I wake up in the infirmary and stretch out. I looked around and I force myself up.
''Show me where he is Old girl.''
I feel her hum and there is a light outside the infirmary door. I open the door and shut it behind me. He's leaning on the sink in front of the mirror I move around him and hug him. He lets go of the sink and hugs me back. He's crying and I can feel my own tears come on.
''I let her forget.''
''No, sweetie. No. You didn't. It was my fault. I fell.''
''I was suppose to protect them. That was my duty to them, to protect the other at all cost, and I failed. He's gone and I have failed Amy. I couldn't save him like I was suppose too and … and If I failed at keeping… keeping Rory here, how can I trust myself to protect you..''
''Love, please.. Sweetie don't talk like that. You couldn't do anything to have stop it. He jumped in front of you at the last second. Love you couldn't have reacted to that. And when the light touched him… there was nothing you can do. He knew you tried, and so did Amy. Don't be hard on yourself. Please, my love, please listen to me.''
I pleaded with him, I showed him reason to trust me. I told him that Rory would understand and that Amy.. if she could remember, would understand too. He did everything he could have done, but he has to remember, the universe has a mind of it's own. He moves back to where his body is leaning on the wall. We shared our thoughts of Rory and Amelia and I let him pull me to him, making me lean on him. I ran circles on him back, arms, and chest to find someway to comfort him. I would kiss his hand or his jaw, in comfort to let him know I was still there, when his thoughts got to much. Hours later we had calmed down. He kisses my forehead and The Doctor leans his head against the wall and a few minutes later he looks down to me.
''Why did you fall, was it the memories again?''
I nod
''She adds a line every time.'The man with green eyes who travels through time. He is the love of your life, and one day, He'll lose you completely, but he won't remember, the girl who saved his life...' She was moving about like we were actually interacting this time... but she kept talking after I couldn't hear her.''
He easily noticed my hesitation and lifted my chin with his hand, guiding my head up so I could look into his eyes.
''Tell me, please.''
''Love...what if… what if the cracks get me? What if I'm just like Rory, he saved your life, he.. he pushed me away. That could have been me.''
The Doctor pulls me into a hug and kisses my head.
''I will not let that happen. You understand, Never. ''
''Doct-''
''Makayla, now it's time for you to trust me and my words. I will not, repeat not, let that happen to you. I couldn't be the Doctor if it ever did happen.''
His voice was nothing, but a soft, sweet whisper in my ear. He kissed the top of my head then both cheeks, nose, then finally my lips.
''Do you trust me..''
I nod into his jacket
''Of course.''
"Then listen carefully. You will not leave me, I will protect you till my last dying breath and I will forever keep you safe, right here, with me."
I lean up to kiss him and he kisses back.
"I love you."
He whispers in my ear and I pull him closer to me
"I love you too."
We stay there for a while, before he picks me up and carries me to my room. We lay there neither of us sleeping, just laying there, thinking of the woman, and Rory and poor Amy. The Doctor pulling me close to him, rubbing his hand up and down my side. Every now and then he would whisper 'I promise' and then kiss the back of my neck. I pushed myself closer to him and slowly I fell asleep as the Doctor did too.
My Boyfriend convinced me it would help me to write. I know it's not long, I just couldn't really find the right words or the right direction. I'm sorry guys. Maybe next Saturday will be better.
I hope you like it none the less. Goodnight guys.
~Maxy
