"Ally!" I hear from behind me. I don't turn around. "Ally! Allyson! Allyson Marie Dawson! You get back here! I love you!" he shouts. I sob loudly. Suddenly, I hear someone behind me. I glance quickly and see Dallas. I wipe the frozen water from my face.
"H-hey, Dallas!" I yell. I hug myself. He smiles warmly at me.
"So now that you aren't dating Austin, how would you like to be my girlfriend again?" he asks loudly over the wind.
"I'm sorry! I kind of just got out of a serious relationship! Literally about five seconds ago!" I tell him. He frowns.
"I know but I really like you and it's good that you left that Austin guy!" he says. I stare at him. When did Dallas become such a dick?
"Dallas, I—" Before I can say another word, a figure runs by us, knocks Dallas over, and drives him into a snow bank, pinning him in it. I notice that it's Austin! "Austin!" I scream as he punches Dallas.
"Stop it! Don't hurt him! Austin, get the hell off of him!" I would go and try to pull Austin off of Dallas but I know how strong he is, especially when he's mad. And he's double mad. He's mad at me and also mad at Dallas. Dallas begins to turn blue from the cold.
"Austin!" I shout as loudly as I can. "You're gonna freeze him to death!" Austin stops punching Dallas and looks up at me. His face, once distorted with anger, is now returning to normal. He stands up and helps Dallas out of the snow bank. More tears run down my face and freeze. I run home, not wanting to talk to anyone.
I open the door and, as I did yesterday, I run up to room, strip off my jacket, and jump into bed. I hug my knees and bury my face into them as well. I made sure to lock the door this time though in case Jenna wants to come comfort me again. I don't need comfort right now though. I just need to go back to being a kid. When everything was simple and I didn't need to worry about boys fighting over me.
Wow, did I just say that?
Are boys really fighting over Ally Dawson? The Allyson Dawson? The short, nerdy whore who always has her nose in her book and her head in the clouds? I believe so. Suddenly, what exactly just happened dawns on me and it makes me cry even harder:
I just broke up with the love of my life. And I told him goodbye, as if to write him out of my life.
"Oh, God," I mutter into in my knees. "What have I done?"
You've just broken up—
I know what I've done, Mrs. Pennyworth. But what do I do...?
You don't know.
What do you mean?
You seem to forget, dear Ally... I'm you.
I roll over onto my stomach and cry loudly into my pillow. I hear a knock on the door.
"Ally? Ally, it's Aunt Ashley," she says.
"Go away!" I yell. She knocks a few more times and finally, she leaves. "Austin..." I moan. "Austin..." Mom comes up next.
"Ally... it's Mom..." She knocks again. "Ally, honey, are you alright? Do you wanna talk about what happened?" she asks. I shake my head even though she can't see me.
"No," I call. "Just leave me alone!" To my surprise, Jenna doesn't come up.
It's been a few days. I haven't eaten anything. I haven't drunk anything. I haven't showered. And I haven't stopped crying either. It's only a few hours after midnight now. This is the only time I really leave my room. I unlock my door and sneak downstairs.
I've been coming down here just after midnight and watching the snow fall from the living room window. I don't like watching it from my balcony because my balcony reminds me of Austin.
During our problem-less two weeks, he would sneak over to my house. He would climb up onto my balcony and knock on the door. We would stay up all night, talking. Just talking. Okay, maybe just a few kisses but, as always, no further than that. Then, once the sun started to come up, he'd run out onto my balcony and jump over the railing. Then he'd run back home. God, how I miss our late night talks.
I cry harder, keeping my sobs silent. The snow falls outside the window and I can almost hear bells...
Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingle all the way... Hey, wouldn't it be so romantic if Austin came by on Christmas?
Tears roll quickly down my cheeks at Mrs. Pennyworth's words. I sit down here for a few hours. Then I look at the time and see that it's almost time for my mom to wake up. So I run up to my room and finally let out my loud sobs. About an hour or so later, Jenna comes up.
