Hey I'm back! Please, don't be so impatient and just wait and see what's going to happen. Also, not everything is always so easy. Life and relationships are filled with gray tones. Sometimes hearts are broken and that's just life. But, please…just wait.

Also, there has to be some build up but I've already said she won't cheat and I'm going to keep that promise. Just wait, please. I hope you enjoy the outcome and how the story develops. I want to please all of you but at the same time I already have my story outlined and I want to ask you to trust me. Oh, and review please. Thank you.

(DISCLAIMER: I'M A PROUD MILLENNIAL! ALL THE SEMI TRASH TALKING ON MILLENNIALS IS BASED ON WHAT MY GEN X SISTER TELLLS ME ALL OF THE TIME. SO, I'M NOT STEREOTYPING OR BELITTLING. I'M ADDING THIS BECAUSE, AS A MILLENNIAL, I KNOW HOW EASILY WE GET OFFENDED AND THAT'S A STEREOTYPE THAT'S TRUE. A REVIEWER JUST PROVED MY POINT. LOL)

'Don't look at me with that smile,
don't act like everything's fine.
Stop putting dreams in my head,
when I should've thought of her instead.

When you say the things you do,
it makes me want to be with you
and every time that she kisses me,
you are always what I see.'

Don't – M2M

Chapter 12

A little over a week had gone by since the girls had gone to Unicorn together and not much had changed. The still flirted here and there, spent regular amounts of time together and just really enjoyed each other company. Arizona was trying really hard to be more respectful of Eliza's relationship, even if she hadn't really done anything wrong, so she was trying not to hang out with her just the two of them so much. April, Amelia, Jo and Alex all seemed to really like Eliza so they usually sat with them at lunch and they had been to Joes together. She still had feelings for Eliza and liked to look at her, but was trying not to overstep. Baby steps, she told to herself.

On the other side, Eliza was having a hard time too. She was still very conflicted. She thought her crush on Arizona Robbins would fade away when the initial shock of seeing her again diminishes but it didn't. It only got stronger. Her smile, her eyes, everything. Eliza knew that she should be thinking of her girlfriend, her beautiful and lovely girlfriend but she couldn't help it. Her brain and heart weren't listening to her. They weren't cooperating at all. Arizona made her feel things she hadn't felt since she was a teenager. She knew exactly what to say and do to make her feel like she was floating. She should be thinking of Jessica and not imagining what it would be like to kiss the blonde's lips again.

On a quiet Thursday afternoon, the two of them were in the attendings lounge, trying to resolve The Washington Post's crossword puzzle when Meredith walked in and they both turned their heads.

"Hi Meredith." Arizona said, looking back to the crossword.

"Hey." Meredith said looking at both of them. "What are you doing?"

"Oh, Dr. Minnick here is an old man at heart and likes to fill the newspaper crossword." Arizona said looking back at Meredith. "It's quite fun, actually."

"So far, Arizona's only contributions are Itt for the Adams Family's cousin and raw for uncooked." Eliza said chuckling.

"To be fair, I bet I'm just as bad as she is." Meredith said sitting with them and looking at the newspaper. "what else do you need?"

"Suit yourself." Eliza said smiling and moving so that Meredith could have a better look.

"Here. The Euro replaced the Cypriot Pound." Meredith said pointing to a space.

"Thank you. I thought so but Arizona said I was wrong and we have a no googling rule." Eliza said.

"Where's the merit on filling a crossword puzzle if you google the answers?" Arizona said looking at Meredith.

"True." Meredith said, still looking for one she may know. "You know who's really good at this? April. Maybe we should page her here?"

"Good idea, I'll page her." Arizona said excitedly.

"That is so professional of you two." Eliza said rolling her eyes.

"Hey, you wanna fill this thing or not?" Meredith asked her.

Eliza didn't say anything else and just raised her hands in defeat as she watched the other women page the redhead surgeon.

"Oh, by the way, Eliza, I'm having a dinner party at my house tomorrow night. You're more than welcome to join us. It'll be fun." Meredith said smiling at Eliza.

"Sure, it sounds great." Eliza said "Shoot, I forgot. My girlfriend is coming into town tomorrow morning so she'll be with me during the whole weekend. Do you mind if I bring her? She's very small, doesn't take up much space."

