A.N- Hi guys! thanks for all the lovely reviews, i appreciate them so much.
Ehm, i got like 3 flames, 2 from the same person, lol.
so i feel the need to address them, just because the flames have some reasoning behind them.
To the Guest reviewer who pointed out all the cursing, AND my education. I am educated, thanks. But as a writer I have to point out YOUR education, you realize all the cursing comes from only 3 places? Naruto, who always curses in the manga! I was trying to keep him in character. And the other two places are from Sasuke and His thoughts. so, again, trying to keep my characters IN character. I did cut down the cursing in the last chapter, as you had pointed out the cursing in chapter 10 as well, guess you didn't notice. So I once again cut it down some more, I hope it's more enjoyable for you now.
Alright, to the Guest that said "This is real teenagery, i don't like it", well THEY ARE teenagers IN High school. so yes, it is very teenagery! I'm sorry if you don't like it, but I can't magically make them act like 25 year olds when they are only 16.
Alright thats enough of that.
Diclaimer- i do not own NARUTO!
Sakura's p.o.v
The ringing of my alarm clock startled me awake, I nearly fell out of bed. I absolutely hated how sore my eyes were when I opened them. I rushed to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. Sure they felt worse than they actually looked, but they had a very obvious Puffiness to them. Proof I had been crying.
I looked at the watch by my bedside, 6:05 a.m. It was early.
I sighed and grabbed a towel, I was going to shower and hopefully that would melt away last nights tears and the feelings as well.
I had made a promise to myself the night before, he was dead to me. It was obvious he only cared about hurting me, of course it was partially my fault, as I had played a very dangerous game with him for quite some time, I was bound to get hurt, and know what? I deserved it.
This was Sasuke, of course he was bound to hurt me! I was stupid enough to fall for him when all he really did was make out with me and use me for HIS pleasure, albeit, I enjoyed myself too, but I shouldn't have done it, any of it.
'Sakura, you idiot!'
I shouldn't, I wouldn't care about him anymore.
I felt a pang in my chest, I was lying to myself again. I cared for him, so much. But that didn't justify what I had been doing, nor how he had reciprocated.
Using Ino just to show me up!
'What if he does like her?'
The thought made another pang hit my chest, but I steeled myself.
'Let him! There are plenty of fish in the sea! I don't need him.'
I sighed as I stepped out of the shower and wrapped myself in my fluffy pink towel,
I decided to spend the rest of my morning at least trying to look presentable and get rid of the humiliating puffs under my eyes.
I wasn't going to do it anymore, I wasn't going to dress in a way I knew would provoke him. The last thing I wanted today, or ever, was Sasuke trying to come near me. He couldn't have his cake and eat it too! I wasn't about to let him not only hurt me, unbeknownst to him I hoped, and use me at the same time! No way, I might be a slight pushover but I wasn't a puppet!
I finished getting dressed, pulling on some blue Skinny jeans, that weren't too tight, and a green shirt. I smiled, this shirt put me in a good mood always.
Gaara had said he didn't like that it had 4 clip buttons that could easily be pried open by some perverted boys. I proceeded to tell him that no boy so much as looked at me, other than Lee, and that Lee was too sweet to ever do such a thing.
The argument had led up to a huge confrontation that ended in a huge fight...a tickle fight. Cause Gaara hated being tickled, he was especially ticklish on his ribs and I had him subdued within seconds.
I had a smile on my face as I tied my hair in a ponytail and put on small hoops through my ears. I looked at my reflection and I had to admit, I looked a lot better than I felt. The puffiness pretty much gone. And thinking of Gaara put a smile on my face, I looked genuinely happy.
'Just remember, Sasuke is no good! He's just using me and my best friend. He's dead to me'
I nodded stiffly at my own reflection. I wasn't going to let him see how I felt. I was going to take a page out of his book and just be emotionless, as best as I could be, that is.
I looked at my clock, it was 7:15, my shower had been long and I didn't rush to get dressed so I was pretty much on schedule, if not just a tad early.
I heard a knock on my door.
