It had only just turned nine o'clock in the morning when I was sat waiting in my Prius for the Evergreen Leisure Centre to open for the day, the moment I saw an employee of the centre unlock the front doors I stepped out of my car and went towards the building

The employee had just got around the front desk and sat down when I entered through the doors, going straight up to the reception desk through the empty foyer. The old man who worked behind the desk looked up from the computer screen and averted his gaze to me; his smile grew enormously when he recognised me

'Right on time' he greeted, looking over to the clock on the wall. 'Morning Clay, how are you doing son'

'I'm doing….ok Ronnie, just….holding on in there'

'You keep on doing that for me ok Clay' he smiled weakly

'I'll try too'

I looked down awkwardly at the reception desk before reaching into my pocket of my jeans to retrieve my wallet, my arms leaning over the edge of the counter as I flicked through my wallet for some dollar notes to fish out

'What you doing Clay, put it away' he protested, shaking his head

'You sure Ronnie' I questioned, raising a brow

'You've been coming here every Saturday at nine for the past year like clockwork. Your swim today is on us, it's on the house'

'I don't what to say but thank you'

'Don't mention it' Ronnie replied. 'You look like you could do with a swim desperately'

'How so' I exclaimed, raising a brow

'You look like you've got something on your mind that you want to clear off'

'Yeah something like that' I replied softly, pulling out some one dollar bills and handing it over to Ronnie. 'Treat yourself to some Reece's on me, I know they are your favourite'

'Thanks Clay' he replied. 'Oh Clay I know I haven't said this to you already because I didn't know how too but I'm sorry for your loss, I was so sad to hear about Hannah'

I nodded my head and smiled weakly at him as Ronnie smiled weakly back before taking the dollar bills and placing them on his desk, adjusting the straps on the small string bag over my shoulder I walked from the desk and headed towards the doors that lead to the changing facilities.

'Clay' he called out loudly

Stopping in my tracks at the sound of my name being called behind me I turned to see no one else in reception except Ronnie, he was stood up from his desk chair and leaning over the counter as I walked back to him

'Don't forget your wristband'

Ronnie slid over the small strip of purple coloured paper across the counter top as I retrieved it and made my way over to the locker room, entering a small cubical space and locking the door behind me I stripped out of my clothes and into my swimwear. I dumped my things into a locker and clasped the locker key strap tightly around my wrist as I made my way to the exit of the building to the large pool outside

I jumped into the shallow end of the pool and resurfaced slowly from the water; clearing the liquid out from my eyes I saw two figures at the other end of the pool. When my eyes adjusted back to normal vision I could make out who the other two were, it was me and Hannah playing around together in the pool in the summer before she died.

Shaking those thoughts and vision of them out of my head I swam over to the 'laps only' section of the huge pool and had the front of my body pressed up against the tile wall. I looked up and Hannah appeared out of nowhere and walked along the side of the pool, sitting down at the end of a deck chair and waved over at me. Taking a deep breathes I leaped off from the wall and took my weekly lap routines in the pool…..

After my morning at the leisure centre I drove home with my lunch of a steak and cheese sub from Subway in the passenger seat, pulling up along the curb outside of my house it looked quiet like there was no sign of life inside, guess everyone is still out for the day when I left in the morning. I took out my stuff from the car and went straight up to my bedroom to eat my lunch up there in peace. During the second half of my footlong sandwich I opened up the Spotify app on my phone and placed it on shuffle, the first song that played was a new one from Hailee Steinfeld I adored recently after hearing it on the radio while on an errand run

Our love's enough

Transcending us through space and time

It's holding up

It keeps you and me intertwined

What's a pipe dream if you ain't trying to do it?

What's a heartbreak if you ain't crying all through it?

What's a sunset if you ain't riding into it?

Let's drive into it

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

And I know that you're gone, but I swear that you're here

It's a feeling that won't disappear

And you're bringing me back to life

I was looking for something that I couldn't find

It's a feeling you give me inside

Hannah reappeared back in my bedroom again and sat down next to me on the bed, taking in the music that was playing loudly through my phone speaker

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

This feeling's coming back to life

Our memories

They're more than just our history

They lift me up

They flow like electricity (oh, oh, oh)

We turned to face each other and swayed along to the music, our arms bumping into each other we rocked on the bed, a small laugh escaping me as Hannah smiled widely

What's a pipe dream if you ain't trying to do it?

What's a heartbreak if you ain't crying all through it?

What's a sunset if you ain't riding into it?

