Black-Angel-001: i've decided how the end will go, but it's all up in the air for now. i can't help but think of roy and riza when i hear 'whisky girl', and duo and relena with 'how do you like me now?' (both are by toby keith) weird, isn't it? one short of the reviews i wanted, but it works anyway!
Killing Me Softly
The room was dark, the delicate curtains allowing little light to enter. It didn't matter. Riza sat in the rocking chair of the baby's room, the room that was supposed to be Elizabeth's, just rocking gently and slowly back and forth, staring at the white crib. It wasn't fair, she thought for the hundreth time. Was God punishing her because she had done something wrong, or was He doing this just to spite her? It just wasn't fair.
Roy stood in the doorway, studying his wife's face for a little longer. The stress and sadness of the past few days was beginning to show. Riza seemed so broken. It hurt to see her hurt. The sad thing was, as powerful as he may be, Roy couldn't do a damn thing about it. He kneeled in front of her, like a knight in front of his precious queen.
"Maes is now officaly taking his nap," he told her, taking her hand in his. "He's still avoiding me, but not as much."
Riza smiled down at him but it was forced. "You're his hero; he thought you were invinsible or something. When he saw you in the hospital, he was rudely awakened to reality." She watched Roy massage her hand, starting at her wrist and slowly working his way to her fingers.
"Kind of like you?"
"Yeah, kind of like me."
He kissed her palm and looked up at him. "Riza, this won't change anything. No matter how long you sit here, no matter how many tears you cry, or how much you curse and pray to God, Elizabeth will still be dead."
Riza slapped his face.
"Do you think I'm stupid, Roy? Do you think I didn't know that? It's easy for you to carry on like nothing happened because your child didn't die inside of you. Can you understand that? Can you fathom how hard it is for me to walk by this room without remembering? My child died and it's all my fault!" She began to cry again.
Roy stared at her, ignoring the sting on his cheek. He was annoyed with her. It was sad that their daughter was gone, but other lives continued. The world couldn't stop spinning because of one death, no matter how much you wanted it to. With a start he realized that he had done what Riza was doing. She was hiding in the baby's room, like he had been hiding in his office.
"Strategizing in solitude my ass," he mumbled under his breath. Roy pulled Riza to the floor with him, holding her tight against him. She struggled but was too upset to put up much of a fight. Eventually, she just let him hold her, crying into his shirt. Roy didn't seem to mind. After a while, he pushed her away from him and wiped her eyes with his fingertips.
"You've got to realize a few things, Riza. First of all, stop refering to Elizabeth as your daughter. She was our daughter. Second, I can't completely understand how you feel, but I do understand. I understand that you hurt from losing a child, and that you hurt because no one seems to notice or care about the pain you feel. You've got to quite hiding out and start living. One child may be gone, but we still have the other one. It isn't fair to Maes if you do this. He still needs his mother."
"So, you want me to forget about my daughter for good? I can't do that, Roy, I won't do that!"
He shook his head. "There you go again, saying 'your' or 'my'. No, I'm not saying you should forget about our daughter, but go on living while keeping her memory."
Riza looked down. He sighed and smiled.
"Remember after Hughes died? I asked you if you were going with me to the top." She nodded. "This is going to sound incredible corny, but if it helps you, then I don't care if I have to dress up like a clown to make you understand."
Riza chuckled. It was easy to see him in white make up, a huge multi colored wig, brig red shoes, and a rubber nose. That would be a sight plenty of people would pay to see.
"I'm going with you all the way, even when we die. I'm going to go with you to either heaven or hell and God help the poor bastards who get in my way."
"You always did have a way with words," Riza told him. She was feeling better. Maybe, she didn't want her heart to heal until Roy told her it was okay? Just maybe...
"Now, lets get something to eat. I'm starving." Taking her hand, Roy helped Riza up and didn't let go. "Just promise me something, will you?"
"What?" She glanced up at hime out of the corner of her eye.
"Promise you'll stay the incredibly hot, tough, hardcore, demand authority and respect, gun toting, trigger happ, tell the truth even though it hurts,"
"Is there an end to this?" Riza laughed.
"Yeah, but now I forgot where I was and what I was going to finish it with. Look, just stay the way you were when I first met you."
"Okay, what do you want?"
"Just for you to teach Havoc some manners."
"Fine, if you promise to stay the hot headed, incruably lazy, womanizing, skirt chasing, cheating in card games, useless on rainy days man I met." The look she gave him was pure innocence.
"Sure, why n...Hey! " Riza laughed, running down the hall to the kitchen, Roy chasing after her. Things weren't perfect (if they'd ever been that) and things would never go back to the way they were before. But, right then, that was okay. Living for the moment, taking nothing for granted, but rather cherishing everything, and leaving it all to chance was how the two wanted to live right then. It was all they needed, nothing else mattered.
Black-Angel-001: YAY TO MY REVIEWERS! here's some answers for some reviewers (and screw if it's illegal or not!):
f-zelda: thankies! i might not do another ed/winry pairing cause they're like brother and sister and it's just weird to date your brother or sister. i might, but it won't get serious or anything cause i've got plans. as for updating, i've got that all on my profile.
Saun (): yeah, i've been meaning to put a warning on this for that for a while but it's aggrivating, especially when you think of a great summary but have to use space for that! argh!
Angel-of-Music1331: again, i might or might not do the whole ed/winry pairing. depends on how i feel...
Black-Angel-001: i dunno when the next chap will be up, sorry!
