I am sitting there shocked. Did he really just ask me that? I look down at my legs around his hips. I feel something under me and its not something I can just forget. I look up and can see how nervous he is. Do I have to answer now? I don't even know what I would answer. I love Peeta but I don't know if I am ready to date him now.
I move a little and I can hear his breath catch, "Why would you want to ruin this? I thought we could just have fun." He sighs and looks down and looks back up at me, "Katniss, I want us to be together. I have wanted us together for a long time. When we were together for the games I was happy even though it wasn't real. I don't want to just be friends with benefits." I sigh and get up.
Running my fingers through my hair I start to pace. I stop and look at him, "Peeta why do you have to put labels on everything." He stands up and stands in front of me, "Katniss, What is so wrong about me wanting to be with you." I sigh and run my hand through my hair again. I start to pace again.
Peeta wants to be with me. I want a baby. How can I be without someone and not want a family? This is so not right. This is not what I thought. This is not what I planned. At first I thought I could just get a baby and nothing would change. Ugh how stupid could I be? Of course having a baby with your friend would change everything. Then I thought me and Peeta could just have fun. No he wants to put a label on everything.
I feel hands on my shoulder and I stop pacing. I stare at the wall and see a picture of me and Peeta from the games. It where we were on Caesar's show and he proposed to me, I sigh as he turns me around. He holds me at arms length and stares in my eyes. "Katniss, I like what we were doing over there." He points to the table and sighs before looking back at me, "I liked feeling like we were together and that nothing could come between us." I sigh and look down. I felt the same thing. I liked just being with him. It felt so good. It felt so…right. I look up and see Peeta smiling, "Katniss I know you feel the same way. I can see it in your eyes. You know I know you better than anyone." I smile and nod.
Peeta pulls me to him and smiles. I smile too. He leans down and captures my lips with his. I smile in the kiss and suddenly he licks my lips and I moan allowing him to deepen the kiss. When he pulls back I have a smile on my face and he laughs.
Pulling me back to the kitchen table he sits pulling me back on his lap. I smile and turn wrapping my arms around his neck so we are face to face. He grabs his glass of wine and starts to drink some of it. I laugh at how weird he is. He smirks and I feel his lips on mine and then I taste the wine that is in his mouth. I giggle when we pull back and he laughs while he attacks my neck again.
It feels like everything before never happened and we are back where we left off. Having a magical fun filled dinner. He starts to kiss my neck and I am giggling because it tickles. He laughs in my neck making me shiver from the feeling. He sucks on my sweet spot and I moan. I feel him again and laugh. He moves from my neck and captures my lips in a sweet passionate kiss.
We pull away and I love the feeling. I love Peeta. I do want us to be together. He starts to kiss my neck again, "Peeta, s…stop." He stops but doesn't look up at me. How do I tell him I want to be with him. "Peeta, can we go back to talking about before? You are distracting me." He sighs and stares at me, "Katniss, come on. I know you feel the same about me. That is fine by me… for now." He smiles and I smile too but it quickly fades. "Peeta, I really just don't understand why you want to put a label on everything?" he sighs and runs his hand through his hair while holding my waist with one hand. "I guess I just want to be with you but like you said for now we can just have fun." He sighs, "I don't like it. I want to be with you more than anything but I would rather have you this way then not at all." He smiles and I can't help but smile at him too, "Katniss, I will take you whatever way you will let me have you."
I feel a tear slid now my face. Peeta's hand comes up and rest on my cheek, "Don't cry." I shake my head and smile as I feel some more tears fall down my face. I feel Peeta's thumb wiping them away. "Peeta you are so sweet. You always know what to say." He smiles and I look down and back up. "I started to actually fall in love with you in the games because of how you are. You are sweet, caring, and one of the most amazing guys I have ever met."
I move a little not trying to be sexual but so we are comfortable and I can see him better. " My dad would have loved you. He would have thought you were the best guy for me. I never thought I would have found anyone my dad would have liked. Little did I know you were there all along?"
He smile and looks at me confused, "Well that is all nice and sweet but what are you trying to say?" I laugh and he pulls me closer.
I smile hoping he will like what I have to say.
"Peeta, I don't care about having a baby. I just want you." I smile and he looks at me with a tilted head, "Peeta, yes. I will be your girlfriend. Nothing else matters to me but you and me." He smiles and pulls me to him and leans in kissing me. Pulling back he smiles, "Are you sure?"
I smile, "Yep, Forget the baby I just want you."
Okay here is the deal…. School just started. I have not updated soon because I had the flu then I got a cold. Then after that I had to plan a baby shower.
NOW school is back and I will try to update to the best of my ability.
I promise to update atleast once a week. HOWEVER…Here is a good thing, I have an hour between classes and I can try to update twice a week because of that. ANYWAY… I promise to update ATLEAST once a week.
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