It had to be one of my parents. I opened and it was my father.
"Good morning Daddy" I beamed.
"Good morning Princess" he smiled back. "I'm so glad to see you're looking much better. You have to tell me, what was wrong?" He asked, taking on that notch of parental concern.
I shrugged "It was nothing. It was, I had this huge headache and, um, perhaps also a stomach ache and I was also-"
"Sweetheart, I want the truth not some very bad lie" he raised a brow, walking in and taking a seat on my bed.
"It's just, it's a boy problem daddy" I squirmed uncomfortably, the topic was weird to be talking to my father about.
I could almost laugh at the shock that crossed his features, he looked floored. So I did, I giggled.
"It's not funny young lady! I guess this means, as your father, we have to talk about it, right?" He questioned, unsure.
I laughed again, it was obvious to me that my father was more uncomfortable than I was. And I didn't mind talking to my father about anything. So I decided to give him a very simple but elaborate summary.
"This boy, well he was talking to me like he liked me, and I-i liked him too daddy! But than we had a bit of a misunderstanding and he's going out with Ino" I wailed.
I edited a lot of stuff out, for everyone's safety, Cough *Sasuke* Cough
"Does "This Boy" have a name?" my father raised an annoyed eyebrow.
"yes, but I can't say. Besides it doesn't matter" I shrugged
"Honey, you were crying all night!"
"Yeah, I was being stupid" I shrugged again.
"You are not stupid! I'm proud of you, you know. But never chase a guy, if they make you run after them, they're usually not worth it. And keep in mind, he's with Ino now, she's like your sister, you wouldn't want to ruin that, would you?"My father lectured.
"of course not! Don't worry dad, it was just a crush" I shook my head.
"I'm here if you need me princess. And remember, no chasing guys! No looking at guys until you're thirty!" he laughed. I laughed too.
When he left my room I was in high spirits 'No chasing guys'.
I called Hinata and she was already on her way.
I rushed downstairs, grabbing my bag, kissed my mother and father goodbye.
My mother looked relieved when she saw me smiling "Told you I could handle this one" my father stated smugly.
I rolled my eyes and ran out of my house where Hinata was already waiting.
"Morning, Hina" I greeted.
"Good morning to you too, Sakura" She smiled at me.
"Where's Ino?" I asked.
"she's not coming with us today" Hinata fidgeted uncomfortably.
The way she said it, I knew what she meant.
"Riding with Sasuke" I stated, not wanting to let it show how much it bothered me, I couldn't pretend that it didn't.
"About yesterday, do you want to talk about it?" Hinata asked cautiously.
"I'm sorry. I was being stupid and crying, it was humiliating. When did I even care about boys? School is school! I have to concentrate on that" I smiled at Hinata "I'm fine" I assured.
She gave me a wary look, but I had questions of my own.
"You have to tell me what is up with you and Naruto! Is all forgiven?" I pried.
"Sak, It was forgiven right away. But if you mean, are we friends? No. I already told him I can't" Hinata sighed.
"Ugh! C'mon! It's obvious he really likes you! Why can't you give him a chance?!" I groaned frustrated.
"Sakura, what he did was terrible!"
"I know! But he apologized like a million times"
"And I forgave him" she pointed out huffily.
"No you haven't! If you had, you would give him a chance" I crossed my arms, Hinata was being unreasonable.
"Sakura, if Sasuke, by some miracle, apologized to you for everything, what would you do?"
Her question stumped me, what would I do?
"Sasuke and Naruto aren't the same person. Besides, the situations are different" I weakly retorted.
"Right, different, because I didn't know about Naruto and Kiba's game, so I didn't play along" Hinata shot back.
Her words were like a slap to the face. I knew it was my fault, what happened with Sasuke, however, to have it shoved down my throat so bluntly.
I gave Hinata a look. She instantly looked apologetic.
"I'm sorry Sakura, I didn't mean to-
"It's Ok, you're right. You were the one wronged in that situation, I chose what was coming, I could have told him to stop"
"Can we not talk about Naruto, or Sasuke, ever?" She asked.
