Never Let Me Fall
Ana
The day came for my date... I mean 'hangout' with Stefan. I wore a blue sweater black jeans and brown shoes with a red sparkling hat.
I always had a very INTERESTING sense of style!
I checked my mirror in my bathroom. I looked good, not great, but good! I had black hair that sometimes look completely dark brown sometimes depending on the lighting. I had pure blue eyes and pink rosy lips. I had rosy but not too rosy cheeks. I had light skin and I was about 5'6, the same height as Elena, but maybe and inch shorter than her. I'm what you might say, is descendant from Italian genes, Russian genes, American genes, and maybe Canadian genes. I didn't put much makeup on, expect maybe a little eyeshadow and clear lipstick. I usually wear natural makeup. I took one last glimpse at myself before leaving to the boarding house.
I was at the boarding house. I was a little nervous, god knows why? "Hey Ana." Stefan greeted me while opening the door open to me. "Hey Stef!" I said, while walking past him. "Stef?" He asked. "Oh I thought I'd give you a cute nickname." I answered. "I think I like your old nickname you use to call me better." He admitted. What nickname? I never gave him a nickname before! "Oh yeah? Which one?" I asked. "Stefan." He said with a sheepish smile. "Fine then I'll call you Stefan, Stefan!" I said rolling my eyes. He smiled and took me to the kitchen.
Oh I almost forgot, it was 7 in the morning so... yeah.
"So... why are we here again?" I asked. "Well, I saw how good you were at cooking at Elena's house, so I thought we could have a contest to see who is the best cook in Mystic Falls!" He answered, in a competitive voice. "Oh you're on, but I should warn you I make a mean meatloaf!"I said, in my bragging and competitive voice also.
I made Meatloaf while Stefan cooked Pasta. We tasted both meals. It was practically a tie. When we were done we both decided to cook together and make a cake. Chocolate to be specific.
We both were helping each other stir the batter. Stefan was behind me helping be stir the batter. "So, who taught you how to cook?" He asked. I froze a little when he asked that. I thought it over and tears started filling my eyes. They didn't fall, but the were there. I could tell without looking at his face, that he kinda regretted asking. "My uh mom taught me how to cook when I was 7, since I was curious around that time." I answered smoothly. "I remember when I first baked a cake, ha that was a messy day! Talk about flour everywhere! I was surprise my mom wasn't so pissed!" Stefan started squinting his eyes to try to imagine me covered in flour. He soon let go of me. I was actually disappointed, I loved the way he held me close. I turned around and saw Stefan holding a bag of flour.
I frowned. "What are you doing with that?" I asked, while backing away from him slowly. "Well Ana I can't really picture you covered in flour so..."He trailed, off when he saw me take something out of my pocket. "Vervain..." He said, under his breath. "You wouldn't!" He continued, louder this time, so I could hear. "If you put the bag down... I'll put this case down."I negotiated. The vervain was in a small glass tube, that scientist might use for chemistry class. Stefan slowly, placed the flour down on the counter. I did the same. When we both had them down, we raised our hands up in surrender. Suddenly Stefan used his speed to pick the bag up and throw it at me. I don't know how, but before it hit me, I picked up my vervain tube and threw it. It broke and slashed on Stefans left arm, which quickly healed.
And that's when we started a food fight!
Eggs on the wall...and my hair! I was covered in flour and so was Stefan, but he was covered in mostly left over cake batter. The kitchen was a mess. It looked like a food made atomic bomb came through here! "Damon's going to kill me! First he'll stake me, injury you and then kill us both for real!" Stefan said, shaking his head at how everything got out of hand. "What do you mean by that?" I wondered. Stefan looked at me and said "Nobody knows this, but Damon is sort of what you might call...a clean freak." He said shaking his head slightly at that thought. Wow, Damon...really?
"I'm going to take a bath, do you mind if I use your shower?" I asked, changing the subject. "Yeah, I don't mind...Miss Egghead!" He said, nearly chuckling at the end. I held my jaw open slightly at this. "Oh shut up! And who's fault was it?" I asked. Stefan stayed quiet, as if he didn't know the answer. "To whom that may concern, it was none other then Cake Man!" I told, I stole the beginning part from Elijah. LOL, you gotta love that original! "Don't blame me. I didn't put egg yolk on your head!" He lied, showing an innocent smile. "You did!" I reminded him. He said 'Oh' under his breath, as if realization was kicking in now. "Ah man, it's going to take weeks to get this yolk out of my hair!" I whined slightly. "Ah don't worry, Ana even with yolk and flour on you still look great!" He said.
