**AN: This chapter is a little longer but it is a two parter. I was debating on making one huge chapter but I thought you guys might enjoy an update so I decided to split it up.

I spent the day at Tobias' apartment, just the two of us, enjoying each other's company but when it got closer to time for everyone to meet up at Zeke's, I started getting nervous; a million what if's running through my brain. What if they don't believe me? What if they do but I fail them and I can't save my friends? We have been laying here quiet for some time but Tobias doesn't say anything; I smile realizing that even when it's quiet, there's no need to fill the silence with noise.

"What?" He asks when he see me smiling at him.

"I've realized something- there's never been a need to fill the silence between us with mindless chatter. We can sit in the quiet together comfortably, something that I rarely get to do with others." I say looking into those beautiful blue eyes of his.

"It is nice, isn't it? To not to have to pretend to have something to talk about just to fill the silence; it's refreshing around here." He agrees.

"What if they don't believe me?" I ask suddenly, my nerves starting to get the best of me.

"I'll still be on your side." He says, absently running his fingers through my hair.

"I know that, but we need more than just the two of us if we're going to do anything about this."

"Why are you so nervous, they're your friends and they should believe you; I do." I feel the heat coming off his chest when he realizes what he said, "I mean, I believe you, and I think that the others will too. You're a natural born leader and people will follow what you say. Just tell them the truth of everything and we'll figure out where to go from there." He says while continuing to stroke my hair. Just tell the truth- it seems easy enough when in reality I know it's anything but. We continue to lie there, content in each other's arms, for a little while longer- until I glance at the clock on his bedside table.

"We probably should be heading over." I say with a sigh. I'm so comfortable that my body screams at me for starting to move; looks like I've layed still too long and now my muscles are in protest of the new movement.

"Yeah, you're right," Tobias agrees, "do you need your medicine?" He asks when he sees me make a face while getting up.

"As much as I hate to say it, yes I believe I do." I tell him honestly. He gets up and grabs some water and my prescription before handing me two white pills and the water. I quickly take the medicine, hoping I didn't wait too long to take it for it to help, and we leave Tobias' apartment and walk to Zeke's. Once we arrive, Tobias knocks on the door and we hear light shuffling before the door is opened.

"Ah, the guest of honour is now here. Please come in and welcome to my humble abode." Zeke says while making over-exaggerated gestures and stepping aside to allow us through.

"Why thank you, kind sir." I reply, doing a small curtsy- well, as much as one that I could do for now. Tobias shakes his head at our exchange but I can see the smile on his lips that reaches to his eyes.

"Everyone should be here anytime now. I was hoping you guys would be first to arrive; it would be a little weird hanging out with just initiates by myself." Zeke says as he laughs briefly. He's right, in just a few minutes the knocks on the door start and I feel uneasy before I remember that this has to be done- whether they believe me or not. When Chris and Will get here, following Uri of course, they come over and hug me while telling me they're glad that I'm better enough to be out of the infirmary and Chris tells me there's a shopping trip just for the two of us when I get better.

"I wasn't sure what was going to happen so I got some pizza in the kitchen." Zeke says, returning to host mode.

"That actually would be great Zeke, I'm getting kind of hungry." I say. Tobias stands to go help Zeke and he brings the pizza and plates out as Zeke grabs some drinks and cups. They set everything down, and everyone grabs a plate and a drink before settling into comfortable positions around the room. There's a light banter going around the room while we eat and I hate to break it up but I must once I realize everyone is done. Tobias looks at Zeke as if to say 'we should get on with it' and Zeke effectively quiets down the room.

"I know you guys have questions, some of which might be answered by the end of what I've got to say and some of them I probably won't be able to answer but it is imperative that I tell you guys what's going on and where things are going to go if I- or we- succeed," I pause to look around and continue on when I realize I have everyone's full attention. "This might be a little hard to believe but I have to take the chance that you guys won't believe me rather than not say anything at all- it could potentially endanger all of us. The simplist way I can put this is war is coming." I look around to everyone's faces and see that though there is shock on everyone's faces, so far they are listening intently.

