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Chapter 12 - Months Later - Part 1.

The wind blew some locks of his silver hair out of the jacket's cap, while the young man walked towards a school. The day was sunny but cold, just like his own heart, the boy sadly thought to himself. Yazoo wasn't sure if he wanted to see Kadaj yet or not. Especially after what had happened with Reno…

He crossed the crowded avenue and reached the school's corner, feeling a tingle on his stomach. Four months. How would Kadaj react to him? He was calling Loz and Cloud on a regular basis, but he had not spoken to Kadaj once.

After a while, Yazoo saw his beautiful baby brother, exchanging hugs and wishes for a good holiday with his friends. He was dressed and acted like an ordinary teenager. Loz was right, Kadaj was just a kid. Beautiful, impulsive, selfish, curious and lost, hardly learning how to deal with feelings and rules of an unplanned life.

Kadaj crossed the large avenue and ran towards a car parked in front of the school. Yazoo felt his heart pound fast on his chest and he lacked for air in his lungs.

Reno was in the car with Kadaj. They hugged each other, talked for a minute or so and then the red-head gave a small package wrapped in a blue gift-paper to Kadaj. Perhaps a jewel. Yazoo couldn't hear their talking, because of the noisy traffic, though he saw that the little guy clung to Reno's neck with a blissful smile and kissed him. Passionately.

Yazoo closed his eyes and turned back, mounted his bike and went to the bar to pay Loz a visit.

" Oh damn it! I wanted to vanish. I gave up…What the fuck am I doing here? Tifa said he was sad…Sad my ass…I'm sad, I'm alone! He's surrounded by friends, care…and gifts, given by Reno… "

While he parked his bike, Yazoo saw Loz through the glass window cheerfully talking to a few customers. He was happy with his life.

Loz, even with his back to the window, sensed his brother's presence and glanced at the street. A wide smile crossed his face as he saw his beloved Yazoo standing there. Yazoo smiled back at his brother's handsome face and just seeing that big, gentle man in front of him, made him feel more confident. He strolled over to go into the bar but a small hand on his shoulder stopped his movements.

He turned back , anxiously knowing who it was already and he saw his young brother, with moisture in his eyes, flushed cheeks and trembling lips.

"Yaz…"

Yazoo looked into those huge, green eyes, wet with tears rolling down his childish, round cheeks. Kadaj wailed, pulling his arms around his brother's neck, mixing his sobs and cries with an incomprehensible symphony of words. Yazoo was startled by the so openly emotive gesture from Kadaj. He wasn't expecting an embrace from Kadaj at all. Perhaps because Yazoo wouldn´t normally embraced Kadaj but the boy, who was never one to hide his feeling -whatever they were. Kadaj was sincerely happy to see his middle brother.

"I missed you so much Yazoo!"

" Kadaj…Oh brother, I miss you too, but I-I need to breath…"

Loz came out too, already weeping and sobbing, and held the two boys in his huge arms. In this precious moment, they were what they used to be in the past: one human being together. A few meters away from them, Reno watched the scene, a cigarette hanging from his thin lips. He blinked twice to clear his vision, confirming it was indeed Yazoo in Midgar. Reno was affected in so many ways to see him again, that he thought twice about get inside his car, faking he hadn't noticed him. When Yazoo glanced at him over Kadaj's shoulder, Reno felt his limbs freeze. " Fuck, fuck, I'm not ready for this shit! Why am I feeling like this? Fuck!"

Loz and Kadaj broke the embrace and after has been spotted; Reno walked towards them. The four men stared at each other in silence. No one wanted to say the first word before Yazoo did and when the middle brother did, his voice was dull and cold. He was pretending to be in control even though he was far from feeling like that at this very moment. Reno was uncomfortable; Kadaj noticed by the way he was sticking his hands into his jacket's pocket.

Reno knew very well he was not an easy person to deal with.

The last straw had been drawn by him. Yazoo had withstood all his cheating, boozes and well…a Turk's life.

He had never complained but only asked one damn thing of Reno: Loyalty. Not fidelity, though he knew Yazoo always felt sad about the random lovers he took. For Reno it was just "messing around", nothing serious, nothing with feelings involved. He had missions, solved them, got drunk, high and then he had sex. It was like a prize party. No care, no love, only pure sex.

However, Reno wasn't good at dealing with feelings and heart issues. All his life he had to be a hard guy. No home, no affection, no one. What he knew about love and care he learned from the streets. And the streets were not always a very good teacher.

But Yazoo was a different matter for Reno. He wanted to take care of him since the first time he saw the gorgeous boy wounded at Shinra's infirmary. Even when they fought at opposite sides and punched each other, even when Yazoo, in a fit of jealousy, had pointed Velvet Nightmare at his head, he still wanted to take care of him.

Especially when that same cold blooded killer, once the one who had wanted to destroy the world in the name of an alien virus, moaned his name in bed, making Reno mad with pleasure.

Yazoo had once said, " I love you, Reno". And Reno, though unable to say the same, cared a lot for Yazoo, strong enough to bring Yazoo home with him. Strong and possessively enough to not allow anyone to touch "his Yazoo". Not even Shinra.

He tried hard to be only with him, but he simply couldn't. He was Reno, a drunk manwhore.

And during a very bad time of their relationship it had happened; the boredom of a monogamy life had charged its price. And there was Kadaj ...

He was such a little teaser, so hungry for love, life and new experiences. A perfect face and a hot body that Reno couldn't help but crave to touch. The only promise that Yazoo had begged him to keep, and Reno broke it. And he was broken by falling in love with that sassy, destructive brat.

"Don't touch my brother, Reno. Please. I can bear others but not him. Kadaj will tear us apart if you do this. He's vain, envious and he will try to seduce you. But don't fall for it. Promise me!"

"Nah…the little guy isn't envious, yo…Why would the brat do this?"

"Because…everything that I have, he wants too. It's like, have what I have will keep me always close to him. It's weird I know, but it's true. In the end he always wins…and I suffer."

"Princess, hush…it won't happen."

Reno felt his arms stretching to hold Yazoo. He wanted to embrace the boy, shout that he was sorry and kiss him. Reno shook his head; that he was thinking about such nonsense…Surely Yazoo would smack him right across the face if he tried to kiss him…and then Kadaj…

"How long, can I hold you, Yaz ?"

" I don't think so, Reno…"

Reno didn't let Yazoo enough time to finish his excuse and simply embraced the boy, pressing Yazoo against his body, sliding his hands over Yazoo's back, smelling his hair. For Yazoo, it wasn't easy and he pushed the man away, glaring at Reno. Kadaj increased his grip on Loz's hand when he saw the scene.

"I didn't say that you could touch me!" Yazoo hissed at Reno, ashamed.

"Sorry. I'll wait till you are…ready. I meant to pick you up so we can get your stuff."

" I won't do it today. Tomorrow is a bad day for you?" Yazoo said and glanced towards Kadaj and Loz. Loz motioned to get into the bar, but Kadaj's squeeze on his hand stopped the oldest brother's intention.

" Any time you want. Just call me and I'll pick you up. I'll go now…I just came by to drop Kadaj here. I have to work tonight…"

Yazoo nodded his head at the man and turned back to where Loz and Kadaj were waiting, his heart was trotting like a wild horse. They entered the bar while Reno vanished in the crowded streets, going back to his car.

" Shit, why did he embrace me? Does he miss me as bad as I'm missing him? He wasn't so careful with me before… Is he cheating on Kadaj with others too? Oh god…he's so beautiful… Why am I here? I should have stayed in Gongaga…"