"No, that's fine. Bring her. The more, the merrier." Meredith said before pointing at another box. "Frothy quaff is Ale."

"Thank you." Eliza said before writing it down. "I'm sure you'll like her. She's cool."

Arizona had completely forgotten about the fact that Eliza's girlfriend was coming to Seattle this week. She had already agreed to meet her, though hesitantly. Meeting the girlfriend of the woman she couldn't had wasn't really an idealistic plan. She was feeling kind of pathetic, if she was being honest with herself. She was hot, smart and charming…and yet here she was, hovering and pining over a taken woman. Though it wasn't just any taken woman. It was Eliza, her Eliza. Her one true love.

Maybe part of the reason why she was so hang up on Eliza was because she was so closed off to meeting someone new. She had just come to terms with the fact that she was meant to be alone when the ortho surgeon reappeared in her life. This was her, sabotaging herself again. She was hang up on a taken woman because she didn't want to have to explore the possibility of an actual relationship. Maybe if Eliza was available she wouldn't even be interested in her. Except, she knows would totally be.

She had decided not to try to desperately find someone to date just to get Eliza out of her mind but instead decided to focus on her work. It was easy for her to do so, she was good at it and once she got super focused it was hard to get her out of that zone. So, work was the perfect distraction to get a certain green-eyed brunette out of her mind. At least for now, she'd deal with things as they came.

Of course, if Eliza wanted to break up with her girlfriend and date her instead, she wouldn't be opposed to it. God, I'm pathetic. She thought to herself. Seriously, when did she become this needy, clingy girl that longs after another woman's girlfriend? This was so not her. But Eliza had always been able to get her to be 'not herself'.

"Arizona?" Meredith said. "Arizona!"

"I'm sorry, I just zoned out for a little." She said looking at the other blue-eyed doctor. "Yes?"

"I was asking if you were coming to my house on Friday." Meredith said.

"Yes. Of course." Arizona answered.

"Good, everyone is coming except for Bailey who's got some event with her son and Warren." Meredith said.

"One of you paged me here?" April asked from the door.

"Oh yes, yes. We need your crossword puzzle knowledge." Arizona said gesturing for the redhead to come closer.

"You paged me 911 to help you with a crossword puzzle?" April asked incredulously.

"Well, you're already here. Might as well help us, right?" Eliza said offering April her biggest smile and batting her eyelashes.

"Urgh, you're such a charmer, I hate you. Works every single time." April said sitting next to Eliza. "and I'm not even attracted to you."

"Well, in your defense I have to say that I am very likable." Eliza said winking at her and handing April the pen.

Sing it! Arizona thought.

"Okay, let's fill in this thingy." April said as Meredith and Eliza placed themselves next to each side of the redhead trauma surgeon.


It was already Friday and Arizona was nervous as hell. As well as a little jealous, she had to admit. But she was trying not to show it and being successful at it. If this whole friendship thing between her and Eliza was going to work she had to control herself. She needed a new focus, a new distraction. Maybe she should download Tinder again. Focusing on work was working only while she was at work. The rest of the times? Her thoughts were always invaded by a certain green-eyed brunette. It's not like she wanted to, she desperately wanted to get her out of her mind but she couldn't.

She arrived early at Meredith's house to help prep for the dinner and to drink, of course. She had already had a regular amount of wine and was feeling comfortably buzzed. Now she could face any situation.

"When is Eliza arriving?" April asked.

"She said she would be here around 7:30 so, in about half an hour." Meredith said.

"I miss her. I really like her." April said, sipping on her wine.

"Uh…someone has a girl crush." Arizona said giggling.

"Oh, totally." The redhead said without hesitating.

"Me too. I'm a little bit in love with her. I honestly could marry her." Jo said as she joined the women, followed by Alex.

"Baby, have you joined the lady lovers club?" Alex asked chucking and grabbing a beer form Meredith's fridge.

"No, but for Minnick I would." Jo said matter-of-factly. "For you too, by the way." She said pointing at Amelia.

"I'm flattered." Amelia said blushing.

"I love this conversation." Arizona said, pouring herself more wine. "Just to reverse the situation, If I were straight I would be into Alex."