"I don't know about ever, but let's try to make it through the day" I laughed.
She laughed and held out her pinky "Promise?"
"Promise" I gave her my pinky.
We laughed to school, it looked like a pretty promising morning. Especially when about, halfway to the school a car honked next to us.
I was a bit frightened, but I instantly recognized Gaara's red automobile.
"Gaara!" I beamed, as me and Hinata made our way to him.
"Morning, get in" he ordered.
"Good morning to you, Gaara" Me and Hinata chanted.
I was real thankful we were with Gaara, because just as we pulled up into the school parking lot, two cars appeared on either side of him. I recognized those two cars.
'Breath, Haruno, Breath'
"Hm, Uzumaki and Uchiha" Gaara stated, letting us out of the car.
I scrambled out, wanting to reach the door of the school before I even caught a glance of Sasuke.
But I couldn't, because I had forgotten about what Hinata told me that morning.
I was caught of guard by a blonde head poking out of Sasuke's open car door, and gracefully stepping out.
My jaw almost dropped, Ino.
I steeled myself and pretended nothing was wrong. Doors were opening from each car.
Ino, Sasuke and Naruto were practically surrounding Gaara's car.
"My friends!" Ino beamed rushing to me, Gaara and Hinata, throwing her arms around us.
"Ino, this is new." Gaara said sternly, I understood his underlying meaning, he was going to have a talk with her.
"Good morning" I smiled, trying my best to remember that this was my best friend, not some boyfriend stealing two faced-
'He was never your boyfriend! And I'm the two face, at least she told me she liked him. I can't blame her for going after him, and I can't blame her for him saying yes. Best friend, best friend' I inwardly reprimanded and chanted to myself.
It was when Ino let go that a panic started to seize me.
'I can't do it. I can't face him. I can't be brave. I can't pretend he doesn't exist. I can't pretend it doesn't hurt.'
I felt like I couldn't breath, I was acutely aware of his presence. I was going to turn to him, face him and plead that he listened to me and the way I felt.
'Don't chase a boy! If he makes you run after him, he's usually not worth it'
my father's words echoed loudly in my mind.
With that I found new resolve, I couldn't control the uncomfortable twisting and knotting in my stomach that promised to make me nauseous, but I could control myself, and my actions.
"I'll see you later Ino, I want to start heading over to class. I'm going to pester Kakashi into helping me with last nights Geometry homework" I giggled, trying my best not to force the smile on my face.
"Hold on, I'm coming" Hinata said, I could easily pick up the hint of panic in her voice, Naruto was standing in front her, really close in front of her. She quickly twisted away and came to my side.
I boldly walked to Naruto, who was next to Sasuke, and I threw my arms around him "Thanks for saying good morning to me, Jerk" I teased.
He wrapped his arms around me "Sorry, You know how one track minded I am, you could easily guess where my head was at when I stepped out of my car"
"Hinata?" I silently questioned.
"You know me so well" he chuckled.
"Keep trying knuckle head" I laughed, pulling away from him.
"I always do" he winked conspiratorially.
"See you in class, " he yelled as I began walking away, I gave him and Ino a parting wave, looped my arm around Gaara and Hinata and dragged them away.
I was in an extremely good mood. Perhaps because,
I was happy with Ino, she was my best friend after all and I had convinced myself that she was not at fault at all for whatever went on between me and her new jerk boyfriend.
Gaara, who had been absent the day before, I had missed him, I was happy to have him here.
I was glad to speak to Naruto, and hug him as a silent show of gratitude for yesterday.
A NaruHina future was looking bright, as Naruto wasn't going to give up, like always.
All these things made me happy, but I was almost sure it was the fact tha I had felt Sasuke's eyes on me from the very moment I stepped out of Gaara's car. And I hadn't looked at him, not once.
I smiled and made my way to Kakashi's class, dragging Hinata and Gaara with me.
'This might work. There are so much worse things going on in the world than some petty boy problems, I'm grateful for my life'
I sat in my normal seat, between Hinata and Gaara.
