Chapter 12 Raven's Trick
Randy's POV
There goes that punch in the face again. Just when things in my head were getting sorted she comes back in and ruins it. When she came in she looked just as good as ever, that beautiful smile on her face. It had been a week since I had seen her and for some reason she looked as though I had just seen her for the first time. Her long hair was tyed into plaits. I was meant to go and see her at the hospital but I couldn't bring myself to see her lying in pain and I was still a little angry at her for choosing Wade over me. Out of all the idiots in the locker room she had to choose that one.
"Seriously don't you people work?" She teased her silver eyes dancing with pure happiness. Wade and John were the first ones out of their seats to hug her.
"Of course we do just not now" Wade laughed pulling out a seat for her. "So how's the leg now?"
"Good well good as it'll ever be" Raven took a seat and looked at me. I couldn't bring myself to return her smile. Instead I just glared at her before taking my turn.
"Ooh it's been a while since I've had the Randy Orton death stare." Raven teased "I must of done something really bad"
"Ignore him Rae, he's been in a bad mood all fucking week" Wade assured her shooting me his own icy look. I just ignored him.
"So much happen while I was away?"
"Just the usual really." Wade shrugged "Guess who's leaving the Nexus?"
"Ooh let it be Husky Harris" Raven crossed her fingers hopefully. I guess he was the one person she hated more than me.
"Nah, John"
"Yes I'll be free of the British accent" John laughed throwing down his cards. "I won't ever have to hear it ever again"
Raven looked at him "I'm not gonna burst your bubble John"
"You better not"
"But speaking of good news, I have some good news of my own"
"Your leaving?" I cut in before I could stop it. Just seeing her next to Wade got me jealous. I knew I was being stupid but that fuck-wit didn't deserve a girl like Rae. No one did, I wasn't even sure if I deserved her.
"I couldn't leave you Randy, who else is gonna piss me off the way you do" Raven smiled at me "I learnt a new trick while at the hospital." Slowly she stood up and let go of both crutches, for a few moments she was able to take her own weight and stand on her own two feet. That pleased smile on her face told the entire story. She knew she wouldn't be able to walk but standing on her own was a big step, after all, knocking the crutches out from underneath her wasn't going to work anymore.
Raven flopped back down on her seat "I can only do that for a little bit but still I can stand on my own two feet"
"Hey well done Rae" Wade hugged her and it was all I could do to stop myself from attacking him.
"Yes congratu-fucking-lations" I snapped at her "We're all so fucking proud of you"
"Thanks Randy." Raven grinned. I knew for a fact that she knew I was being asshole. Deep down I was really happy for her, I had to admit it was progress.
"What the hell is your problem?" Wade demanded at me. I just ignored him and went on with the game. "Answer me! What is your fucking problem?"
Again I just ignored him, I had no patience or time for him.
"Wade leave it be. For once listen to me" Rae interrupted taking out her headphones.
"How can you tell me to leave it? You should be angry Rae. I am sick and tired of you defending him when you should be mad as hell at him"
"You know what I'm sick of? You people telling me how the fuck to feel!" Raven suddenly shouted making everyone look at her. "I am tired of you people telling me that I should be angry, that I should want revenge and blah blah blah. Don't you freaks get it? I don't want to those things, I just want to be left alone" Raven snapped grabbing her crutches and hobbling out of the room. All the way she was back to muttering in her strange language.
"I don't think any of us expected that" John spoke up stunned. No one was expecting her to explode like that.
Raven's POV
I don't know why I got so angry, I guess I just couldn't handle it anymore. It was like my skills and knowledge as a psychologist counted for nothing and they knew eveything. I admit I didn't have all the fucking answers but I knew grief and I dealt with it differently. Some people mourned, I accepted and moved on. People just seemed to not accept that I couldn't be angry at him because that would do nothing except leave me bitter, I had enough bitterness in my heart to last a lifetime. Halfway up a random corrider I just couldn't walk anymore, my arms were starting to hurt and my leg was starting to throb. I sank to the ground and lent against the wall, I made sure I was out of the way and for the meantime I was just happy to sit there in my own company. I pulled out my headphones and lost myself in the music, it was my only form of escape these days.
Randy's POV
I went looking for Raven after I rubbed it in Wade's nose that he had fucked up yet again. He tried to push the blame on me but he knew it wasn't me that pissed her off that morning, it was him. She was leaning on a random wall in a random corrider, music blasting in her ears. Her eyes were shut as she mouthed the words to the song. I sat down beside her just giving her company. Raven opened one eye lazily then shut it again. If she wanted to ignore me then fine, but I wasn't going away not until I knew that she was alright. After a few minutes she took out the headphones and turned the music off.
"How are you feeling?"
"Why don't you tell me Orton, everyone else seems to be the fucking expert" She snapped.
"I'm guessing frustrated and angry"
"Wow your a smart one aren't ya"
This was clearly a waste of time, I didn't want to leave but it seemed all she wanted to do was fight. I went to stand up but she grabbed my hand, "I'm sorry, I'm just having a rough day"
I sat back beside her, I was so close I could smell her perfume. It drove me crazy with unknown lust.
"Do you feel better since your explosion?"
Rae giggled "A little. I'm just sick and tired of people telling me how to feel and how to handle this crap"
"It's like you don't know how to deal with this when obviously you know how too"
"See why do you get it" Raven looked at me "Why do you understand but everyone else thinks I've finally been pushed into insanity"
"I don't know Rae"
Raven sighed again "I just want them to move the fuck on, I have"
"Have you?" I looked at her, I couldn't believe that she wasn't still angry but then again I wasn't about to tell her she should be.
"I admit I was angry but who wouldn't be but I learnt something a very long time ago. Being angry at things you can't change is a waste of time and I hate wasting time" Raven rested her head against my shoulder "I have enough bitterness in my soul Randy, I have enough to last me a lifetime"
"You know I am sorry for what happened"
"I know you are." Rae looked up at me, her eyes burnt into mine. "I forgave you a long time ago"
"Why?" I couldn't believe this and I knew I was right all along. I didn't deserve her.
"Randy forgiveness is the first step to recovery and being mad at you forever would be wasting time, and now we all know how much I hate that"
"I think you mentioned it once or twice"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure"
"Why did you do it?" She looked at me puzzled "That's the only thing that keeps me awake at night. Why did you do this to me?"
I couldn't tell her the truth, I knew she wouldn't handle it well and I didn't want to destroy this moment or any up and coming moments. I just couldn't go back to being public enemy number one in her book.
"I don't know" I answered sadly. I hoped that she didn't push, I just wanted to push this deep down and never speak of it again.
Raven stood up and grabbed her crutches "I'm gonna go and apologize to Wade. When you figure out a reason to tell me please let me hear it" Rae hobbled away. I just stayed there. I was so close yet so far away. Once again she was running off to another man.
