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Disclaimer: They are still Charlaine Harris' babies and hers/AB's/HBO's worlds, but my wacky vision to some things ;)

Rated M for Adult Content

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My Living Death

Chapter 12 – Sookie's Punishment

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SPOV

It was coming up on to my 3rd birthnight and the Great Revelation was also coming up fast. Eric was so busy going back and forth to NOLA planning with the Queen, André, Rasul, and the Berts. He left Pam and me in charge of the Area while he was away. So Pam handled the responsibility of the Club and Area business, I still handled the feeders. Eric also made me a partner in the club, so I helped with the night to night club business. Long Shadow was not pleased that Eric chose me a young Vampire (child or not) and brushing him aside. He felt he was much more worthy of the position and his loyalty to Eric for the past 2 decades was paramount in his right to it. I know this 'cause I got it right from his mind. He never had a thought about harming me so I just let him fume over it. Fuck him.

Whenever Eric left for NOLA I was going behind his back and took the opportunity to look for Jason… not looking for feeders and dealing with other club business. I was losing it in my obsession to find Jason. Three weeks ago… finally my Uncle Des came through. He said that someone fitting Jason's description was looking for his sister in Bon Temps. I kicked myself of course he would go home! I went as soon as the sun set. When I got there the first place I looked (Merlotte's) got me lucky last time I was on the hunt. As soon as I walked in I 'heard'…

'Oh shit it's her.' That thought came from the Shifter Sam. Half of me wanted to rush over to him at Vamp speed, it took everything inside me to keep myself in check and take my time. On my way over to him a sad look passed over his face and it made me pause in my approach. He nodded his head in the direction of the back. I followed him as fast as I could while still making myself look human.

"You know why I'm here? Where is he? Is he okay?" I asked in succession as soon as I followed through the door of his office.

"Whoa now Cher." He said while his hands made calm down gesture. His chair squeaked as he sat and I cringed at the grating sound.

I close my eyes and took an unnecessary breath and whispered "Where is he?"

"I don't know, but…" He said with a sigh. My eyes shot open and I took him in to my thrall.

"Tell me where he is." I said pushing my will at him. I mentally chided myself for doing it, since he seemed like he was willing to be honest with me and brought me back here to speak in private.

"I don't know. He left with Amelia two weeks ago." He said dazed. Amelia? I let go of the glamour, but made him remember this part of the convo… less the glamour of course.

"Who is Amelia?" I asked as soon as he shook his head to clear it.

"She was a tenant of mine." he said. Just as I opened my mouth to speak he held his hands up. "I don't know anything about her other than her first name and that she was a sweet girl who seemed like she was hiding from an abusive situation, so I didn't ask her to sign a lease. I don't have any information on her other than that." He finished. IS. HE. FUCKING. SERIOUS. Bloody tears fell relentlessly down my cheeks. How can this be happening to me? So. Fucking. Close!

"You don't know anything about her? Where she's from? What her last name is? Anything…" I pleaded through my sobs.

"I'm sorry Cher." He said standing and cautiously walking over to me to put a comforting hand on my shoulder. 'I don't think he would have taken off if he didn't think you were dead.' He thought. My head snapped up in his direction.

"What! Why the fuck would he think I was dead." I growled. His eyes widened in shock.

"Wha… How…" he asked wearily. I was desperately trying to keep my anger and frustration in check… but if he didn't hurry the fuck up and tell me I'm going to rip his head off. Again I looked into his eyes to push my will at him.

"Never mind that, tell me everything you do know." I demanded.

"The Sheriff here was helping him locate you. He got a fax from the Police department up in Shreveport of a missing person's report filed by the owner of a diner there called The Spot…" I was touched by this. I always thought that no one cared enough to look for me. "…the investigation showed no foul play. Your belongings weren't in the Motel you were staying at. So eventually they dropped the case thinking… you just took off. When your brother learned all this he said that he didn't think you'd take off. He spoke to the owner and the owner agreed with him. The law said there was nothing they could do, because you've done it before and there was no evidence to continue to look for you." He finished. I slumped down into the chair in front of his desk. Well hell… Bill was certainly thorough how he knew where I stayed was beyond me. The only thing I could think was that he was stalking me like prey waiting for the perfect moment to take me which seems about right.

"And Jason? What happened why did he leave?" I asked in a whisper. I felt defeated.

"Well, he and Amelia seemed to hit it off. She said good bye to me, but she never said where they were off too and I never asked. Hey Maybe I can ask around she was in town for a while maybe someone else knows her, it's highly doubtful she stuck to herself…" He said.

I nodded "Anything you can do will help." I wrote down my phone number then with my speed I took off out the back door in this office whispering thank you as I left.

