Chapter 11 – Transform and Trust

A/N:

I have to apologize. I am so sorry for being really slow with this update. I have had a lot on my plate at the moment and I also was having a bit of writer's block. Again, I am sooo sorry. I know what it feels like to wait for updates that take forever. Hope y'all have enjoyed the fic so far.

-BooksAreEverything3


When she woke up, Ahsoka knew from the Force that something had changed. The events of last night came crashing down on her. It seemed surreal to her. She had been kissed and she had no clue how to react. It was laughable. So… you've fought in battles, nearly died an amount of times only the Force knows, taken life or death situations tothe next level but don't know how to react after a boy kisses you? Ahsoka could almost hear Padmé's voice in her mind.

Thinking of Padmé was rather bittersweet.

Eventually, she decided to get up and face reality. There's no point in trying to avoid something when you're only going to have to face it anyway, Ahsoka.She sternly told herself. It took her a while to work up the nerve to actually get out of her room but, in the end, she did it.

It appeared that either Lux wasn't awake or was out of the ship. Either way, she found herself some food, made herself some caff (which she really needed to cut down on) and sat down at the holo-chess table. As Ahsoka put her cup up to her lips, she realized that the (now empty) mug of hot chocolate was still sitting on the table. For some reason, the sight of it made her smile.

Ahsoka stood up, having finished eating, and the sound of the door opening made her jump. Subconsciously, she used the Force and her plate flew out of her hand and hit the wall, sending shards of porcelain everywhere

"Whoa! What was that about?" Lux went ridged, surprised by the plate.

Ahsoka willed herself to speak, "I–Um… Sorry, you just startled me," She retrieved the remainders of the plate and put it in the mini trash compacter.

An awkward pause filled the air. Wanting a distraction, Ahsoka turned on the holo-net. What appeared was not what she expected nor wanted.

Both Lux and Ahsoka had different comments to make when a very familiar face popped up on.

"Palpatine!?" Ahsoka gasped. He didn't look like the man Ahsoka had once known him to be. He looked like he had been burnt alive and the result had left his skin shriveled like a prune.

"Shit. We are in deep shit." Lux said at the same time.

"You're kidding me, right?" Ahsoka said, doubtful. Usually when Palpatine was involved with something it was good… Right?

"Shut up. If this is a recap of what I think it is…" Lux had gone very pale. Then it dawned on Ahsoka.

It was the Declaration of a New Order. It was when the galaxy was informed about the Republic becoming an Empire.

Because the Jedi 'betrayed' the Senate.

Ahsoka had only listened to the final part of the speech after she had escaped Mandalore. Lux obviously had heard the entire thing.

When she watched, something about the gleam in Palpatine's eyes struck Ahsoka as uncanny. Even the tone of the speech was odd. It seemed almost evil in the way he was saying it.

"The Republic will be reorganized into the first Galactic Empire!" At this point, Lux turned the Holo-net off. He had stood up and was now facing a wall. One of his hands was curled up tightly into a fist. Ahsoka didn't like where this was heading.

"Great, just great! Exactly what shouldn't have happened." Lux's words were clipped and his voice was starting to raise. Ahsoka stood up, sensing that he was about to snap. "There goes democracy!" He yelled in frustration and would have slammed his fist into the wall if Ahsoka hadn't used the Force to stop him.

"Kriffing hell! Ahsoka, would you kindly let go of me?"

"No"

"Why not?" Lux struggled but Ahsoka didn't release him from the Force hold. She stepped in front of Lux and pointed her finger at him.

"Because I'm not having you take your emotions out on the ship, got it?" Their faces were so close together that Ahsoka couldn't help being captivated by Lux's eyes. They were mesmerizing, like staring into the depths of hyperspace.

Ahsoka realized that she had forgotten to release Lux from her Force hold, "I should probably let you go now," she said softly.

"Honestly, I don't mind," Lux's voice was just as soft as hers.

Even after Ahsoka released Lux from the Force hold, they were still frozen, staring at each other. Ahsoka couldn't take the tension anymore. She grabbed hold of Lux's collar and pulled him into a kiss. He placed his hands on her back, keeping the two of them together. The kiss was more intense than the last one. It was longer too.

When they broke apart, Ahsoka was the first to break the silence.

"Lux,' she mutters, "I–I think I'm falling for you."

"Same," Lux's face was flushed and Ahsoka guessed that hers face was too.

"Well this changes things…" She said quietly

"You're right. It does."


Ahsoka had left the ship for a while. She dangled her feet in the lake, feeling the cool water lapping against her feet. Her mind had been going at a thousand klicks an hour. Ahsoka wanted to do something that she was more familiar with. Something that was in her element.

