Lexi's P.O.V.
Last night was the most fun I've had, and we had all grown closer than ever imagined. "Ready Mike?" I asked knocking on his door. He looked up at me. "Yeah." he smiled. He grabbed his suitcase and we trotted down the stairs. Josh stayed the night at Kurt's since Lucas didnt want him here, not because they're gay, just because he's over protective of Josh. But Josh snuck away anyway. Lucas was still crashed out. It was six in the morning after all. I started the car and began the drive to the airport. "Lexi?" Mike broke the silence. "Hmm?" I asked keeping my eyes on the road. "What do you think?" I looked over at him. "What do you mean?" I asked. "About love?" he asked looking out the front windshield. "Well..." I paused. "I think it can hurt so much you want to die." I recalled my own experiences. "You trust that person with everything, thinking they're the one. But every time it breaks its for a reason. Someone better, maybe even your soulmate might come along and sweep you off your feet." I looked at Mike. "I mean Lucas never really asked me out or anything. So I don't know what we are. Because I know that's what your thinking." I sighed. I felt a hand being placed on my own. I looked at Mike for a second. "Just give him time. He still needs trust just like you." Mike winked at me. "Thanks Mike." I smiled and put on my blinker. We stood out of the car and I walked him to get his stuff checked in. "Well this is where we part ways." he smiled. "Come here you big teddy bear." I pulled him into me. "Take care ok? Come back to us." I muttered in his shoulder. "Will do." he whispered. We pulled away and he kissed my cheek. "I love ya kid." he winked and ruffled my hair. I smiled at him, "I love you to Mike." He waved as he went up the escalator.
I returned home to find Kurt and Josh in my kitchen. "Guys?" I asked. Josh turned to me and smiled. "What are you doing?" I asked. "Kurt's making me breakfast." Josh grinned. I smiled cheekily at him. Ever since Kurt, Josh had broken out of his shell. He was happy, and if he was happy. I was happy. "Well you better be making me some too." I said pushing Kurt lightly. "Fine, fine, fine." he mumbled. "Hey we're going to the mall today, wanna join us?" asked Kurt flipping some bacon. "Uh can I?" I asked stupidly "Did I not just invite you?" laughed Kurt. Josh poured me some juice. "Ok sure, thanks Josh." I smiled chugging the OJ. After breakfast, Lucas was still asleep so I didn't bug him. We were driving to the mall, me in the backseat. I was looking out the window, while I heard Kurt and Josh making small talk. I looked forward, and saw Josh and Kurt holding hands. I smiled at them. They were just so cute together.
"We're here." announced Kurt. I stood out of the car and looked at the busy mall. Josh came around to mine and Kurt's side. Kurt put his arm around Josh and pulled him close. "No Kurt not in public." said Josh pulling away. I looked at them sensing a fight coming on. "Josh we've already talked about this." said Kurt sternly. "No Kurt." Josh started to walk away from us. I saw Kurt run after him, he turned him around, and kissed him in a public parking lot. I could tell Josh didn't want to, but he soon gave into Kurt. I looked around and saw by standers. Some with disgust among their faces. "If you don't like it, get the fuck out!" I yelled. They scoffed and began to walk away. I caught up to Josh and Kurt, Kurt was whispering things to Josh softly. I saw Josh nod, with a smile on his face. Kurt smiled hugely and pecked his lips one more time. I smiled at them, they were just so fucking cute! Kurt slipped his hand into Josh's, and they began to walk towards the mall entrance. "Hey wait up!" I yelled. I caught up and they apologized. As we walked into the mall, people stared. I thought I had something on my face. "Its not you." said Kurt. I looked up at him and he looked beyond pissed. "Kurt?" I saw Josh turn his face into Kurt's shirt. I'm confused? I thought. "Fags!" someone in the mall called out. That's when I realized what was going on, the stares, ugly looks, it was because Josh and Kurt we're a gay couple. I felt my anger boiling inside me. I heard a sniffle. I turned to see Kurt soothing Josh. Wait Josh was crying? I walked over to them. "What's wrong?" I asked looking at Kurt. "Josh never wanted to do any relationship stuff with me in public, because of idiotic people like the ones here, yeah there aren't that many but there are still haters. He doesn't like feeling like he's a freak." Kurt turned back to Josh. "I'm sorry Josh." Kurt kissed his head lightly. I turned to the crowd. Most were minding their own business, like Josh and Kurt were a normal couple. Others however, found it their obligation to stare at them with the utmost hate they could muster. "What the fuck? They're people, don't like it, don't look!" I blew up. That's when everyone started to stare at me. "Yeah you in the blue shirt. have a problem with them, leave, no ones forcing you to look!" I yelled. People turned their gaze on him, and I saw the embarrassment rush into his face. He left quickly. "And that goes for anyone else. These two guys are the sweetest in the world and should be treated like a normal couple, get over yourselves its the fucking 2000's. Fucking pricks." When I started to walk back to Josh and Kurt, claps erupted with some cheers. "Thanks Lexi!" said Josh with watery eyes. "Anytime Josh, people should get to know you first before judging you." I smiled at him. He nodded and we all continued to look around, but Kurt and Josh were so into each other I felt like a peeping tom. "Guys, I'm gonna go check out Hot-topic." They nodded, barely. "I'll call you when I'm done." This time I didnt even get anything from them. I laughed and walked away. I was thinking about my outburst. Maybe it was uncalled for? Nah, people need to stop being douchebags. I was about to enter the store when I heard someone call me. "Princess, hey." I turned around and all the color drained from my face Karosfky. "Karosfky...um what do you want?" it came out rather rudely, but he did try to rape me in a hallway. "I was wondering maybe, if we could talk?" he asked skeptical. I scoffed. Did he really think I'd talk to him? "Look I know I have no right, but please Princess I really want to apologize." He looked at me with those pleading puppy eyes. I was slowly giving in, NO Lexi! My mind screamed. "OK." Remember never scream rape, scream fire. I reminded myself. "Let's go to the food court." He took my hand in his,and I pulled it away. I saw him look at me with hurt. I ignored it and followed him.
