Chapter 12: Damn the Black Wolf

"I heard you last night man." Emmett said not wanting to waste the opportunity to rub something in my face. "More appropriately we both heard you." I hadn't even realized when they had made it home. I was distracted, matter of fact I was distracted until dawn broke, when the light hit my window shade and made me aware of what I was still doing I felt slightly disgusted with myself. Every time I went to stop a new position or scenario entered my thoughts and I closed my eyes and surrendered to it. "I never figured you as the type." Emmett egged me on hoping I would discuss my "sex" life with him.

"I'm not the type. It was a one time thing." I said bluntly never looking up from the news paper.

"Thinking of Bella all this time finally had you tied up in knots huh?" Emmet said fishing.

"Yeah," I lied.

"Really? You were thinking about Bella?" He said in disbelief.

"She is the woman I'm going to marry." I grumbled and sighed. "Of course I was thinking about her."

"I think you're full of shit! Come on bro you can tell me. Who am I going to tell?" He begged.

"Your wife," I looked at him this time and he thought about it and then nodded.

"But she won't care."

"Why do you? Don't you have something better to do?" He was annoying me shouldn't he be following Rose around like a puppy.

"Nope, Rose and Leah went out for a run. I finished reading my sports blogs and now I have all the time in the world to bother you. Oh, and I care because this is the first sign I've ever seen of the awesome Edward Cullen have a flaw and I want to relish in it." He beamed.

"It's not a flaw really, it more like expressing a human need. You have the same need so you should get off my case!"

"I will if you admit to me who and what you were thinking about." He sat down across from me. I rolled my eyes and didn't say anything. "Fine, I'll tell you what I think about when I'm need to get my rocks off and my lovely blonde is no where to be found. I think of her on her knees taking me in her mouth issuing slow longs strokes while I have my hands balled up in her hair." I tried not to imagine what he was saying, I never saw Leah on her knees, and the thought did excite me. I didn't want to think that way a whole night of masturbation was more than I ever wanted to do in my lifetime.

"If I tell you . . . you promise to never tell me any shit like that again?" He nodded anxiously awaiting my next statement. "Fine I thought of Leah. The whole night I thought of her." He frowned he must not have been happy with my response.

"Like what did you think about?" He wanted details? God, I didn't realize Emmett was that perverse.

"The most frequent fantasy was of me . . . ummm . . . behind her." I didn't normally talk like this it was difficult to find proper terminology for something so vulgar.

"Doggie style makes sense." He laughed. "I always figured you as a missionary man."

"I thought about that too. It's just that Leah has a very nice . . . she has . . .," I couldn't find the words.

"A nice ass, yeah you're right. She's also stacked in the front . . . she's just nice to look at in general." He said bluntly.

"You're attracted to Leah?" The thought almost made me want to kill him at the very least hurt him. I could easily imagine poking his eyes out. Not that I had any right to, he was just as justified to look at her as I was.

"No, I think anybody could look at her and tell that she's sexy. Don't worry Eddie I don't want to fuck her." He sighed. "I do however want to fuck my Rose, and your kinky little bitch has her all to herself." He laughed.

"Leah isn't kinky . . . and she isn't mine!"

"How do you know she isn't kinky? Do you two talk about sex?" He asked and I shook my head.

"Well, sometimes things slip out," I stopped myself why was I spending so much time on this conversation. I shouldn't even be thinking about Leah in this way let alone feeding into a conversation about it. "Look, I don't want to talk about Leah anymore okay."

"Not even about how badly she wants you?"

"No, that's the last thing I need to hear about." I knew that Leah was attracted to me. I tried to respect her and not read her thoughts about me. "This conversation is pointless. I will never be with her. Last night was just one of those weird fluke like things that will never happen again." Emmett just stared at me. "WHAT?"

"I hate to break it to you Edward, but you're wrong. Pleasing yourself isn't one of those things that you can only do once now that you see it as an option it will probably be your new favorite hobby." He laughed and then his face went somber. "I smell dog."

Within seconds there was a knock at the door and Sam and Emily were on our doorstep. "It's not wise for you to be here." I fumed.

"Sue had something she thought may help Leah. We volunteered to bring it over." He handed me the box full of video tapes and pictures.