I wanted to talk to Hinata about Naruto, but I remembered our promise to not mention either boy for some time. They were our taboo, and meanwhile I really hoped that Hinata and Naruto worked out, I had to respect her wishes.
So instead I took out last nights Geometry homework, I lied to Ino, I knew exactly how to do it, I was just going to go over my answers.
A screech next to me shook me, I saw Gaara stand from his chair with a package in his hand.
That was odd, he walked over to Kakashi, handed him the package and they began discussing heatedly.
'whats going on there' my curious, Not nosy, nature was piqued.
I stared at them as they discussed. Gaara quickly turned and when he came over he raised an eyebrow a me, I raised another back. I wasn't trying to hide the fact that I had paid very close attention.
He sat down. "What was going on there, huh Sabaku?" I questioned.
He rolled his eyes "Nothing that concerns you, Haruno"
"Oh, well! Regardless I want to know" I whined.
"I heard you and my cousin were getting real close, explain that. Than I'll answer all your questions before you can come up with any conspiracy theories" He chuckled.
I felt the blush coming on to my face "I do NOT come up with conspiracy theories!" I hissed.
"Oh? So what about the lunch ladies poisoning us? You wouldn't touch cafeteria food unless I ate from it first"
I glared at him.
"Or the time that your 'neighbors watched you from their windows', when in fact you watched them, than stated you saw them looking up at you? I might point out that they were probably frightened of the creepy little pink haired girl next door spying on them every night."
"Hey!" I protested "They stared into my windows!"
"Because you looked into theirs first, you little creep!" Gaara chuckled. "Oh, and my personal favorite" He began laughing quietly.
I groaned, I knew where he was going with this one.
"The new red haired student in your class in junior high, do you remember him?" He asked.
"Unfortunately!" I glared at Gaara.
"And his two siblings, sent straight from Suna just to collect you and take you back to their home" He really had a tough time holding back his chuckles now.
"Shut up!" I pouted.
"I knew you were following me, you know?" he pointed out.
"Laughing is VERY Not Gaara" I reprimanded him.
I couldn't hold it and began laughing myself, I had met him under very embarrassing circumstances. He had found me behind the school fence, spying on him as he waited for his siblings. I still remembered the words he had spoken "I can see you" My blood had run cold, I had been frozen on the spot.
Back than, I had a very miniscule crush on him, which is probably why I followed him around under the pretense that he was watching me. That had developed into the best friendship.
I reached out and shoved him, barely able to budge him.
"Yes, me and Sasori are friends, he reminds me a lot of you" I said.
"Oh? How so?"
"Well, you two talk the same. You look alike. Good thing too, because you're barely here!" I hissed. Gaara shrugged.
"Tell me, what were you and Kakashi talking about?" I whispered.
"Some missing homework, I just handed it in to him"
I nodded and continued talking to Gaara, Hinata easily jumped into the conversation and they both took turns making fun of me over my old antics, I didn't appreciate that very much, but laughed with them because I was really an odd little girl.
"Oh, the one about Kakashi's mask was a good one" Hinata laughed.
That startled me, how did she know about that one? I was like 4 and I wasn't alone in that little mission, I was with Naruto and Sasuke. Of course, Naruto probably told her.
I forced a light laugh.
We were animatedly talking when the door swung open again. I didn't look at the door, I ignored it and continued talking with Hinata and Gaara, they didn't turn either.
It wasn't until they sat across from us that I noticed who it was, but I knew before that, Naruto, Ino and Sasuke. I tried to ignore the pang of betrayal as Ino walked past her old desk and went to sit with Naruto and Sasuke.
I was so intent on pretending not to see them, that I almost failed to notice the strained look on Hinata's face.
'whats wrong with her?'
I raised a brow at her, and she silently shook her head. I widened my eyes back at her and she shrugged dismissively. I tilted my head to the side and gave her a disbelieving face, she let out a frustrated sigh and slowly tilted her head to the direction of where the 'unmentionables' sat.
our silent conversation didn't go unnoticed by Gaara but he said nothing of it, he just unsubtly turned to where Naruto sat, curled a lip in disgust and turned back to face Hinata. He shot her a look and she shrugged again, her cheeks lightly turning pink.
