Taemin's pov
What was this? What is this? Oh please God no not this, don't touch me like that, and don't touch me there! Please don't look at me like that. Don't make me think you love me. Don't play me again. Taemin felt his legs give out and he slid to the floor, his butt hitting the ground with a thud. He looked up at Alec and Alec looked down at him. Slowly lowering himself so he came eye level with him. Oh those eyes. How he hated and adored them so much. Oh please don't look at me like that.
"Alec what are you…"
He was cut off by lips on his. It was simple, sweet, slow, and oh so sad.
"Not tonight Taemin, but soon, when you're ready."
Taemin wanted to shout at him. You bloody asshole of course I'm ready. But he knew underneath that he wasn't. If something could go wrong it would and he didn't want to wake with a broken heart.
Alec lifted him up with ease so now they stood face to face; Alec's chin resting just above his head. Alec looked down at him and slowly lifted his hand brushing Taemin's bangs out of his eyes.
"See you in a min"
It took a minute for Taemin's body to work but when it did the light was already off in the bedroom. He swallowed hard and got ready for bed. Moving to the bathroom that was connected to the bedroom; after brushing his teeth he stripped down to his boxers and climbed in bed next to Alec. He didn't normally go to bed like this, but it was his thing to defy anything Alec said to him that made him feel like child. He may not be ready but that didn't mean he couldn't fake like he was. He felt Alec shift so his torso curved with his. His breath on his neck made him shiver.
"I told you Taemin not tonight."
Taemin shifted so he could see Alec's face. Alec smiled at him and tugged at his bangs.
"How do you know that I'm not ready? I could be and you wouldn't even know it."
"Really?"
"Yes"
"Ok"
"Yes really, wait what?"
Alec smiled his hand trailing down Taemin's torso and further down. Taemin jumped a little when his hand passed his… Alec smirked and pulled Taemin in close.
"Go to sleep little one."
And so he slept in the most peaceful sate he had ever been in. nothing was said, and nothing had to be. He didn't know what made this night so special. But something had changed and he knew nothing would ever be the same after tonight.