"Would you like something?" he asked as we arrived at the food court. "No, can we just get this over with?" I asked. He pulled out my chair and I sat down. He pulled out on across from my seat. "So have you been?" he asked drumming his fingers against the table. "Look Karosfky I'm not here for small talk OK?" I snapped. He looked down at his hands, that were now placed in his lap. "You have every right to yell at me and hate my guts." He looked up at me and his eyes were watering. "I'm so sorry for what I did to you Alexandria. I just really love you." I felt my eye twitch. "People don't rape each other when their in love Karosfky." I hissed. "I just wanted you first, I saw how you guys looked at each other." he pleaded. "Who?" I questioned stupidly. "You and Puckerman. I was just so mad that you couldn't look at me like that." he looked back down at the table. "I told you no. I told you to stop." I hissed, I was trying out anger so the tears wouldn't spill. "I know Alexandria, I'm sorry." He still didn't look at me. "No Karosfky, no sorry can ever make up for what you would've done to me." I paused and I heard his uneven breathing. He was crying. "Do you know what you did to me?" I asked as my voice cracked. I saw look up at me with, tears streaming down his face. "No." he muttered. "Exactly." I pushed my chair back. "Goodbye Karosfky." I turned around and started to walk away from him, wiping the tears away. "Alex!" I turned around and Karosfky ran into me. He hugged me tightly, and whispered in my ear so lowly that I could barely hear. "I guess the weak card didn't work huh?" his voice, it was the same as that night. It was so sinister. "Here's the deal. I know Puck popped your cherry, but I still want you. Meet me at the backwoods park tomorrow at 2:00 in the morning." I tried pushing him off. "And if I don't?" I threatened. "Your little lover boys will go bye bye." I stiffened. "That's right, that gay couple, the other two and of course Puck. And what the hell I'll even throw in Hudson and Berry." I was stuck in fear. "So I'll see ya." He teased. He pulled away and forcefully kissed me. I couldn't move, he just threatened to kill them, all of them. Rachel just told me yesterday that she was having a baby. I mean, it's Senior year it been years since he ever tried anything with me. Rachel's unborn baby! I saw Karosfky walk away from me smirking. How is he out, how? I turned around like a robot and had to use the wall it support my weight. Please this can't be happening. I cried inside my head.
I was quiet the car ride home. So were Josh and Kurt. "Alex who was that guy?" asked Kurt finally breaking the ice. I was a bit caught off guard by it. "Oh no one." I murmured. Kurt pulled off the road. "Kurt what are you doing?" I asked. Josh turned around, tears in his eyes. "How can you do that to Lucas?" I turned away from him. "I'll walk the rest of the way." I reached for the door handle but Kurt locked it. "Answer him Alexandria." stated Kurt sternly. "Fine you want an answer?" I raised my voice. "Lucas and I aren't dating. He's a playboy I will never date him. And you can quote me. It's better that you all leave back home. I don't want you in my house anymore!" I yelled. I needed to do this. I needed to hurt them so Karosfky wouldn't get them. They needed to believe what I was saying was real. "Alexandria Roseail Death." Josh was crying, and his blue eyes held the utmost pain. I felt it stab through me like a dull blade, and it hurt like a bitch. "Josh." said Kurt. His tone was upset. "Leave her. Let her do what she wants." He spoke coldly. "I thought you were different." said Kurt looking at me with hate in his eyes. Good this is good, they'll leave, and be safe. But I felt myself breaking, with every word. "Well I guess I'm not. Tell Lucas to get out when you get to my house. I want you all gone, and never come back. Throw my stuff out of the house if you want. I'll find somewhere else to live back home." "Lexi why?" asked Josh trying to grab a hold of something, to figure out why I was doing this. I'm doing it to protect you Josh. I whispered in my mind. "Because I'm fed up with all of you!" I yelled getting out of the car. Kurt had unlocked it. I ran away from the car, I seem to be doing this a lot lately. Running. I heard the car peel out and take off at a fast speed. I had one more to call. I took out my cell phone and dialed his number. "Lexi?" he spoke urgently. "Stay away from me. I'm leaving back to my real home, you won't ever see me again Noah." and I hung up on him. That's when I sat on the side of the road, and absorbed everything I had just done. I lost my bestfriends, Lucas. He'll be heartbroken, but better than being dead. The faster they leave, and are out of my life. The safer they'll be. I was doing this for them, but it was ripping me a part. As if I was on fire, and it could never be put out. Tomorrow night will be the worst night of my life.
