I was finally at Hagrid's hut gasping for breath, though I hadn't broken a sweat. And on the door lay a single piece of parchment. And it read:
No class today
Out on Hagwort's business
Won't be back for a day
Hagrid
P.S. Serenity please feed Arogon
Oh, come on! Not only is Hagrid not here, but I have to go feed a bunch of giant, creepy spiders. And Snapes knew! And I hate spiders!
So I took the meat and headed into the Forbiden Forest. Luck was really against me today.
~.~.~. ~.~.~. 20 Minutes later
I fled from the forest screaming. Arrogon might know me, and might not care much to hurt me as long as I bring food. But now Arrogon was dying, and someone else was taking charge. And he didn't like me at all! And now he chased after me. Crap!
As I finally escaped, I tripped and fell into the arms of Slytherins. And not any Slytherins, but Pansy and Crabbe and Gayle. Oh man!
"Well look what I found." Pansy cheered. If I tried correcting her (I'm a 'who', not a 'what'), whatever was coming for me would be ten times worse. I will be doing everything in my power to make sure she is not my future sister-in-law. "Well boy, you can take care of the Molfoy's trash, right?"
"Um…" Goyle stumbled. He knew my brothers distaste for anyone harming me. Obviously Pansy did not.
"D-Draco wouldn't b-be happy i-if we d-did." Crabbe stuttered. Then Pansy's initials popped in my head. "I actually feel sorry for you." I told Pansy.
"What?!?" she screamed.
"Yeah, I'd hate to have the initials P.P." I told her. "Think about it."
Crabbe and Goyle were rolling on the floor laughing. Pansy glanced at me in hurt anger, tears nearly leaking from her. And then the punishment came as everyone who had been in the RoR came down the walk to Hagrid's hut.
"Crucio!" Pansy yelled, pointing her wand at me as I went for my wand. The spell hit me and a blood-curdling scream ripped through my throat as I dropped to my knees, clenching my sides.
"Pansy stop!" Crabbe begged for fear of my brother.
"Draco will kill you for this!" Goyle told her. Who's a bigger turd than Percy? He's a [enter swear word here] wizard. He could stop her for Merlin's sake!
"No Draco wouldn't." Pansy cheered in a happy little voice as another scream sounded from my mouth. Where the Hell is Dumbledore and everyone else?!?
"Yes Draco would." My brother's voice rang before he hit Pansy with a spell that sent her fifty yards back, and her wand into the weeping willow. HA!
My pain disappeared and I shot up like a moose and hugged my brother. "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I cried.
"OK." He mumbled, shocked, and then I noticed his blood flavored lollipop.
"I'll tell Daddy you saved my life if you give me your BFL." I told him, pointing at the lollipop.
"What?" he asked, Was he stupid?
"If you give me your lollipop," I said slowly, emphasizing "Dope, I will tell Daddy that a Dementor was about to get me, but you sacrificed your soul to save me. And that I used my Patronis to save us both."
"No, because then you'd be the hero." He told me. "How could you get hit with a blugger and I saved you from falling?"
"But that never happens."
"But we'll say it did."
"But that would be lying, poorly, and Daddy said never to do that."
"But you're lying anyways."
"But what if we don't?"
"What!"
"What if we tell Daddy that someone was using the bad curse on me and you stopped them?" I suggested.
Draco thought about it for a second… and then he gave me his lollipop! HA!
"Thank you." I squealed, kissing him on the cheek, and skipping away.
"You're the greatest brother ever!" I called over my shoulder, the lollipop already in my mouth. I looked around and saw a shield come down from around Dumbledore's group.
Everyone looked from me to Draco, who was headed off the other way with Crabbe and Goyle.
And I looked at them.
Before running into the wall…
I ran into the wall. It wasn't dramatic or any thing. I simply ran into the wall. But I'd never done that before. It was like nature was trying to say I needed to stop and think before I take Edward back. Maybe I did.
Then, I remembered what it'd been like with Fred.
~Flashback~
I was on the Hogwarts Express. Alone in one of the compartments and in my first year. I was nervous, panicked, and scared, and Draco left me for his friends. Screaming started, and I actually relaxed. Screaming was my relaxation, something I was used to, something I love. There was yelling and I was in Heaven. It was like home with my mother, the bitch. That's when two redheads snuck into the compartment. Mischief was written all over their face.
Trouble makers.
I could see that they needed to hide. They needed to hide and they needed to do so quickly. So I dug out the invisibility cloak I'd bought in Dragon Ally behind my fathers back and tossed it to them. They hid under it and I dug out a book and began to pretend to read.
