Disclaimer:Do I really have to say it? Twilight is not mine.

So, kind of a big chapter here, you all have been waiting to find out what the hell happened to Bella in Phoenix. More about that after you read…

Chapter 12 BPOV

Time Flies When You're Having Fun

A month has passed since Edward and I have been together. Things had been good. He started coming to the library when I got off work so we could do our homework and study. That was mainly because when we were at my house or his study sessions would turn into make out sessions and we never got any work done. At least at the library, we studied. If my grades dropped because of Edward my parents would freak.

I went with Rose to the cheer competition and Forks came in 120th place, which was pretty good, considering that last year they ranked 670th out of 1000. I was so proud of Rose.

No one knew I went with Rose. I lied to Edward. I felt bad about it but was not ready for him to know everything. I told him I was visiting my Aunt for the weekend. My Mom went with us as a chaperone, since Rose's Mom was not able to make it.

"Rose, you did so well, I'm so proud of you. I bet next year you can be number one, if you keep practicing." I hugged her.

"I don't know, Phoenix is pretty good. That's your old school, right? I bet you're proud of them. Do you know Vicky?" she questioned. Yeah, I knew her all too well.

"Yeah," I said sarcastically; sensing the tone in my voice, she questioned me.

"I take it you didn't like her." Rose tilted her head to one side.

"Rose, you have no idea. Don't trust her and don't make friends with her." I looked around. "Was she here? I didn't even see her, thank God!"

"Tell me, Bella. I know you told me some, but I would like to hear the whole story. What happened to you in Phoenix?" She was begging me with her eyes to trust her - to let her know my secret. Was I ready to tell her?

"Okay Rose, take a seat." I sat down next to her.

I was the Cheer Captain and, as a sophomore, the youngest captain the school ever had. They usually reserved the captain's position for juniors and seniors.

Things were great and my team was the best. I worked them hard but always looked after them. I never belittled them or made them feel bad.

In all honesty the Cheer Squad and the football team ruled the school. The teachers looked the other way when we did something wrong or showed late for class. We all hung out together. Partying was a major role in our circle.

Every Saturday night we would go out or someone had a party and when we won games it was an even bigger reason to celebrate. A lot of alcohol was involved - probably even drugs - but I never did either…at first.

Vicky started at our school when she was a junior. She was captain at her old school and hated me from the moment she saw me. I didn't know it at the time because she was all about being sneaky and getting into the circle. She didn't have a problem with using people to get what she wanted.

She had a lot of knowledge and soon became kind of like my second. I was unaware that she had tried to convince the school that I shouldn't be captain. I'm sure they would have listened if we just hadn't won championship. Since she couldn't get that she decided to become my friend and ruin my life. She fooled everyone - including me.

I was shy even then and being captain was a big step for me. I never had a boyfriend even though I liked a few guys. I confided in her that I liked Felix and that I was too shy to flirt.

She started pushing me to drink and I started having a beer here or there or whatever they were serving at the party. She always stayed sober, always. I never questioned why at the time but I know now. When I started getting drunk she would take me home and explain to my parents that I was drunk, which looked like she was a good friend by driving me home.

Drinking took away my shyness. I flirted a lot and even did things with Felix or Riley - sometimes both in the same night. I was not tied down to either; they didn't want a girlfriend but they wanted to mess around. It's not something I'm proud of.

My grades started to slip - I was a straight A student before - my parents were starting to worry about me. The drinking became every weekend. Vicky would pour it down my throat practically.

I was trying to be good and I had Jake go with me to the party because I needed a friend. Once I was in a room with Felix, things were getting hot and heavy. After giving him oral, he was pushing to do more, but I couldn't - didn't want to. I had to fight him off. Jake heard me yelling and came to help me.

I swore after that I wouldn't get drunk any more. I was tired of it and I felt my life was falling apart. I fought with my parents more and more and was always angry with them.

All of this continued until the middle of last year. I was trying to hold it together but was miserable at it. Soon the squad was not even listening to me anymore and only listened to Vicky.

It was winter break and there was a party. I didn't want to go but Vicky insisted on it. She asked my parents if it was ok and said that no alcohol was going to be there. They said 'yes' and even though I knew something was up, I went anyway.

I was having fun and I didn't have anything to drink. I started talking to Riley again and he seemed like a nice enough guy. We spent the night talking and dancing, then he said he was leaving early and went home.