He sped up to me and took my hands into his and started waltzing a bit. He dipped me down and stared at me with a smile. We were only inches apart. I so badly wanted to kiss him right there right now! I started moving my head forward REALLY, slow like, so slow you can barely see it move at all. To me it seemed as if he was going to do the same. We were almost about to kiss until a thought came into my head.
Elena.
"You're a great waltz dancer!" I interrupted. "Thanks." He replied. "I guess I'll let you take your shower now, you're starting to spoil already." He continued, while helping me standup and letting go of me. I started to leave the dirty kitchen and went to Stefan's shower.
As I was in the shower I was deep in my thoughts.
Why didn't you kiss him? He was right there, you had the opportunity and you failed!... hey don't blame me if it wasn't for the fact that Elena was dating him I would have kissed him...no it's all on me I'm the one who didn't do it, and besides he loves Elena, he has no feeling for me what so ever like that and besides Elena's my friend I would never do that.
Stefan
I started cleaning the walls and floors. I started thinking about what happened earlier. I couldn't believe I almost kissed her! Well actually, I do believe it since there's a chance I might be in love with her, but I'm with Elena and.. Ana is her friend, I can't go through with it and it won't! But I can't stand the urge of knowing if she feels the same way too. I can't ask her now... that would and WILL be awkward. In fact, for the sake of our friendship.. I won't ask her at all! It's going to be hard, but I NEED to get over her. Or else my feelings for her will grow to get worse!
Ana
I got out of the shower and grabbed the closest towel to me. I stepped out only to realize I made a dumb and stupid mistake. My clothes are dirty, meaning I don't have any backup clothes, also meaning I'm stuck in my best friend's boyfriend's bathroom NAKED and WET! I looked out my door and started walking out slowly. I shouted out slightly "Stefan." Waiting for a reply he answered "Yeah?" I swallowed. I didn't know how to say, but I had to... even if it's the most embarrassing thing I've ever said! "My clothes are all stained with the flour and egg yolk, so they need to get washed." I started. "Okay, we have a laundry room downstairs." He replied.
I see it hasn't sinked in yet.
"Do you have any clothes that might fit me, so I could wear in the mean time?" I asked, trying to resist a face plum. "Um... yeah, in my room, in my dresser, in the way lower drawer is where Elena's clothes are... she uh keeps them there, so when she comes over she can get a quick change. I think she wouldn't mind you borrowing it and I think it should fit you... you're both about the same size." He said. I quickly ran to his room and shouted out "Thanks!"
Stefan's room
It was large and full of books. I checked his drawer like he said and I found it. I put on Elena's blue top with purple designs and brown shorts. I borrowed her brown almost yellowish and beige sandals. I wasn't too big or small, I was about a size 6 or so around the same size as Elena. I looked around Stefan's room. I've never been in here before so I looked at every detail in the room. He had his own desk, about probably millions of books (really half of them are his journals!) He had a nice bed too. Of course I wanted to try it out. I bounced back onto the bed.
I looked up on the ceiling and closed my eyes for a brief moment. When I opened them I was slightly startled, but not quite, when I saw Stefan standing next to me looking down at me with his curious, playful, grass, green eyes. "Why, are you on my bed?" He asked, mostly to himself. "Does it matter?" I said with twinkling eyes. "Yes... yes it does!" He said, with a smile. I smiled back. My eyes were on him until I turned and looked at the cloak. 12:42. Wow, I didn't know we wasted THAT much time! I sprung up quickly, nearly making Stefan flinch. "Sorry Stefan, but I got to go. I had fun... I'll see ya later, okay? Okay bye!" I said in a rush before running out.
Minutes later
"Where the hell have you been!" Melissa shouted. Today was her weekend off. "Sorry, its just I was hanging out with Stefan around 7 and we had so much fun that... we lost track of time." I said, with a HUGE grin on my face! "You're 16! and you already lost it!?" She shouted in horror. I soon realized what she meant by that. "No Melissa, it's not like that Stefan and I are just friends. He's with Elena. I still have it!" I said trying to convince myself more than her. "Oh sorry, you almost had me worried there for a minute. Oh and please don't leave the house that early again without telling me okay?"She said. "Okay." I agreed.