"Ew, that sounds all kinds of wrong." Alex said.

"Shut up. It's a good thing I'm gay because I don't think you would be ready for this jelly." Arizona said pointing at herself with her hand. They all laughed as the guests kept arriving. Exactly 36 minutes later, not that Arizona was counting them, the bell ringed and Jackson, who was at the living room, went to open it.

"Dr. Minnick." Jackson said with a nod.

"Hello Jackson. I think we're on first name basis by now." Eliza said greeting him.

"Of course. Hello, Eliza." he said looking at her and then turning his head to look at a very short woman with short blonde hair and pretty hazel eyes. "Hi. I'm Jackson." He said shaking her hand.

"Hi Jackson. I'm Jessica, Eliza's girlfriend." Jessica said with a bright smile.

"Nice to meet you, Jessica." He said as he lead them in.

The two women noticed that most of the people were at the kitchen so they walked in, hand in hand. Arizona couldn't help but notice it and feel the jealousy taking over her body. She was going to control it though. She stood up from the chair where she was sitting and walked over to them.

"Hi, I'm Arizona Robbins." She said, offering the small woman a big genuine smile and her hand to shake.

"Hello Arizona Robbins, I'm Jessica McLaughlin. Nice to meet you." She said giggling at the blonde's formality.

The blonde shook her hand and couldn't help but look at Jessica intensely. Attempting to take her all in. To say that she was a beauty wouldn't even be fair. The woman was gorgeous. Of course. She looked like freaking Natalie Portman in her pixie cut days. For some reason, she had expected Jessica to be less pretty. Maybe it was wishful thinking.

Eliza could feel the tension in Arizona's body. She couldn't help but think how ridiculously beautiful the blonde looked. She was wearing something very simple, just some skinny black pants with a deep red v neck shirt and some golden jewelry. Still she looked better than anyone in the room. These few days with Jess had been very hard for her. She loved her, she absolutely did but seeing Arizona again had definitely turned her world upside down.

She constantly found herself second guessing her every move. Arizona was like a magnet to her. After all, she was the woman she always thought to be her 'happily ever after'. The woman she couldn't get over until she met Jessica but now she couldn't help but wonder if she really got over her at all. Maybe she would have, if she had never seen her again.

Her little brother kept telling her to just break up with Jessica and try something with Arizona. Damn millennials, they think everything is so easy. She couldn't break up with Jessica. They had a commitment. Besides, it would be horrible of herself to break up with her now, when the small blonde woman had so much going on in her life.

"Come here, honey. Let me introduce you to my friends." Eliza said leading the petite woman to the other side of the kitchen where she introduced her to the rest of the surgeons. This was going to be a long evening.


The dinner went as smoothly as it could. Jessica was freaking lovely, of course. Arizona was trying really hard not to like her but she did…she did like her, a lot actually; which made her feel even shittier. It would've been easy if Jessica was a jerk but she was funny, nice and polite. Very likable, just like Eliza.

"So, Jessica, Eliza tells us that you're an attorney?" Meredith said, handing her another glass of wine.

"Yes. I'm specialized in government and public policies which has always been my main field of work, but I completed a second specialty in LGBTQ and other vulnerable communities' affairs." She answered, taking the glass of wine.

"Wow, that sounds impressive." Amelia said.

"Not as impressive as operating on people's brains." She said taking a sip of her wine. "Policies and laws can be tedious and hard to memorize but surgery, any kind, is what's really impressive. You save people's lives!"

"So do you, in a way. I mean, you are part of a minority and work for the state of Washington. With both of your specialties you help create laws and such to benefit our diverse community." Arizona said looking at her.

"You're giving me more credit than I deserve, that's for sure but thank you, I do try. I'm actually part of two minorities." The small woman answered while they all looked at her with a questioning look. "I'm Hispanic. I was born in Peru and only came to live here when I was 12. My dad is American, my mom is Peruvian."

"So, you speak Spanish?" Arizona asked.

"Si." Jessica answered with a wink. "So, I have a question for you women."

"Shoot." Arizona said.

"How is it that women as beautiful as you" she pointed at Arizona "you" she pointed at April, "you" she said pointing at Meredith "and you." She said as she pointed at Maggie "are still single? Lack of men or women in Seattle? I honestly can't understand it."