Ah, the art of pretending, my forte.
Three Slytherin girls barged in and looked around just as I began to look like I wasn't going to laugh the minuet the left.
"You!" one yelled at me. I looked up at her and automatically hated her. "Oh, your Draco's little sister."
"Aw, she's so cute. Just like her brother." Another said, flipping her hair over her shoulder and trying to make herself look good as if trying to make my first impression on her better. Like it mattered, I already hated her.
"She's even got his hair and his eyes." The last said. I'm not Draco; I don't like being compared to him. So that only made me hate then more.
"My name's Pansy." The first girl said. You understand how long I've hated her now?
"And I don't care. Leave now." I told them, looking at each of them as the shock spreed across their face. "Now leave, or my daddy will find out. And don't try to impress me. I hate all girls that are after my brother. I'll be the one to say who he marries, and none of you are the type of people I want to be related to. Now SHOO!"
They ran quickly as possible, scared. I'm not like that, but it was so fun to scare them like that. The twins came out from under my cloak laughing.
"I'm Fred—" the first said, handing me back my cloak.
"And I'm George." The other said
"Weasly" they both said together. I looked over to Fred and then over at George. I'd tell them apart, I could always tell them apart.
"I'm Serenity Malfoy, don't compare me to my brother and I think this could be the start of a beautiful relationship." I told then putting the book and the cloak into my backpack, something I still to this day take everywhere with me. It was fun remeting them after having not seen them for 3 years.
"Sure."
And then Draco pulled me away to see his friends.
~End of Flashback~
It wasn't until later that we talked pranks. They'd—or manly Fred—had comforted me when I'd had a panic attack over getting into Gryffindor. They'd taught me to laugh when my mother sent howlers to me. They were…my best friends. For the most part, they were my only friends at first. (Ginny was distant first year)
I went to Azkaban say half way through the year, and during Easter break the came and visited me. The owled me all summer after I was released. When second year rolled around and I made it on to the Quitich team as chaser. And when that happened, something came over me, and I ran over to Fred and began making out with him. I was 13 at the time so it was allowable.
~Flashback~
I was sitting across from Fred in the common room, looking out the window. Everyone else was asleep but Fred needed to "have a talk with me". So far though, no talking.
"If you want me to say I'm sorry for kissing you, you wont get that sorry." I told him, grabbing his attention. "Because I don't regret kissing you. I enjoyed it."
"Yeah, well I didn't." he told me.
"Then why'd you kiss me back?!" I screamed.
"That was a mistake!" He yelled back.
"Well then maybe our friendship was a mistake, too." I told him, hurt. "I'm going to bed."
"Wait," he said grabbing my wrist and pulling me back to him. " I like you. I like you a lot. I may actually like you more than any girl on this Earth. But it's not right. You're too young for me. Besides, what would people think…"
"Have we ever cared about what people think?" I asked, as he pushed a strand of hair out of my face. "We did Hug Snape day, Prank a Slytherin week, Shun Draco month, and Pants Pansy P day. Have we ever cared what people think? And as for age, have you not noticed how Tonks looks at Lupe?"
And then he kissed me.
~End of Flashback~
That was the start of our relationship.
With Fred it had been so easy. He already knew everything about me and I already knew everything about him. We knew each other's personality. Our likes and dislikes nearly matched up perfectly. And most importantly, we always knew what the other wanted and needed.
We asked each other the questions others would never think to ask: What was it like growing up a Malfoy? (Confusing…one minute it's like any other family and in the next your mothers trying to blow your name off the family tree) What was it like growing up one of seven? (lots of love, not a lot that's really yours, and the biggest contest was for who got to use the bathroom first) Why does your mother hate you? (for me… normal)Why is your father obsessed with Muggle stuff? (I don't really know) Is Draco really a good guy? (deep, deep down…farther down then a lot of people chose to go) Was there ever a time Percy wasn't a git? (uh…no) Why don't you like getting gifts? (because I get everything I want the moment I want it, and your better then any present) Do not want a present only because I said I don't want a present? (yes…and I'd still like a present)
And most importantly: What was it like in Azkaban? (frightening, boring, painful…you relive the worst moments in you life day after day after day)
Fred knew me and I knew him.
But with Edward, it was secret after secret after secret. Only one person saw the other for you they really were, and that person was me. All Edward got were the lies I hid behind. I'm not mature, self-sacrificing, or a danger magnet. I'm not a klutz. I'm not Charlie's daughter. I never lived in Phoenix. I didn't even really like the people I hung out with besides Angela and Ben but that was only because they were being home-schooled in the use of magic. I didn't even like driving slowly; I like to go faster then the Cullens do. I don't faint because of blood (only Mike Newton's). I don't feel sick riding on one of the Cullen's back while they run (best adrenaline rush ever).