I had to see!
I slowly turned my head, trying to seem casual and looked at what had Hinata so silently agitated.
Naruto was sitting next to Ami. Really, Ami was practically on his lap.
'Ugh, Ew.'
Than I smiled, was this bothering Hinata? Was she jealous?!
I turned to her and gave her a knowing smirk, she quickly turned away and I silently laughed.
When the bell rang I was once again smiling, Gaara and Hinata had been pretty chatty all period and it wasn't hard to be consumed by the conversation, to ignore everything else. To ignore him.
"He looked at you all period" Hinata whispered silently.
"Ah, we are not talking about them" I reminded.
"Right!" she nodded. My smile tipped her that I was happy with the information she shared.
However, I had to keep in mind what my father said, my promise to myself. The tears of last night would not be in vain, I would forget him, it was for the best.
It continued like this for the rest of the week. I was beginning to be very good at pretending he didn't exist. But that was all it was, pretending, because every second of every minute he was around I was completely consumed by him, it took all my will power not to look over at him. And I had to pat myself in the back, I was doing a good job.
Especially when he and Ino seemed to be having a wonderful time, whenever I dared peek a look at them she was smiling and he was looking back at her. I tried my best to hide how much it really bothered me. I concentrated so well in school, my parents were proud as my most recent tests came back with perfect marks.
Gaara was acting more and more strange, he was missing quite a bit of school, it made me nervous. However, none of the teachers told him anything, it was as if it was normal!
"You know Gaara, you can't keep missing school to go see your girl friend in Suna" I had teased.
He rolled his eyes at me but had the decency to blush non the less "I'll have to meet her at some point" I warned.
During the whole week, art class had been the hardest, Sasori had been missing school too. So when Sasuke passed, quite frequently, to Deidara to talk about something or another, it was real hard to ignore the way his eyes would stay on me. It made me uncomfortable, especially when Sasori wasn't around. I would stiffen, I could feel the explosion of heat as it painfully made it's way up to my face.
'Aren't things for him and Ino just dandy! Stop looking at me!' I would yell in my head.
Other than that, things were super.
I wanted to pat Hinata in the back too, almost as much as I wanted to smack her. Naruto had quit grovelling, he was now just taking action, like was his usual way of life. He would greet me everyday with a "Good morning" and a hug, but with Hinata every morning he would Kiss her cheek, even when she tried to avoid him , and than just walk away, without a word to her. He just quit talking, it was like he was forcing his presence on her.
"He can't keep doing this!" Hinata said, uncharacteristically loud, as Naruto was approaching us.
"Hinata, it's been over a month! Talk to him" I pleaded.
She turned to me and frowned "No"
"Ok, now you're just being stubborn, princess!" I hissed.
"I am not! I'm choosing my morals and dignity over a boy, that's what I'm doing"
"Hinata! You realize Naruto has officially destroyed his 'Player' reputation, because everyone sees him chasing after you! And he doesn't try to hide it!"
she nibbled on her lip, Naruto was closer.
"I'm going to homeroom now, later Sak" she quickly turned and sped of, still having that graceful glide in her step even as she scurried off..
"She left" Naruto pouted when he reached me.
"She ran" I corrected with a smile. He hugged me "Morning" he muttered.
"Running, eh? This is going to be fun" he smirked pulling away.
"I think she's beginning to break, go get her" I teased.
He winked and began to walk in the direction Hinata had just ran of in.
I smiled and decided to wait a bit to give them some privacy before I went into the school.
I looked at the wrist watch on my hand, hoped a five minute head start was good and began to walk.
I let out a high pitch yelp when I felt a cold hand on my wrist. I was quickly being turned around, I slammed into someone hard and stumbled back a bit, I probably would have fallen if not for the grip on my wrist.
"Hey!" I protested, trying to yank my hand away. I looked up at my attacker and was met with a pair of onyx eyes.