Oh and just to be clear, I meant being a virgin
I went to the boarding house again about a few hours later. I had gotten a call from Elena, who needed my help there. "Hey Elena, hey...Rose." I said, when I found her in Damon's room. I was about to say something, until I noticed that Rose looked horrible. She was bleeding on her shoulder, and she looked like she was weak and full of death, than usually. "Rose... what happened to you!" I asked, worried, which is weird. "She was bitten by a werewolf last night and shes been like this all day." Elena answered. I was shocked and a little ashamed, I was here practically all day and I didn't even notice her. "I'm so sorry, Rose." I said. "I don't want your pity." She said in a sickly yet cold hearted way. "And I don't need your honesty" I quipped, in the same cold way she said it in. "Be nice" Elena mouthed, I just rolled my eyes at her.
As Elena went to go get silk sheets, I stayed behind in Damon's room looking around. I've never been in either Stefan's or Damon's room, when I usually come over I stay downstairs. "Why are you still here?" Rose asked. "I'm here because I want to be here, Rose." I answered. I started looking in his dresser. Sheesh, how many black shirts does one guy need?! I saw Elena come in if sheets and say "Okay I got the...Ana where's Rose!" She said nearly terrified. I turned around and saw that she was right and that Rose wasn't here. How could I not notice that!? Soon Rose appeared out of nowhere and threw Elena against the wall and shouted "It's all you're fault, Katerina! You Katerina, you did this!" "It's Elena. Rose, Rose! I'm Elena!" Elena said. "You betrayed us!" Rose spat out. I ran over next to Elena and shouted at Rose "Rose chill! She's not Katherine!" "I'm not Katherine!" Elena pleaded. Rose wasn't looking at Elena anymore, she looked at me.
"Amelia, why are you here? If they find you you'll be dead!" She said. I looked at her in confusion. "I'm Ana, Rose I'm Anastasia." I said calmly. Rose looked at me, then Elena, then back at me. She soon released Elena. "Elena...Ana?" She said looking at both at us. "Its me, its Elena." Elena said, calming Rose down. "Oh my god, Elena..." Rose started. I tuned them out for a minute, thinking over what Rose had said.
Why did she call me Amelia? I soon remembered that phone call Vanessa, from Duke University, had given me. 'I don't know why, but you look just like the two Amelia's. Which is impossible because Gracy died at age 17, meaning the bloodline ends there.' How does Rose know Amelia? Did she meet her one time? Which one did she meet? Why do I look like her? Rose attacked Elena, because she thought she was Katherine, however I somehow look like Amelia and when she thought I was Amelia she didn't attack me, it was as if she trusted me, why? And what did she mean by 'if they find me/(Amelia) I'll be dead'?
I saw that Rose was back in bed. I needed my answers, even though she's dying right now, I need at least a few information. And judging by her condition, I need to work fast!
Elena went downstairs for a snack, since apparently she skipped breakfast. "Rose... tell me do you know, Amelia?" I asked, going straight to the point. "Yes." She replied, sleepily. "Have you ever met her?"I asked again. "Yes...we were friends in the 60's." She answered. Friends? "How did you two become friends?" I asked. "It was 1963, I was walking through the night lurking for food, I hadn't eaten in weeks. I saw this man who was a vampire hunter, he was stronger than he looked. Then a vampire came over and scared him off, somehow. I was grateful and asked her, her name. She was stubborn and didn't tell me her name, but other people call her Amelia..." She said. "Did you ever found out what her real or full name was?" I asked "No." She answered. "So tell me more about her?" I wondered.
Rose continued, "I was older than her, yet she was stronger and the most feared in the supernatural world, but she wasn't as feared as the originals. She was young, pretty, full of life, and she wasn't a backstabber like Katherine. She looked just like you, only she was Bulgarian and her eyes were slightly darker then yours. She was about your age...wait how old are you?" "I'm 16." I answered. "Oh then never mind, she was about 17 or 18. All I know is she's a year younger than Katherine." She told. "So... do you know, why she looks like me?" I asked. She drifted off slowly. "Rose?...Rose!" I said, trying to brake her from her trance.
