I wake up to find the chatty doctor from earlier smiling down at me. I yawn and rub my bleary eyes and gasp when I realize the IV is already out of my arm. The frail woman who was lying next to me when I was last awake is gone, along with several other patients. I must have been out for a while. Kageyama is glaring at me impatiently and my mom looks a little embarrassed.
"Sorry, sorry, I don't know what came over me," my eyes widen when the words come out a small croak. I didn't realize my throat feels like sandpaper until I spoke.
The doctor spots the water on the ground by my chair and hands it up to me, to which I graciously accept. I gulp down the rest of the water. My mouth feels swollen from being so dry but I am already feeling better.
"It's totally normal for chemo to take it out of you, don't apologize for anything," the doctor informs me with a smile. He hands a packet of medicine to my mom, and starts again, "You should be able to go to school tomorrow. The first few sessions you can go home inbetween, mainly to get you into the swing of things, but after a couple of weeks you'll be staying in the hospital for a while. Here is some medicine for the nausea which is almost guaranteed. It is going to be pretty bad, but you can do it, it will only be for a day, maybe two. " He pats my shoulder and I shudder imagining the tortuous remains of the day ahead of me.
I pull myself up till my feet are dangling over the side of the chair. I stand up, wobbling slightly after sitting so long, but I feel strong on my feet. Luckily. Our small family leaves in a hurry, stopping to pick up Natsu before we scurry out the doors to the car. I'm not sure why we are in such a rush, but I simply follow suit. We finally slow down when we get to the parking lot, and my mom seems to be looking nervously at me as if expecting me to collapse mid-step. It bothers me a bit, the way she is constantly glancing at me out of the corner of her as if she doesn't trust me, but I know she is just worried so I don't call her out on it.
I nearly fall asleep again on the car ride home and when we arrive at my house I struggle to push myself up. I am uncontrollably tired. Even the drowsiness that I had the past few weeks was nothing compared to this feeling of being dragged under against my will. I am faintly aware of Natsu and Kageyama staring at me curiously but I zone it out, focused on breathing in and out and staying awake.
I hear Kageyama talking to my mom softly and a few seconds later my door opens and I feel hands grip my shoulder. I lean in to the touch, my eyes half lidded and I am pulled to my feet. I lean heavily against the hard, muscular body and I think I hear Kageyama swearing. Something about how small people shouldn't weigh so much. I tune it out and let myself be guided inside the house. I am unsteady on my feet, and the broken beat of my footsteps becomes a sort of rhythm that I follow in my head as I force myself to keep walking down the hallway.
When we turn into my bedroom I collapse onto the bed and the darkness envelopes me almost immediately.
I wake up to stressed voices in the kitchen and then silence. Then I hear my mother's raised voice and I wonder for a while if Kageyama did something wrong. I shake the thought away after I ponder it for a while. Kageyama isn't the type to do troublesome things.
I peer around to see Kageyama walking quickly down the hallway towards my room, DS in hand. He walks through my door and settles on my floor, leaning against the wall. A long breath escapes his lips, and he lowers the DS a bit to stare longingly at the wall across from him.
"What's going on?" I mumble.
He jumps his eyes widening as he realizes I am awake. He pastes an awkward smile on his face, shrugging, and I would laugh if I wasn't so tired. Instead a small smile flits over my lips before I close my eyes again.
He clears his throat, and I force myself to listen, "Your mom got in a huge fight with someone over the phone..." I hear him shift, making a floorboard creak and I nod my head slightly.
"Probably my dad..." I roll over, nuzzling deep into my pillow.
I don't hear what Kageyama says next because dreamless sleep pulls me under again.
I wake up with a start. My stomach is flipping repeatedly and I clutch it, my hands clawing at my shirt. I writhe in discomfort, vaguely aware of a whimper-like moan rising from my throat. I throw myself off the bed, landing on the floor with a thud and clamber up towards the trashcan. The cold wood of my floor hits my knees and palms like a hammer and it travels through my body, enraging the already brewing storm in my body. I don't get to the waste-bin soon enough. I wretch on the floor, and when I am done I roll a few feet away from the foul smelling puddle so I don't get myself dirty. My stomach is still screaming but I can't do anything about it. I lay there panting, tears pricking in my eyes, throat stinging. I faintly register the thud of footsteps in the hallway and my door slams open. I new wave of nausea hits me hard at that exact moment and I only clutch my stomach harder as softer, more cautious footsteps approach me. I strain my head up to see the owner and groan internally.