"More like lack of time. You know how the life of a surgeon is." Meredith said, drowning her wine and looking at Nathan Riggs.

"Well, I don't have many single straight male friends but I do have a lot of single lesbian friends for you Arizona. Maybe I can set you up with one of them!" Jessica said excitedly.

Eliza nearly choked on her wine. Why would Jessica want to set Arizona up with someone? Was she on to her? Has she noticed that she can't keep the blonde surgeon off of her mind even when they're together? God. This was all so messed up. Why couldn't she just get over Arizona?

"I…uh, that's nice of you Jessica bu-"

"Awesome!" the smaller woman interrupted before she couldn't even reply. "How do you like them? Butch, soft-butch, femme, lipstick…chapstick? stud?"

"I had no idea they were so many sub-categories of lesbians. To me lesbians were, well, just lesbians." April said, clearly buzzed.

"I like women." Arizona said simply.

"Open to the whole spectrum. I like it." She turned to Eliza. "I like this one." She said pointing at Arizona. "Oooh, here. Look at my friend Isabella. She's gorgeous. She's a little self-entitled and cocky but well, she is a millennial after all. But she's also cunning and very driven. And don't even start me on those eyes." She said as she sat next to Arizona and showed her the picture of an awfully young blue-eyed brunette with freckles.

"She's cute but a little too young for me." Arizona said making a face.

"Okay. Then here, look at Maia." She said typing something and then showing Arizona the picture of a very exotic looking woman. "She's Hawaiian. She can bake the best peach pie I've ever had."

"Have you considered that maybe Arizona doesn't want to be set up with anybody?" Eliza said, sounding a little harsher than she intended. Attempting to hide her current annoyance at her girlfriend's antics and jealousy.

"Don't be a love Grinch, baby." Jessica said, pecking Eliza on the cheek. "So? Maia?" she said turning her attention to Arizona again.

"Leave her alone, Jess." Eliza said, seeing that Arizona didn't seem too comfortable.

"Too late, we've bonded." Jessica said, wrapping an arm around Arizona and showing her more pictures of her friends.


The conversation kept focused on Jessica for a while. Since she was 'the outsider' they all suddenly seemed very interested in her. The woman was certainly quite the crown master. The woman was also being extremely nice to her, trying to get to know her and being a little extra sweet. Eliza told her that she had told Jessica that she was an old High School friend but had avoided the ex-girlfriend part to avoid any awkwardness. Arizona stood up to go to the kitchen to pour herself more wine.

"Are you okay?"

"Jesus!" Arizona said, startled. "You really shouldn't do that. You scared the hell out of me."

"I'm sorry. It's just that you've been drinking a lot tonight and you only do that when you're nervous or uncomfortable." Amelia said walking over to her. "Is it because of her girlfriend?"

"I don't know what you're talking about." Arizona answered.

"I think you do." Amelia said. "I know it's hard, wanting someone that seems so unattainable but you'll get over it. You'll get over her."

"I know I will. I really am okay." Arizona said. "Thank you anyway."

"Well, if you need to talk I'm right here." Amelia said, grabbing Arizona's arm. "And who knows, maybe you won't even have to get over her. I've noticed the way she looks at you. Even with her girlfriend here. It's pretty messed up, actually."

"My whole existence is messed up." The blonde said with a small laugh.

"Don't be such a drama queen." The brunette surgeon said rolling her eyes. "But whatever happens, just be sure to make it right. A relationship can't be founded on lies and cheating. You know that."

"I do. And nothing will happen. I've already made up my mind."

"About?"

"About what I should do." Arizona simply said as she left the kitchen, leaving Amelia alone. She had really made up her mind. She had to back away a little bit from Eliza. It wasn't healthy or good for her to be longing after someone unavailable and it wasn't fair to Jessica either. She would not be the woman to cause her heartbreak and she would not be the woman to turn Eliza into a cheater.

As much she still wanted and loved Eliza, the ball was now entirely in her court. But as for now, she would try genuinely be her friend and avoid spending time alone with her as much as she could. No more longing stares or unnecessary touches. From now on, she was going to treat Eliza like she treated April or Amelia.


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