Vicky gave me some punch and sat with me on the couch. She drugged me. I don't remember a lot of what happened after that. I felt really high and sick. I could barely walk or even think. I asked her to take me home. I remember her telling me to lie down upstairs until she was ready to go. I think she helped me get up there, but I can't say for sure.

I could hear people but it was like I was out of my body. I couldn't function and I just wanted to sleep it off. Nothing was making sense to me.

I woke up the next morning with a major headache in the same room and naked. It was already 7:30 a.m. and I had no idea what had happened. I found my clothes and called my Mom to come pick me up. My parents lost all trust in me.

I tried to tell my Mom that Vicky had to have drugged me because I didn't drink anything but the punch and I felt hung over. I said I was sorry but it just was not enough.

I tried to call Vicky but she avoided my calls. It wasn't until Monday when I got to school that I knew what the damage was. I heard people whispering and talking about me. I was popular they liked to talk.

I went to my locker and found 'whore' written on the outside, I ignored it, but when I found a note on my desk in English class I was upset. I didn't know why they were calling me a whore.

I left school early because I was not feeling so well, the drug was still in my system. I got to my car and it said 'whore' all over it and there was a note on the windshield.

I was floored by what I saw. It was a picture of me, naked in the bed I slept in that night. I was in the bed with two guys. I knew one of them was Felix but I didn't know the other one. You couldn't see their faces but you most definitely could see mine. It was not only my face that you could see - it was my entire naked body.

I ran home and showed it to my Mom. I told her that I would not do anything like that and that it was planned; they wanted to ruin me.

I received a call from Jake to check Facebook. I was afraid of what I might see but I checked it any way. There were more pictures of me. It seemed that the entire student body forwarded my pictures to everyone they knew.

Some were sent to parents of my cheer squad that said: Would you want this to be your daughter? Some of the pictures were of me when I was awake just unaware of the fact that pictures were taken of me. I was dancing in some, with a beer in my hand or making out with Felix or Riley.

Parents were mad and it didn't help that my Dad was a police officer - it made it worse. The principal called me into the office and told me that they were doing an investigation and would let me know if I could be back on the cheer team. It never happened, they handed it to Vicky. She got what she wanted.

It didn't end though. My parents helped me and believed me once they saw the picture and my Dad tried to do something about it but there really is nothing he could do.

They came to my house and toilet papered it one night. Another time they wrote whore on the windows. We could not escape it. I was harassed at schools and even the teachers were mean to me.

I tried for two months to get my grades back up but the highest any of the teachers would give me was a 'B' or a 'C', saying that I needed to improve on my effort.

My parents were done and I couldn't handle it any more. The stress was getting to me and I started having panic attacks just thinking about going to school.

That is when my parents decided that we were going to move. In less than a month they sold our house and we moved here.

I had tears in my eyes and they started rolling down my cheeks. It was the first time I had ever told the story out loud. Rose was crying too and she was holding my hand trying to comfort me.

"I promised myself I would never get caught up in that again, Rose. That is why I fought so hard to keep my distance. Then when Lauren and Jessica were talking in the locker room it brought back all those emotions and I lost it," I told her.

"Oh, Bella, I am so sorry. That bitch should pay. I can't even imagine what it was like for you," Rose sniffled, "you should really tell Edward, Bella, he would understand."

I knew he would understand, but I just wasn't ready to tell him.

We fell asleep soon after and we had to get up bright and early to head home. I missed my little Cupcake.

I still had not told Edward about what happened to me in Phoenix. Edward parents were having a party for his birthday. I offered to bake a cake and Esme gave me the day off so we could celebrate.

I had no idea what to get him. What do you give someone who had everything? I finally got Edward a gift card to the music store we visited in Port Angeles. He said I didn't have to give him anything; that I was a good enough present.

God, I loved him.

"So what are your plans this summer Bella?" Carlisle asked when we sat down for dinner.

"I'm not sure. I think I am going to go to Phoenix for a week to see my friend," I told him and winced after I said it because I hadn't even told Edward of my plans yet.

"When are you going?" Edward asked.

"I'm not sure - probably in August I guess," I shrugged. I really did not think that far ahead.

"Well you should come and visit us in California when Alice comes out," Esme said catching me off guard.

"California?" I questioned looking at Edward.

He did the same thing I did when I mentioned Phoenix. I guess he forgot to mention that he was going to California.

"Didn't Edward tell you? We go to California for the summer. We leave the day after school ends and return a week before it starts. This is the final summer probably. Edward will be graduating next year," Esme continued.

I was angry. Why hadn't he told me? Sure, I hadn't told him, but I was going to be gone a week in August; he was leaving in 3 weeks and not coming back until the first of September.