"Some of the videos are mine. Actually, most of them are, when we were together I was really into video tapping her." He a small smile painted his face. "Sometimes she didn't even realize I was doing it."

"That sounds like the confession of a psycho man." I murmured.

"So you don't think that we could see her?" Emily asked.

"No, we still think that the trauma of something major in her life is blocking the return of her full memory. Your involvement with each other could very well be the reason she is this way." They both looked guilty as they should.

"The reason she is this way is because we were fighting a war of newborn vampires for your Bella." Sam countered.

"Whatever the reason it's not wise for her to see you. Carlisle and I will look over these things and see if any of them would be helpful." I said hoping that they would get the picture and leave.

"It's too late man," Emmett told what I already knew. I could hear the two coming back home. This would be the first time Leah had seen Sam or Emily since the accident. Hopefully it wouldn't cause her any damage.

"Leah is coming, try to say as little as humanly possible. Understand?" He nodded and then the door swung open it had started raining both girls were soaked and laughing. Rose saw them first and looked she had swallowed something foul. Leah looked at her and then the guest and the home.

"What's wrong?" When Rose wouldn't answer she looked at me.

"You're cousin brought some things over from your mom's house to help you remember." I said careful not to use any names.

"Cousin?" She looked at Sam and frowned trying to remember.

"Oh not me, I'm most definitely not related to you." I rolled my eyes I thought I told the mutt not to speak.

"I'm sorry I don't remember either of you." She looked at both of them apologetically.

"It's okay," Emily smiled, "I'm Emily your cousin." She extended her hand for her to shake it and Leah smiled even though she thought shaking her hand was a bit weird, "and this is my Sam." Emily spoke without thinking. The mention of Sam's name sent Leah brain into overdrive with memories of him; the last time this happened she remembered nothing. I didn't know it this time I would be so lucky.

"You," she murmured and a tear rolled down her cheek and horror struck her eyes, "you're the black wolf! In my dreams you're the one trying to kill me!"

"Leah," Rose intervened, "you're sounding a little crazy."

"NO! I know what I'm talking about I never could remember it before but right before the wolf . . . you." She pointed at Sam. "You try to kill me I would plead with you not to but you do it anyway, I scream your name and you leave me fore dead. Thankfully I wake up before it actually before I actually die. You are the wolf. You are bad news!" She frowned at him. I couldn't tell if she remembered anymore than that but I was fucking elated that she wanted nothing to do with him. She went upstairs and I tried to hide my contentment as I showed Sam out.


I went to check on Leah I found her sitting on her bed in a robe frowning. "You okay?" I smirked.

"Yeah," she was trying to force herself to remember Sam and why she hated him.

"Don't push yourself Leah the memories are there," I touched her head, "they'll come back on their own time." I said rubbing her arms. Her hair was still wet matter of fact all of her was.

"Didn't you want to dry off?"

"I showered and decided to air dry." She was still frowning she was distracted so I took the moment to look over her body. I sincerely believed nothing was under the robe. Two little strings and a small amount of fabric was all that was keeping me from seeing her completely naked. I went to look her in the eye she was already staring at me.

"I was just . . .," I stumbled over myself trying come up with an explanation. There really wasn't one I was checking her out because she was hot.

"I'll go put on some clothes," she murmured, and I held her in place.

"You don't have to on my account. I wasn't planning on staying long I was making sure you were okay." I got off of her bed and realized that even when I was just trying to be friendly with Leah my body was going to respond in a sexual nature. I put my hands in my pockets hoping to camouflage my situation a little.

"If I say I'm not will you stay longer?" She patted the bed for me to sit back down.

"Maybe," I smirked.

"Well then I'm not. My head does hurt a little." She rubbed the spot where the wound used to be. Maybe her skull and her brain didn't heal right maybe it is something we are missing?

"Right there?" I whispered I touched the spot that she was rubbing.

"Yeah, right there." I kissed her forehead and she laughed.

"Keep your mouth to yourself Eddie, I don't want your germs." She said laying her head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her wanting her closer. She closed her eyes and began to dream. This time I hoped she dreamed of me and not that damned black wolf.


Author's Note: Next chapter is going to be fun! Can't wait for it, hopefully it will be coming out by the weekend. Hope you liked this one! As always please read and review (no flames).