Authors Note: I think I am definitely going to have to either start posting much much shorter chapters or finish this very soon because this story is now very long and this fact makes me very uncomfortable. Firstly because I think that most people won't want to read it if it gets really really long but more importantly because it's length and the time I've spent on it makes me feel guilty about not working on my original writing.
One of the reasons I haven't put my time into fanfiction is because it takes time out from me writing my original stuff which I kinda consider more important cos it is mine and I would like to get it published one day.
So upcoming chapters may: take longer and or be shorter.
Anywho I had this idea for this chapter which I was very very attached to however eventually I felt I had to desert as it kinda disrupted the tone and plot. Basically it was L disregarding the agreement with Light to keep their relationship private and underwraps. Spectacularly so. The scene in mind in fact made his conversation with Light's father seem pale in comparison. If people are interested maybe I'll either write it up separately or have it happen later when it is not such a big problem to have L acting so blatantly inappropriately.
Instead however ya get a juicy conversation with Matsuda whose curiousity will get him into trouble one day!
Curiosity
The work day was a very quiet and uneventful one. All the members of the task force arrived promptly and got to work dedicated on tasks only Light and L knew to be completely and utterly pointless. L reflected, not for the first time in his life, what a cold joke it was that people were constantly kept busy for their lives on things that were irrelevant and unnecessary; things that benefited no one and that they did not even enjoy doing. In this case he was even the one who arranged and presided over this sickening waste of time. He was basically employing people to do pointless things; to do pretend jobs. They wasted their day here doing things they didn't like and it was L who was making them do so when he could just as easily pay them for nothing. Hopefully though he wouldn't have to continue doing this for too long. He couldn't bear to do this indefinitely once they had bargained and forged Light's innocence.
He chewed on a gummybear and considered that if Light had suceeded in murdering him he would have probably have had to spend the rest of his life doing this under the guise of L. Filling his day with absolutely pointless work that he knewwas pointless and could not go anywhere. He would have to spend at least eight hours of each day doing the equivalent of punching random numbers into a computer or scribbling on a piece of paper with no goal. He would waste the majority of his life pretending to try and catch himself. The concept of such a colossal waste of time, of human life, of a consciousness and mind actually made L feel physically sick.
As a result he decided to split up the task force again and assign them the most interesting tasks that he could think of and in addition to this gave them extra long breaks. They were of course all quite surprised with this treatment but shrugged it off easily enough. Only Soichiro Yagami frowned at this behaviour with a mind full of fractured knowledge. He also glared at L with quite a powerful and surprising stare that actually amused the young detective a great deal. It made him want to crawl all other the younger Yagami, toying with him playfully and openly in front of the entire task force.(1) However with all things considered the day was progressing smoothly.
With only an hour or so to go now before the working day drew to a close Light and L found themselves breifly alone in the main building with other members of the task force only passing through as they moved throughout the building complex. They didn't speak. This was not the time for conversation. Instead there was only a calm quiet which filled the room; just the humming of the machines and the echoes of distant footsteps.
Matsuda however ran up to the large glass doors and teetered on the edge, preparing to break the silence of the peaceful room. He sighed heavily and ran his hands through his hair in a distressed way. Matsuda was no stranger to self-inflicted misfortune, he was a extremely accident-prone person. However he was currently very afraid that he had in this case gone too far because it seamed he had somehow, and he had no idea how, broken a entire roomworth of expensive technical equipment. Matsuda did not know how he had done it and he had no idea how to fix it. He had tried turning everything off and on again and that was pretty much the extent of his abilities. He couldn't even understand the text that had come up upon the screens. But it didn't sound good. Matsuda knew how much data there was that he could have lost.
Matsuda was worried that L might actually hit him when he told him. To be fair the eccentric young man had never hit him before. But last time he had given him a look that somehow quite clearly said 'If you screw up again I will hit you so hard…' So Matsuda paused in the doorway and fidgeted nervously.
Through the glass he saw Light rising and moving across the room. 'If only L would move and I could get Light then it might not be so bad,' Matsuda thought but soon Light came back into his line of vision holding a cup of coffee in his hand. He sighed and continued to stall and fidget.
To his surprise he saw that instead of Light bringing the mug over to his own desk he rested it down beside L. L didn't turn but brought the cup up to his lips and took a sip. Light stayed stood behind L. Matsuda saw him slowly rest his hand on the older man's shoulder. Then slowly Light moved his hands over and up over the man's neck. His fingers stretched upwards to settle in L's hair where they remained but Matsuda could still see them flexing slightly, playing the tousled black strands.