"Eww..." Kageyama pauses for a moment, staring at the puddle on the floor, before snapping his attention to me, "Oi, Hinata, sorry I went to get a glass of water and I come back to this.. Man, my bad. Here, come here." He pulls me up, hands in my armpits and I shakily get to my feet, swallowing back bile. He hoists me up with a grunt and I lean all my weight into his palms, feeling his body firm against my back. He pushes me forward, and I wobble with every step we take. He keeps an arm around my back and under my arm as he escorts me to the bathroom sets me down on the toilet.
I clutch my mouth again and he jumps out of the way just in time as I heave into the bathroom trashcan, sobs wracking my body. I don't know when the tears started, but they won't stop.
He stares down at me for a few seconds, obviously bewildered before turning to leave the room, "I'm getting your mom!" he calls to me from the hallway.
I don't have to wait long, my mom is here and leaning over me, brushing my sweaty hair off of my forehead with soft hands and rubbing my back.
"Honey, do you need to take the medicine the doctor gave us?" her voice is soft and comforting, but it doesn't take the pain away.
I nod at her, my lip quivering and she rushes off to get the baggy full of supplies.
Kageyama steps up to me, twiddling his thumbs, "Hey, you okay, dumbass?" his voice is softer than normal, hesitant.
"What do you think, stupid?" my voice is thick with tears.
I glare up at him and his eyes narrow, but he says nothing.
"Should I go clean up the... mess?" he leans against the wall awkwardly.
I nod, desperate to be alone and eager to alleviate some of my mom's burden, even at Bakageyama's expense.. I don't like him seeing me like this. I hear his footsteps recede and the moment he leaves the nausea hits me in a new wave and I clutch my hand over my mouth.
My mom joins me back in the bathroom a few moments later, a syringe in hand. I grab the glass of water she set on the sink and gulp down eagerly, only pausing to allow my mom to pierce the needle into my wrist, before I continue drinking. By now the needles that once terrified me aren't even felt; when I see my mom holding one I don't feel any reaction other than relief.
"Thanks, Mom," I gasp when I am finished drinking, dragging oxygen into my deprived lungs.
"You okay, there?" she is frowning a bit and I look up at her without smiling.
I shake my head, "This is the worst. I've never felt anything like this. It won't go away. "
"It will soon, don't worry. Just go back to your room and lay down for a bit, call me if you need anything," she helps me stand up and guides me back to my room with sturdy hands.
I am not as tired anymore and I lay with my eyes open in my bed. It smells of cleaning product and I am suddenly appreciative of Kageyama's effort. He is supposed to be a guest and I told him to work in the heat of the moment. I shake the thought away, glancing at my alarm clock curiously. I nearly gasp when I realize it is only 7:00 PM. I didn't sleep as long as I thought I had.
A few minutes later Kageyama rejoins me in my room, wiping damp, clean smelling hands on his shorts. I smile weakly at him and he nods in response, settling back down against the wall and pulling my DS out of his pocket.
"Sorry this isn't very entertaining for you. I didn't think it would be this bad," I admit, scooching closer to edge of the bed to talk to him.
He shakes his head, "It's not your fault. I am choosing to stay here; you're not forcing me to do anything," I am surprised at his honesty, but before I can say anything my stomach clenches up again and I gasp. He winces, looking away from the DS at me helplessly.
"Do you need anything?" he sounds hesitant.
I simply shake my head at him and stumble over to a trashcan. I lean over it and hack and cough but I have nothing left to throw up and so I just sit there leaned over my trashcan dry-heaving, my throat burning. I sit there for several minutes as bouts of nausea roll through me, tightening my muscles and clenching my organs.
I don't realize Kageyama comes up behind me until he lays his hand on my back, surprisingly gentle. He doesn't move it, and I feel the heat of his hand through my shirt. It is oddly comforting, but it doesn't make my stomach feel any better. The torture continues for what feels like forever, his gentle support guiding me through it.
A few minutes later I lean back, panting, and look up at Kageyama. He is blushing. Hard. I smile up at him, "Thanks, stupid,"
He doesn't respond.
Hi! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I apologize, during the second half there were some formatting errors so if the indents are all uneven it's not intentional, believe me. I've been having some back problems so I've been in bed all day and I am getting SO ANTSY, and all I have been doing is reading fanfiction.
Soo here is my request to you- in your reviews, it would be nice to hear some recommendations (only if you want to, of course). Can you guys let me know your favorite angsty romances, for Haikyuu, Fullmetal Alchemist, Black Butler, No. 6, Loveless, or any anime really. It would make my year!
With that aside, please review with any questions or requests, and expect the next update Saturday! Okay back to homework.