I continued my search for Jason, but it was making me worst. I was miserable and it showed. I snapped at everyone at the club if they asked me to do anything that didn't have to do with Jason. I had tunnel vision… 'Find Jason' was all that mattered to me and nothing else. Finally after Pam ripped me a new one, I decided that I should just back off and let my Uncle take care of it. Eric entered the office just as I was getting off the phone with Uncle Des.

"Yes, Uncle Des I'm sure. Listen I have to go, I'll speak to you soon. Send my love to Di." I finished and hung up.

"Sookie, we need to talk." He said. His face was as usual calm with no expression, but his eyes showed fury. Long Shadow walked in behind him with a pleased sneer on his face. I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Master?" I said rising from his chair.

"You have been neglecting your responsibly. That was a blatant disregard to my orders…."

"But Eri…" I said with a desperate tone. Didn't he understand how important it was to find my brother?

"SILENCE!" He roared. Through the Bond I could feel the maker command. I jumped he's never spoken to me like this before. I instantly dropped to my knees in front of him with my eyes bowed to the floor. In a much calmer tone he said "Leave us. I will deal with my Child." to Long Shadow. He left the office with a chuckle.

"Sookie, do you realize what you have done? You've made me look weak and that is unacceptable. If it is known that I can't control my own Child, how do you think that makes me look to the others? Do you have any idea the dangers you could have brought on us all?" he said in an angry hiss. He opened the Bond here and I could feel the disappointment mixed with love and resignation. "I know how badly you wish to find your brother. You told me your Uncle was searching for him, so I trusted you to run the club with Pam. You went out on your own and kept it from me. I will not abide by this behavior." A bloody tear escaped my eye down my cheek when the truth of his words hit me. In a flash he was in front of me on his knees. He lifted my chin to lick the tear away. "I'm so sorry my love, but you must be punished for your actions. You do understand, yes?" He said in a whisper. Yeah... I understood it. I didn't like it, but he is my Maker.

"Yes Master. I shouldn't have let my worry for Jason, cloud my judgment and ignore my duties." I choked out.

"You are mistaken my child. If you would have told me that you wanted to be included in the search I would have reassigned your duties, but you chose to keep this from me your Maker that is what is not acceptable. This you must understand." then he placed a soft kiss on my lips then stood. Pam then entered with Maxwell Lee, Indira, Clancy and Longshadow in tow.

"Let's get this meeting started." He said as everyone took their seats. I remained on my knees in front of his desk. He went over the Queen's plans and who would be going to NOLA the night of the Revelation, all the essential business with the club, went through all the complaints and/or area business dealing with Vampires who resided in the Area. Then he ended the meeting with me.

"Sookie, you have disregarded orders given to you. For that your punishment is as follows… you will be chained in silver in view of all for one week. You will not be able to feed for that time." He said.

That is a fucking harsh punishment especially when the reason for my neglect was my brother Jason. Throughout the whole meeting I kept getting from Longshadow how finally the fucking Sheriff was taking his balls back and not indulging in his stupid bitches. He also thought that if Eric didn't do it soon he was going to have to end him and take the Sheriff position himself. It made me take Eric's words and the need for this punishment more seriously.

"Yes Master." I said with more confidence.

"Pam." Eric said.

'Sorry, sister.' Pam thought to me with not a flicker of emotion after I hissed in pain as she placed a silver collar around my neck. Then she proceeded to put silver cuffs on my wrists after pulling them behind my back.

"Meeting adjourned." Eric said. Everyone filed out of his office to get the club set up.

EPOV

After everyone exited the office I did some business. I hated feeling and seeing Sookie in silver, but it had to be done. Word got back to me while in NOLA of the rumors circulating of my Child's disregard for my position. Some even questioned my ability or willingness to control her. I knew, in her opinion, her reasons were just I also understood that young Vampires still cling to their old lives, and her need to find him. I was under the impression that her Demon Uncle was on this task. Vampires care nothing for breathers and feel, how can I put this… as Humans see cows… food, but cute. Her emotions for her human brother caused her to lose focus and disregard her orders… most of all they caused her to betray me. For that alone she is to be punished, as much as I hate to do it, it needs to be done. I felt an array of emotions coming from Sookie worry being the most prominent rounding out in determination.

"Sookie?" I asked. She began to project all the thoughts coming from Long Shadow tonight.

'I'm sorry, Eric. I will take this punishment and will not disappoint you again.' She sent. I am pleased that she is wise enough to know that this is necessary and made me aware of a potential enemy.

'Thank you. Be brave my love.' I sent to her brushing her cheek with my thumb as she looked into my eyes.

"Come." I said leading her out of the office and to my throne. "On your knees." she did not hesitate. Looking at everyone present in the club I said "To everyone and anyone who thinks that I am a soft or a weak Vampire. Do not think for a second that…" I paused looking directly at Long Shadow then continued "…I will not hesitate to end any of you who dare to cross me." then took my seat.