"A-Ally?" she stutters through the door. She goes on and on about how she doesn't like it when I cry for a few minutes. Then she asks something that I don't expect. "Did you and Austin break up?" My eyes widen and I sit up. I walk over to my door, unlock it, pull Jenna in, close the door, and lock it again.
"How did you know?" I ask her. She hugs her unicorn as we sit down on my bed.
"Nothing else would make you cry for four days straight," she says quietly.
"F-four days?" I ask. "So it's the day before Christmas Eve?" She nods. "I'm sorry, Jenna, I haven't gotten you anything yet..." She holds up her sparkly, orange, rainbowed unicorn.
"This is the best present you could ever get me," she tells me. "I don't want anything else from you."
She smiles brightly. I smile back but with less enthusiasm. I wipe the tears from my face and try to stop more from coming but I don't succeed.
"So why'd you break up with him?" she asks. I swallow.
"I-I told him what he did... and he didn't believe he did it. I got mad and... well, I... b-broke up with him," I tell her. My voice kept cracking during that sentence. My tears flow faster than ever and Jenna holds me as she did last week.
"Ally, it's okay. You'll be fine again soon. You just wait," she tells me. And with that, she leaves my room.
It's Christmas Eve now and my tears have finally stopped. Jenna was allowed to open two of her presents. She's the only one I'll allow into my room. After she opened two of her presents, she ran up the stairs to show me what she got.
She'd gotten some kind of Barbie playhouse or something. And she'd also gotten that game called Headbanz. We've been playing this game all day. It's almost time for her to go to bed now. She's really good and I kept asking for a rematch. I finally admit that I suck at the game and we put it away.
"Oh, by the way, Aunt Penny said you could open two of your presents too," she tells me. I shake my head.
"Tell her I don't want to. I'll wait until tomorrow," I say. She nods in understanding and walks down the stairs, closing and locking my door behind her.
I pick up my songbook and realize I haven't written in it in a while.
Dear Diary/Songbook,
I'm sorry that I haven't written in you in a while. Do you remember when I told you that Austin hit me and called me one of his sluts...? And that I was keeping it a secret from him...? Well... I finally told him about it and guess what?! He didn't believe me! So... we... kind of... broke up... Well... I broke up with him. Hard to believe, huh? But it's the truth... I don't think I'll ever be the same again without Austin. I've made a big mistake but I think he's mad. I wouldn't want to talk to me either if I thought I was lying about something as big as that. I guess I'll write in you later.
Love, Ally
I sigh and lay down on my bed. I yawn and, for the first time in days, I'm actually tired. But I just can't sleep. I toss and turn until I hear no noises whatsoever downstairs. All is quiet. I unlock and open my door and sneak downstairs.
Eventually, I get so tired that I crawl the rest of the way down the stairs. I have one more doorway to get through then I can cross the room and get to the window. I feel like this isn't even worth it. I just want to collapse on the floor and fall asleep. So I stop at the doorway and just lean against the door's frame. Then I drift off to sleep. Half-asleep, half-awake.
Austin's POV:
I feel bad breaking into Ally's house like this but I just have to see her. And if I came to the door, her mom might let me in but who knows if Ally would let me into her room to see her?
I'm usually pretty good with my lock-picking skills so the door is open within five or ten seconds. Hopefully, she'll be sleeping by now so I can just go in, wake her up, and make her think this is all a dream. There should be no problems, right? This should be easy, right? Wrong. There's one problem.
Ally isn't even in here!
I don't want to risk walking downstairs in case someone else is down there besides Ally but I just have to see her... I sigh and walk over to her door. I open it a crack and listen. I don't hear anything so I creep downstairs. I wonder where Ally—
There she is... She's fallen asleep in the doorway that separates the hallway from the living room. I sit down beside her and watch her beautiful face as she sleeps. I look up and see... mistletoe. I lean down a little. I shouldn't do this... but you can't just be under mistletoe and not kiss the person you're under it with. I would rather kiss her while she's awake though so... I shake her gently.
"Ally..." I say quietly. "Ally..." Her eyes flutter open and widen to full size when she sees me. She opens her mouth and I use that as an opportunity to kiss her. She kisses back immediately. We finally pull away and she stares up at me blankly.