"Amelia, why are you still here? You need to leave now before they return!" She, shouted slightly. "Who's returning?" I asked, pretending to be Amelia. "The hunters, they're coming! They want you dead, don't you see? You killed one of them, now they're going seeking revenge!" She continued. "I'm not leaving, until I face them. I'm not scared of them." I pretended. "Amelia, how can you be so stupid! You've been doing nothing, but protecting yourself and your sister and here you are risking your life to fight off the hunters. You need to leave now or you'll regret it!" She stated. Amelia had a sister?...interesting. "What's my sisters name" I asked. "Don't try to change the subject!" She yelled "I'm not, I just want to know my sister!" I yelled back. "Well, ask yourself. You never told me about her, except that she made you the way you are!" She shouted. "Why do you want me to leave for and why do you care?" I asked. "Have you not heard a single word I had said! They are going to kill you, if you don't leave now! And also why would you say that we're friends. You saved my life and I want to save yours. I love you Amelia, you're like a sister to me and sisters don't let each other die!" Rose shouted, but it soften in the end.
"I'm sorry, Rose." I started. For a moment in my entire life, I actually started to like Rose. I almost felt sad that she was going to die. I saw Elena walk into the room with a new set of sheets. "I brought new and clean sheets." She said, as she entered. I looked at her and then I looked down at the spot where Rose was resting on. She was...um...gone. "Where is she?" She asked. "I don't know...she was here a minute ago..." I trailed off. "Well, don't just sit there come and help me look." Elena said, before storming off out the door. I got up, from the bedside I was sitting on, and followed Elena, out the door.
We looked all over the place until, Elena picked up her phone and started to call Damon. "It's Elena, I'm worried about Rose. I think you should come home." I heard Elena say into the phone. We both heard a noise down in the basement. I was the first to move toward the staircase. "Rose?" Elena and I called out. We soon saw Rose on the floor drinking blood out of a bag that was from Stefan and Damon's cellar. She was surrounded by blood bags and blood. "Oh my god." Elena started.
Rose turned to look at us. "Amelia...Katerina." She said. She was full of hatered and anger, when she saw Elena. "No." Elena and I both said. The minute Rose stood up we ran the hell out of there. I ran faster than Elena though. "Rose! stop, please it's Elena, she's not Katherine!" I shouted at Rose. She stopped and looked at me and Elena. "You're hallucinating. I'm not Katherine. I'm not Katherine." Elena said. Rose grabbed Elena and pushed her down on the floor. I ran over to a window and opened the curtain. The sunlight went through the window and burned Rose. Elena and I tried to run out the door, but Rose stopped us and shows her teeth at us. I wasn't scared, but Elena was freaked as if she has NEVER seen them before! We quickly ran upstairs and closed the door.
I heard Rose talk through the door, she said "Elena?... Ana? I know it's you. I know you're not Amelia and Katherine. Please open up, I need your help." I felt pity for her as if I wanted to help her, but I knew better, the minute I walk out that door I'm gonna lose my head! "Are you okay?" Elena asked me. I looked at her. After all we've been through, she's seriously asking me this. "Yes." I answered. After that the 'silent game' started.
It was night time. "It's quiet." I said. "Yeah, lets check it out...and don't worry I have a stake." She said, adding the last part quickly, when she saw my scared reaction. When walked out slowly, then we saw Damon. "Are you okay? Where's Rose?" He asked. "I don't know." Elena and I both said.
I stayed at the boarding house, as Damon and Elena went to go find Rose. I kept texting Elena, if she found her, but I got no reply. Soon they came home with Rose. She looked even worse than last time. I tuned them out and followed them upstairs. I saw how sorry Rose looked liked. I watched them talk, I couldn't hear them at all. I never understood why or how I'm able to do that, but I didn't really question why.
As Elena started to leave I followed. I accidentally tuned them on and heard Rose scream, "Oh my god! make it stop! Make it stop! I can't take it anymore, make it stop!" I flinched at that. My heart ached for Rose, just like it did for Caroline, when she first killed a guy at the carnival.