Let's drive into it

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

And I know that you're gone but I swear that you're here

It's a feeling that won't disappear

And you're bringing me back to life

I was looking for something that I couldn't find

It's a feeling you give me inside

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

I can see you in the night

Coming through like flashing lights

When the world is passing by

Oh, oh, oh

I can see you in the night

Coming through like flashing lights

When the world is passing by

Oh, oh, oh (oh)

Hannah and I flopped down onto my bed and turned to face each other, wiggling closer to each other as Hannah placed her hand on my cheek, I could see her do it but never felt the touch that I missed so much

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

And I know that you're gone but I swear that you're here

It's a feeling that won't disappear

And you're bringing me back to life

I was looking for something that I couldn't find

It's a feeling you give me inside

Cause I'm bringing you back

Cause I'm bringing you back

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

And you're bringing me back

And you're bringing me back

And you're bringing me back to life

This feeling's coming back to life

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Cause I'm bringing you back to life

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

This feeling's coming back to life

When the song ended I reached over and placed my hand on Hannah's face and caressed her cheek, gently rubbing my thumb over her soft gentle face

'So you can hear us then Hannah' I stated

She simply just nodded her head and didn't utter out a single sound, I looked deeper into Hannah's eyes but she averted her gaze away for a few moments before returning back to me

'Did you like the song Hannah' I asked

Hannah just nodded her head as I played the song on again, keeping the volume low just in case Hannah might say a word this time around

'This song kinda makes me think of us, you know' I proclaimed, her facial expressed changed as she furrowed her brows, kinda confused on where the connection was with us and this song. 'Am I bringing you back to life or are you being me back to life?'

She shrugged her shoulders as we stared into each other eyes, completely losing track of time and space around us while the song played in the background….

'Please just talk to me Hannah because this driving me insane now' I admitted sobbingly. 'I can't think right let alone sleep properly, is there something that you come back to finish off or on a journey'

Getting frustrated even more I wasn't getting anywhere again asking Hannah all sorts of questions I reached for my phone that was on the other end of the bed, going through some pages on the internet I found the website I was looking for. Miraculously it still had all the audio files I posted online of Hannah's tape, coming to audio file eleven I pressed play on the link provided

'I'll take all these down when I'm done Hannah' I croaked

Hannah shook her head and her eyes had a teary glaze to them, maybe was I wrong to post her most intimate and private thoughts for everyone to hear and not take this page down soon as the trail was over…..

I had just finished listen to my tape over again for the second time for any clues to why Hannah was still here by my side, nothing seem out of the ordinary when I first heard them years ago with Tony by my side. Justin entered our shared bedroom and placed his keys, wallet and phone down on his nightstand just as I pressed pause on my phone from listening to the beginning of my tape again

'What you listening too' he asked curiously

'Nothing'

Justin gave a knowing look before looking down at my phone screen quickly; knowing the webpage I was on as he ran his fingers threw his hair angrily

'Why put yourself through that again Clay' he groaned in frustration

'I just needed to know something'

'Hannah loved you for much and I know she did but you can't keep torturing yourself like this Clay' he exclaimed. 'I mean I aint heard the tapes in years but I remember every word she said and that will stay with me forever till I die'

Justin shredded off his hoodie from his body and tossed it on the bed while sitting down on the edge of his mattress, curling up the Subway packaging into a ball I throw the ball of garbage into the bin, the sleeve of my hoodie sliding down my arm to reveal the wristband on my wrist still from this morning swim. I started peeling off the edges of the sticky seal and unclasped it from my wrist and placed the wristband on my nightstand next to the memory box

'Correct me if I'm wrong Clay but I swear I saw another wristband in your memory box' he exclaimed, motioning to the box

'You did Justin'

'So you guys went swimming together'

'Yeah' I whispered breathlessly, replaying the night inside in my head again as I closed my eyes. 'On my tape Hannah wasn't telling the truth about something'

'What did she leave out?'

'The night at Jessica's party, that wasn't the first time we kissed each other' I admitted

I dug around inside the memory box for the wristband I had received that night from the reception desk, the memories from that night came flooding back at the playful stuff Hannah and I did at the leisure centre and remembered our kisses, nothing could ever compare to her kisses…..


The first few days back at Liberty of my junior year and nothing had changed in the slightest, last year's seniors had moved on and everyone grew a year older but none the wiser. Last year's labels seemed to have stuck this semester also as I knew I was still the quiet loner in everyone's mind when they saw me.

