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This chapter was sort of hard to write, so I hope you enjoy. I told you guys that there was going to be angst so here it is and I hope you guys are ready for this chapter. I hope you guys enjoy this update. As always Read and Review.
Baby S
P.S. Please don't kill me
Chapter Twelve
"Lindsey."
"Hey, Troy." She said softly as she looked up at her, Troy immediately realized that he was practically naked and jumped back away from the door. Moving to close it he was startled when she placed her foot in the door. "I want to talk to you."
"There's nothing to talk about, Lindsey. So go home to your husband and leave me the hell alone." At his words Lindsey immediately started to shake as she started to sob. Troy just watched her for a moment before sighing and opening the door fully. "Come inside. Go wait in the living room while I go upstairs and change." Lindsey didn't response she just went into the living while he went upstairs to his bedroom. He leaned against the bedroom door and sighed. He looked towards his cell phone that was lying on the dresser charging. 'Should I call, Chad?' He thought as he took off his towel and went to his closet and pulled on some black sweatpants and a black t-shirt. 'Naw I can handle this.' He told himself as he walked to his door and opened it. Taking a deep breath he walked back downstairs and looked at Lindsey who was still looking pitiful on his living room sofa. "So what do you want?" he asked coldly. Lindsey flinched at his words and as she looked at him.
"I've missed you."
"Missed me…are you serious how many children do you and Nate have together, you know the man you divorce me for and married. How dare you come here and say that you missed me."
"I do miss you, Troy." She shot back as she looked at him no longer crying. "I know I hurt you and I will sorry for that for the rest of my life."
"I seriously doubt that…I know why you're here." He said smugly as he looked at her from his position across from the room. She looked up at him surprised and then shook her head.
"I highly doubt that, Troy."
"I know Nate is leaving you." He said laying everything out, he watched her for the reaction and was surprised to see her laugh bitterly.
"He's leaving me for another woman...and before you say it I know what you're thinking. Karma right. What goes around comes around. Am I right?"
"Yes, you are and if you came here to get my sympathy then you've come to the wrong place."
"Troy I thought that even after everything, that you still cared me." He shook his head and crossed his arms over his chest. He looked at her trying to see if she was speaking the truth when he realized that she was he frowned.
"You're serious…after you broke my heart; you think I'd still care about you."
"I know what you were like after the divorce." She said firmly as she looked at him, he shrugged and closed his eyes.
"How was I?"
"I know you didn't really date anyone, and before you ask I wasn't stalking you it was all the sport magazines." Troy rolled his eyes and moved over to the lazy boy that was directly across from Lindsey who sat on the sofa.
"And what exactly did those magazines say."
"They said that you were nothing more than a player or at least that's what you had become after our divorce, but now that say that you're changing for this new girl named Taylor McKessie is that true."
"What do you think?"
"I don't know I guess so, because I guess you wouldn't be here if you were a player." He nodded his head and then stood up and motioned towards the door.
"Let me tell you something else that those magazines failed to mention."
"And what is that?" Lindsey asked standing up as well and looking Troy over as he stood before her.
"That I am over you." She laughed then and placed her hands on her hips looking up at him with her most devastating smile. He narrowed his eyes at her and nodded his head. "I am over you Lindsey don't make me-."
"What lie…I know you aren't over me and no matter how much you show off this girl Taylor McKessie on your arm I know you aren't over me." She said as she walked towards him, Troy backed up and gently pushed her back.
"I think you should go."
"You don't want me to go." She whispered looking up at him; he shook his head and turned to go towards his front door to open it but was stopped by Lindsey grabbing his forearm. Troy stopped and looked at her hand, she immediately released his arm and wrapped her small slender arms around his neck and pulled him down so that she could kiss him. Completely caught off guard Troy stood there shocked as his ex-wife kissed him for the first time in three years. A feeling of remembrance washed over him. He remembered when he had first kissed her back in college and on their wedding day when they had pledged their undying love for one another in front of family, friends and god. He remembered all of that in their kiss, and then he remembered Taylor and pushed Lindsey away from him as he began to feel ashamed of his actions.
"What!"
"I can't do this to Taylor." He murmured as he looked away from Lindsey. "You were my past and Taylor she's my future."
