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Chapter 11

"As much as I would love to stay in bed with you, we really have to get to work. We're already more than an hour late," Damon said sweetly, while brushing a lock of hair out of her face. After their shower they'd spent some extra time in bed together, totally losing track of time.

Caroline was going to kill her if she won't show up today, so she knew she had no other choice than give in and go back to work. "We really have to?" she asked pouting, an extra hour wouldn't harm, right?

"Yes Elena, we really have to. It's bad enough I took off so early yesterday, I'm still the CEO, they expect me to be at work, not in bed with one of my directors," he added winking.

"You're truly enjoying this aren't you?" she accused.

"Of course, you're quite a tiger in bed, honey."

"You know well enough what I mean and wipe that smirk off your face, it's irritating me!"

"You must admit, your reaction is quite funny."

"No, it's not! I'm serious, Damon! If anyone finds out about this we're both in big trouble!"

"Then we just have to be a little careful? No need to worry."

"I really don't understand how can you can be so calm."

"Because freaking out will not help us," He had a point. It would only help them make mistakes…still, she couldn't just sit down and act like nothing was going on. She was sleeping with her boss, for god sake! Her entire career would be ruined if it came out, everyone would be disgusted. How the hell could she stay calm?

"Just try to calm down, a little, will you? You'll see everything will be just fine," he said while pulling her into a hug. "It'll be fine," he repeated softly and suddenly she could feel her body relax again. It was weird, how he could change her emotions so easily, but it turned out quite useful too.

"They're going to suspect something if we arrive together," she started after a few minutes; definitely calmer.

"Then we'll have to arrive at a different time. You probably should go first. Jane will be mad enough already."

"Like I mind what that bitch thinks of me."

"Why exactly can't you stand her?"

"There are a lot of reasons; the fact that you don't get it is one of them." Really, why all men have to be so blind? Jane and her little tricks… one day, she would make sure the girl got exactly what she deserved, and that was so not a promotion.

"What do you mean?"

"She always wraps men around that little fat finger of hers while she treats us like crap."

"Are you jealous?" he suddenly asked, surprising her with his question.

"Of course not!" she answered a little bit too quickly; she could already see the smirk showing across his face. "I just don't like her as a person. I know she wants my job and I'm not going to give it to her."

"You think she's going to try to bring you down?"

"Well, let's say if she finds an opportunity to…right know she has in fact the chance to get me fired."

"I won't let that happen."

"There will be nothing you can do about it, Damon. You may be the CEO, the shareholders will have the last word in a case like this. They will force you to fire me."

"Then we've to make sure it'll never comes that far."

"This is really not a good idea," she said while pulling away from his the safely nest his arms provided.

"You're not going to walk away again, are you?"

"A part of me doesn't want to run away from this, but the other part…I'm not sure what I want. I'm not ready for a relationship, it feels like it's too soon."

He just nodded, but she could see the disappointment in his eyes. Did he really want a relationship with her? No, he probably just wanted to have an affair, someone to play around with. Normally she would be disgusted by the thought, but with him, it just all seemed so different.

"I'll see you later today?" he asked, looking her directly in the eye. She could feel little sparks going through the air.

"Sure," she smiled before giving him one last kiss. To her surprise, he didn't take advantage of the moment, was he really that disappointed? She asked herself quietly. Did it really matter that much? She didn't want to hurt him again, but she had to be honest with him, she couldn't give him too much hope.


Half an hour later she arrived at work, she saw Jane waving at her from a distance. "Where the hell have you been, Gilbert? I already called you twice today! If you're sick you've to inform me."

"I'm not in the mood Jane so why won't you just shut the fuck up?" she exclaimed while walking past the desk towards her own office, completely ignoring the secretary. After all, it wasn't like the girl had been kind to her either.

"You think you're clever, hm?" She heard Jane yell behind her, but she didn't even look back. The girl didn't deserve her kindness. She should be happy she still had a job.

When she walked in the office, she noticed Caroline looking up from her computer with big doe eyes, begging her to tell her the truth without words. "Hi Elena; let me guess, you didn't hear your alarm going off? Or were you to busy with entertaining your guest to check the time?" her friend asked plainly.

"What the hell are you talking about?" she heard herself ask, oh no, no, this wasn't happening. No one could find out!

"So I was right, hm? Of course, why haven't I thought about it before."

"What do you mean?"

"I was just fooling around, Elena. But it's true? Damon did come over yesterday?"

"Yes, he did. But you can't tell anyone!" she quickly added.

"My lips are sealed, don't worry. Now, I know why he asked your address."

"He what? You!"

"What? You should blame yourself! If you had come to work he wouldn't have felt the need to come and check on you!" she retorted.

"I wasn't feeling well!"

"No Elena, you were hiding because you couldn't face him after you kissed him. So, Ready to tell me what really happened yesterday? The entire truth, please!"

"I can't tell you, Care."

"What do you mean, you can't tell me?" the woman asked offended.

"The less people know, the better."

"I'm your best friend, Lena, I should know about something as important as this. So, what happened? Did you kiss him again?" Sometimes Caroline could be so annoying…and curious! Luckily they're friends since kindergarten, or she would've just walked away.

"He came searching me, like you already know it happened. When he arrived he told me I should come back to work. After that we kinda started arguing and ended up in bed together," she said, giving the short story without details. The entire time she'd been staring at the floor, she couldn't face her friend while she was telling this…it was already embarrassing enough. How dumb do you have to be to start an affair with your boss; even when the man in question is hotter than hell?