On the way to Hannah's home I bought my swimming shorts and towel as requested by Hannah for tonight, I guess she wants to have another swim in the waterfall pool tonight. Midway through my walk to Hannah's I felt my phone buzz around inside my jean pocket, fishing out my phone I opened up the text message I received from Hannah

'Rescue me Helmet'

Reading the message quickly three times over I felt all sorts of emotions tug at my heart as I needed to get to her quickly, Hannah's small text had all sorts of different meanings to it while I tried to mental cross off the possibility of her text could mean on the run to her house

When I reached Hannah's street and the closer I got to her house I could hear loud screams coming from one of the houses on this street, once I got to the gate of the Baker's residents the screams where coming from within the household. My gaze flickered over to Hannah's bedroom when I saw a figure stood near the window, making my way over to the window I rushed past the bay windows of the living room as I could Mr and Mrs Baker arguing in a heated debate through them when I turned my attention back to Hannah's window

Giving a few gentle knocks on the glass I saw Hannah jump out of her own skin and turned her attention to the window, she lifted up the latch and pushed open the window frame as I climbed through and into her bedroom, after adjusting my fallen jacket I looked up at Hannah and saw her eyes were puffy and tears were being held back from a silent sob before I arrived

'Are you ok Hannah?' I asked, gently placing my hand on her shoulder

Hannah bottom lip quivered before she shook her head no and stepping forward in to my embrace, her body slamming against mine with arms wrapped tightly around my waist and the side of her cheek pressed against my chest, bring up my arms I wrapped it around Hannah tightly and held her close

'What's wrong?'

'I can't live like this anymore Helmet' she sobbed quietly

'Why, what's happened'

'Couldn't you hear them from outside?'

I nodded my head weakly as Hannah clung on tighter to my body, hearing loud footsteps coming from the other side of the door in the hallway we froze in our place and looked at the closed door, the voices on the other side getting louder as they got closer to the door

'I don't see way we can't take out another loan in my name Andy'

'Olivia we can't afford to take out another loan, our credit history is that poor if we take another loan it will put us under. We just have to find another way to save for fuck sake'

The voices of Mr and Mrs Baker lowered and muffled as their footsteps could be heard of them walking into their bedroom, their door slamming shut behind them. I guided our joined bodies over to Hannah's bed as we sat down on the edge with our arms wrapped around each other

'So what did you have planned for us tonight then Hannah?' I inquired, trying to take her mind elsewhere 'Another swim at the waterfall'

'Yes, another swim but not at the waterfall' she replied, nodding her head. 'It's too dark to go there now so I have another idea where too'

'Where'

'You'll see Helmet but we'll need some supplies first'

'Ok Han'

We pulled apart from each other with our hands still connected together, small tear marks were still left on Hannah's cheeks as I reached over with my thumb and wiped away the remain tears. Hannah sighed contently before flashing me a grateful smile as we got up from the bed, collecting our bags with our swimwear in them and exited out of the bedroom window, Hannah pushed her window frame closed and then linked her arm through mine as we both headed off to find the nearest grocery store…

The first store we came across in the town was Baker's Drug Store as we stood outside the front door; I turned towards Hannah and motioned us to enter the store to get our supplies as she rolled her eyes at the choice of store to go first too. Hannah led us down the candy isle of the store first as I picked up a shopping basket from the side

'So what are we looking for exactly?' I asked

'Reese's'

'Reece's' I repeated as Hannah placed some 3 pack into the basket. 'Why do we need these?'

'The person that is closing up tonight loves Reece's and these will help sway him into staying a bit longer for us so we can have the whole place to ourselves for a while'

'And you're sure this will work Hannah'

'Trust me Helmet it will because Kat showed me once and it worked then'

'If you're sure'

The basket was half full with sugary treats for ourselves and the person at the leisure centre when we went to the till to pay, after much persistence from Hannah I paid for the goods as we then placed them in our bags and left the store, heading off towards the leisure centre on the other side of town

When we finally arrived at the Evergreen Leisure Centre and crossed along the parking lot, most of the leisure centre was clearing out for the night and the parking lot was getting empty by the minute as cars left the premises. We entered the foyer of the reception area and waited till everyone was gone before walking over to the desk, seeing an elderly man sat behind it going through some documents on the computer screen

'Sorry guys we're closed for the night' he informed us

The old man turned away from the screen and looked up from his desk at us and smiled weakly

'You're Ronnie aint you' Hannah inquired

'Yes that's me, how can I help you Miss'

'My name is Hannah and this is my best friend Clay' she introduced to the elderly man. 'We were hoping for a late night swim'