"I've tried to figure out what exactly to say but everything I come up with never sounds right so I'm just going to dive into it- this isn't my first time being an initiate. About a year ago, I went through the aptitude tests and learned something about myself that I didn't know. I trust you guys and in order for you all to trust me I have to be honest- my results were inconclusive. I had recieved Abnegation of course but also Dauntless and Erudite. Yes, I am divergent- and an oddity among them as well since I had three aptitudes but being divergent doesn't mean what we've been lead to believe, which I will go into detail about in a little bit. After hearing my results, I didn't know for sure what I was going to do until they called my name at the Choosing Ceremony and I picked Dauntless- same as I did this time. Initiation was a little brutal at times but I had Chris, Will and Al on my side, helping me out until capture the flag. Since the teams were split between transfers and Dauntles-born, I met Uri and Marlene because they were on my team. When stage one was over, there was some conflict between Edward and Peter and Edward was stabbed in the eye with a butter knife.

"I had helped Edward, I guess the Abnegation in me came out that night, but the next day I was down about what happened and who could be next when I ran into Uri and he invited me to go ziplining. I wasn't met with the greatest of attitudes at first but I guess I made my mark and was accepted; that's also when I met Zeke, Shauna and Lynn for the first time. In stage two, my divergence became noticable as I quickly rose to the top of the initiate rankings; thanks to being divergent, I knew I was in a sim so I could get out quicker than most but I couldn't say anything because I knew it was dangerous. For a while now, divergents have been hunted down and killed like animals; for the most part, but there are two that I know that have faked their deaths and escaped to outside the fence," I pause and look towards Tobias, "but more on that in a bit." I say as I return my focus to the group of friends in front of me. I have to say that I'm impressed they all are still giving me their full attention; I have been so afraid that they wouldn't believe me and so far they aren't doubting me.

"As stage two progressed, so did things between Four and myself and he ended up showing me what information he had stumbled upon that indicated war was coming; supply lists, influx in weapons, serums, blueprint plans- the works. He also showed me that Erudite was not complying with the city ordinance of lights out at night, which made us wonder what they were doing to require that much light at night. We knew that Erudite were going to use us somehow but we didn't know how. After the final fear landscape test, the initiates were injected with a so-called tracker- I found out later that the other Dauntless members had already been injected. At the banquet later that day, I figured out how Erudite was going to get us to fight for them- the 'tracker' was nothing more than a sim serum; one that could work long-range but I couldn't tell anyone while we were in the cafeteria and I didn't get a chance to tell Four what I figured out since I didn't see him anymore that night. The next morning, I woke up to see Chris getting ready and tried to ask what was going on," my eyes find Christina in the group before I continue, "You didn't answer me- it was like your body was going through the functions but your mind wasn't there. I looked around and everyone was acting the same way- going though basic motions with no expressions on their faces and a blank look to their eyes.

"The serum we were all injected with was a mind-control serum to make the person under the sim be nothing more than an emotionless human robot carrying out orders. We all boarded the trains, and headed to Abnegation where Dauntless members under the sim were executing Abnegation leaders and their families right and left while grouping the remaining ones together to be executed massively. Four and I were awake during the sim, and we split from the group to find my parents; we didn't make it there though because we ran into Eric. We played the part of mindless drones until Eric was about to shoot Four in the head and I shot him instead. We ran but I got shot in the shoulder and the Dauntless-traitors surrounded us before we could make another run for it. Eric took us to Janine, who was in Abnegation too, and she injected Four with an 'improved' version of the serum that would control his enviroment since it couldn't control his mind. They took him off and Eric was about to kill me when my mom intervened. The way she moved around Dauntless when she came for visiting day told me she knew more than she was telling me but I couldn't question her at the time.

"She got me out of there and we made a run for it, trying to meet up with my father and some others that had managed to make it out of there. My mom didn't make it and I met up with the others before some of us headed back to Dauntless- they were running the sims from there and using the security cameras to track everyone- and they were using Four to monitor everything; the serum Janine had used made his mind turn certain people who were friendly into the enemy. Luckily, I was able to help pull him out of the sim and we were able to shut it down before the mass execution but the damage had been done; there were many casualties on both Abnegation and Dauntless, including my dad. Janine managed to escape while we were shutting down the sim and when more Dauntless-traitors were heading for the control room, we ran. The group I was with ran to Amity but Erudite found us there so we barely made it out of there alive. We ended up running into the Factionless who have grown so much and come together that they were waiting for the opportune moment to swoop in and take control once Erudite had Abnegation out of the way. We found our way back to the compound once we realized that it was only true Dauntless left here, but Janine found a way to use the sim serum against us again; only this time it wasn't to start a war but to taunt me out.

