While he guardians were looking at the castle, they couldn't help but think what was going on in their youngest member's mind. Maybe he was lonely. Maybe he felt betrayed. Maybe he thought that he will never be able to trust anyone again. But one thing was sure.
Jack was scared.
Not like when he had been scared of Pitch. When he met Pitch for first time, he had been just a little bit scared but he was still able to think clearly and fight. Even talk back to the King of nightmares and in the end he had been able to even laugh to Pitch.
No, if that had been just fear, this is something completely new feeling that Jack had never had before. As ironic as it may be, he was frozen from fear. Not just physically but mentally too.
In other people's eyes, he just laid there, unmoving, frozen and staring at the seiling. But he actually did more than that. Far more than that.
First thing was that he really felt bretrayed. Jamie knew everything about him. He had openly told to the man all what he ever asked about the winter spirit. Only some things Jack still kept only to himself, but most importantly he had told all his weaknesses to Jamie. The man knew all about how to hurt the spirit. And he had used them against him.
He knew how Jamie felt, but he still couldn't forgive him about what the man had done to him. Jamie thought he had hurt Jack only physically, but even thought the kid was more dead right now than alive, the biggest damage had happend in his mind.
For first time in 316 years Jack actually hoped that no-one would believe in him. That way nothing like this would ever happen again. But in other hand, he liked to be believed in, and he would never let himself be forgotten again. But from this day on, only kids shall believe in him.
Sad thing was that he was losing a friend. His best friend. Guess you should never really bond with mortals if youself are immortal. They all grow up and die away and you are only one who is left behind. In some level he had thought that Jamie would be there always. That was the kid part of him that thought like this. But the immortal part knew that in the end Jamie would die. But he had hoped that they would be friends whole Jamie's life.
Well, that didn't happen.
Jack was scared to face the other guardians as well. They all had a soft spot to Jamie. Was there any promices that the guardians will be on his side? What if they thought that Jamie was right and Jack was wrong? North had said that only kids should believe in them, but Jack had kept still visiting Jamie. He had secretly hoped that Jamie will always believe in him. So this is partly his fault too.
Other guardians may be furious when they found out that he had told to Jamie all his weaknesses. Jack almost heard bunny's voice in his head saying that he had done this to himself when he told to adult all about his powers. He almost saw how Tooth looked at him dissapointed look on her beautiful face and Sandy looking at him angrily. He almost felt North's rage on his skin.
There was no-one he could trust now. No-one who would be on his side on this. He was wrong in this. He should have let people believe in him and Jamie so this would have never happend. Instead he had been scared of his own safety. Now his own safety seemed so unimportant. If he had just done things in other way, none of this would have happent.
So now we have a kid, who feels like he is left alone, who lost all the people who he cares about, who doupts his own instincs and who is scared of what may happen to him in the end.
But that was what was going on in his mind only. Not to mention his body.
Well, the heat had really damaged his body from inside. In his lunghs and windpipe were wounded like he had been breathing nails instead of air. His skin had burned badly, but now all his physicall wounds were healing slowly in ice. But he still felt them even though he didn't have any way to express his pain. That may be the worst part about them.
Even when Jack felt like his insides were ripped apart and then back together, he could scream from pain. He couldn't even close his eyes or pite something, anything to take his mind away from the pain for a second.
And think about it: Jack felt the whole castle around him and the people who were still standing in his snowrain. Jack felt every single one of the snowflakes. Every single peace of ice. So every time when a snowflake landed on a human, Jack knew exactly where that person was and what was he doing.
First he wasn't that worried about his own situation. Jamie had hurt him, yes, but in no time his wounds will heal and he would get out from here. But now he was worried. Did he really want to go outside and face the other guardians and most of all Jamie? If he left his guard down, they might hurt him again.
Then he started to feel more people around him. Jack started seariously panic when he felt many people coming towards him. Throught the ice he saw how the bathroom started to glow in bright white colour. Jack felt his staff get colder behind him. It felt so comforting. The staff had been with him all these years and it still served him better than anything else.
Jack felt his own snowflakes turn sharp and hit painfully in people. He wanted it to end, but at the same time he felt safe again when people backed away from him. Jack just needed them to stay far away for a while until his body was healed and he was mentally ready to face Jamie and other guardians.
If Jack had been able to do it, he would have screamed in pain when the tanks shoot at the ice. It felt like something had hit him on stomach. Physically he wasn't really hurt. He didn't got any bruises, but it still hurt. The ice just told him where and how hard people attacked on him. The castle was part of him. The castle was his body and the winter spirit himself was the heart. The body stopped all the physical attacks but heart still felt them all. But nothing will hurt the heart as long as there was a body left.
Still Jack knew that the tanks were far too close for his safety. He had no idea how he could make the tanks back away but his staff glowed again and Jack felt how the ice chruched the tanks. Jack swallowed. He didn't feel any people in tanks so he really was lucky in this one.
Then the flamethrowers came. That made the winter spirit panic. He felt his legs burn even when the fire never got even near them. There wasn't physical burns. Just the feeling of burning. Jack wanted the pain end as quick as possible. But he didn't want hurt the people. They were not to blame about this.
But the pain was too much to him to handle. Even to a normal person it was impossible to handle the feeling of burning and to the winter spirit it was even harder. It felt like torture. And Jack wasn't able to move. You know the feeling when someone traps you on the floor and starts to tickle you and there is nothing you can do to make it stop? Well, image the very same situation, only that you are suffering from pain and you are being trapped so well that you can't move even a finger.
Jack couldn't handle it any more. He had warned the people to stop, but they still kept going. His staff desided that Jack had had enough. Its master should never suffer like this. Never.
Jack felt the ice attack to people. His heart stopped. It had felt like a reflex to ease his pain. Snowflakes turned back to soft even thought they still fell down with hight speed.
Many seconds passed when Jack tried to realice what had happend. He felt people lying there. Blood turned his white snow red. He wanted to scream. He had made the biggest mistake of his life. He may have killed someone. Now the guardians will never forgive him.
Slowly he started to get better picture of what was happening outside. People were alive. Hurt, but alive. Jack would have sighed from relieve. Of course his staff would never kill anyone without his permission. It was like a friend that never did anything against his deepest wishes. A friend that was ready to protect its master even by hurting people. Loyal friend that maight hurt someone to protect him, but never killed anyone because the quilt would have teared Jack apart.
Jack felt his body starting to be completely healed but he was still in pain. Now he was too afraight to go outside. He felt even more people outside. They knew how to hurt him. Jamie knew how to hurt him. He still wasn't strong enough to fight the guardians without the castle. If he stepped out now, he was seariously going to die in a blink of an eye. As long as he stayed in the castle, he was safe.
Then he felt suddenly pain in his head. It hurt. It seariously freaking hurt. It was like two blunt iron stiff had been hitted on his head. Without hesitation his staff hit those helicopters down as reflex. There were no people inside. They were flying autopiloted.
His staff got a bit colder. It was angry. Jack has been gone throught enough for today. It was going to keep every single living thing so far away from the castle that nothing will touch the ice again and hurt Jack more. Jack had been warning people to stay away from him but they just didn't listen. From now on, the staff will keep everyone away. Even if it meant that some more people got hurt.