"Don't be mad, Baby," he whispered in my ear.

My traitor tears were not going to get me. I took a few breaths.

"Well, it would have been nice to know my boyfriend was not going to be around for the summer," I spat at him. We could not have this conversation here.

"Can we not do this now?" he asked and I nodded.

"But don't think you are off the hook," I told him.

I ignored him for the rest of the night. He opened his presents and we sang 'Happy Birthday'. He tried to kiss me and hold me but I wouldn't let him. He finally gave up and left me alone.

"Looks like someone is in the dog house," Alice teased as she came up to me and sat beside me.

"Yeah well, he should have told me," I told her.

"Yes, he should have, but are you really going to make that boy miserable on his birthday?" she asked me.

I looked over at my Cupcake and he was sitting on the patio by himself eating another piece of cake and drinking a glass of milk. He was such a baby. With a heavy sigh I walked over and sat down next to him. He didn't look at me – so, he wanted to play games.

"Did you know that there is a rule that if it is your birthday that you are not allowed to eat cake alone - it's bad luck or something," I blurted out. I was just making shit up.

"You'd better stay away from me - you wouldn't want to be a part of the bad luck," he said.

"Oh…but I heard if someone that loves you sits next to you, the spell is broken," I said, looking up at him through my lashes.

"I don't think you are sitting close enough though," he said, flashing me that sexy smile of his. I stood up, went and sat on his lap.

"I should have told you…sorry." He kissed my forehead.

"I'm sorry too, I don't want to fight." I held on to him.

He pulled my head up to meet his, I wrapped my arms around him, kissing him with everything that I have.

Kissing Edward made me dizzy and dazed - I could only think about those lips.

I was not thinking and whispered into his kiss, "I love you." He froze.

I realized after - that was the first time I ever told him I loved him.

"What?" he asked, looking at me.

Could a hole please open up and take me in?

"I..umm..I," I stuttered.

"I love you too, Bella, with all my heart," he said, pulling me into him and kissing me again. This time he kissed me hard, demanding, pushing my mouth open with his tongue. I moaned a little; forgetting where we were.

"Hey, can you two give it a rest already," Em came outside and sat next to us.

Our little bubble had burst. Edward chuckled before he released me and I snuggled next to him in the chair.

"Hey, I talked to your Mom - she said we can take you out for your birthday. Tyler is having a party - what do you say?" he asked Edward.

"Baby, do you want to go? Tyler is good, and he is on the team," he asked me.

"I'm kind of tired, Cupcake." As I looked at Rose I knew that she knew why I didn't want to go.

"Can we do something else?" I asked.

"No - come on Bella, let Edward go, please. It's his birthday," Em begged.

"I'm not Edward's keeper. If he wants to go he can, but I am not going." I crossed my arms over my chest. Em was pissing me off.

"Well, Jasper and I are going. Bella, come on, let's go. Rose, you're going too, right?" Alice asked Rose.

"Sure, whatever Em wants to do but I think Edward should stay if Bella doesn't want to go. I know he will just be moody and a pain in the ass if she is not there with us." She smiled at me.

I knew it was too late. Edward had that look in his eye. He had made up his mind; he wanted to go.

"Do you mind if I go for awhile? I'll call you in a few hours; you can pick me up and we can hang out." He kissed my forehead.

I had to let him go; I couldn't hold him back. I nodded 'yes' and looked over at Rose.

I made a promise to my parents when we moved - I wouldn't go to any house parties. I wouldn't let them down; they trusted me.

I would just have to wait for Edward to call and I would pick him up. I said goodbye to everyone and Edward walked me out.

"I'll call you… promise," he said.

"Just take care of yourself Edward, please, and if you need me call me when you're ready to leave. I love you." I kissed him.

"I love you too, baby." He turned and walked into the house.

I was waiting for Edward to call. He sent me a text at 10 p.m. saying he was having fun and to give him one more hour, which I didn't understand because I wouldn't be able to hang out after eleven.

I'm not sure what time it was when my phone started ringing. I missed the call. When I woke up it was 12:30 am. The phone started again and I answered it.

"Hello?" I said, my voice hoarse from sleep.

"Bella, it's Rose. You need to come pick up Edward," she said, worried.

I shot up in bed, started to pull my clothes on and I didn't even know why.

"What? Why?" I asked.

"He's…drunk and he won't let Em put him in the car, he says he is waiting for you. Bella, I'm sorry." She felt guilty.