"Austin, what are...? Why did you kiss me?" she asks me.
"Mistletoe," I whisper, pointing up.
She looks up sleepily and then back to me. I take her hand and stand up, pulling her to her feet. I end up having to carry her up to her room. I lay her down in her bed and sit down beside her. She blinks.
"Sing to me," she says quietly.
"S-sing to you?" I ask. I haven't sang to her in months. She nods and I swallow.
I sigh, trying to think of the song I always sang to her when she couldn't sleep. It was a song she'd written... Suddenly, I remember it.
It was the song she sang to me on the night I told her I was bipolar... I sing in my most soothing voice. A voice I haven't used to sing or talk or anything in months.
Deep in the meadow
Under the willow
A bed of grass
A soft green pillow
Lay down your head
And close your eyes
At this, she closes her eyes.
And when they open
The sun will rise
Here it's safe
And here it's warm
Here the daisies guard
You from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet
And tomorrow brings them true
Here is
The place where I love you
Deep in the meadow
Hidden far away
A cloak of leaves
A moonbeam ray
Forget your woes
And let your troubles lay
And when again it's morning
They'll wash away
Here it's safe
And here it's warm
Here the daisies guard
You from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet
And tomorrow brings them true
Here is
The place where I love you
Here is
The place where I love you
Before she drifts off to sleep, she asks me, "Is this a dream? Or is this reality?" I want to say it's reality so bad. But I can't.
"It's only a dream, Ally," I whisper, "only a dream."
"W-well, if it's just a dream... w-will you stay with me until I fall asleep...?"
I nod. "Of course." I climb into bed with her and she snuggles close to me.
I guess she isn't as mad at me as I originally thought. Oh, wait, I'm the one who's supposed to be mad, right? But I can't stay mad at her. She's just too... Ally for you to be mad at her. I wrap my arms around her and pull her blanket over us. We lay there for a few minutes then she sits up quickly.
"Austin," she says worriedly.
"What? What's wrong?" I ask, mirroring her tone.
"Lock that door," she tells me.
"What? Why?" I ask.
"Well, I guess I can tell you since it's just a dream," she says. I feel worse and worse for lying to her by the minute. "I haven't left my room since we broke up. I've just been crying. I haven't been eating or drinking or sleeping. This is the first night I've had any sleep. And my tears finally stopped this morning."
Suddenly, my mood drops. About one hundred feet and plummets into the ground.
"And I haven't seen anyone except Jenna. If I don't lock my door, I just know someone will come in and try to feed me or something. Wow, that sounds like I'm starving myself. I'm not, I promise. I'm just not hungry, that's all."
I feel as if I'm about to cry as I stand up. But it'd be impossible for me to cry because I've been doing the exact same thing as Ally since the break up. I lock her door and lay back down beside her. Soon, she's asleep.
I take the wrapped box out of my pocket and set it on her bed-side table. And with that, I walk out onto her balcony, closing and locking the door behind me. I jump over the railing and run off into the night toward my house.
Ausllyfan01, he really does love her, I promise. And aw, stop it, I'm blushing. And I'll read that as soon as I can :)
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LovePeach16, guess what? There WILL be another chapter up later today! Haha.
Okay, hi everybody. Sorry I didn't update yesterday or the day before. The other day, I was sick and once I came home from school, I did my chores and crashed on the couch :/ And yesterday (I count it as yesterday even though it was, like, fifteen minutes ago), I didn't update in time :(
Anyhoodles, as I said above, there will be another chapter up later today. Maybe even two since it's been two days since I updated.
And I feel like an awesome writer since I made you all cry. Like, I'm crying right now except they're tears of joy. I feel like I've come a long way since last December when I started writing stories.
Oh, my goodness. My account is almost a year old! In about two months, it will be. Wow, okay. That snuck up on me. Wait, is it sneaked or snuck? I'm getting off the subject. The point is: there will be one, maybe two, more chapters later today! I love you all! Review!
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