"Janine wanted to use me for experimentation since my level of divergence is unheard of and she used the sim to make people jump from the roof to the ground to lure me out, making them say that if I come to her, it will stop and if I didn't then people would continue to jump to their deaths. I couldn't have anyone else die for me so I slipped out of the compound and turned myself over. I learned that my brother, Caleb, had betrayed me to Janine- he's the one that told her how to get me to them. I underwent experiment after experiment before they were set to execute me. I had pretty much accepted my fate on that but Four showed up too. They took him as a prisioner and did what they could to break him. I remember lying on the table awaiting my execution and being injected but the strangest thing happened; whatever I was injected with didn't kill me, it just gave the appearance of me being dead. Caleb and Peter, of all people, came up with a plan to get me out of there and next thing I know I'm with Four and the Factionless were taking over the building."

"Why would Peter help you?" Will asked, geniunely interested.

"Because when the attack on Abnegation was over and I went back to the compound I shot Peter in the arm to get him to lead us where we needed to be; and Peter being the weasel he is, said if he helped he had to come with us so he was at Amity with us when Erudite came and searched Amity. Guns started going off and I froze but when I snapped out of it, a Dauntless-traitor had a gun trained on him and all I could think of was there had been enough bloodshed so I barely pushed him in time to keep him from taking a bullet to the head. In my mind, I had something to atone for and as much as I hated him then I couldn't let someone else die; this time, however, I'd happily let him take a bullet to the head. Anyway, he was one of the people escorting me from my cell to the lab and he said he owed me and he didn't like that, so he helped to make us even."

"Why did you have something to atone for?" I hear Shauna ask quietly.

"Um.. I was hoping that I wouldn't have to go into this part," I say while wiping my now sweating palms on my pants, "during the attack, when my mom and I were trying to get out of Abnegation, Dauntless soldiers were shooting at us and advancing at every angle. There was a time right before my mom was shot that I came face to face with something I never wanted to happen, and I immediately was consumed with guilt- and it's part of the reason I felt I needed to turn myself over to Janine," I pause before I say it, and I pray to whatever God will hear me, that he will understand. "I tried to reason with the person but he was under the sim and just would not stop until I was dead. I killed you, Will." I whisper the last sentence but the weight of the words is felt by everyone in the room.

"I see," Will says as he stands up, "excuse me a moment." It's then that the tears I've been trying to hide since it first happened finally resurface. It's silent for a few minutes and Will comes back into the room.

"Will, I didn't know what else to do in the moment. I tried not to but you just kept coming no matter what I did and then you pointed your gun at my head with your finger on the trigger. I should have let you do it, it would have been so much better if I did-" Will stops me.

"I can see that the choice you had was difficult and that you truly regret things happened that way. I don't blame you one bit for doing what you had to do; had the roles been reversed it probably would have gone down the same way."

"I couldn't even hold a gun after that; it's also why I froze when the shootout at Amity happened. The guilt I felt over it never escaped me- it plagued my nightmares and the memory stayed fresh in my mind while I was awake. I'll never forget about it-even now- and I will always be sorry for what I did." I say, casting my eyes downward, too ashamed to look at him. I see feet walk towards me and stop in front of me; then something happens that I didn't think possible- I feel the arms tightly around me as I hear three words whispered into my ear.

"I forgive you." As soon as I hear those words, I can't stop the renewed tears from flowing down my face. Will stands there hugging me while I cry for a few minutes. Once the tears have subsided, Will unwraps his arms from around me and turns around to make his way back over to Christina. He whispers something to her and asks if we can pick this back up later since it's late and he'd like to spend some time with Christina; it's only natural after learning he is going to die if we can't stop this. We agree to pick back up tomorrow at the same time at Zeke's and everyone says their goodbyes for the night.

"Do you want some company?" Tobias asks me as we head out to the hallway.

"I certainly don't want to be alone right now." I say with a shaky breath. He reaches out his hand and pulls me down towards his apartment. We get inside and take our shoes off and he heads over to the bed, patting the space next to him. I happily oblige him and lay next to him with my head on his chest, listening to his heartbeat while he smooths my hair with his hand. Tobias doesn't say anything to me- just comforts me- and I'm grateful for it as I let the tears silently stream down and I cry a tear for every single wrongdoing in it all since the war had begun before slipping into my dreams.

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