Huunn I know I've been away for long, and it's a long story " so please forgive me!

I'm releasing two chappies today! Will that make up for it?

Sorry again!! Here it is!

JK own'em but don't deserv'em -.-

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He had spoken harshly to the dummy in the window and quickly he'd been let through. He was so distressed that he didn't know what to say when he came in.

But even in his confusion he slowly realized what had been nudging at the back of his mind. He was making a very big mistake. What in the name of Merlin did he think he was doing?

He, Sirius Black, who had 10,000 galleons placed on his head brought a kidnapped boy-who-lived wrapped around his neck looking like he had just come back from confronting you-know-who. And then there was the minor detail of the floating, mutilated body of a werewolf who was also on the run right behind him. Surely, some might arch an eyebrow at that.

He'd get chucked back in Azkaban as soon as soon as someone laid eyes on him! And as for Remus…well he didn't want to think about it, the situation was already bad as it was.

Sirius shook his head, commanding himself to think fast. A healer was coming his way and she already had a frown on her face. Think think think!

He thought about Hogwarts, but knew Madam Pomfrey wouldn't be able to deal with this. She didn't have certain knowledge that might be required, but most of all, she didn't have resources. Not only that, but he'd have to apparate to outside the gates and then cross the whole campus to get to the school. It took the time he certainly did not have.

He became so desperate that for a moment he thought about the muggle world. But that was impossible. Not only did he not know if muggles could deal with this, seriously, what lie could he possibly make up? And he had no idea how to reach a hospital in muggle London.

What had Kingsley been thinking? Sending him in there?! Wasn't Sirius was supposed to be the impulsive one? He needed someone to guide him in situations like this.

"What happened?" the woman asked, looking almost shocked.

See, in the wizarding world it wasn't very common for a person to come in with injuries like that. Because even the result of fights weren't this bloody. Sure, someone could lose their mind, could sprout another hand, could get all sort of gruesome effects from spells and curses. But it was never like this, it looked almost like the man had been in a true muggle fight, where people used knives and guns that would cut and spawn blood. Not wands whose traces were different.

Ok, so his time was up. He had to do something now.

Before he even thought through the whole idea he was already pointing his wand at the woman.

"Don't say anything and come with me" he ordered letting her see his face.

The healer gasped and looked around as though trying to, without making a sound, call for help.

"What are you waiting for? We don't have any time! I need you to save him, move!" he said, playing awfully well the role of the convict everyone believed he was.

"look, don't…don't do anything. I…we don't need to go anywhere, we can help him here. And you should…you should try to turn yours-"

"I'm not asking for advice! Remus is dying! MOVE NOW!" he ordered feeling the rage take him completely. How dare she try and make stupid and useless small talk when the person he loved the most was decorating the floor with blood?

The woman didn't try again, she lifted her hands in defeat and followed him out, one should not try to argue with Sirius Black.

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As they crossed the campus to reach the castle, the woman forced to follow Sirius became more and more confused. Was the man truly insane? Well, ok, the daily prophet had already set that straight; but really, coming to Hogwarts? In broad daylight? It was more than mad, it was stupid! Well, the healer wasn't about to point that out, now was she? Since she was safe as long as she was here, or at least she chose to believe that.

They crossed the halls and bumped into no one, classes were being held at the moment so naturally no student was wondering about.

"Come on, through here" he said, finally slowing down just to make a turn and enter the infirmary.

"Madam Pomfrey! Madam Pomfrey!" he called without even bothering to notice she was standing just before him , tending to a boy who was sitting on the bed with a bleeding knee.

She frowned just by hearing his voice.

"Sirius!" she said in a low reprimanding tone, finding it unbelievable that the man would just waltz in like that and risk being discovered for whatever little reason had brought him here.

But that's when she actually looked at him, no, when she realized what hovered right beside him. Never mind the boy in his arms too, the sight of Remus body made her stand up with her eyes wide. She asked nothing, she didn't care how it happened, how Sirius had just a few hours ago been in his room and now had Harry Potter in his arms and Remus under this condition.

"Put him he-" she started to say.