I could feel the pain was excruciating. I already know firsthand what it felt like. I've put many Vampires in silver and all moaned or made some sort of sound of discomfort from the pain. I wondered idly if I should relive some of her pain. Feeling her determination through the Bond and looking at her, made me falter. She did not make a sound and her face a blank mask staring straight ahead with confidence.

While I took in the looks of all the Vampire's, who have been Makers I can see envy coming from their faces; from the other Vampires present I see them in awe of Sookie... I did choose well after all… Pam at only 200 years dead she is as fierce a fighter and smart as any centuries older than she... she took to this life and my instruction with ease. Sookie being barely 3 years dead is as amazing and seeing her school her expressions taking her punishment with humility, yet not showing weakness. I will not tell her this, but she is honoring me in this way and only making me look stronger. I have never been prouder of both my girls.

SPOV

Okay this fucking sucks. I thought to myself while I knelt in front of Eric's desk. At least it's not as bad a punishment as the last time I disregarded Eric's command (Lorena took me). He and Pam almost finally died trying to save me. This time I was so busy worrying about Jason I didn't think to listen to anyone. Apparently everyone has been saying shit about Eric being weak because of me. Stupid Sookie! Then he called out my name. I showed him all of what I saw from Long Shadow then apologized and told him I accepted his punishment. Even though I knew he was pissed at me as he brushed my cheek I knew he was disappointed, but he still loves me. I looked into his eyes and pushed love at him. He asked me to be brave and I was going to do just that. Fine… "I'll show them how weak Eric is"… I said to myself as I got on my knees in next to his throne.

The pain of the silver was unbearable. I wasn't going to let it show how much it hurt. I stared straight ahead with my head held high. Thoughts of the Vampires here said that they were either jealous of Eric or shocked at my silence. After everyone was gone Eric stood in front of me.

"Sookie I must retire. The silver will not allow you to rest until you are severely weakened by it. You must remain here as you are." He said with no emotion on his face. I could see in his eyes there was a little bit of hurt. He didn't want to do this I could tell by the look in his eyes, but it had to be done. I've been nothing but a problem to him since I came into his undead life, still he loves and cherishes me and what do I do? Put him... all of us really... in danger yet again.

"Eric. I told you I will accept this punishment. I don't want to make you look weak I'll do whatever needs to be done." I said with confidence. There was a brief flash of disappointment and anger that I saw before he turned to leave. What? Why was he still pissed at me? I quickly went through events of this evening and all that Eric said to me. "Eric!" I said. He stopped, but didn't turn to look at me. "I'm sorry, I didn't trust you enough to tell you my plans. It wasn't that I didn't trust you. I do. It's just… I was so crazy with the need to find my brother. He was so close Eric. I'm sorry I will never disrespect you again." I finished and he finally turned to look at me, then opened the bond and a swell of pride and love came from him. "Do you have my side to the Bond open?" I asked.

"Always." Was all he said.

"Close it. I deserve this. I understand your reason and you don't need to feel my pain." I said. He smiled a sad smile nodded then left.

I sank into downtime. It kinda took the edge off the pain of the silver I wish I knew this when I was being tortured by Lorena. I thought idly.

"Sookie?" a voice brought me back to the here and now.

"Che, what are you doing here?" I asked.

"Eric asked me to come and take care of you. I'm out of school for summer so here I am." She said and she placed a warm washcloth on my cheek to wipe away the bleeds. "I'm not even going to ask what this is about." She said and she washed the cloth in a bin. 'I can't believe Eric would do this to her.'

"Don't, you can't understand." I said.

"Yeah, Vampire shit right?" she sighed getting up to change the water. She came back with some paper napkins and another bin of water.

"Che, what are you doing?" I asked her as she started to shove the napkins into the collar.

"I can't stand to see you in pain, Sookie. I know how much this hurts… it's burning you! Not to mention you're bleeding out from your eyes and ears." She said in exasperation "Sookie, let me help you." she insisted softly cutting a slit in her wrist then holding it up to my mouth. I wanted it so badly. I looked at the blood start to pool at the surface. She urged me by pressing it to my lips. I lick the wound to stop the bleeding.

"Che, you'll get into trouble for this. I'm being punished and rightly so. Understand that you will get me into more trouble by helping me. Take the napkins off and let me do this." I told her.

"So then why did Eric ask me to do this? I can't believe with how much he loves you he'd do such a thing and not expect me to help you." she pleaded.

"What exactly did he say to you?" I asked.

"He told me to watch you and get you cleaned up before the club opens." She said with her eye brows furrowed together.