'As I've told you we're closed for the night'

'But are you really tho'

'What are you suggesting Miss' Ronnie stated, raising a brow

'Maybe you could stay open for another hour or so we'll give you these' she exclaimed, opening up her bag and showing him the sugary treats inside

'As much as I love Reese's I can't, I'll get in trouble with my manager' he exclaimed, quickly licking his lips

'We'll give you twenty bucks as well to sweeten the deal' I chimed in nervously

'Done' he replied immediately

Hannah empty out her bag of treats for Ronnie and placed them on his desk while I pulled out another twenty from my wallet and placed it next to the candy, Ronnie reached down on his desk and placed two red wristbands on the counter as we took one each and headed to the changing rooms…..

Ten minutes later I had changed into my black swim shorts while Hannah slipped into a red swimsuit as we shared a locker to put our stuff into the small cubical, Hannah interlaced our hands together and led us outside to the large pool and hot tube, we got into the hot tube first and set the jets to the max on the settings

'This is so relaxing Helmet' she soothed

'It sure is Hannah' I proclaimed. 'I could get used to this lifestyle'

'When I get my own place someday this is literally the first thing I'm gonna buy'

'I'll hold you to that Hannah' I replied, raising a brow

Hannah shimmed across the bench in the hot tube and sat down closer to me while bumping into my arm by accident, without a thought running through my head I reached over with my left arm and placed it around her shoulders, she leaning into my chest as I kept a firm hold of our embrace in the bubbly water. I couldn't help but steal glances at her and notice how peaceful and at home she looked in my arms

'Whatcha looking at Helmet' she asked, opening up her eyelids

'Nothing'

'Tell me'

'I still can't get over your haircut' I exclaimed

'You don't like it Clay' she asked, swaying her hair side to side

'No I do, I'm so used to seeing you with the long hair and now seeing you with the short is something I'm gonna have to get used too but I do like your haircut'

'Why thank you kind sir'

Hannah pulled away from my chest and kept a small distance between in the hot tube, she lifted up her arm and flicked a small wave of water at me that didn't hit, I raised a brow and gave a knowing look as Hannah moved further away and swung her arm at the water to create a bigger splash that went over me

'Seriously Hannah' I spluttered, wiping the water away from my eyes

'Yes Helmet' she giggled softly

'Fine, you started it'

I lifted up my arm from the side of the hot tube and slammed it against the top of the body of water, the ripple effect causing a huge wave to hit her back as Hannah dives out of the way from my splash, she climbed out of the hot tube and ran to the side of the huge pool

'You missed, you won't get me now' she screamed loudly

'Get back here Hannah'

She shook her head and eyed up the huge pool again in front of her and jumped into the air, drawing her knees to her chest and wrapping her arms around her legs as Hannah dived into the pool, resurfacing for air in the deepest end of the pool while I stood up from the hot tube

'You not going to chase me then Helmet' she proclaimed loudly

'Just you wait'

I climbed out of the hot tube and ran to the side of the pool, diving in head first into the cold depth below while swimming after Hannah in the pool as she swam further away from me as I gave chase. I finally managed to back Hannah into a corner of the shallow end of the pool, swinging my arm harshly against the top of the surface of water and drenched her over; Hannah gasped quickly and cleared the water from her eyes as I saw the growing smirk on her face

'You're dead now Helmet' Hannah screamed

I tried stepping away from her but Hannah still managed to soak me no matter how I moved away from her as we engaged into a heated water splash fight, the pool water flew everywhere over us and out of the pool as I surrendered from our battle as I couldn't catch my breath anymore

'Watch yourself Helmet' Hannah informed me, placing her hand on my back

'What'

Hannah planted her left leg down in front of my right while grabbing a hold of my arm and pushed me forward in front of her as I lost my balance in the pool, spiralling down into the water and coming back up for air quickly

'What the hell' I spluttered

'I always get the last say in our play fights' she giggled lightly

I nodded my head as Hannah put out her hands for me to take; placing my hands in her's Hannah leaned back and helped me up from the water as we were a few inches apart from each other. The laughter soon died off between us as we stood in front of each other in comfortable silence as we were lost in each other's eyes.

I looked down at the pool and our hands were still connected together as I rubbed my thumbs over her knuckles and stepped closer to her, moving my gaze from our joined hands to her face I saw the slight blush creep over her beautiful face while moving my gaze back down to our hands.

