A/N: This chapter pretty much sums up how Santana fits into Rachel's life. It also gives you a little insight on why Quinn's such a b***h. Honestly, she's a b***h because she just is. I have no explanation for it. And I think later on somewhere Santana might actually get her chance to smash her face in. I'm not sure just yet.

Disclaimer: You all know the drill. Characters not mine. Just borrowing them. (Also, I feel like if I don't do a disclaimer on all my chapters then I'd get in trouble for it. xD better to be safe then sorry, right?


"Do you remember the year of our Seventh grade?"

"Like as in before the school year started or during?"

"During,"

Rachel sighed, "Yes, Brittany started here a little after the school year started and we kinda sorta took her in under our wing after we saw Azimio bully her over not knowing where she was going,"

"Exactly, what else do you remember about that year?"

Rachel looked down at her jeans and picked on the seam of them, she knew where this was going, but she had to remember.

-September of 07' into year 08'-

Brittany had entered our group by choice. I hated seeing her being bullied because she was a little slow, or she acted like it. But either way, she wormed her way into mine and Santana's hearts easily and I loved having two best friends rather then one. Even though Santana was more then a best friend to me. But as the rest of my seventh grade went on I was beginning to see Brittany and Santana grow closer.

It was like watching my two best friends live life without me, like I was stuck behind a screen that I couldn't break. And it hurt me alot. I'm not saying that they never included me in things that they did, they always included me. Santana made sure of it. But it was like Santana traded me for Brittany because it was always them talking at the lunch table then turning my way to ask for my second opinion. Like I guess that's how it was suppose to be right? Maybe I was just paranoid.

No, it got worse when a girl named Quinn moved here right around a week after halloween. She looked like one of those preppy girls I had seen on tv with Santana when we watched those shows. She was even mean like them, she would always put down girls if they looked ugly in the clothes they wore.

Before my birthday she had wormed her way into our group and pretended to be friends with me so she could get to Santana and Brittany. And I say pretend because when I was ever alone with her, which I tried not to be, she would bully me. Told me I was worthless and that no one loved me. She would dog on my choice of clothing and tell me that I was an abomination, that god was disappointed how I turned out. She even told me that I should just kill my self so everyone would be happy.

I did think about telling Santana and even Brittany about what she had told me and what she was doing to me but Quinn decided to shoot that idea down quick.

It was a few weeks before may, and the end of another school year. I had invited the gang over for a sleep over when Quinn pulled me aside to talk to me. Well, rather grab my arm tightly where there was a bruise the next day and then yell at me.

"I know you plan on telling Santana and Brittany about what I've been saying to you and I swear to everything, if you even dare say anything to them about it, you won't have to worry about killing yourself because I'll do it for you,"

I feared Quinn so much because I wasn't use to the bullying. So I feared that she actually might want to kill me for real. After that night, I drifted off from the group and just became a loner.

And then I was told by Santana that she was leaving for a year after the summer. That just crushed my world even more. I shut down instantly and didn't talk to anyone for the entire summer. I didn't even let Santana come over anymore. The day she had left, I sat in my room and listened to sad songs all night as I cried myself to sleep. It was also the first night I took a razor to my skin.

-Present Time-

The girls sat on the bed quietly as they both let the new information sink in slowly. Santana was furious though, she couldn't believe Quinn lied to her the other day. She knew the story about how Rachel had it all and was lucky to have it so she wanted it, was as fake as she was. She thought about going over there and punching the bitch in her face but when she spotted the lone tear travel down Rachelk's cheek she thought better of it and that beating Quinn to a bloody pulp would have to wait.

"Why did you pull away from me Tana?" Rachel looked up and Santana instantly felt her heart break at the sadden and tearful look the tiny girl was giving her. "If I was the girl you fell in love with first, why did you let Brittany and Quinn get in the middle of that?"

"I..."

"I mean fuck!" Rachel stood up and began to pace around the room. It had gotten dark outside so they had been at it for hours, but there really was no time limit. "Now that I remember a lot of it, I remember every emotion I ever felt when you were ever involved in anything in my life and I loved you the day I caught you looking at me so intensely."

"Rachel-"

"I mean yeah, it was creepy but I still fell for you. And you let two people get in the middle of that. I love Brittany dearly and I'm not mad at her, I'm more mad at you then anything else, so why?" She turned to the floundering girl, "Tell me why you gave up on me so easily?"

Santana stood up and made to get closer to the girl but Rachel stepped away from her with a shake of her head, "Don't touch me right now, just answer me,"

"I panicked Rae, we were so young and to feel all of those feelings and emotions at once for one person was crazy. I mean I'm not saying that all of this still doesn't apply to now since we are only 18, we're still really young," Santana started, "But after leaving for a year then struggling to see you go through all of that from our freshmen year to now just brought back all of those feelings and not only that but to find out that you forgot about me while I was gone hurt like hell," she was crying now. All of the pent up saddness she felt was finally coming out and she didn't care because she was with the one person she could truely be herself around.

"I come back and you completely ignore me, saying that you had never met me before because you had just moved here. At first I thought it was a joke until I talked to Brittany about it, even Kurt, and they both said that you just kind of lost it during your eight grade year, so much that they thought you lost your memory to forget about it all," she sniffled as her crying stopped and she looked dead on towards Rachel.

"Then I called Alex, after four years of no contact with her, I called her to ask her what went on and she told me,"

Rachel could see that Santana was hiding something from her, "Told you what?"

"Rae, I think-"

"Told you what!?"

"I can't tell you because it's not my place to, you need to hear it from her at least,"

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