Lunch fiddled guiltily with her fingers as she watched Goku staring out of the widow. The falling rain outside rippled onto the glass, trickling down like tears on a face before plummeting once again down to the far below earth. Tien watched the path he was flying, listening to the silence that filled their vehicle. Goku, could feel his heart pounding in his chest, thumping louder than a drum in his ears and his breathing caught onto the fast pace not long after. Why he was nervous he wasn't sure, was he going to loose his temper with her? Would she loose hers with him? Was it just more of these agonising feelings come to haunt his tired body? Or was it just a random nervousness he felt before battle?
He didn't know, and neither did he suspect anyone else would. And that's what enhanced this confusing, this agony…was the feeling that, even though his friends surrounded him, that he was alone, that he was a black dot on white paper…that for once, he was and would fight alone on a side not supported but those that had, in truth always supported him. Sighing he looked over at Lunch's twiddling fingers and Tien's eyes of deep concentration, they had their 'love issues' there was no doubt about that, and Bulma, well he wasn't going to start on the number of issues she had told him about, Krillen he wasn't really sure, for some reason Krillen didn't get with girls often…Roshi was, well Roshi was an issue in himself.
All of them, each friend they all had their problems but still he felt completely alone, he couldn't talk to them, he couldn't let them know how he felt inside…he just slapped that smile on his face and acted like all was well…when in truth his soul had never been in so much anguish. The clouds seemed to thicken around him as the rain fell harder, everything seemed even darker than usually, more depressing, he couldn't find that light that always shone so brightly. Instead there it was, that glowing hold of anger, furious hatred buried deep beneath the shattered shards of his soul. And those shards they still called out, that hatred it wasn't eating her, it wasn't aimed at her…but himself. Shaking his head he looked over at Lunch once more, her lips moving but no sound other than his own beating heart reached his ears. Until finally he saw it, through a gap in the clouds…their 'home'
"Stop here…I'll go alone from here." His voice was low, his hands covering his face as if hiding tears.
"Goku the deal was we'd go in with you!" Goku shook his head angrily and watched as Tien planted the craft down and like himself and Lunch, unbuckled his seat belt. They stepped out of the craft slowly, Goku's weighted feet sinking into the soggy mud beneath him, drops of water from the above heavens now coating his body and dripping from his nose. Against the blackened skies the tall towers of the confronting fortress reached high into the skies, the greyed stone of the wall decaying with the rain, the windows full and shining with tales of fallen enemies, each picture a calling warning to any who approached with intent to invade. Goku sighed and looked back at the wide eyes pair behind him. Around him the grass seemed lifeless as he watched the mutant beings, not human, not animal walk around the grounds. The bowed around him, greeting him with title and splendour, bowing more.
Goku had never experienced this before, these beings they were slaves and he the overlord and as they lay on the slushy mud of the ground, their small pride ridden faces looking up to him, he felt that small cry of arrogance surface, that call of something more primitive as if, he was a person destined to conquer and be bowed down to…but he shook it off, deep, deep down, away from his consciousness, deep to where that voice hid, that voice of evil temptation. As he wiped the rain off his face he stared into the deep crevices of the wooden door before him. Small hands of following slaves soon pulled them open, pointing with scrawny fingers to the large corridor.
"My lord your lady awaits eagerly for you in your residence" Goku followed the small pointing fingers down the arm onto the bowed head.
"Hmmm?" The small face stayed down as Goku looked on in confusion.
"My lord I'm sorry for your confusion…I meant nothing of it, I beg please forgive me" The voice quivered in fear…in fear of him. "She resides in your bedroom my mighty Sir." Goku nodded and moved to leave. "Excuse me my lord but are these guests of yours?"
"Uh…yes, yes they're with me!" The small face nodded and looked up at him.
"Then please allow me to take them to a more suitable settling, elsewhere in the castle?"
"Oh no that isn't necessary; they're going to stay with me."
"My Lord malady insists that no visitors are to enter any further than the throne room…you too stated this rule!" Goku looked over at Lunch and Tien and shrugged.
"Indeed I did…just makes sure they're comfortable and happy" Goku stood watching as Tien and Lunch were dragged into another room, all Goku saw as the door shut was the blood red silk that covered the window.
Chichi had her hair down, resting it perfectly along her shoulders as she brushed it. Like her tears the rain fell hard outside, against a pale horizon and a darkened sky. She heard the door click open and shut but threw the visions out of her head; it was just the maid, here once again to clean her lonely sheets. She could feel the wind of the open window hit her face hard as the pressure of the room changed, small droplets of earth's life force dripping onto her face.
"You'll catch something sitting there like that" Chichi felt her stomach come to her throat as that familiar voice echoed through her room. Turning around she beheld Goku, dripping wet in that usual bright orange. She walked slowly forward, her heart once again dropping.
"You smell like blessed thistle my love" Goku didn't smile, he didn't look at her but rather he looked at his shoes, determination and sorrow etched solidly upon his face.
"Yes it seems to have stuck to my hair…the smell that is!" Her small giggling laugh echoed through his ear and he couldn't' help but look at her beautiful face. A small smile pulled on the corners of his lips as her small, gentle arms wrapped around his waist, holding him to her.
"Then you are gone from me! Never to return…and yet, I see no weapon?" She looked into his eyes "No intent to attack me?"
