Chapter 12

A space family

Kanan'pov

"Kanan, Kanan come back to us love"Hera was calling me back to the outside world but I didn't want to leave Ezra in this fragile state, but I could also see that he was tiring. His eye lids were drooping and he was slumped against me, so I lifted him up and took him into one of my memories. It was somewhere safe to leave his mind while I left to see what Hera wanted, I should have told her not to disturb me.

Still at least I didn't have to worry about him being alone, I was still here, well at least the younger version of me. It was one of my first days at the temple just after I was taken as a padawan by Depa Billaba, I still remember the looks I got from the others in my class when they realized I was now a padawan, while they were still younglings.

"Is that you?" asked a sleepy Ezra as I lay him down on the bed above my younger form.

"Yes it is"I said softly then realizing that as tired as Ezra was he wasn't falling a sleep, not yet but the edges of this memory were blurring, "Ezra sleep, I am still here I wont let go, even when I leave to find out what Hera wants, I am still here in my younger form. I may not be him anymore, not in age nor in the way I look at things but I should think having a force signature close to what I have now nearby will help you rest and don't worry I wont be gone for long, your not the only one who needs rest this has been a long day" I finished saying as I tucked him in.

"Don't worry my padawan, I will watch over your padawan" a voice behind me said.

I turn to see my old master standing there,looking happy to see me again. I can see a blue mist surrounding her body, showing her as part of the force. I want to touch her but I know I can't my hand would just go straight through. I turn back to Ezra to find my padawan sort of asleep. He still looked like he was in pain from his injuries but at least right now he was at peace.

"Go back to the others Caleb, I will be here for him if he should need something. I can travel anywhere in this mindscape, well anywhere that is on your side anyway, not his, not yet and before you can ask why, its not until he lets me that I can do that and I wouldn't ask anyway not until he heals" she said gently ghosting her hand through Ezra's hair.

"What will you do if he does?" I asked.

"Well depending on what it is, he will need none threatening memories, so if he wakes fully I will take him back to the fountain room, if I can get him to trust me that is" Depa told me and I was greatful to her.

I had heard the stories about force ghost and I knew from what Ezra had told me from his experience with them, seeing, hearing and speaking to those who had past on was not only possible but sometimes it helped too. I just hoped that her being here meant that Ezra was in more trouble than what we knew.

"Thank you master, Is it hard to see some one you care about hurt like this? how do you deal with it? I know I am attached to him and I just don't know what I would do if he died" I said running my hand through Ezra's hair again, I could feel most of his mind had shut down, not all but most.

"It is hard, all Jedi suffer through this at some point and I am not saying that you wont feel pain if something were to happen to your padawan, but as you have been taught both at the temple and by myself, you must trust the force, it knows what its doing"she said.

I nodded knowing that she was right but like before when I was a young padawan, I liked the way things were now, with Ezra by my side completing the Jedi I was supposed to be and if I had to go against the force to keep it that way I would but who is to say whether that is against the force or not, maybe I am supposed to do what I can for Ezra.

"True" Depa said as if she heard my every thought, then she continued "but remember that forcing something to come the way you want it to happen is differently against the will of the force" she finished.

"I know" I answered before giving Ezra a final touch and fading away into the real world, only to find Hera still trying to shake my shoulder to wake me up.

"I am here Hera, I am here" I said still holding onto the connection with Ezra, while opening my eyes and staring at the others.

Hera was standing between me and Ezra, looking a little unsure of whether she should be checking Ezra or me right now. Sabine was on the other side of the bed with Ezra's hand in hers and Zeb was just leaning against the wall trying not to show that he was worried about us both, not that the big guy could hide something like that, not from a Jedi anyway.

"Love what happened? Ezra's vitals were all over the place before you went in but now they have evened out" Hera said, looking over at the machine that wad hooked up to my padawan.

"Ezra was in trouble when I went into our shared mindscape but I soon helped him out and took him and took him to a place where he could heal and rest"I answered feeling a little light headed, I needed to rest myself.

"Kanan why don't you go and rest up, I can watch Ezra for now. Your still recovering from your time as a slave too" said Sabine.

I realized she said this because she needed time with Ezra by herself too. As much as she said she didn't like the kid like that, somewhere in her heart she did and him being hurt like he was brought it too close for comfort.

"Sabine you do know he is going to be fine now physically" I said, I couldn't say what his menial state would be like, but at least he wasn't going to die from this.

An:sorry for being so late with this but I had home work creep up on me in the last weeks, more soon I hope.