I got directions from Rose. I snuck out of my house. I was dead if my parents found out.

The party was still in full swing when I got there. Rose, Em, Jasper and Alice, were waiting on the curb. Edward was leaning on Emmett, mumbling something I couldn't make out.

"What the hell, Emmett?" I was pissed. How come Edward was the only one drunk? Did they get him drunk on purpose?

"Don't worry Bella, Em is already on my shit list." Rose shot a look at him. Emmett shrugged; he didn't know why it was such a big deal. I couldn't deal with this shit and I didn't need this in my life.

Edward heard me and sat up.

"Baby, is that you, my Love?" he slurred. God, he was wasted. I couldn't be mad at him right now. I needed to get him home and I didn't know how I was going to do that without his parents finding out.

"It's me, let's go home Edward." I grabbed his arm to pull him up. He stood but fell back. Em caught him, helped him to my car and got him into the seat.

"Thanks Em, you said you would take care of him… thanks a lot," I snarled at him.

I got into the car and drove off, leaving all of them on the side of the road.

Edward was mumbling again.

"Beeeellllaaa? Pull over please." Great, now he was going to get sick.

"Come sit with me." He reached for me.

He started kissing me and touching me. "I need you, Baby," he whispered.

He pulled at my shirt, his hands roaming over my body. He could not keep his hands to himself.

"I have to get home, Edward. I'm going to get in trouble and so are you if we don't go. Can we talk tomorrow?" I begged. I couldn't do this.

"Talking is not what I had in mind," he whispered into my ear. He started kissing down my neck. I pushed him away.

"No, Edward we can't. I won't. I don't want to do this; plus you are drunk. It is not the time," I told him. I got back into the driver seat.

"Beelllla," he whined.

God!

"What?" I yelled.

"I think I am going to get sick." Edward opened the car door and puked on the side of the road.

I waited until he was done and closed the door. I drove to his house. The lights were on and I'm sure his parents were waiting for him. I thought, 'here goes nothing.'

I knocked on the door and Esme answered.

"Bella?" she questioned.

"I'm sorry, Esme. Edward called me, he's… ummm…drunk," I told her.

Her eyes widened and she called for Carlisle. Now I knew the look my Mom must have had all those times that I came home like this.

"He passed out in the car," I told them.

Carlisle came out and helped to get Edward back in the house.

"Oh, hey, Dad, what are you doing here?" Edward asked his father.

"Let's get inside Edward." His Dad told him.

"No, I want to sleep with Bella," he said. My face blushed, thank God it was dark.

"Well, Bella needs to go home," he told him.

"Okay, night Bella I uv ooh," Edward slurred.

"You should get home Bella. I have him, thank you." Carlisle grabbed Edward and I waited until they were in the house before I left.

I got home and sent a quick text to Rose letting her know we had both made it to our homes.

I didn't wake up until after noon. I was exhausted and still pissed. It took me hours to finally calm down enough to fall asleep. I shouldn't have been too upset with him; it is not like I had never done it before.

I just didn't want him to fall down the same path I did. Then there was the touching. If he had been sober it might have felt nice; but he was drunk and had no idea what he was doing. I wouldn't have sex with him when he was drunk - that is not how I envisioned my first time.

I was so upset with him. He had already sent me ten text messages and called a few times, but I was not ready to talk to him. I needed to go and talk to Emmett first and let him know why I was so upset.

Deciding I needed to get up, I took a shower and drove over to Emmett's house.

I walked up to Emmet's, asking Rose to meet me there; mainly because I was so furious with him I just might have kicked his ass.

"Take it easy on him Bella, his beautiful face belongs to me," she teased me. Em met us at the door.

"Bella?" he questioned, obviously just waking up.

"I've come here to kick your ass and Rose offered to hold you down," I taunted.

"Bella, I said I was sorry," he pleaded, "I didn't know he was such a lightweight," Emmett chuckled. He still didn't understand.

"Em, it destroyed me seeing him like that. My heart broke more than once last night. The first time was seeing him drunk and the second was pulling him off me when he thought he was going to get lucky," I told him.

"Hey, I don't want to hear about that," he said.

"Well you are going to hear a lot more. I want to tell you about my life in Phoenix." I looked at Rose. "Are you going to let me in Em? It might take awhile."

A/N: I just want to make it clear that Bella was not raped. There are a few things Bella does not remember that will be revealed later on.

Thanks to Lady Tazz for pre-reading and crazierthanu for beta'ing this for me and always encouraging me. Thanks to my readers and everyone who reviews, it means a lot to me.