CHAPTER TWELVE

I Dreamed A Dream

Written by:

happytears_21

Hotaru's POV

"Hi doctor."

"Oh, there you are Mrs. Hyuuga. Good morning, please have a seat. " she gestured the chair across her desk. I gave her a nod and went to sit down on the chair. Well, guess what? This is the third time that I came to have my check-up alone... not that I care right? Because Natsume is just busy. He is just busy. With work I suppose.

I looked down on my lap and tightened my hold on my purse. Why then? If I am trying so hard to convince myself that he is just busy with his work, why then? Why does my chest tightens every time that I came here with my hands cold? Do I really badly needed his company in here? I clearly can come here and there without his presence so why then?

Right...

I am just humoring myself. Who would want to come to their doctor's appoinments during their pregnancies empty handed when there is your husband supposedly so happy and excited for the upcoming birth of an angel?

Me. Of course.

I smiled bitterly. At least I have my purse to hold my hands unto throughout the check-up. At least not cold... just sweaty.

"Mr. Hyuuga is really a busy man eh? He barely come with you during your appointments, I know this is none of my business but I just hope that everything is okay. Now that I think of it, I think he never accompanied you here. Is that right?" she asked.

Bitch.

"He has been doing a project these past few days, he declined coming and I understand that he is badly needed in his work. In times like this, I have to be strong and understandable with him because I know that he is putting too much stress on himself... that is what a good wife should do." I replied. Is it true though? I don't know.

"Oh. I see. That is very admiring of you, what a really good insight. " she smiled preparing her computer for some records on my improvement. "I hope then that that's a good thing. You'll never know what is truly happening around. "

"Yeah." I barely smiled at her.

"Don't worry though, I am still here for you Hotaru. I won't leave you and please always feel free to come to me if there is something troubling you. It would be my pleasure to help. " she said.

This time I truly smiled at her. "Thanks Serina."

"That's better than you calling me doctor bullshit." she laughed then took her ballpen out from her drawer. "Okay then, let's begin. "

Serina was the treasurer of the student council at our school, well the new school that I had attended after my fight with Mikan. She was the only one who has acknowledged my presence in there during my first time. Kind of pathetic, I know, but that is already expected on my part since I am the kind of girl that doesn't speak when not spoken to. She just came by one time and introduced herself then we became close friends ever since then.

I am glad she came in my life though.

We continued my check- up without mentioning Natsume anymore, I am glad that she understands me and my situation now and chose not to speak about it. She handed me a list of prescriptions and reminded me once again about the Do's and Dont's of pregnancy when she learned that I am quite stressed about my relationship with Natsume, not that I told her that we are already on the verge of breaking up, just some basics like lack of time with each other and other stuffs like that. I can't risk to tell her that, nobody knows what action she might do whenever she learned about it... and I couldn't lose either both of them.

"So... you'll be due any day of this month so just keep your heads up anytime okay. Remember your limitations and PLEASE do not stress on anything even if that is your husband. It might give complications to your pregnancy." she added. "I think that's all, congratulations and good luck. Anyways, do you want to talk about something that needs my guidance?"

Maybe that's what I really need.

End of Hotaru's POV

Tsubasa's POV

"Umm... could you give me a minute for a bit?" I asked Mikan as she entered the building. I rarely converse with her these past few days and I am kind of very desperate to hear her voice once again. That fucking brother of mine might have been keeping her from me again.

Bullshit of a bastard. Fucking coward. And a worthless human to call a man. I can't believe that after all this time, I am helping him to cheat on his wife and my love. He knows that I have feelings for Mikan and yet he is just so open about his situation to me. What game is he playing at anyways? To show me thay he can do anything that he wants? That he can get two at a time? Well fuck that shit because that destroys everything that he has in life and everything that he have will go down with him when the time comes, then I'll come to save Mikan from his mess. That way, I could make less damage to both sides. I will take Mikan from him, that's for sure.

"Oh Tsubasa, what's up? " she grinned at me. This is the face that I am so trying hard to protect, her face painted with a smile. I felt a pang on my chest that Natsume has just to keep her all to himself.

Can I stomach their breakdowns if I chose to tear them apart?

I don't know.

"Hey Tsubasa, you okay?" Mikan placed a hand on my shoulder and looked at me worriedly. As much as I wanted her to get worried about my feelings any time of the day, I decided not to give any special thoughts to her simple gestures. It's awful and I know that in the end, I'll just wallow myself in self pity and regret.

I love her but at the same time, I'm afraid that she might be the reason of my madness. I don't want that for myself but I want her also for myself.

Ugh! So complicated, this love thing.

I smiled at her and have her one of my best winks, "Mind coming with me for a bit of coffee?"

"Coffee? I thought you are so busy for the project you are currently working on? And besides it is still not break time and I don't want to be told that I am slacking or worse, be the celebrity for people's entertainment. " she wrinkled her nose distastefully which made her look adorable... pause.

See what things she makes me do without even exerting effort?

I shook my head and grinned at her, "You must not forget Ms. Sakura that I, the great Tsubasa Andou, is the rule here. And as long as you are by my side, I assure you that all things that you do is none of any workers' business. I swear that with my blood and my gorgeous tattoo. " I winked at her again and this time, I made her blush. I felt proud of my work.

"Fine then oh great Tsubasa Andou of Andou Industries, please bring me to your humble abode and serve me your delicious coffee." she mocked bowed me and gave a heartful laughter after putting her show. Another one of my weaknesses. Oh well, I don't care as long as it is hers.

"Okay then princess, would you allow me then to escort you outside?" I asked her handing her my arm for her to hook up with hers. I smiled down at her and she just grinned, lightly slapping my shoulder before hooking her arm with mine.

I sighed in contentment. I wish everyday is just like this. No worries, no Natsume, no others... just her and me, living our life together. A simple wish yet so painfully hard to reach.

I started to lead us out of the building carefully making sure that I am walking at the same pace as hers so that she won't get troubled in following me. Is this what Natsume feels whenever she's around him? A constant fluttering of the chest and a loud thumping of the heart? If that's the case, then I truly envy him for getting her. Such a shame though that he has a very dark secret to lock up in order for him to keep her.

I looked at Mikan as she happily chatted about her past few weeks to me, gesturing her hands in every direction then laughing to things she thought was funny.

I like-no scratch that, I love this girl beside me but I can't have her as long as she is his. I want to take her even by force but I doubt that she would like that, so in the mean time, just sharing her undivided attention with a lot of people around her is enough for me. Just being by her side and hearing her voice is enough till now... I just silently hope that she'll stay by my side till the end and by that time, not a friend but already her future.

Review?

LOL! Tooo muuuccchhh drraaammaaa! Yeah I know so yeah, HAPPY NEW YEAR everybody! I hope you all had fun watching the fireworks and all those stuffs done during these times... especially the food. Yum.

So since this is already a new year, I have this problem about my friend, a real close friend, and he kind of tell me things that are really offensive in any way. I mean I know that I am like stupid and stuffs but he just keep on telling me that I am stupid and this and that in front of a crowd. I can't understand him and I even tried to stop him from doing that to me because we are buddies and told him that he could tell me those in private but he still continues to do it. So what do you think is the appropriate thing to do in these situations? Please help me out, I am kind of scared in meeting him once again since classes will start soon.

So yeah. Thanks for reading and please help me. T_T

Okay that's it. Bye! :)