I stood close by the door, breathing slowly and quietly keeping my heart rate low, so Damon won't here me eavesdropping. The door was closed, but had a slight crack opened. "Who would have thought you'd be a nice guy?" Rose wondered. "I'm not nice. I'm mean. I like it." Damon said. I rolled my eyes slightly at that. "You're lying." Rose said. Ain't that the truth! "Shh, just sleep, just sleep." Damon said calmly. I felt a sudden urge to see what Rose might dream about. I closed my eyes and only thought about Rose. I opened them and saw I wasn't in the boarding house. I was in a field full of horses. I walked slowly and saw Damon and Rose just on the other side. I could see from Rose's face that she was happy and healthy. She almost seemed... human. She was wearing a long old time dress with log hair from medieval times.
"This was my favorite place to come as a girl. How did you know?" Rose asked Damon. He replied "Word goes around. You told Elena." "Am I dreaming?" Rose asked, "The sun is warm, I miss this, I miss being human." "Humanity is not all it's cracked up to be." Damon said to her. Now I feel like punching Damon in the gut! "I had friends, I had a family, I mattered." Rose said. "You still do?" Damon wondered. "No but you do. You built a life weather you want to admit it or not. I spent 500 years existing." She continued. "You didn't have a choice, you were running from Klaus." Damon pointed out. "There's always a better choice." She pointed out too. "You know, you're ruining a perfect day with your philosophical babbling." Damon said. He was actually right. I tuned them out for a minute. I soon realized what was so different about Damon now. He was nicer and kinder...ish. I somehow could sense him crying on the inside. I was hurt to be able to sense that. He must have really loved Rose. I could tell that Rose was about to die soon. I forced myself to tune them on and I heard "I'll race you to the trees." Rose said standing up now. "Well, you'll lose." He said. "I'm older and faster." Rose said smiling. I enjoyed her smile. "Oh you think?" Damon said, while getting up too. "Well, I'm controlling this dream. Maybe I'll cheat." I rolled my eyes at this. Typical Damon! "On the count of three. One...two..." Rose counted.
All of a sudden I wasn't in the dream anymore. I was back to the boarding house. I concentrated hard to get back to the dream, until I realized that Damon had staked her. My heart broke. Even though I was only friends with Rose while she was ill I was really attached to her. You know, when you get attached to someone and they leave you, it kinda breaks your heart to see them leave. I watched for a moment how Damon held Rose's dead body in his arms, I soon backed away slowly. 'I'm going to miss you Rose' was the last thing on my mind before I went to my car and drove off home.
I went to bed after taking a LONG shower. I ended up telling Melissa, that I was hanging out with Elena and the rest. As I went to bed, I thought about, Mom, Dad, Vicki, The guy from the carnival, Amiee Bradly: killed by Katherine at the ball, Sarah: killed by Tyler, also at the ball, Trevor and Rose. All these people/ supernatural people had one thing in common: They were dead, literally! Everyone I knew, Everyone I cared about, Everyone I loved was dead. Everyday a person I know pretty much dies. I'm done with this I'm no longer going to be that sad girl from Denver, who lost her parents, I'm no longer going to be that sad and confused girl in Mystic Falls who didn't know how to process this 'vampire drama', and I'm no longer going to be, weak, pathetic, baffled, and silent, like nothing happened when it did. I'm going to fight my own battles, stay strong and protect my friends and family. I don't want to lose anyone just like I lost my parents or Rose. I want to keep everyone I care about safe and by doing that, I need to see Bonnie FIRST thing in the morning! I went to sleep with that thought running through my head. Tonight I sleep as a weak girl, who doesn't know what she's doing, but tomorrow I wake up a strong, confident girl, who's ready to kick ass!
(Wow! Stefan and Ana almost kissed! Eek! I feel so giddy inside right now! Also I feel sad for Rose. She and Ana were actually getting along. The funny thing is I never planned for Rose and Ana to become friends, or at least have a connection with each other in a good way. She did after all kidnap Elena and kept Ana as a hostage! But then again, everyone seems to forget all the bad things vampires do on this show...so...yeah. LOL I'm still laughing at that 'out of the shower' scene! It's a good thing Stefan didn't see her and was busy in the kitchen or else he might not have been able to restrain himself, if you know what I mean! Well, see you next chapter!)