'Clay' she spoke softly

'Yeah' I whispered gently

My gaze went back up to Hannah's face and our gaze locked with one another neither of us moving away from each other as I saw Hannah move forward towards me, closing the distance between our faces as I felt the faint contact of her lips against mine. The sweet feel of them on me over washing the shock that she kissed me first as Hannah places her hand on the back of my neck and deepened the kiss

We pulled apart for air but I was still in shock over what happened, I couldn't believe we have just kissed each other, I saw the smile on Hannah's face slowly start to fade as she moved away from me

'Hannah, what's wrong' I proclaimed, placing my hand on her shoulder to stop her moving away and face me

'I've ruined everything'

'You haven't done anything wrong' I assured

'Haven't I' she exclaimed. 'I've ruined our beautiful friendship I kissed you and now it's going to be weird between us and not the same anymore'

'That's not going to happen and I won't let it, not if we both don't let it'

'You sure as hell was shocked when I kissed you'

'I was surprised when it happened I wasn't expecting it but I'm so glad it happened Hannah I really am'

'Really Helmet' she asked

I nodded my head and placed my hand against her left cheek, drawing her gaze up to mine while I bend down and softly pressed my lips against Hannah's, she placed her hands on my bare chest as she melted into kiss when I deepened the passionate kiss, pulling apart breathless a few second later as I saw the huge smile plaster across her face

'Why don't we enjoy the rest of the time we have here before we get kicked for the night' I sighed contently

I held out my hand for Hannah to take as she did and interlocked our finger while we walked to the edge of pool, climbing out of the pool and walking back to the hot tube, I placed my arm around Hannah as we got comfortable in the hot tube and looked up at the stars in the sky…..

After hanging out at the leisure centre for over an hour we had decided to call it a night there and let Ronnie have the rest of the night to himself as he went out of his for us tonight when he didn't have too. During our walk around the town our hands were still interlaced together when we came to a stop outside an ice cream parlour, when I scan read the offers on the window my stomach growled loudly as I widen my eyes in horror at the noise it was making and Hannah laughed quietly while looking down at my stomach

'Come on Helmet, let's go in it's clearly a sign'

We entered the ice cream parlour and was greeted by the front of house waitress who shown us to our booth in the corner of the room, we walked past some fellow juniors and seniors from Liberty High who shot us a look when we strolled past.

After getting comfortable in our booth we pondered over the menu and settled on waffles and shakes, we placed our order at the till and sat back down in our booth, our hands still holding onto each other's on the counter top as we waited for our order to be made

'So Hannah' I spoke suddenly, breaking the silence between us

'So Helmet'

'Are we gonna talk about what happen at the swimming pool'

Hannah looked up from the counter top at our joined hands to meet my gaze, she furrowed her brows trying to recollect what I was suggesting at but she knew what I meant as we hadn't really talked about it since the pool

'The kiss' I stated

'No' she protested, shaking her head

'Look Hannah, everything I said at the pool was true but if you want to brush off the kiss as a friend kissing another friend then I'm more than happy too. I mean if we kiss each other again it could potentially mean something more'

'So it that why you kissed me back' she smirked, raising her brow

'Maybe' I laughed lightly

I felt Hannah's thumb rub along my knuckles as I tried to hide the small smile forming along my lips, our gaze becoming locked with each other as the only single thing I saw and heard was just Hannah, the sparkles was in her eyes as we leaned our faces across the booth table.

'One Kinder Bueno waffle, one Oreo Crunch waffle and two Reese's milkshake' the waitress interrupted, placing the plates and jugs down on the counter top. 'Enjoy'

'Thanks' we replied in unison while seating back in the booth

The waitress walked away from our booth with the tray in her hands, we grabbed some utensils out of the holder as we prepared to tuck into our treats

'Fate strikes again' Hannah chimed, sighing deeply

'What an annoying bitch that is'

Hannah giggled loudly while putting her cutlery down and covering a hand over my mouth to muffle down the noise, our eyes met again across the table and Hannah and I looked around our surroundings for any interruptions before we leaned over the table and connected our lips together, the small contact putting a huge smile on our faces when we pulled apart

'I could get used to this' Hannah sighed happily

We picked up our cutlery from the counter top and tucked into our sugary treats and milkshakes, enjoying each other's company as we talked about anything and everything that popped into our minds, both of us feeling relieved that the few kisses we shared didn't changed the way we behaved around one another…..