"Room of requirements, there's everything we might need"

He had barely finished the phrase she was already following them out, suddenly forgetting all about a second year in need of mending and ignoring a woman in green who just stared at her like she had grown a second head as they ran.

"Sirius what…how…weren't you up stairs? How did this…" she asked as she finally got over her initial shock. They didn't stop moving however.

"I'll explain later! Remus…they…he's…it was silver, I don't know…" he started saying as they climbed the stairs now to the fourth floor. He was going to try and say something else when he spotted a ghostly figure hovering just in the next floor. "Sir Nicholas! Get Dumbledore! Did you hear? Call him! Tell him to go to the seventh floor, he'll know!" he ordered.

The Gryffindor ghost was just about to say something regarding people's lack of good manners towards him when he saw what Sirius was bringing along, this was no joke at all.

Whoever that lad was he felt sorry for him, and suddenly he didn't find it so bad having a half-attached head.

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He sighed as he watched the dark forest far away seem golden under the setting sun. He was feeling as though he had just taken a walk around the whole world a couple of times…mixed emotions played with his heart and he didn't know how to cope with them. And that was precisely why he was, at that moment, at the top of the astronomy tower, appearing as detached and unreal as he felt.

He was angry at himself for letting it happen, for not trying hard enough, for not fighting. He regretted all his mistakes, especially the ones dating back to when he made the stupid choice of giving up James' secret keeping. He had done it out of love, he had only been trying to make things better, he couldn't have known it'd turn out this way. 'Keep telling yourself that…' he thought bitterly as he shook his head 'maybe one day it'll make you feel better'. Right now it didn't.

He never told James this, actually he never told anyone; but part of the reason he had wanted Peter to become secret keeper was far more selfish than he had ever admitted: He had been scared.

Not for himself, even he wouldn't have acted so low, but he had been scared for Remus. To what length would Voldemort's followers have gone to extract the needed information? They'd know he was secret keeper, they'd know he wouldn't crack, they'd know exactly how to get to him. Death Eaters knew their enemies' weaknesses -growing up around the lot of them made Sirius sure to know how they acted- and they would have used Remus against him. He hadn't wanted to be put in that situation: in which he had to choose between his lover and his best friend together with Lily and Harry. Because, even though he had never dared voice, or even admit to himself, he knew which one he'd pick. He knew that, when it came down to it all, selfish Sirius Black would pick Remus over anyone.

So right now he felt like scum, he felt lower than a Death Eater. He had turned his best friend in, he had given him on a silver platter to the Dark Lord, he'd almost as good as killed James himself. And only to prevent what was happening right now anyway. In the end he'd neither helped one nor saved the other, he'd just…he'd just failed them both.

A shaky hand made its way through his hair; one would think he was under the influence of dementors from what he looked like right now. But anyone would look like that if they shared his present emotional turmoil.

Sirius just didn't understand why the worst things just happened to the most wonderful people! Sure, he didn't know why Remus had 'kidnapped' Harry, but he knew the werewolf wouldn't do it without a very good reason. If the ministry had just let him explain himself instead of placing a price on his head just like they had done to Sirius….idiots.

Suddenly his gloomy expression changed into an enraged one. Stupid ministry! How had he ever dreamed of working for those people?! How he wished, at the moment, he could just blow up the lot of them! They'd deserve it for making Remus go through that! Stupid anti-werewolf legislation, stupid Aurors, stupid Death Eaters!

He spent who knows how many hours there, not daring to go back into the castle. He wouldn't know how to act, he wouldn't be able to pretend he was fine and he didn't want people talking to him as though Remus was already dead; for the werewolf wasn't. Of course it was just barely, no one knew the outcome and were all just standing by and expecting nothing.

Words Sirius didn't understand were exchanged between Madam Pomfrey and the kidnapped Healer -whose name he still didn't know. He had no idea what they talked about, but whatever it was...his ex-lover's situation wasn't exactly a stable one. And so he didn't dare hold onto hope for he knew this could very well be the end.

He sighed for the hundredth time that evening, feeling his eyes stinging, he had gotten out to try and help moony and...and then suddenly everything was upside down and he felt lost. He just wished everything was fixed and he could pretend the past three years were all one very realistic nightmare.