Ahsoka had retrieved the Sith lightsabers from the place where they were hidden. Lux had put them back after she had passed out the other day. Smart boy.

They had a slight curve but it wasn't as prominent as Ventress' lightsabers. When Ahsoka held the lightsabers in her hands, she found that they fitted perfectly, if not better, than the ones that she owned. She looked at them. The prospect of wielding Sith lightsabers with ease daunted her. Standing up, Ahsoka cleared her mind and took her natural stance. She exhaled, bracing herself. Ahsoka switched the lightsabers on, hearing how the thrum filled the forest.

She twirled the 'sabers, trying to connect with the kyber crystal through the Force. Ahsoka went through all of the positions she knew but the 'sabers weren't cooperating with her. But that only made her more stubborn. She watched the crimson blades flying in the air. It was odd. Everything about the blades seemed right for her. The size, weight and hilt were perfect.

Only the crystal wasn't.

She turned the lightsabers off and sat back down. She laid out her yellow lightsaber and her green lightsaber and the two Sith lightsabers. Upon closer inspection she noticed that, like her own blades, one of them was a shoto blade and the other was a normal lightsaber. They were also a matching set.

Very carefully, she used the Force to dismantle the Sith lightsabers. Ahsoka meditated with the crystals but flinched because of the waves of turmoil which radiated through the Force from them.

'Feel sorry for the crystals, you do?'

'Master Yoda?' Ahsoka would recognize that voice from anywhere.

'Talking to you through the Force, I am. Feeling many emotions, you are? Strong, your presence is.' Speaking telepathically through the Force was hard enough. Speaking telepathically through the Force to Master Yoda though, that was just disorientating.

'Master–,'

'Talk to me, you shall not. Listen, you shall. Meditate, you must. With the crystals, you will connect.' Ahsoka did as instructed. The Force within herself healed the broken life of the kyber crystals.

A red glow came from the crystals and surrounded Ahsoka. She felt herself starting to levitate from the sheer concentration. She kept meditating and slowly the glow started to change from the crimson red to a blinding white.

'Finished, you are. Done, it is.' Master Yoda's voice seemed quieter and further away than it did before.

"No! Don't leave, Master!" Ahsoka cried aloud.

'Attached to young Bonteri, you are. With him, you will be. About me, you should not worry. Wise, you have become, Ahsoka.' Ahsoka felt the presence of Yoda slip away from her and collapsed back onto the ground.

The lightsabers were easy to put back together. Once again, she turned them on but when she did, the blades were not red.

They were white.

Tapping into the Force, once more she went over the various formations and positions. It was just like using her other lightsabers, they complied with her every move. Ahsoka practiced with them for a little while longer until she picked up a presence she should have sensed a while ago.

She turned around to see Lux leaning against a tree.

"How long have you been watching me, Lux?" Ahsoka slipped her new lightsabers into her belt.

"Long enough," he replied, smirking. Lux made his way towards her and Ahsoka sensed something mischievous in his presence.

"Got something to say for yourself? Go on, spit it out." Ahsoka knew exactly what his intentions were but she would not let him get the satisfaction of outsmarting her. It was hilarious. Something so not like him but at the same time it was.

He wanted to push her into the lake.

"So how'd you do that? Turn the 'sabers white?" She could tell that he was about to push her in.

"The Force, duh."

"Someone has attitude." Lux said. He made his move to push her in but Ahsoka intercepted him, Force pushing him into the lake instead.

"And someone," she said when he resurfaced, "needs to be stealthier."

Ahsoka could have cracked her ribs laughing.

"Fuck," Lux glared at Ahsoka from the water, but there was a subtle smile lining the features of his face.


"Your hair is still wet," Ahsoka pointed out. They were back in hyperspace, now heading towards Alderaan.

"Yes, well, unlike you, 'Soka, I'm human," Lux grumbled.

"And I'm glad I'm not," Ahsoka sat down next to Lux in the cock-pit. At this point in time, she didn't have the faintest idea how to act around him. Were they friends, or something more…?

Ahsoka was still new to all of this, not necessarily the emotions, but having to react when feeling them because, when she was in the Jedi Order, she was cut off from them.

Even though she didn't know where she emotionally stood with Lux, Ahsoka knew one thing for sure. She could trust him with anything.

"Lux, I don't know what our relationship status is but I do know one thing," she pulled out her old lightsabers. Lux's eyes widened, "Master Skywalker told me, Anakin told me that your lightsaber is your life," Ahsoka pressed her old lightsabers into Lux's hands, knowing that her decision was the right one, "I know I'd trust you with my life. I wouldn't give it a second thought."


A/N:

These last 2 chapters have been my favorite to write!

R&R