During our walk back to Hannah's house our hands were intertwined as we passed through the surrounding neighbourhood, the streets were a lot quieter now and the loud screaming shouts from the Baker's had died down. We stopped outside the gate of the Baker residence and saw through the windows that the Bakers were asleep on the couch; we walked through the front garden and stopped outside Hannah's bedroom window as she turned to face me

'Thank you for an amazing night together Helmet and just being there for me earlier' she exclaimed

'My pleasure Hannah' I replied. 'I'm glad I could be there for you'

'I hope you are every time I need you' Hannah smiled

I nodded my head and opened out my arms as Hannah stepped forward into my embrace, circling her arms around my waist tightly and was pressed up against my chest while I wrapped my arms around her. Hannah pulled away from my chest and looked up at me

'Hannah' I spoke softly

'Yeah'

'There's something I want clear up'

'Sure Helmet'

'Kissing you tonight was the best thing to ever happen to me in my life and you're my best friend in the entire world but don't tell Tony that'

Hannah and I laughed lightly before we pinky promised each other to not tell Tony what I just said, we still held each other close in our arms as I didn't want to let go of her just yet

'The point I'm making is that I don't want us to be that kind of friends that keep on kissing each other without it meaning something when it might do to one of us, so tonight is the last night I'll kiss you before we start this pact and if we kiss afterwards then it's clear that we do want something to happen'

'I love it when you ramble Helmet but yes I'll agree to our pact' she replied, nodding her head

'You still coming to Jessica Davis's party next week'

'I'm not sure yet I'll see'

'Nothing ever good comes from I'll see' I proclaimed. 'Please say you'll come Hannah'

'Maybe Helmet'

'I'll take maybe' I sighed gently. 'It's getting late Hannah I best go'

'Night Helmet'

'Night Hannah'

We pulled apart from each other's embrace but our hands still kept on lingering together, I moved my left hand away from Hannah's and cupped her left cheek, I smiled warmly before stepping forward and pressed my lips against Hannah's, I felt Hannah kiss me back passionately as I depend the kiss, pulling breathlessly away from each other moments later

'Night Helmet' she replied, blowing me a kiss in the air

I watched as Hannah climbed back through her bedroom window and waved goodbye from inside, I reciprocated the gesture and also said goodbye as I left the Bakers residence, heading back home and thinking about the party that was coming up soon, if Hannah does come to the party I'll definitely break the pact and kiss her….


I played around with the wristband between my thumb and forefinger before placing it back inside the memory box, I looked up from the floor to meet Justin's gaze as he looked slightly confused and was taking in all this new revelation that would contradict what he heard from my tape and the natural assumption Hannah and I first kissed at Jessica's party

'Why wasn't any of this mentioned on the tape before Clay' Justin spoke after a while

'Guess Hannah was trying to protect me from all of you knowing the finer details of our relationship' I admitted, keeping my head down from Justin's gaze. 'I guess I'm glad she did'

'What do you mean?'

'So people like Bryce, Monty, Marcus and the rest of those dipshits wouldn't ruin the memory of her even more so for me if they knew'

Justin's phone vibrated in his pocket before going silent seconds later, he reached deep into his jean pocket and pulled out his phone and read the text message he received. Justin smiled widely before putting his phone down on his nightstand and ran his hand through his hair

'Was that Jess?' I enquired

'Yeah' he nodded his head. 'Asking if I fancied going to the beach but I can stay here with you if you like if you still want to talk'

'No' I protested loudly. 'You should go and have some fun with Jessica, you deserve it and I've already taken much up of your time as it is'

'I've got all the time in the world for you Clay' he exclaimed, getting up from his bed and walked over to me and placed his hand on my shoulder. 'Jess even asked if you wanted to come as well'

'I'd love too but it seems it your time together, give her my love'

'I will' Justin sighed gently. 'She's worried about you Clay, you know. We all are'

I reached up and patted Justin's hand softly and flashed him a weak smile which he reciprocated back. 'I'm fine honestly, all of you worry too much'

Justin sighed deeply once again and left our bedroom to get some stuff ready for a day on the beach with Jess, from the corner of my eye I saw Hannah reappear sat next to me on my bed and noticed the bracelet sat on my nightstand. I picked up my bracelet and slid it onto my right wrist as Hannah placed her hand onto my arm, meeting her gaze I smiled weakly

'Do you know what you are in this form I'm seeing' I asked. 'Don't worry if you don't, we'll figure it out together'

Hannah nodded her head and moved her hand up my arm till she came to a stop to my bracelet, she moved a couple of the beads a round on the loop as I my placed my other hand on top of hers, Hannah rested her head against my arm and closed her eyes while bowed my head on top of her hers. I miss you so much Hannah, I miss everything about you so god damn much…