Chapter 12

As I am always saying please ignore my spelling and grammar mistakes. English is not my first language but I try my best. And, I type in notepad. So, there are some errors. Please ignore. SM owns everything related to Twilight including jacob. Can you hear my heart breaking with that thought? So, here it is.

JPOV

I saw her running away. Away from me. My lilly. She ran away from me after I told her about the imprinting. I just sat there for few moments trying to understand what happened. She thinks I like her just because I imprinted on her. But, that is not true. I love her for her. With that thought, I ran after her. I tried calling her name but she kept running. Fortunately, she cannot outrun me. I saw her fall down to her knees and crying. My heart broke with each sob of hers.

She flinched when I tried to pick her up. But I could not leave her here, not in this condition. I tried to calm her down but she refused to listen. She kept sobbing and crying. I was getting desperate. I had to make her stop crying. So I picked her up. She flinched at first, then started to protest. Lilly kept hitting me with her fists while still crying. I was afraid she was going to hurt herself. She gave up hitting me few moments later. I gently placed her in the passenger seat of my car. When seated in the driver's seat, I tried to take her hand gently, to make her understand. She flinched again and I felt like a hundred vampires biting me at the same time. It was so painful. So this is how sam felt when emily rejected him in the beginning of their imprint.

However, lilly's health and happiness was my first priority. So I drove her back to the cullens home. I tried to talk to her during the whole ride. But she kept shaking her head, mumbling to herself and crying. I was getting worried about her. I recognized three words in her mumbling, my name, imprinting and love.

I drove past the speed limit to reach cullens' house as soon as possible. Lilly needed her family at the moment. As soon as I pulled in the driveway, both driver's and passenger's doors of my car were ripped open. Lilly was pulled in rosalie's arms. Emmett dragged me out of the car by picking me up from my collar. Lilly was inside the house in a flash as rosalie carried her crying form inside.

'What did you do mutt?' Emmett snarled in my face. The guilt, remorse and sadness filled my heart. I knew she was not ready for this talk. I knew it was not a good idea to tell her. But I still told her. It was my fault. I was the reason behind her tears. I was the reason my lilly was a crying mess in her mother's arms.

I felt the first blow to my chest and then another to my jaw. I landed few feet away from where emmett was standing now huffing and swinging his arm back. He was ready to deliver more blows but jasper stopped him. 'We need to know first what happened. Hitting him won't help emmett' jasper whispered.

Emmett just snarled at me. I could feel my broken ribs starting to heal. My jaw was another story. I had to get help for that. I heard jasper coming towards me as I was still trying to stand up on my legs after emmett's blows. As soon as I stood up, jasper landed another blow on my ribs. This time, I flew several more feet back. 'Get away from us when I am still allowing it. I told you about the consequences if you ever made her cry. One date jacob, one date and this is what you did to her. Go away before rosalie comes down. We will talk to lilly and then decide what to do.' I just whimpered and took the tongue lashing from jasper. It was my fault, it always is.

LPOV

Ride back to home was a blur. I kept hearing jake's voice but I refused to listen. It was a lie, it was all a lie. Mom took me to my room as soon as we reached the home. I could not stop my tears even if I tried. My first love & my first heartbreak. I could hear esme and alice talking while mom was rubbing my back for comfort.

'Please tell my baby girl what happened?' mom said when my sobs turned into hiccups after a while. 'Imprinting' I spat out the word as it was venom. 'He told you?' her reply shocked me.

'You knew? you knew?' I accused her. 'Honey you need to calm down' esme said from the doorway. 'calm down, CALM DOWN. How can I calm down? You knew about this and you never thought of telling me. You knew he imprinted on me. You knew that he liked me just because of the imprint. And you still let him near me. You let me crush on him. You let me fall in love with him. And now, my heart is broken because you decided not to tell me.'

'Honey, I know you are upset. But you need to calm down so that I can explain.' mom tried but I have had enough. 'Leave me alone, please' I begged them. Finally, they listened to me and left.

Crying, that is how I spend the whole night. I don't know when I fell asleep but woke up with a start when I heard loud growling followed by shouts. Sounded like a fight. I ran down the stairs to see my family and the wolf pack ready to fight in our driveway. My breath hitched when I met jacob's eyes. I could see the pain in his eyes. NO, this is not him. Its the imprint. 'What are you doing here?' I whispered when I was right behind my dad. Seth went to phase back and then came out in his human form. 'Jake just wanted to talk to you lilly. He is ... um very upset about how things turned out between you and him. He is still too upset to phase back.' He explained. But I already knew what I had to do. 'I need you to leave. All of you. I don't want you to come back. I do not want to see you again. I will come to you when I am ready. If I am ready.' I said the words while looking straight into jake's eyes. With each word, I felt something break inside of him and me. I could not stand there for one more moment. So I turned and went back to my room.

Howls and howls were heard for hours after that encounter as I cried. I knew jacob wasn't far. He was out of sight because I told him but he was still near because of the imprint. The thought just made me cry harder.

I do not know how long it was until mom had enough. She literally dragged me out of my bed and into the kitchen. 'Eat' she ordered. I forced two toasts down my throat at the threat in her eyes. Few gulps of juice later, she dragged me back to my room for shower. She literally pushed me in the bathroom. Once I was clean and fed, she forced me to sit down on bed while she paced in my room.

I watched her with disinterest. 'This needs to stop. It has been 3 days lilly' she declared suddenly. 'Mom' I started but she cut me off 'Lilly. I know what you think of imprinting and I don't know what jacob told you about it. After seeing your reaction, I am assuming, it was not good. But baby girl, imprinting is not what you think.' She took a deep breath to continue even though she didn't need it.

'I have known jacob for years.. longer than you. I have heard of their legends. I can say that I understand imprinting more than you. Imprinting ... it is much more than what you think. Imprinting makes a wolf see his mate for real, to recognize his mate, to recognize the another part of his soul. Yes, it makes the wolf exceptionally possessive and protective. But it does not make a wolf fall in love. As far as I know, a wolf of theirs imprinted on a child. It is not the kind of love you think imprinting forces on them. Wolf becomes what its mate wants. Jake became protective of you because of the imprint. But he fell in love with you all on his own. I was there lilly. I saw it myself. How he fell for you.'

'But mom ...' I tried to say but she started again 'No lilly. This is not right. You know how I feel about jacob and his bond with you. And I am sorry I kept it from you. But this, what you are doing with him? This is not right. You know how many people look for love, real love. And you have it here, right in front of you. A guy who will love you forever, a guy who will do anything for you, a guy who will cherish you forever. Do not lose him lilly. You love him. He loves you. Why the other details matter? What if it was fate who brought you together? What if it was imprinting who made him really see you? If he loves you as much he claims, then all these questions, they do not matter.'

And just like that, she left me to my thoughts. And I started thinking what I was really doing?

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