Even in Azkaban...he still had the shiest and weakest will to live and he knew it was because somewhere there was still hope. But if...if something were to happen to Remus -he shuddered at the thought- well, Sirius didn't want to exist in a world without him.

It had been as overwhelming to stay in the room of requirement as in the house with the Death Eaters. So he had left without saying much of anything, all he had to do before climbing up here was speak with Dumbledore.

After all, he had to explain the whole thing...and he did it really. He was so distressed that words left his mouth without him even noticing it. The headmaster hadn't looked very pleased about it all, or maybe it was just Sirius impression. He didn't really care...

After being assured by Albus that the headmaster would speak to the healer about secrecy and the actual situation he was finally free to leave. And did it even forgetting his godson for a moment, who was now with McGonagall.

So all he had to do right now was wait: for the ministry/papers to find out what had happened, for Remus' situation to come to a closing (...), he didn't know. So he just sat and looked at the sun, it was really all he could do...

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"Up already?" Pomfrey asked as she saw him sitting on the same chair he'd been sitting in for days.

He smiled softly and nodded "Can't really sleep for that long".

She looked unconvinced and with her hands on her hips she approached him. "Have you eaten anything yet?"

He was about to nod, it was automatic already, when she gave him the 'don't-you-try-to-deceive-me' look that made him shake his head 'no' instead.

"I'm not really hungry…I'll get something later" he assured.

She didn't look very convinced however as she shook her head.

"Sirius Black, stop acting like this! You'll kill yourself" she said in a lecture voice. "Do you think it'll help in anyway if you become ill too? It won't. And Remus would just hate it to know that you're behaving this way…" her voice was now stern.

The man dismissed it by shrugging and then looking down at Remus who was lying in a bed right before him.

Pomfrey sighed, feeling as though she was dealing with a first year and not a grown man.

"Here" she said offering something out of her pocket "It's chocolate, eat it".

He murmured a thanks and found it amusing that she hadn't changed one bit over the years. This time he did as he had been told; after all, like she already knew, he was hungry, it was just that he didn't want to leave the hospital wing…He had barely done so during the past three days.

Remus hadn't woken up even once since he blacked down at the day of the attack and no one was sure when, or if, he would.

He had sustained more injuries than the healers would think one could recover from and yet he had survived. Yeah, survived not recovered. The silver had cost him a lot of blood and though he looked much better at the moment, he was still unstable.

Mrs. Moore, that was the name of the healer he dragged from St Mungos, had managed to partially heal a lot of Remus' wounds and they were now just a bunch of ugly scars. The gash on his back, however, was still in the process of healing; it had been very deep and kept getting bigger and bigger since it had been made by silver. And so Remus was still completely dependent to blood replenishing potions.

But progress had been made and so Sirius' mood become a tad lighter. And he was happier now that he could spend all the time he wanted in the infirmary with his former lover. Sometimes he even talked to the unconscious werewolf as though with hope he'd hear him. or sometimes it was just the fact that Remus couldn't hear him that got him talking, he could tell him all he wanted, all the things he had planned to say and nothing drastic could happen. He was really making use out of that.

The ex-convict smiled and reached for the lycanthrope's bandaged hand. He felt good to be able to touch the other after so long…it was truly amazing.

"Oh Moony…what is it with you? Why won't you wake up?" he asked shaking his head as though talking to someone awfully stubborn.

A clearing of a throat made Sirius turn around alarmed, and he was surprised to see Dumbledore standing there, a knowing smile on his face.

"Professor" he acknowledged by nodding.

The headmaster did the same and slowly made his way to the bed beside Remus', sitting down without a sound.

"I hope you're doing ok Mr. Black " he said, a smile still on his face. "I, unfortunately, have some rather…unpleasant news."

Sirius held his breath as though ready to jump off a cliff, great, more good news to his collection!

"We had the intention of making the capture of the Carrow siblings seem unrelated to Harry's kidnapping. However, their trial was held this morning and the ministry didn't seem very convinced…and so they extracted the information they wanted from them…"

"They know about Remus?" Sirius concluded, breathing out heavily.

