Predictable, but hey. What can I do? It was the first thing that popped up.

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Love

Ugh, God. Love.

What is it, really? It's gross. It's all smooches and calling each other babe and crying at The Notebook and coupling up to the point where you don't do anything without each other - which is fucking annoying.

Love is sappiness and having the wool pulled over your eyes. Love is delusion.

Love, is a word. And Dean hates it.

It's a stupid word. It doesn't mean anything. He could tell Cas he loves him, but what would that mean really? By conventional methods I find that I feel things for you and therefore am prepared to make sweet ridiculous love to you and adopt a rescue-dog together and give you a key to my seventh story walk-up. Congratulations. You win.

Right, cause Dean's that kind of guy.

So if love has stupid connotations and they don't feel right, or enough, then what is he supposed to say? Because he's starting to feel like he's at that point. He is at that point. Something needs to be said, it's an inherent need. A step in this stupid dance called relationships. But he doesn't want it to be false. Because Cas is the realest thing he's had. And because he does, for lack of a better word, love him. But how can he finally say it, say everything, and make it ring true? How can you put words on this feeling that he knows people use that four-letter nightmare of a word for?

In the end he just kisses him, nervously but fiercely, and lays him out on the bed and makes it as good as he can. As special and perfect as he knows how - which feels nerve-wrackingly lovey-dovey enough. And after, when their breathing is evening out and they're pressed close and the need to finally just friggin' say it is hanging between them and he knows Cas can't see his face, he tells him, because there is no other word, that he loves him.

And Cas is silent and motionless for a long moment, before he tells Dean that he loves him as well, but didn't know how to say it.

And how stupid is that? Because now that they've said it, it feels like a no-brainer. It really does make you stupid - that's love.