"I'm not here to destroy you Chichi or to torture you for your wrong doings…but I am however here for some answers!" Her eyes fell to the floor, looking at his shoes as she moved backwards, her hand extended and pulling on his to bring him also to sit on the bed, for minutes all that filled the room was silence, neither saying a word but wanting to say many. Chichi broke it first, her hand clasped onto Goku's tightly.
"Goku when I started this…I didn't know I was feeling love, I really didn't. You have every right not to trust me, to throw me to the floor and beat me but please just believe me…when I did it, I didn't know I was in love with you…but I do now, I do now Goku, I couldn't live without you now…I need you there." She leant up to place her lips on his, but met his hand instead. "Goku please, just one kiss?"
Tien and Lunch sat in the room, watching the guards by their door for any chance to break away…none came. The windows were thick with the falling rain, the light bright as it radiated from the candles around them.
Krillen watched through the bushes leaves as the others around him tried to construct a plan…they had to get in there without causing too much fuss. If Goku was aware of their being here too soon they would never get anything done and if they set all this lot off they would loose to sheer numbers…no they needed a quick and easy entrance.
"Well you guys saw how they all bowed down to him! Puar could you transform into Goku? Every inch must be perfect!" Puar nodded and allowed room for her transformation. Krillen watched on with worry, he really was torn between this. He knew Chichi needed to be stopped but he also knew that his best friend was for the first time deeply in love with someone…Goku had never felt this kind of affection from or to someone before and he could see the heartbreak, the complete crushing of himself when he looked into Goku's eyes, the poor guy was suffering but this…would this help? Would this 'betrayal' of Goku's trust help him see that there was no other way? Would it help him see anything? Or would this be the final blow to him, which would shatter the very part of him that hung on by a thread, the very part of him they strived to protect.
Puar stood smiling, proud at her accomplishment as all gave the thumbs up and crossed their fingers. No eyes turned to look at them, the workers back staying low to the ground as they worked…Krillen mentally panicked as they did not bow…they weren't even aware of their presence.
As they opened the door they were met with angered eyes…Bulma's scream and crashing furniture being the only sound echoing through the corridors of the desolate home.
Chichi opened the door to their room quickly, Goku not far behind as he looked at the struggling people on the floor. Gasping Chichi looked up at Goku with a shocked anger, the same look mimicked by Goku as he looked at his friends.
"You lied to me!" Her small fist met Goku's un-expecting face as everything stopping to watch them "You had them sneak up! And to think I believed you weren't like those in my past, that you'd actually give me a chance!" Goku opened his mouth to speak, only to find himself on the ground as she pushed him to the floor in front of his friends…despite his innocence, she walked out, and shouting for them to leave before silence once again fell.
Goku stood and wiped himself down, dust spreading around him as he beat it gently from his clothing. With a fire he turned to look at them.
"What the hell are you doing here!?" His hands came to clasp around Yamcha's cuff, pulling him closer to his eyes, glaring. "You ruined it all! I almost had her Yamcha…I was so fucking close; she was going to give up but no you had to interfere!" The door to the front of the house flew off its hinges as Goku stormed out, angrily flying to Kami's lookout.
Dinner was eaten in silence, only the clitter, clatter of plates and forks could be heard as they ate. Goku let his eyes stay on his food, not letting them look at any of them. As the plates were collected he stood to leave; he hadn't eaten nearly half as much as he needed, his stomach still said it was hungry and yet his brain told him if he ate any more he would be sick. Leaning against the balcony he let his face fall into his hands. The small patter of Krillen's foot steps echoed through the halls and onto the hard stone floor where they both now stood.
"Goku man I'm so sorry…I didn't, I mean…I wasn't sure what to do! They were hell bent on the plan working…I swear buddy I was only trying to think of you, I didn't know what to do!" Goku sighed and Krillen took his place awkwardly and defensively in case attack should follow, next to Goku.
"It's ok Krillen. I understand why you all did it…and I suppose it was for the best." He sighed sadly as he looked at the sky "I thought I was so close to convincing her she could change, that things would be better that way…"
"What happened in there Goku?" Goku laughed to himself, sniffing as he looked to Krillen.
"I don't know; nothing really. I told her I wasn't here to hurt her, or attack her…I just wanted answers. She was so upset Krillen, she said she missed me and that she regretted ever using me…that she loved me and the only reason she didn't end the hold was because she was afraid I would hate her and leave." He took a deep suffering breath and continued "I tried to tell her Krillen…I told her not to, that things would be better if we admitted defeat…but…s she wouldn't have it. She was determined to get me on her side, she said it was where I belonged…I'm her husband and I'm meant to defend her…She tried to kiss me and I pushed her way, then you guys came in and she…she hates me now doesn't she?" Krillen shook his head in unknowing. "Its over! Krillen I love her so much…no one ever told me love hurt…its not fair….its not fair…its not fair!"
Krillen watched as Goku sank to his knees, his knuckles white as they clasped onto the cold stone of the balconies barrier...his breaths came in gasping sobs, his eyes closed tightly as he cried loudly…an agony in his voice that Krillen had never heard. Kneeling down he placed his arms around Goku's shaking shoulders. He sat in silence as he watched and listened to him cry…What could he say?
What do you say, when Hero's fall?
TBC
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