'This isn't good'
I started feeling panic as it completely overtook me, and I mean, I felt it start from my toes and slowly make it's way upward, the panic spread in my stomach and proceeded to uncomfortably twist around my insides.
I yanked at my wrist again and the feeling spread some more as I realized he wasn't letting go. I distanced myself as much as my arm would let me with him holding on to my wrist.
I guess he didn't like that, because he quickly yanked me back and I once again slammed against his chest.
I glared up at him "What?" I finally asked breaking the silence.
He didn't respond, he pinned my wrists to my back and brought me closer to him. This wasn't right. My body was tightly pressed against his, I tried my best to ignore the emotions that came along with having him so close.
"What are you doing?" I tried to sound brave, hating the shake in my voice as I spoke.
He was still ignoring me, but his eyes bore into mine as he brought his face closer. My eyes widened, was he insane?! I quickly twisted my face away before he could do what I was positive he was about to do.
He let out a frustrated sigh and I felt his hot breath as it warmed the skin of my cheek.
"Let me" he murmured, his chest rumbling with his words. I shook my head no.
he pressed his forehead to my temple, his nose was uncomfortably grazing my cheek.
"Why not?" he moved his head down "I want to" his lips were moving against the skin of my neck. I let out a whimper.
"Because I don't want to" I wanted it to come out strong, not like a plea.
"But I do" he said it like It was final. His lips started moving against my neck, slowly going down to my collar bone, leaving behind a trail of fire.
"But I don't" I protested, trying to pull away from his lips, it didn't seem to matter, not only was he holding my wrists behind my back, but whenever I managed to make a gap between us, he quickly followed, his lips kissing whatever part of my skin they found.
I was panting quickly, tired from my efforts of trying and failing to keep away from him. He had pressed me against the side of the school, how he managed to get me ther, I didn't even notice!
All I knew was that my hands were in pain, being pressed in between the brick wall and my back, still in his grip.
Sasuke continued to kiss down the side of my neck. He made his way lower to the crook, his nose nuzzled into me and he took a deep breath.
'is he smelling me?'
I couldn't confirm my answer as his lips continued their decent. He finally let go of one of my wrists, and put his free hand on my hip.
"This is enough! Let me go!" I growled angry, who the hell did he think he was!
He ignored me, his hand traveled up my side and to my shoulder, he pulled my shirt down and I yelped, as the material sagged down revealing my skin.
His lips worked their way down my neck and to my shoulder, where he bit down on the bare flesh.
"I said stop!" I hissed, pushing him away with my now free hand. It didn't budge him, but it did make him glare up at me.
"And now you speak up? We were doing this all last week and the week before" He hissed.
I continued to glare at him. "What changed now?" he raised a brow.
I looked at him and shook my head "What changed now?! You have a girlfriend now! My best friend is your girlfriend!" I replied, proud that my voice didn't waver. It was probably the anger that gave me a false bravery.
"Hn, don't be so sickeningly self righteous" he scoffed "Those other times, didn't your friend like me then too?"
I nodded, he was right. I voiced my thoughts "Those were mistakes too. I should have said something instead of letting you do as you pleased. But not anymore, whatever it was, it's over"
"over? It was nothing to begin with. But who are you, to tell me what to do?" he ground his teeth.
This was the most I had heard Sasuke talk in over 10 years, how odd that it would be over something like this.
"No one, I'm not telling you what to do. I'm telling Me what to do, and I don't want to do this anymore" I shot back. I was starting to get a weird churning feeling in my stomach.
He raised an eyebrow at me and pulled away, he ran a hand through his hair. I knew the gesture, he was angry.
"You realize that this is stupid, don't you" he said calmly, he tilted his head to the side, peering into my eyes. Something about his words made me shrink back.
"I don't know what you mean. Now if I can just pass, I'll be on my way" I said, my voice much lower this time around. I tried to walk around him.
His arm shot out and wound around my waist, this time when he pulled me around, my back was pressed against his chest. Something about not being able to see his face put me on edge, it made me scared.