And I like snow, rain, and wet weather.
~Flashback~
It was one of the weekends with a Hogsmade visit in it and Fred was giving me a piggyback ride after our day of jokes, candy, and butterbeer. I had my head rested on his shoulder, and I was smiling. The time I spent with Fred was the best and always put me in a better mode.
It was still my second year but Fred and I almost never left each other's side; only sleep and classes could split us apart. And Fred just…he made my life a happier place. And Fred never cared about my status in the Wizard world. When we'd go on dates, he insisted on paying. We had a limit on the amount of money we could spend on gifts for each other. When we went to Hogsmade, we paid for ourselves.
Our Christmas holiday was fast approaching, and Fred and George had insisted I spend it at their house instead of staying at Hogwarts like I had the year before. And Fred really wanted me to met the others in his family besides Ron, Ginny, George, and Percy. He wanted me to meet his parents. He just didn't want to meet mine.
Surprisingly, I was OK with that.
Fred took us off the path to school and began bringing us towards a pond near the Shrieking Shack. I climbed off his back and looked at the water. He grabbed my hand and lead me over to a bench close to the water's edge. He sat down and I sat next to him, swinging my legs over his lap and leaning into him as he raped his arms around me.
He placed a hand under my chin and force me to look at him before intertwining his hand in mine.
"I hope that every time you look at your hands and the spaces between your fingers, that you remember that were mine fit perfectly." He told me, looking me in the eyes. "I know it's a cliché, but it helps me think strait when you're not around. It might help you when life gets hard."
He leaned in and kissed me.
And when his lips touched mine, it started to snow.
The first snow of winter.
~End Flashback~
I looked at the space between my fingers, now, and smiled. But that smile didn't last long. Because my third year came right after my second. And Fred and I nearly broke up because of the Yule ball and whom he'd chosen to go with him. Plus whom I got back at him with.
Angelina.
The prissy little bitch whom my boyfriend of a year at the time had asked to the dance instead of me. And I'd gotten back at him with my cousin Rolf from Drumstang, only no one knew he was my cousin. People only knew that Draco and I were spending a lot of our time with him. More time then I spent with Fred.
Fred and I didn't talk over that holiday break. We didn't send each other presents. I even had to avoid George.
But come the night of the ball, Rolf met Luna. It was freak in love with freak at first sight. And I have to admit they were perfect together. But he took her to the ball instead and I was left alone.
Until…
~Flashback~
I sat on the stairs that lead up to Gryffindor tower. I was crying, I was dressed up in the hottest gown around, and I was alone. Or I thought I was until someone cleared their thought.
I looked up to see Fred standing there looking oh so good in a tux.
"Aren't you supposed to be at the Yule ball with Angelina?" I asked in a pissy tone.
"For the same reason your not with that guy you're cheating on me with," he told me. I almost bust out laughing at the thought of cheating on Fred. Expressly with Rolf. "I'm talking to you, so why would I be there. And why the hell are you cheating on me?!"
"I'm not cheating on you, duff. Rolf's my cousin. I grew up with him. I haven't seen him since I was little. And we were like you and George; attached at the hip." I explained
"I am not attached to my twin!" he shot back, causing me to laugh.
"It's a saying. And does Angelina know you're gone?" I asked.
"George and I are switching places so that I can take my lovely girlfriend to the dance." He teased, holding out a hand. "I'm sorry for accusing you of cheating on me. And I'm sorry for being jealous and asking out Angelina."
And we went to the dance. And that was one of the best nights of my life.
~End Flashback~
when my forth year rolled around, Fred was always there after Umbrige gave me a detention. And Fred wanted her to pay as much as I did.
But most importantly, Fred knew what went on behind the scene of my life.
He knew stuff no one else did.
He even knew about Scorpious and Eli, and what really happened the night of there murder except who really committed it.
Scorpious and Eli Malfoy, my eldest brother and my twin, both dead by the hands of "Muggles". But only I knew the truth. They were dead because of what they knew. They were dead because of their knowledge of Sparta. They were murdered by wizards who had gone so far into the dark side that they believed people who were trained to fight for Sparta should all be killed.
Only the basterds that killed my brothers didn't know that my brothers knew nothing. It was me that had been trained to fight for Sparta. They didn't know that it was the Spartan warrior they raped. And it was I who killed them.