"Wait, you what?" Caroline asked in horror.

"Yes Care, we slept together! Happy?"

"You're not serious, right? You really did it?"

"What?"

"I just never thought you had the guts to actually sleep with him again. And details, please! How was it?"

"Heavenly; I don't know…it felt like coming home again."

"You talk like you're telling a romantic novel."

"Of course," She wasn't telling it like that, right? To tell a romantic novel you've to be in love, she wasn't…so…no, she wasn't in love.

"What? You really do. It's cute, though. But it's so obvious you're in love with him. Why don't you two just start a relationship?"

"It's not that easy and you know it! First of all, I'm not in love with him and secondly, I don't want a relationship. I'm a business woman, not a housewife."

"Really Elena, you're still going to deny the fact that you want to have a family? Cause it's quite obvious if you ask me."

"I can't lose anyone else anymore, Caroline. Having a family would be giving someone the opportunity to hurt me again, to lose people I love, I'm not ready for that. I don't know what I would do if I'll lose another person in my life."

"I get that you don't want to lose someone, honey, I do. But you've lived in an illusion of happiness for years. You smiled at people, but your smile never reached your eyes. You weren't really happy, you just wanted to show everyone you wore, but deep down, you felt lonely."

"It's not an illusion, I am happy." She was happy, she had a good job…and a good job…did she already mention her job? Oh god, she was indeed hopeless.

"Yeah, because you're sharing your bed with Damon Salvatore."

"That's not true! I was happy before I saw him again!" Like hell she was, but she wouldn't admit it.

"You were not. You were a wreck that could fall apart any moment."

"Give me a break, you can't seriously mean that! It's not because I was living a calm and quiet life that I was unhappy."

"Come on, you're a party animal Elena, someone who loves to fool around and be adventures…you weren't happy. You pretended to be. There's a difference."

"So? I never made a problem out of it." Maybe she couldn't deny it that she was living a boring life, but she sure as hell wasn't going to admit she was unhappy. That would be a lie, right?

"No, but deep down, you wanted things to change. And don't tell me that's a lie cause we both know it's not."

"Let's just stop this discussion, alright? I have enough problems already."

"It's weird, you look miserable, but you've got a glance of happiness washing over you, at the same time. You really enjoyed your night, didn't you?"

"It was amazing. I know it was the wrong thing to do, but it felt so right! It felt unbelievably good. I just couldn't bring myself to end it."

"You should let your heart speak, Elena. I know you don't believe me and all, but you do have feelings for the guy. You should let him in. I know it gives him a chance to hurt you, but eventually you'll get hurt anyway. You can't keep hiding from your feelings, Elena!"

"As long as I'm not sure what I feel, I'm not going to tell him a thing. And even if I would love him…I'm not ready for a relationship, Care. I can't handle the thought of losing someone else, and you can say what you want, but I would lose him eventually! I lost everyone I loved except for Jeremy and you! Even Jenna left town, I know it was the right thing to do, she deserves happiness, but it doesn't change the fact that I almost never see her."

"But…"

"No Caroline, you don't get it! The only family I have left are Jeremy and my aunt. My birth parents are death, my adoption parents are death, even all my grandparents are death. I've no one left but them."

"You have me?" she said softly, it was more a question than a statement.

"I know, and I'm really happy about that, I am. But it's not the same. You're my best friend and I love you, but you're not related to me."

Before they could end their discussion the phone rang and Elena answered it, not bothering if Caroline wanted to continue the conversation or not. She wasn't in the mood anymore. "Gilbert, someone wants to speak to you," she heard Jane state.

"You can put them through," she answered shortly. Who the hell wanted to talk to her while she was working? It wasn't like she had any friends besides Caroline. God, she really was boring.

"Elena…I've…some…bad…news," she heard someone sobbing on the other side of the line, she recognized Anna's voice and she immediately started panicking.

"What do you mean Anna what happened?" she heard herself exclaim while her eyes widened. Caroline immediately came walking to her desk so she could hear the conversation.

"It's…it's Jer. He's…been in a car accident….it was terrible…I didn't know what to do…and now…I dunno what to do anymore…you've to come Elena! He needs you!" she said while her voice broke down.

"What? He had an accident? Where are you?"

"We just arrived at the hospital with the ambulance but they wouldn't let me pass. I have to stay in the waiting room…please…I don't…"

"Central hospital?"

"Yes *sob* that's where *sob* we are."

"I'll be there in a minute," Elena answered quickly before hanging up, jumping of her chair and running to the peg to take her coat. When she turned around again Caroline was right in front of her.

"I'll take care of the business," she nodded before Elena could ask a question. "Now, go…hop!" She pulled her friend into a quick hug before running towards the door.

There was only one thing on her mind: I can't lose him too. She started running as fast as she could. She wouldn't let him down, she would do everything to save her baby brother. She may be the reason her parents died, but not her brother, he had to be saved; he was just a kid.


She still blames herself for the death of her adopted parents, cause they died in the car accident and she didn't. After her adopted parents died, she found out they weren't her birth parents, but by the time she found John and Isobel, they were death too. I hope you all understand it now. More details will come in the next chapters.

I hope you all liked the chapter and please don't hate me too much for doing that to Jeremy...

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