those who have read this chapter like it. I was going to wait for Misu to say the words but I just couldn't. I honestly don't know if in the series itself he actually does say the words to Shingyoshi but I had to have him say it, it was unavoidable. Well 3 reviews = chapter 13.