This and the next chapter are my favorite so far...

I own nothing.


Part One : Confessions of a Virgin


CHAPTER 12

Its been a few weeks since the 'hallway tangle incident' as I refer to it in my head.

I've noticed you look at me now.

Like you're trying to figure something out.

I don't like it.

You don't need to figure me out.

I need to let this infatuation with you go.

I convince myself of this each and every day.

But then you go and do something all cute.

Looking all cute.

And all Edward-y.

Which is cute, and panty ruining.

I would know.

And then I forget why I should forget you're all cute.

I guess graduation can't come soon enough.

I have no idea where you plan on going, but I'm welling to wager its not Austin?

I'd probably have to talk to you to find out, but I really don't want to know.

I don't need to know.

So I continue to watch you from afar.

Wishing I could just let you go.

Because I know all I'll ever have, is you from afar.

~*.confessions.*~

I visit Jake after school.

He's in the shower, so I wait for him in his room.

He walks in naked as the day he was born.

I tilt my head taking in his body.

Someone was generous when they made Jacob Black.

He tall.

Tan.

Toned.

Built.

And HUNG. Fucking HUNG I tell you.

This is the first time I have ever seen a man naked in the flesh before and it makes my girly bits tingle as if someone put ants in my vagina.

I gasp as he notices me for the first time.

He starts talking about the car we're working on.

Our 'Cutlass', or my bebe.

And he's still fucking naked.

I don't hear much he's saying because I'm still staring at his horse cock….

He gets dressed and drags me to the junk yard to look for parts.

Like nothing happened.

Like I didn't just see him in his birthday suit.

Its a blessing, and I file the images he graced me with away for safe keeping.

Definitely going in my spank bank.

I think he'd be proud to know I plan on masturbating to the image of his fuck hot body.

I tell myself this, because we're supposed to share right?

We were taught to share at an early age….

And well, its just plain fucking greedy to keep something like Jacob Black's god like body locked away.

What a fucking waste I tell ya.