He began walking forward, and my hands quickly shot out, my palms pressed against the bricks of the wall, making space so my face wouldn't touch them.
I shivered as he pressed his body against my back, his hands overlapped mine, pressing them harder against the bricks. I cringed.
"What I mean" he whispered, his lips on the nape of my neck.
"That I'll do what I want. So it's stupid to try and tell me to stay away. Because If I want I'll stay away, and if I don't want to, I wont"
His words sent chills down my spine. He had absolutely no right!
"You're unbelievable" I breathed.
"And you're annoying" he said, pulling his hands away from mine and running his fingertips back up my arms, and down my sides until he reached my waist and pulled me closer against his back.
I didn't know what to make of what he said, I wanted to step on every stupid butterfly in my stomach.
I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and collected myself. I turned to face him.
"You can't do that! I don't want this! It's a form of harassment you know!" I pushed my back against the bricks, putting as much distance between us as possible.
He glared down at me. I was going to end this here, now!
"You shouldn't have started something you couldn't end" he crossed his arms over his chest.
"I can, and it ends here! You realize that we don't talk?! We do not talk!" I repeated it to emphasize my point.
"This is the most we have talked in years, We don't even know each other anymore! You can't even remember me from when we did know each other! I know why I liked you! Why do you like me, Sasuke? Why wont you leave me alone? Why do you want me?" I hurled all the accusations I could think of at him.
He stared at me Impassively until I finished talking, than he sneered.
"Who says I want you? Who says I like you? I never said I did." His words made an ache worse than any other spread through me.
"You were always willing, Sakura" he shrugged, than glared at me again "We don't talk because I don't want to talk to you, why would I? You know how I remember you? you're the girl who came up to me and said 'be my friend again' acting like we were kids again, you're the girl who wouldn't leave me alone" he scoffed.
"Amusing, you were amusing, you still are" he smirked.
My face crumpled, I could feel it. But I pushed it all aside. I looked up at him and gave him an understanding nod "Well lucky you, now you have a girlfriend to amuse you, so go bother her. And don't worry, I'll leave you alone now, return the favor" I tried to keep my voice normal.
He took a step closer to me, not giving me enough space to walk.
"Excuse me" I said through clenched teeth, how dare he come closer to me after what he said. I put my hands up in front of my chest, making a barrier between us.
He came closer still, my hands now touching his chest. I looked up and met his eyes, they bore through mine, I quickly looked away the intensity too much.
'I can't get away from him, he wont leave me alone' I thought panicked.
'He's dead to me' I chanted to myself.
I tried to shove him away, he stumbled just a bit, but it was enough.
"I wont be late for class" I quickly said, pushing through him before he could say or do anything else.
I tried to control the tears, I clenched my fists together and took a deep breath.
'Later, Sakura, you'll cry later. Now get to class' I inwardly told myself and rushed to homeroom before it was really late.
Sasuke's p.o.v
I kicked the wall of the school in frustration. 'She left, coward'
I had been high strung for a week. I couldn't handle it anymore. Half the time I wanted to shake her, to crush every bone in her,much too alluring, body. The next I wanted to be able to hold her with out restraint, to kiss her in front of everyone, to have her the way I wanted. To do what I did to her in those very inappropriate dreams, where it was all skin, and sweat and sweet, raw pleasure, with her.
She was right, we didn't talk, but what the fuck did that have to do with anything? I wanted her because I desired her. That was it, I liked her because she didn't speak when I kissed her and touched her, she stayed silent and reciprocated, it was a secret cause neither of us talked about it, it just was. Why couldn't she just do that again?
'It's because of Ino' I glared at the wall in front of me as if it was to blame.
It seemed like a really good idea, it did. She wanted to play her little game and I would beat her at it. I didn't blame myself that Sakura had gotten more emotionally invested in it than I thought, it wasn't my fault. However, I hadn't been able to control myself either, when I saw her getting cozy with Sasori, it pissed me off on so many levels. I wanted to hurt her, I wanted to take the smile right off her pretty face.