"I felt more than the past in that kiss."
"Well that was you." He said, as he rubbed the back of his neck for a moment as he wondered how he was going to break this to Taylor there was no way he was going to keep this to himself. He wasn't going to lie to her about what had happened here tonight. "So how about you get the hell out of my house."
"Not until you admit that you love me."
"I don't Lindsey and you have some nerve trying to force the issue…you left me remember, you had children with someone that wasn't me remember." He shouted at her as she stood before him.
"I know and I am sorry."
"Sometimes sorry doesn't cut it and this is one of those times." He said brokenly. "I've finally moved on and now here you come trying to ruin it. Well let me tell you something Lindsey-." His words were cut off my Lindsey kissing him again; he stumbled back and fell into the lazy boy he had been sitting in earlier. "Lind-."
"Just go with it, Troy this will be like our final good-bye." She said kissing him even harder. After struggling against her for a few moments he just gave in and returned her kisses with equal fervor. He pulled her closer and she straddled his lap. Lindsey pulled away and looked into Troy's eyes and smiled when she realized that they were glaze over with passion. Bending her head she moved her mouth to his ear and whispered. "How about we take this to the next level, and let me show you how much I've missed you" She said before grabbing licking his earlobe.
After the deed was done, Troy sat there in the chair in a state of shock as he watched Lindsey get dress. She glanced at him over her pale shoulder and chuckled as she pulled her hair back into a ponytail. "Thanks for the walk down memory lane baby."
"Shut the hell up and get out." He mumbled as he stood and pulled on his clothes, even though he felt as if he really wasn't there. Lindsey sat down the sofa and pulled on her stocking and then slipped her feet into her heels.
"Don't be that way, Troy. I know you enjoyed it." He looked at her and couldn't help but feel sick to his stomach. She had to be the biggest mistake of his life. What had he saw in her all those years ago when they had met in college. What had he saw?
"Just get the hell out." He murmured. "I hope Nate leaves you with nothing."
"He can't do that, Troy. I'm the mother of his children." She said laughing as she looked at him for a minute before shaking her head. "And you should be happy that I got my tubes tied or you and I would be connected for the next eighteen years like me and Nate are." She said as she patted his cheek.
"What the hell is wrong with you, you can't use his children like that."
"Oh please don't try to act like you're Nate's number one supporter, you've hated him for the last three and a half years. All because of moi." she said pointing to herself and then laughing at his expression.
"My only mistake was not getting pregnant by you first and then getting pregnant by Nate." She said dismissively as she walked away from him and headed towards the door. Troy followed her and opened the door and turned to look at her.
"Get the hell out." Lindsey looked at him and smirked, before speaking to him.
"Thanks for the screw, Troy." She said as she walked out of the house, Troy turned to watch her and froze when he saw Taylor standing on his doorstep. He heard Lindsey laughing as she got into her car and pulled away. He and Taylor stood there in silence for a few moments, he looked at the woman he knew he loved and gulped.
"How much did you hear?" he asked weakly praying to God that if she heard everything that there was a way for him to fix what had just happened. Taylor finally came out of her shocked induced silence and looked Troy.
"Enough." She whispered as she moved to turn around; Troy reached out and grabbed her hand. The look on his face was one of sheer sadness with a hint of desperation. Shaking his head he looked at her for a second.
"Baby please just listen to me."
"I don't know if I want to, Troy." She whispered as she looked down at his hand that was on top of hers. She cut him off as he tried to speak. "I think I should just leave." Troy voice caught in his throat as tears filled his eyes.
"What does that mean for us." He whispered.
"What do you think?" she snapped back as she looked up at him as a lone tear escaped her eye and fell down her cheek. Troy shook his head as saw the answer in her eyes. 'We are over.'
"No baby please."
"Did you just sleep with her…tell me that you didn't and then you can add lying onto what you've already done to me." Troy bowed and cried as he shook his head.
If I cried like a baby
would you change your mind?
If I told you I'm crazy would you come
running back to me?
Taylor watched as he cried and nodded his head, she turned her head away from him and yanked her hand out of his. Wiping her eyes of the tears that had started to fell, Troy looked up at her as she moved down the steps to her car. He immediately followed her and grabbed her once again. "It was a mistake…I don't know what came over me."