By the time I was home, the house was clear; not a sign of human life. I closed the door behind me and walked into the kitchen for a glass of water, trying to process what I just did. But I did it for them, because I love them. As I flicked on the light there was a note on the table. I walked over and picked it up.
'Dear Batman,
Kurt and Josh came home and told me what happened. Mike is still expected to be back at your house. You won't have to pick him up he'll be switching his ticket. I really don't know what to say about you Alex. You're just like her, leaving me and not telling me why. Well I hope you're happy with your decision.
Lucas'
After I was done reading it, the note fluttered from my hand to the ground. I fell to the ground as the tears began to sting my eyes. I lost him, I lost all of them because of someone that was suppose to be gone.I was scared being alone, and scared of tomorrow. I was gonna take my mind off of it by watching tv, and ordering pizza. As I waited for my pizza to come, I flicked through the channels trying to find something to watch and something to keep my mind off of everything going on. The doorbell rang and I stood up to get it. I opened the door and was surprised at who I saw. "Matt?" I asked. He looked up. "Hey, I wanted to come over to see how you were and I saw the pizza guy pulling up so I paid for it." His voice made all my nerves fall away. "Oh so would you like to join me?" I asked smiling slyly. A small blushed crept on his face and he nodded. I stepped aside and he walked in with the pizza box. "So how did you find me?" I asked walking to the living room. "Oh Finn told me where you lived." He sat next to me on the couch as I opened up the pizza box and grabbed a slice. He grabbed one too and I started to watch Tv. When the pizza was gone, and we were having a comfortable conversation while watching a movie, he slipped his arm around my shoulders. I didn't know how to react so I stayed still. "Alex." Matt whispered my name in my ear. "Yes?" I asked, still not turning to look at him. "Look at me please." His voice begged. I turned my head slowly, till our eyes met. "Yes?" I asked again. He didnt answer me but slowly leaned in. I saw his face coming closer and closer. I could taste his breath, his lips were so close to mine...
"Vampalina!" I fell off the couch at the call of my name. When I stood up I saw Michael standing in the doorway. His features were beyond pissed with me. "Mike what are you doing here?" I asked incredulously. "No the question is what are you doing here with him?" he spat. Everyone was mad at me, I deserve it. Matt stood up. "I guess I'll be leaving. Goodnight." he started walking to the exit till Mike blocked his way. He grabbed him by his sweater threateningly. "This is why you wanted us gone? This is why you hurt Lucas?" He yelled at me. I flinched at how harsh he sounded. I had never seen Michael like this. "What are you doing here Mike, you aren't suppose to be back till two more days." "Don't change the subject!" He yelled. I saw how helpless Matt looked in the grasp of a wild man like Mike. "I never thought you were a slut, guess I was wrong." His words pierced through me. But I wouldn't let him see that. "Let him go Michael, he has nothing to do with this. Think whatever you want of me, but you wont hurt one of my friends." I looked at him harshly. Mike released him by forcing him against a wall rather roughly. "Out." he hissed to Matt. He didnt even think twice about it, he was out the door faster than I could see. What a baby. I thought. "Now explain to me." Michael was still mad, but he was trying to control it. "I'm going to bed." I muttered. I started up the stairs and ran to my room when I heard him following me. "Lexi!" yelled Michael. I got to my room but couldnt open the door, Mike had his hand on mine to keep me from going in."You should leave, I dont want any of you here." I said still looking at my door. "Talk to me." "No, I'm just a slut remember?" I hissed. "Well I'm not leaving till you tell me." spat Michael. "Fine I'll call the cops tomorrow. Now let me go." Mike released me and stepped back."I don't know what happened to you." He said softly, like he was in shock. I turned to my door, so he couldnt see my face. "Life." I muttered, before going inside my room and barely making it to my bed. The lights were off and it was pitch black, I could get lost in it, I felt just like it. I prayed Michael would leave so he wouldnt get hurt. Because if he died, it would be on my conscious for the rest of my life. "I won't leave you." I heard a smooth voice say. I felt two warm arms wrap around my body and pull me closer. "I want to help you, let me know whats wrong please." I mumbled a reply. "I can't hear you Avery." I don't know. I said inside my head. It was so dark, I felt lost. "I'll be here when you wake up, we can talk then." Will you be here? I asked again. But I received no reply, and fell into darkness