'So maybe she wasn't the only one emotionally invested'
I ignored the thought and took a cigarette from the inside of my pocket. I easily lit it up and took a long drag.
FLASHBACK
Her eyes, it was all in her expressive emerald eyes. I was impressed, if she was angry she hid it well. However the seemed to glaze over, was she going to cry?
'That's what happens when you play against an Uchiha' I smirked, as her friend continued to kiss me.
As soon as Sakura was out of sight, I pulled away.
Her friend began to talk animatedly about something or another that I really could care less about.
And than I felt something. Something weird in my stomach, it churned almost making me nauseous.
'It's probably because I let this cheerleader kiss me. What if she has some STD, like herpes? Fuck' I inwardly groaned, she was not hard to get, Naruto had said as much when he talked to me about her.
I hadn't seen Naruto all through the rest of lunch and was pissed that he made me endure Ino by myself.
I made my way to art, content with soon being able to see Sakura's face. She was probably pissed. I had won, after all. Maybe now she would stop dressing to provoke and stop letting a million boys hang around her.
While I thought about her, my stomach again reacted, making my hands tingle.
'What the-'
I was deep in thought, when I saw a flash of pink. I looked up at the door, smirking, ready to see the anger in her face.
She didn't walk in alone, she walked in with that Akatsuki idiot.
'Does she know how dangerous he is?'
I looked at her intently as she made her way to their desk. I felt an anger inside of me like no other, so she was still playing?
I turned to look at her, and she was smiling with him 'What the fuck is wrong with her? Does she just let any guy talk her up?'
I clenched my teeth, what the hell did I care? It wasn't my problem.
I saw her outside of school, her friend Ino expected me to drop her off. So I stuck around for as long as Haruno did, rooting myself to my spot when I saw her go into Sasori's car.
'Bitch'
Naruto came out next. He didn't talk to me. I knew why, he was pissed because in his stupid head he had made up some shit of me liking Sakura.
"She doesn't care" I growled, as he continued to ignore me, searching his pockets for his keys.
"What?" he asked, glaring up at me.
"You're being quiet, moron. You're pissed because you think Sakura cares about me and that I'm with Ino" I rolled my eyes, it was obvious.
"Sasuke, shut up, I don't care. And you're right, neither does she" he hissed getting into his car.
"How would you know?" I raised a brow.
"Because I'm her friend. I thought she would care, but, Surprisingly, you know her better than me, because She didn't give a shit. In fact She's happy because her best friend, Ino, has you. And Ino always liked you" Naruto chuckled and slammed his door.
"You should have seen her. She was ecstatic" and he drove off.
His words did something to me, they pissed me off. They made me angry, they made me sick! I never disliked anyone more than Sakura Haruno.
She was annoying, she was apparently with any guy that so much as looked at her.
'Stupid, Fucking, Bitch!'
END FLASH BACK.
Than started the most aggravating, week of my life.
A little over two months, it took Sakura Haruno just over two months to wrap me around her tiny little finger.
And she wants to end it? She expects me to just go away?
After she wouldn't leave me alone?
I never wanted anything more in my life. I wanted her, all of her.
Her soft pink hair, her emerald eyes, that look of desperation on her face as she tried to get away, I wanted it all. I didn't get tired of feeling her body pressed against mine, the tingling in the palms of my hands as I held her, the taste of her delicate soft flesh against my lips.
This week had left me like a drug addict suffering from withdrawal. I couldn't take it. I needed her, so I had a taste of her this morning. And just like a drug addict, I wanted more.
I took a last drag from my cigarette.
I liked her, I lusted her, I wanted her. But I wasn't going to let her know that, she couldn't know how much power she had over me.
I had two options, Get her or Get over her.
I threw my wasted cigarette on the floor and stepped on the remains.
No one could have so much power over me, and I wasn't about to let it progress to anything more.
'Screw it'
I walked into school, late for homeroom but not really caring.
Hi guys! please let me know what you thought! yes, Sasuke's decision is still unknown. I think this fanfic has maybe 3-5 chapters left.
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