"I do…you were thinking with the wrong head or maybe you still wanted her."
"I don't I swear it. Taylor I love you."
The harder I try to break
away, the more I get lost in yesterday
The man that you know is
just a shell, living without you life is hell
"I don't want your kind of love, Troy." She said brokenly as she looked at him for a moment not even bothering to hide her pain and hurt. He just shook his head and looked at her for a moment before speaking.
"I can't just let you leave me, Taylor. Regardless of what you think or believe I love you and Lindsey-."
"Don't you say her name, Troy?"
"Well she was mistake…I don't know what came over me. It's the truth." Taylor frowned even more and shook her head, as she took a step away from him, and wrapped her own arms around herself.
"I can't be with you knowing that you and her."
"We can work through this." He replied passionately, as he moved towards her but stopped when she moved away from him.
"I can't, Troy I just can't."
I turn on the radio just
to take the hurt away
Another night and I'm missing you
Girl,
it's killing me, well
"No, don't think like that, please don't think like that." Taylor looked at him, and just shook her head for a moment.
"What am I suppose to do, Troy. I can forgive but I don't think I can forget." She whispered. He nodded his head and then motioned towards his house hoping that she would at least come into his home so they wouldn't have this type of conversation in front of the entire neighborhood.
"I'm not going in there ever again, that's where you defiled our relationship, Troy." She whispered as she looked at him for a moment.
"I'll sell the house and everything in it, just don't leave me." He whispered as he looked at her. Taylor just sighed and looked at him for a moment.
"I don't want you to sell your house."
"Why not, you won't even come inside and talk to me."
I don't wanna die tonight,
but I think I might be going down
'Cause the only one I ever cared
about is nowhere to be found
I don't wanna close my eyes 'cause I
might not see the light of day
I'm almost out of air
You're my
reason for breathing
You're my reason for breathing
Taylor just shook her head and started to walk away towards her car, Troy followed close behind her. Placed his hand on the car door when she tried to open it and then waited to she turned and looked at him. "I know you're upset, Taylor. I know it. But I can't let you leave you're the best think that has ever happened to me.
"Then why did you sleep with her."
"I don't know." He whispered looking away from her for a moment removing his hand away from the door. "So is this the end for us…Taylor is it over."
"Troy I don't think I can trust you…I mean you slept with someone else. I can't…I can't do this." She whimpered as she really began to cry. Troy watched helplessly as she opened the door and climbed into her car.
"Please don't leave." He said looking at her for a few moments before she started the car. "I love you." He whispered looking at her. Taylor rested her head on the steering while Troy stood in her open car door looking at her as if he wanted to just take her in his arms and make the pain go away.
So I'm reaching out on
this distant line
Hoping deep inside your heart's gonna find a
reason
To keep me breathing
But I'm lost in this pain and I
don't have much time
I'm so tired of walking this same old line
So
I'm taking my pride, gonna throw it aside
Please let me breathe
girl, I'm sorry
Taylor looked out at him and then reached for the door but before she closed the door she said one last thing to Troy. "You what the crazy thing is?" She said so softly that Troy had to lean closer to hear her.
"What."
"That even after finding out all of this…I…I still love you." She said before grabbing the door and closing it, Troy stepped back as she started the car and pulled out of his driveway and out of his life.
Baby girl, don't leave me
standing here
I'm barely breathing, girl, I'm running out of
air
Baby girl, don't leave me standing here
I'm barely
breathing, girl, I'm running out of air
He stood in his driveway watching as she sped down the road. He placed his hands in his sweat pockets and looked back at his house for a moment. He had been through everything in that house. It was the first house he brought with his NBA money, it was the house he had shared with Lindsey and now it was the house where he had lost the love of his life. Not even bothering to wipe his eyes he walked back into the house picked up his cell phone and laptop. Packed a bag full of his clothes, when he went into the garage he threw everything into the backseat and got in.
Opening his phone he paused as he saw the picture of Taylor sleeping in his bed he had taken once while he was watching her sleeping. Rubbing the picture with his thumb he felt tears roll down his eyes. "I love you and I'm going to get you back."
I'm almost out of
air
You're my reason for breathing
You're my reason for
breathing