I thought about it for a minute. I wondered if Eric did send Che knowing she would help me. No fuck that. Eric loves me and after our talk last night this needed to be done. I mean why bother doing it? Just for the show? No he's teaching me as a lesson that needs to be learned.

"No Che, this needs to be done. I want to do this for Er… no for myself." I snapped at her. Tears began to well in her eyes. Shit I hurt her feelings. "Thank you, you are a great friend, but let me do this." I added in a softer tone.

"Fine, Sookie." She sighed wiping away her tears then continued to clean me up. She cut off my bloody top and put on a burgundy halter top the tied behind the neck and torso. She was still sly she shoved the material as much as she could behind my neck under the collar. I just rolled my eyes. My jeans were still clean so she left those on me.

"Thank you Chenoa, you may leave now." Eric said as he entered the main part of the Club.

"Yes Master." She said bowing then leaving.

He stood in front of me and looked at me. I could see in his eyes that he was in pain. The sneaky shit didn't close my side of the Bond off.

'I really love you, you know that?' I sent to him.

"Som jag älskar dig, min lilla." He replied out loud. (As I love you, my little one)

The week flew by. On the last night after closing, Pam and Eric came with three feeders. Pam uncuffed me and took off the collar. After I fed I went into Eric's office to shower. It felt so good. I felt so dirty after not bathing for a week. As I exited the bathroom Eric was sitting at his desk looking over invoices for the Club. Not taking my eyes off him I walked over to the sofa and sat.

"I am needed in NOLA this week. The Revelation is scheduled for Friday. You are to stay here with Pam." He said as he eyed his work.

"As you wish, Master." I said obediently. His back stiffened and he sighed.

"You may join me if you wish. There really is no need for you to stay here." He paused looking at me now he said "André has been asking for you."

After this week I've had a lot of time to think about things. With everything that happened in the past three years I've forgotten the one reason Eric saved me and didn't kill me after he found out that he couldn't control me. He told me himself 'No Maker wants the trouble of a baby Vampire that can't be controlled.' He LOVED me. He went against his own nature and everything he was taught and experienced in his long life to let himself trust that I would obey him… at great risk to himself and Pam. He let himself love me. Vampires considered those emotions as weakness and when it mattered most I disregarded his guidance. I was foolish, I was selfish, and most of all I was a brat. He's done and given me so much in the past 3 years and I spat on his love and trust.

"I don't want to be with André anymore. I love you Eric. I know I'm your Child, but before that there was a connection between us. I had my fun. I am 'yours' I don't want to be with anyone but you." I replied. In a flash he was on me. Kissing me voraciously and I gave it back. "I missed you, my love." I moaned into his mouth.

"I missed you too Lover." He replied. I ripped away his jeans and T-shirt as he kicked off his boots while ripping my towel away. He lifted me and bent me over the sofa and entered me roughly. I gasped as he did.

"Fuck me hard Eric." I panted. He did as I asked. Pounding into me with such a force it knocked the sofa backwards. He lifted me before I went with the sofa over to his desk and continued his assault on me. I was screaming his name at the pleasure of feeling his long thick cock inside me while his balls slapped into my clit. It didn't take long for me to explode in ecstasy. "Your turn." I said with a wicked grin pushing him down onto the floor and impaling myself on him. I moved at my swift speed, he dug his fingers into my hips and moan my name as I brought him to his end. He sat up with us still connected and me straddling him. He moved in me slower this time.

"Jag älskar dig Sookie, min Sookie." He whispered bending his head to kiss my lips. (I love you Sookie, my Sookie)

Jag älskar dig också, min Skapare, min Frälsare, Mitt." I whispered back. (I love you too, my Maker, my Savior, Mine)

Just as we both reached our peaks I bit into his throat and he bit into my shoulder we both came again. After a few minutes of languishing in our post coital bliss we got dressed. We walked hand in hand out of the club, then he flew us home.

"Welcome home Lover." He whispered leading me into his office.

"It's great to be here." I sighed. "Well good rest, I'll see you in the evening." I said as I stretched up to kiss him again. I was tired not physically of course, but emotionally. Tonight was a great night for me and Eric, but I still felt disconcerted over Jason and fucking up with Eric in the first place. He never closed the Bond so he felt it all with me. Che told me that he never left the club and I know he didn't 'cause he would come into the main part of the club and send Che home before the sun set.

"Do you not wish to stay with me?" he said holding on to my hand as I turned to walk away.

"Do you want me too?" I asked. I haven't stayed in Eric's chambers since I started my affair with André. At the last word of my question he opened the Bond to him so I could feel him and the loved and devotion I got from him just about knocked me over.

"För evigheten." He whispered brushing his lips against my forehead. (For eternity)

"Yes." I replied pushing all the love and devotion I had for him through the Bond. He swept me up and took me into his chambers. We snuggled in his super big bed and let the dawn take us.

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