Matsuda was so surprised by what he was seeing that he actually forgot to support himself and half-fell against the door, swinging it open and stumbling into the room. When he had caught himself and looked up Light had moved away and was seating himself at his desk again. Matsuda walked further into the room until he was close by L and said, very nervously indeed,
"Um…I'm having a slight computer problem…" L sighed.
"Light, go help Matsuda sort out his computer would you," he said in a weary voice, "it's probably just a small problem. If you can't sort it call watari…"
And so following the short walk and around ten minutes of 'investigation' Matsuda was standing beside Light apologising over and over while Light tried to unravell the mess.
"I have no idea how you managed to scramble all of this," Light breathed exasperatedly while he bashed buttons and keys furiously.
"I'm sorry!" Matsuda said for probably the hundredth time, "I don't know how I did it either." Light switched off the main components again and kneeling down resorted to actually starting to take the machine apart.
"I'm going to have to force a complete reboot from inside the system," he said while he unscrewed the casing.(2)"
"Wow, Light you really get this stuff," Matsuda said. Light made a rough noise in the back of his throat as a disgruntled reply and started to…rewire the system? Matsuda shifted about nervously. His mind couldn't help wandering back to the small and subtle display he had witnessed a few moments ago. And Matsuda wasn't good at keeping his thoughts on the inside of his head.
"Hey light…" he began cautiously.
"Yes Matsuda?" Light breathed wearily.
"Um…er…is there…anything going on between you and L?" Light paused for just a second in his work and then continued without turning around.
"What do you mean exactly?" He inquired calmly.
"Um well…you know…It's just…it's just a feeling I get around you two…" Matsuda stumbled over the words feeling the heat rise in his face, "you seem…closer than before." There was a short pause while Light threaded wires.
"What exactly do you think is going on between us?" he asked quietly. Matsuda swallowed.
"Um…I…I don't know…you just seem…closer." Light tapped the system thoughtfully for a few moments and then turned to look up at Matsuda thoughtfully. After a few seconds he smiled. 'It's only Matsuda…'
"Okay Matsuda can you keep a secret?" Light's tone surprised Matsuda. He gigled nervously.
"Uh..yeah sure Light..eheheh…" Light couldn't believe he was doing this for the second time in two days but, he reminded himself again, it was just Matsuda.
"We're lovers." Matsuda stared at him. The sight was very comical.
"You and L?" Matsuda asked in a shocked voice.
"Yes me and L," Light replied almost rolling his eyes, "wasn't that what you were asking me?"
"But…you're not gay are you Light?"
"No," Light replied, "I think I'd probably say that L is the exception to me."
"And L?" Matsuda asked, his tone ending up a little shrill towards the end of the words.
"I think he would say the same," Light replied with a smile, "in any case our relationship is complicated."
"Oh…" Matsuda replied. The conversation could have and would have trailed of here if it had been anyone other than Matsuda. Unfortunately Matsuda simply couldn't stop himself. "so…so…you two have sex?" He flushed after asking this but Light just smiled at him.
"We pleasure each other but I guess no, we don't have penetrative sex." He could see how uncomfortable Matsuda looked but really Light felt he had asked for it. He enjoyed making the mann squirm, "I suppose it depends what your definition of sex is."
"Oh…" Matsuda mumbled. Light grinned at the expression on Matsuda's face. 'He actually wants to ask.' Light thought with incredulous amusement, 'he can't help himself. He actually wants to ask what we do in bed.'
"Are you gay Matsuda?" Light asked. Matsuda's head snapped up immediately, eyes wide"No no no! Oh my god No! I mean," he caught himself, " no offence to you…and L…"
"Calm down Matsuda," Light drawled, a big smirk stretched across his face, "what do you think I'd invite you to a threesome or something." Now Matsuda's expression to that was priceless. Light turned away to continue to attempt to fix the computer.
"L and I would like to keep our relationship private," he told the other man coolly, "so I'd appreciate it if you didn't go around telling everyone. You don't have to lie, but please be considerate."
"Oh right…" Matsuda managed, "yeah…"
"My father knows though, I just told him," Light informed Matsuda, "but you probably shouldn't say anything to him about it either."
"Uh…yeah...no no I won't…"
Light grinned as he slammed the casing back in place and began to secure it once more.
"Okay, let's give this another try…"
Sorry: I know that you must have all wanted there to be a L/Light/Matsuda threeway but it just was not to be...
(1) Yup, that was pretty much the idea which I rejected. Like the sound of it?
(2) I don't know how or why Light has a screwdriver on him but he does. Oh and that computer stuff is absolute garbage. Of course.