Dumbledore shifted in his sit and smiled in a way Sirius couldn't decipher.

"They already knew about Mr. Lupin, Sirius. What they do know right now is that you helped him escape and that you both have harry with you now. Not only that, but what's more important, they know Kingsley also helped you…it wasn't really hard to figure out the order was involved. And by that I mean they can connect everything back to Hogwarts…" he drifted off again.

"You mean they know we're here? I thought the order was suppose to be a secret professor! How come the ministry knows about it?"

"Well, they don't really. By 'the order'…I mean they know we're connected. They know that if an Auror was helping you then someone was telling them to do so…And precisely, they know you and Remus are here, so we can surely be expecting them in the next few days." He was looking more serious now.

"But…I…but…do they even know I'm innocent? And how can they come after remus now? They can't take him! We haven't even talked to him about what happened, we don't even know why he did it!" he reasoned.

The headmaster lifted his hand softly and looked as calm as always.

"I can assure Mr. Black, I do not believe Remus had any ill motive to take little Harry, and as such I will do all I believe can be done to help not only you, but also him. All I ask of you right now is to keep a low profile around Hogwarts and to watch for any suspect actions there might be here."

Sirius sighed and nodded, somehow he couldn't get himself to fully trust the headmaster's assurance that everything would be fine.

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A/N:

Hunn what can I say? It's a transition chapter people :P

Important Note: I'm very sorry about the weird scene changes!! Bottlebrush let me know about them (the symbols I used to separate the scenes don't appear on ffnet) However, I will only re-up the chapters when they have been betaed. From now on though, the chapters will be fixed! Sorry about the confusion! (Hopefully you noticed the dividers in this chappie hun?)

Anyway, answer to Reviews (So you guys learned the lesson and reviewed more this time hun? -laughs-):

Fantasyfan4ever: Ok I'm shocked at how fast you read and review OO like, I posted the chappie 11 and then like...minutes later you had reviewed -glares dream-likely- ok I just had to say that kkkkk :D Awwnn Remus will be alright...hopefully :) Don't worry I tend not to be to evil -smiled innocently- I'd like to have a go at those two too, but I don't know if I will -laughs-. Thanks!!

miss freddy: :D thanks! I'm glad you like it! -grins- here it is!

Inuyasha's hun: Awwnn see, nothing that bad happened (sort of) :D

HouseCamFan624: Sorry about the delay! :P

MagicalWinry: Hunn I wonder if he will :P

ProtegoNox: Hopefully he'll live right? :D Hunn things will get more...ahhh I cant tell you, but I think you'll like it ;P

NavyBlue...(I never write your full name, do I?): I guess this chapter didn't really clear much up right? But net one will!

Xylia Luna Orion: I know right? Really sad / but things will get better! Sorry bout the delay!

SilverWhiteDragon: kkk I'm evil :P

arabellaw: Nope St.Mungos was defiantly not a good idea, Kingsley wasn't thinking, the poor guy. Sorry about the wait!

Little Hero: Ohnn :) I'm glad! Nhaam I sorry I took long!

Suicidal Button: Yep, gonna be scarred for life the poor thing :P

pink-robot-pentapi: Thanks!

Queen Red Rum: Action! Yeye :P kkkkk immortal is he? kkkk JK didn't think so -laughs- hopefully I do :P It's ok! And sorry about the delay!!

BottleBrush: OH. MY. GOD. You just pointed out something very important I hadn't noticed (I don't re-read the chapters when they're posted on ffnet!!) cries I'm so gonna have to re-up all of my chapters now!

The thing is I always put dividers on the chapters as "new scene" kind of thing, and I just noticed that they're one of the many symbols that ffnet doesn't allow to appear cries omg can't believe I'm gonna have to re-up everything...Thank you for pointing it out! It is very confusing! (I hated it when I read fics and the authors did that - not make a brake I mean- now I know what really happens...-sighs-)

I love your reviews! And thank you for recognizing all the stuff I do think through, I really try as hard as I can to make emotional scenes believable (Remus' transformations, him telling harry to hide and stuff) It makes me very happy that you like it!